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    4-2-03

    Well, I'm scared just sitting here writing this.

    I'm somewhere between 2-3 weeks pregnant. Came off of the patch Feb. 28th, had AF March 4th and am now pregnant. I know this sounds crazy, but I started taking FRE test 4 days after my AF started. What was I thinking, there's no way I could have been prego at that time. I'm estimating I ovulated the 17th or 18 of March. I got my first BFP on Sunday afternoon and just ran out of the bathroom screaming "It's positive!" to husband. He just hugged me and I cried. I couldn't believe it was actually +. I waited 2 hours and took another one, just to make sure. Again, positive. I've felt nausia the past 2 nights after eating dinner. I felt better after laying down for awhile. I have also had hot flashed-didn't know that was a sign of prego.

    I made an appointment with an ob (Dr. Perales) for tomorrow at 9 am. Yesterday I had one of our nurses draw my blood, just to be sure and to check my hcg levels. I also had my pcp draw my blood today, again to check the hcg levels. That way I would have 2 test to compare. My hcg's yesterday were 121, today they were either 136 or 138. So, they are definitely going up.

    I'm really scared, but am going to take it one day at a time. Back in '96 I had a m/c. I found out I was preggo, started spotting, went to the doc for an ultra sound. Found that I had one blighted ovum and a healthy sac with a good heart beat. He put me on bedrest. After a week or two I felt things were different. Went to the ER, they did another ultrasound, no heartbeat. I was sent home, where I passed a lot of blood and clots. Went back to the hospital for a D & C.

    In '01 found out I was prego again, started spotting the same day I got a BFP. Went to ob's had blood drawn, hcg was up in the 800's. But then 2 days later it had dropped to the 100's. So, I knew what was happening. This was termed a chemical pregnancy.

    So, needless to say, I'm VERY scared, but want to be happy at the same time. I would've had my AF yesterday, if I weren't prego..no spotting so far. Trying to keep hopes high here.

    TaTa for now!

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    4-3-03

    Well, saw the ob this morning...I'm officially 4 weeks and 2 days pregnant. She told me to start taking a baby asperin a day and changed my prenatal vitamins. She's having a whole lot more blood drawn, yipee another stick! I had what she called a foamy discharge, so she took a culture. She said that everyone has bacteria "down there" but when you're pregnant sometimes it can get out of hand. She's having my progesterone & hcg levels drawn again. She said that with the progesterone we should be able to tell if we have a healthy fetus or not. I'm scared, but will feel better when this test comes back.

    My official due date is Dec. 9th. I think we're going to tell my 10 year old daughter this weekend. I was trying to come up with some creative ways of telling her...but no luck so far.

    TaTa for now!

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    4-3-03

    Well, saw the ob this morning...I'm officially 4 weeks and 2 days pregnant. She told me to start taking a baby asperin a day and changed my prenatal vitamins. She's having a whole lot more blood drawn, yipee another stick! I had what she called a foamy discharge, so she took a culture. She said that everyone has bacteria "down there" but when you're pregnant sometimes it can get out of hand. She's having my progesterone & hcg levels drawn again. She said that with the progesterone we should be able to tell if we have a healthy fetus or not. I'm scared, but will feel better when this test comes back.

    My official due date is Dec. 9th. I think we're going to tell my 10 year old daughter this weekend. I was trying to come up with some creative ways of telling her...but no luck so far.

    TaTa for now!

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    4-18-03

    I am sooo sorry for taking so long to write in our journal. Everything is very hectic right now. Not only am I a working mother to a 10 year old daughter, but I attend college 3 nights a week and finals are only 2 weeks away! Needless to say, I feel like I'm ready to pull my hair out.

    The past two weeks have been very scary for us...but hopefully everything's on track now. My progesterone started dropping and I was put on progesterone suppositories. First it was 1/2 of a 100mg twice a day. Then the 2nd day I got a frantic call from my doctor telling me that my progesterone was still dropping and to up it to 1 suppository 3 times a day for a total of 300 mgs. Well, I had my blood drawn last friday and my progesterone had gone from 12 to 32! My hcg had gone from 300 and something to 800 and something! So evertying started moving like normal. She said I didn't have to have my blood drawn everyother day anymore, just once a week.

    I had it drawn yesterday. But evidently my doctor's office "forgot" to tell me that they were closed today and I won't get my results until monday. But I feel like everything is going to be just fine.

    I hate my doctor's office's staff!! They have messed things up so much! They've lost my blood work results twice, delaying my being put on progesterone and the increase of the progesterone. I had BCBS of TN as my primary insurance and Aetna as my secondary insurance. In Tennessee BCBS stopped accepting HCA hospitals at the first of the year. Therfore, I couldn't have my baby at the hospital I work at, couldn't have blood work or any other test done. Talk about an inconvenience!! I have to leave the hospital that I work at and drive across town for everything!! To make matters worse, the ob's office was wanting over $800.00 for the delivery and I was going to have to pay it in the next 3 months!! I tried telling them that my aetna insurance would pick up my $500.00 deductible and 20% co-insurance...but they wouldn't listen to me. All they kept saying was if they did, they would reimburse me!! Ok....how many people in this day and age have almost a $1000.00 sitting around for some doctors office to "hold" for you?!?! Seeing how I have been in the insurance/medical field for the past 7 years and know my aetna policy inside and out you would think I would know what I'm talking about!! They also didn't tell me where to "insert" the progesterone suppositories. I've had no experience with any type of suppositories before and just assumed everything was rectum. Not so! It's a wonder I didn't eat the darn things! So anyone reading this feel free to laugh! They didn't tell me that I needed to lay down for 10-20 minutes afterward to allow the medicine to absorb. They didn't tell me about any of the side affects of the suppositories....I feel left out in the dark.

    So, I said screw it! I dropped the BCBS of TN policy...now they aren't getting a dime! The more I thought about it, the more it seemed silly to still carry the BCBS when it had a deductible and co-insurance, even though I knew aetna would pick it up. It was just an inconvenience. Now I can go to my hospital for everything and aetna pays at 100% on everything, no deductible and only a $10.00 co-pay for my first ob appointment. My husband works for UPS and their insurance is great!

    My boobs hurt me REALLY bad yesterday...but are better today. I'm bloated really bad. I'm really tired and falling asleep really easy. I had to go and buy some new scrubs for work today. I just read on the net yesterday that the side effects of progesterone are sore boobs and bloating....ok so this is also the side effect of being pregnant so I have it doubly hard!

    I'm not really nausious anymore...hopefully I will skip morning sickness this time.

    I am 6 weeks 3 days...well almost 4, it's almost midnight.

    TaTa For Now

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    Well it's been another week full of drama. I'm beginning to think I'm going crazy!

    I had more blood drawn Thursday the 17th to check my progesterone. I called the dr's office on Friday the 18th to find out they were closed! Great now if my progesterone had dropped any it would have to wait until Monday before my dose could be adjusted. Called back Monday was told that they didn't have my result yets. Looked up LabCor's phone number on the net & called them. They assured me that the results were faxed last Friday & they went ahead and faxed them again. Called the dr's office back and was told that the dr & her nurse were out of the office until NEXT Monday the 28th!!! Talk about being mad!! I asked them about my progesterone prescription (because I only had enough to get me through until yesterday (the 23rd) and was told that there was nothing they could do about it!! I started crying and told them that I was really ticked off and wanted my medical records that this was life and death and was unacceptable. They told me to call back the 28th and it would take 7-10 days to get my records!!

    I called LabCor back and explained my situation and asked if there was any way for them to fax my results to me. She faxed me a form to fill out and sign, I faxed it back and she faxed my results. My progesterone had dropped by 11 points!! I was panicked!

    I didn't know what to do but cry. So, I walked over to the next building to my pcp's (whom is also a part of the dr's group I work for). She called another ob's office, they called me in a prescription for progesterone but said that that was all they could do as they were booked for the day. My pcp suggested I go to the ER and try to get an ultrasound done and some more blood work.

    Went to the ER (was in and out in 2 1/2 hrs!). They did blood work and my HCG was 6,285. They did an ultrasound and could see a heartbeat at 110 ( a little low but said not to worry). They also found a small subchorionic hemorrhage and put me on bed rest until I could follow up with a doctor on Wednesday.

