My Lil Miracle after 5 losses

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My Lil Miracle after 5 losses

She is finally here! And i thought i loved my husband alot, he aint got a candle on her.. She is the light of my life!

Sydney Brynn Arrived 8:40pm The nite of May 21 2003 after a 12 hour and 40 min labor in the hospital.

She is now 6 weeks old and will be 7 weeks old on Wed.. When she was born she weighed 6lbs and 8.6 ounces now she weighs 9lbs 1 ounce as of Last Tuesday...

She is very gassy/colicky and well so far everything has been good except the fact that we are battling some digestive issues.. She has been diagnosed with GER and they are looking into her having pyloric stenosis... She is on Zantac and Nutrimagin and we are hoping that is helping her.. I breast fed her till she was 4 weeks old and quit due to her stomach problems.
We are seeing the doctor again tommarrow to discuss when we are taking her to see the Radiologist to find out if she is needing surgery...
It breaks my heart to think that she may need it..
I just dont know how im supposed to be ok with them hurtin my baby!!
Oh well..
Guess thats it for now..

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That was just taken day before Yesturday... Isnt she a riot!! She had propped her head up on her fist... What an interesting pose... She slept like that for almost an hour and half!! My arm was sooo tired!!!
I thought that was just plain cute!! Def a kodak moment!
-Joyce

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Just for fun i wanted to include my birth story....

Tuesday the 20th of May all day i had been having back to back braxton hicks contractions, i never thought to time them but lets just say they were at least every 10 min.. They didnt hurt and well i ignored them cause i didnt think i was in labor and went to eat dinner with Jason at his work..

Well i arrived at Jasons work at about 9pm and sat down and had dinner with him.. I had noticed that since about 8:30 that the contractions had gotten a bit stronger but not painful so again i blew them off.

At about 10pm i was starting to kinda grunt through the contractions and they kept getting stronger, just felt like lots of pressure that i had to grunt through so again i ignored them..

Jason started clocking them at about 12 am Wed morn cause i was still grunting through them.. They hadnt formed a pattern, they were every 8 min every 5 min every 3 min every 8 min every 5 min every 3 min and so forth.. Well that went on till about 1:45 and we headed for the hospital. I wasnt convinced i was in labor it was Jason that said he wanted me to go. I was still not feeling any pain just lots of pressure that made me grunt with the contractions.

At the hospital i was found to be 1 1/2 cm dialated and 30% effaced. The baby showed signs that she wasnt tolerating the contractions as well as they liked, my blood pressure was high and they admitted me saying that i was in labor that they were going to give me a chance to progress on my own and monitor the baby but at 8 am they were gonna start me on a pitocin drip if needed and go from there..

Well i couldnt sleep of course i laid there just thinking about the fact i was gonna have a baby soon.. At 8 am my doctor came in and started me on a pitocin drip i was 2 cm..

At noon i was only 3 cm and they broke my water, i was still doing good no pain meds yet and well all i can say is i felt pressure..I was still talking ect..

The baby didnt seem to tolerate the breaking of my water.. In fact she hated it.. Her heartrate started acting funny and worried my doctor.. It kept dropping ect..
So they did 2 amniotransfusions to keep her happy and that seemed to help with her heartrate or at least for a little while...

At 4pm i was almost 5 cm and accepted an epidural not cause i really needed it due to pain but because i was getting tired and wanted to nap while i could without feeling the pressure.

at 6pm i had been at 5 cm for almost 2 hours and was what they called "stuck" my babys heart had dropped to the 50's a few times and they were discussing a csection if that continued much more and if i didnt progress anymore within 45 min..

Well about 30 min after my doc said all that i was 7 cm and so they let me continue birthing vaginally with a nurse in the room to monitor the babys heart rythem..

At a little after 8:15 i was fully dialated and started pushing after 20 min of pushing and an 3' episiotomy Sydney Brynn was born at 8:40pm with apgars of 8&9 weighing at 6lbs 9ounces and 19 1/2 inches long 13 1/2 head..

She is the greatest thing that has ever happend to me and she is finally here.. Its such a blessing to have her and truely a miracle! I cry for joy when im holding her alot and i cant get over her.. This has been an incredible experience and one i would like to do again in the near future..

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today i didnt make it to the doctor like planned, he had a family emergency and wasnt in the office... im going to try and see him asap cause Sydney isnt hardly eating or peeing as much as she used to..
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Sydney is starting to love attention more and more. Her head is getting lots stronger but still a little bobbleheaded. Sometimes she will just cooo and ill talk back to her and smile at her and she loves it! I cant wait till i hear her laugh! Im a new mommy soo im not sure when she learns to try and talk. But icant wait. Jason Started back working today which means im now a fulltime SAHM!! YAY!!! I wouldnt trade that job for anything.. Last week Sydney weighed 9lbs 1 ounce wonder what she weighs this week? hmmm.. Gotta go she is crying.. Time to eat she says LOL!
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Sydney today wasnt able to hold anything down. She kept on projectile vomiting, everything i gave her and anything and rite afterward she would scream with hunger rooting for more food. She wouldnt accept a pacy and so i would feed her and yet again she would throw up. It was a no win situation. She got to the point where she wouldnt allow me to put her down anywhere, not even in her swing which is her fav spot. And would scream bloody murder as if she was in pain. