I thought I should start an online baby journal, as my memory is horrible. If I don't start writing some of these milestones/events down, I will never remember them!
I can't believe it's been over ten weeks since Ian entered our lives. It has been the most amazing experience so .
When I think back to the beginning, it seems so long ago...
Before I was with DSO, I was married to someone else for almost ten years. We had been actively TTC for at least five of those years. I have always wanted children. We got pregnant twice, and one resulted in a missed miscarriage, and the second turned out to be a blighted ovum. I was very depressed. Then my ex cheated on me with a fifteen year old. Those were some good times.
Then I met back up with DSO, with whom I had attended college sooo many years ago. I have known DSO for thirteen years, but it was only in 2006 that we became more than friends. I used Nuvaring and I loved it. Well, my prescription had run out in February of last year, and I had a dr's appointment set up to get a new one... I ended up having to work overtime that Friday, so I didn't get in for a couple weeks. LOL. I figured what are the chances I would get pregnant with my history? One of the great ironies of my life, I guess. I couldn't believe it when I got a BFP! Initially I had such mixed emotions. I have wanted a baby for as long as I could remember, but I hadn't been "with" DSO for very long and it wasn't the best timing.
I never considered not having Ian. I was in shock, terrified to tell my parents, but never thought about not going down that road. And I have NO regrets. He is such a little miracle!
When I was just seven weeks pregnant, I woke up one morning bleeding profusely. I immediately thought, "oh, here we go again..." I was so sure I was m/cing again. I cried. DSO cried. We mourned the loss. It was a Saturday. I didn't go to the doctor until Monday. I figured there wasn't any rush, since I had experienced natural m/c's two other times, so I knew what to expect. I just about passed out from shock when I went in on Monday for the u/s and the u/s tech said,"there's the heartbeat..." I just kept saying, "I can't believe it." I called DSO, who was a teacher. He freaked out! We couldn't believe the little orange seed was still alive, and had a heartbeat...
I'll continue the story later, when I have more time.