Appt didnt go well, I'll be leaving....m/c ment
It sucks to have to write this and it seems really unfair. On the u/s today all we saw was a sac measuring 5wks or so and a yolk sac but no fetal pole or anything. I should have been atleast 8 wks, I tested positive 4 wks ago and we haven't had sex in that long as well. So it's over. My MW says things don't look good but there's always the possibilty that a miracle will happen but I'm sure it won't. There's just no way. I have to go back in a week for a repeat u/s and she hopes there will be growth but I'm sure it's just a b/o or whatever. I wish it had happened sooner if it wasn't going to work but I can't control that. My MW wants me to let things happen naturally b/c thats less trauma to my body but I really just want to move forward. We will start trying again as soon as possible and Ill go back in clomid after my next period. Ugh I'm more pissed than anything really. I prepared myself for this but really thought I would have an easier time than this after my loss in April. I know The Lord has a plan and I'm really trying to trust in that.