Well we ended up staying out of town a bit longer than planned. We decided that since it was warm in the motel that we would introduce Sydney to the swimming pool. Needless to say she didnt like it. So we ended up setting her in a baby float to the side while she slept (you should've seen it, she looked like a movie star the way she was sleeping it was sooo cute) and me and Jason swam while keepin our eye on her (and no she wasnt floating in the pool, we sat her off to the side). She hasnt thrown up in like a week, its been great! I dont know what has made her better, but im soo happy she is better. Now its cute to watch her blowing bubbles with her spit LOL! She is sleeping longer spirts at a time, YAY!
I love holding her till she falls asleep, Its such a cool feeling. I have never been happier in my life. I LOVE HER SOO MUCH!
Ok well i guess thats it for now. Im exhausted.
I took that picture tonite.. I sure wish she would smile in her pics like she does when there isnt a camera in her face..
She is resting soo cute like in her bassinette rite now. I love watching her sleep. She has gotten in this mood that sometimes she wants to be held and God forbid you put her down. Im not sure exactly what thats all about cause we certainly havent spoiled her in our arms, Hmmm.. Oh well its not like i dont have time for her. I love holding her its just strange.
Guess thats it for now.
I sat on my porch this morning, and was thinking about something i did. I dont know why but i lashed out on my kitten. And it scared me cause i thought i had hurt her. She seems fine now. But im really shook up about the whole situation. I think i need to see my doctor for some Paxil. Im really not doing to well at the moment, and when i think about it i have no reason to feel this way. Im truely happy, but why all the moodswings and the snapping? I would never snap out at Sydney, but im just really concerned now after what i did that i may have hit PPD. Im tryin to run from it as i dont like to think i have a prob. But in all truth reality hit me this morning, and now i cant focus.
I love my daughter more than anything and she makes me soo happy. But for some reason im sleeping alot, and being very tempermental.
Im going to get out and run some errands and hope i can shake this horrible feeling.
I really thought for some reason PPD wouldnt hit me, but it has, i know it. Im just not wanting to go on meds. Depression has been in my past but im really happy with my life rite now. I dont know what is going on.
I started my period Sunday! YAY!! Actually i was spotting Saturday. Sydney is still doing great! No word from the doctor so im relaxing now. esp since she is better. We are going to relocate to Sylva for the next 3 weeks. But ill be taking my PC soo i wont be bored being stuck in a motel for the next 3 weeks LOL!. Well at least there is a pool. And well i wont be alone ill have Sydney....
After that Jason will be making really nice money! YAY! and ill be getting a new car. Or well at least one newer than mine and with really low milage ect...
We move into the house that was promised sometime around the 11th of Aug thats the way it looks at least cause those people arent moving and the police will be comming that day to drag them out by changing the locks ect... UGH! But then i get to set up Sydneys nursery so im totally happy!
Im like Screaming FINALLY!
Oh i thought this was funny...This is my kitten PEZ... She loves computers and sleeping on them... Cant ya tell... This one i called her name and she looked at me. But check page 10 of my gallery and you will see more..
UGH IM STILL ON MY AF!! ICK! I cant remember bleeding this much before... Maybe its the DEPO... I dont know but it sucks... I am having horrible cramping...CAN WE SAY MIDOL!
Anyways enough about me.. We are back in Sylva for a few weeks living in a hotel.. Oh how fun.. This town is soo small.. Anyways we brought as much as we could for Sydney including her swing. I hope all this traveling isnt bothering her. She has been really moody lately. I dont know what is up with her sometimes.
I just try my hardest to do all i can to figure her out or please her. Cause its not her normal change me or im hungry crys..
On another note, she loves to blow bubbles its soo cute! And i absolutely have fallen in love with the milk smell she has and i cant help but kiss her to death.. She totally sooo cuddleable!
Tooo bad she wont stay this small forever..
Im trying to get her used to her playpen. But she isnt crazy about it. And we bought a snuggly carrier and she seems soo little for it. I like carrying her in it, but she gets hot ect... Its a little awkward for us.. Wonder how long i can use that for her?
Oh well im getting sleepy, need to get some sleep while i still can..