    Called the dr they told me to and made an apt. Took off time from work and school. Went to appointment yesterday with dear husband. They told me that they didn't think it was anything to worry about. That sometimes early in pregnancy the baby will dig deeper (implant) and it can cause a small hemorrhage (bleed) area. Took me off the baby aspirin since it is a blood thinner. Gave me a bunch of free prenatal vitamins, magazines and a book. Took more blood. I have another ultrasound scheduled in 2 1/2 more weeks to follow up on the hemorrhage and then another dr's visit in 3 weeks.

    I really liked this dr's office...big difference than the other one. When I told them what had happened they said that was unaceptable. I don't see how the other dr keeps patients!

    I am now 7 weeks 2 days!!

    TaTa for now!

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    Well, I am officially 8 weeks today!!! 4 more weeks to go to the 12 week point when I can take a bit of a breath and hope thing are going to be ok.

    I got a call from the new ob, Dr. Fox, Friday afternoon. He reviewed my file and wants me to have an ultrasound in his office every Friday to make sure they can still see a heartbeat. He said that with my being on progesterone, should I miscarry it probably wouldn't expell itself until I came off the progesterone and we wouldn't know. He had me come into his office Friday afternoon and low and behold....a heartbeat. Now I have my appointments all scheduled up until my 12 weeks, when can come off of the progesterone. He is just fantastice!!

    My progesterone is costing me $62.00 every 10 day!!! This is the most expensive medicine I've ever been on! But it will be well worth it when I'm holding our little tater tote in my arms!!

    So far, with this pregnancy, there has been no spotting!!! I'm kinda starting to get my hopes up, but don't want to get them crushed again.

    I went to the mall tonight and went into MotherHood. They don't carry petite pregnancy clothes. On top of that I'm a size 16. It was hard enough trying to find petite 16 in regular clothes, but now trying to find petites in maternity clothes seem to be next to imposible. Anyone that may read this with any ideas, feel free to e-mail me at kimism@hotmail.com.

    I will post more when I'm not so tired, right now I feel like I'm about to pass out so I'm going to bed to give this little tater tot some sleepy time.

    TaTa for now!

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    Thursday on my way home from work I started crying. I was scared that they were going to tell me that there was no heartbeat on the ultrasound yesterday (Friday, May 2). Well, my worst fears were confirmed. The ultrasound in the dr's office yesterday said that there was not a heartbeat. So, he sent me over to the hospital for a more advanced ultrasound to make sure. There was no heartbeat. I just cried so hard. I'm so confused and don't understand this. How can I get pregnant at 17 and have a healthy baby with no problems. But now that I'm older, mature, have my life on track and want another baby...we can't have one? This is my 3rd miscarriage. My dr admitted me lastnight and did a d & c.

    Dr. Fox is so great. He told me in the office, before going over to the hospital, that he was going to start testing me and get to the bottom of this. That one way or another we were going to have an answer.

    Dr. Fox told my husband, after the procedure, for us not to get pregnant again for the next 4 months. That he wanted to run some test on me first and lets find out wants wrong now before getting pregnant again and trying to find out during a pregnancy.

    Little Tater Tot, you are missed so much. How am I going to tell your older sister, Lacey, about this. She was looking forward to meeting you. We already had it planned to repaint her room and she was going to share it with you. You were going to be our little Christmas baby, our little miracle. Now, your gone and there's such a void in my heart!! May 2 and Dec. 9th (your due date) will forever be etched in our hearts.

    In the ER lastnight, they asked me if anything hurt...and all I could say was yes...my heart!!

    A part of me doesn't even want to try again....this is just too painful to keep going through. But, if they can do some test and hopefully find out wants wrong, we'll try one more time, but after that we're calling it quits and I'll have my tubes tied. It's just too painful.

    When they asked me how many times I'd been pregnant and I had to say 4 and then they asked how many children I had, I had to say just 1. That's so painful to think about. We could've had a house full by now.

    I want you to know how loved you are little tater! We had already started buying your clothes and bottles. I was even looking at baby beds. I wanted you to have everything that I wasn't able to give my little girl. We were finally financially ready for you and there was so much love from everyone. Everyone misses you, grandma, memaw & papaw, and certainly your mommy and daddy!

    This is my final farewell to our little Tater Tot. I will post here as my testing is done...hopefully we can find some answeres somewhere.

    I love you so much, you will be in our thoughts and prayers always!

    TaTa for now

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