So DH is starting to freak out about things. I'm trying to give him the benefit of the doubt, because I know he's really stressed out right now. He's in grad school full time and still working full time as well. He has one class that he's really struggling with right now so I think that's really dragging him down. But it seems like it started last week when I told him the news that our insurance won't be covering all the u/s my MW plans to have done to help prevent another preterm baby.
When the other two kids are going crazy here at home, he'll ask, how are we going to do this with a baby added into the mix too? And I know he's worried about finances. About the time that I will be returning to work after baby is born, is when he'll need to take an educational leave from work for his schooling. Plus, the plan was for me to cut down one more day per pay period after baby is born. He also started looking at prices of childcare to have a baby to pay for now too so that is stressing him out more.
I want to be there for him and don't want to be naive about things, but the only thing that my MW can come up with as possible reason for DD's preterm birth, is stress. And I think it's very possible, I really tend to internalize stress and may appear calm on the outside, but I'm a mess on the inside!! So I don't want to think about these things, because I will worry and I will stress about them!!
Agghh! Just frustrated and needed to vent!