Well Sydney is smiling more and more and its really apparent that she is sincere with them. I went to see Jason at work with her and he peeped his head in the car calling her name and she turned her head in her carseat and smiled. She Vomited again Yesturday its been along time since she has done that, but its prob cause we were messing with her diet since they only sell Allmentum in this stupid town in the RTF cans. I cant wait to get back home. Im soo sick of dh's buisness travels.
Sydney and I both have a sinus infection or our allergies are acting up one or the other.
I took us both to the ER here cause well i wanted some real meds for the both of us and for her to get looked at so it dont get too serious or bad, as i know babies are weaker than we are. Basically we are both fine all the doctor here gave us is Some neo-sinephrine for our congestion, and she has her own special mix since she is as small as she is... I also got some meds for my migranes and we discussed IMITREX (except the bad part about that is that they are injections, the doctor here said they dont have a pill form of imitrex) Sooo im not sure what i want to do. But i was given some meds last nite for my migrane that should take care of me for a while...
On the ER note ********SYDNEY NOW WEIGHS********* 11lbs 15 ounces!!!******** Holy cow thats double what she was at birth!
Well guess thats it for now
Well i found out why Sydneys been a little more fussier than usual.. She is teething! Her two bottom teeth are comming in, she loves chomping on her bottle nipples,fingers,pacys. So i bought her a teether today to help, but unlike her fav rattle in the picture below, she hasnt quite mastered her teether, esp grasping it cause its a little more awkward than her rattle.
She has started playing with some of her toys. Here is a picture with her and her interactive rattle by sassy. She loves shaking it and bringing it up to her mouth.
I havent written in a while cause ive been really bizzie and moving ect... But i have a little time rite now...
Sydney is 3 months old now!!!
She is still as adorable and cute as the first day i saw her... Or well felt her presence for that matter...
She is loving her toys, learning to grasp more and more.. She scoots on her back like crazy!! And well it drives me nuts and at other times i find it quite cute... I blew on her tummy and she let out a short giggle about a week ago but i havent been able to get her to do that again since... Hehehe i was rolling with laughter, you would have thought i was the one who was tickled hehehe....
On another note she also is developing personality... She lets out a few squeels and it sort of sounds like she is crying but all she wants is attention and for us to pick her up ect... And she does this all the time, which we are trying to find a balancing point. Dont get me wrong we play with her but we are trying to get the point across that she doesnt always get what she wants esp if we are bizzie ect... we arent neglecting her but she really cops an attitude if she dont get her way which we dont want her growing up like that KWIM?
All in all though life is still very sweet for us and we worship the ground she walks on...
Thats all for now, will post again later when i get the chance...
Last nite i was at Dh work and well, it was raining really really hard. We had Sydney sleeping in her bassinette part of her stroller, and well her carseat was in the car. I told Jason that he would have to put the stroller in the car cause i wasnt about to do it in the pouring rain. Well out on the patio where our cars were parked i wheeled Sydney and preceeded to lock the wheels in place on the stroller. I turned to pick something up off the table and the stroller took off on its own (THE BREAKS HAD FAILED!) Jason and I run after it and it hit the curb and flipped over on its side... I ran and grabbed Sydney and we took her to get checked out, i was histerical, i never cried so hard in my life and on top of it my heart felt like it was crushed! Turns out all she had was a goose egg where she hit her head and we monitored her for a concussion all nite and day and well so far soo good. Im calling Graco to let them have it! That shouldnt have happend! Thank GOD she is alrite!
Well, Sydney is seeing her pediatrician, the are going to schedule her a sleep lab study for a few nites in our hospitals sleep lab. We think she has sleep apnea. My Father in law(jasons father) has severe sleep apnea, he has it soo bad he has to be on a machine everynite to keep him breathing, it forces him to breathe. Well Jason has a very lite case of sleep apnea but we think Sydney may have it almost as bad as my FIL cause she totally quit breathing tonite, until i picked her up and blew in her face. She had only been sleeping for 15 min until she started gasping really loud trying to catch her breath, well she gasped about 10times till i got to her, it was scary. She does this other times but it was never as many gasps as tonite and usually she can catch her breath. So she is seeing her Pediatrician tommarrow... Wish us luck!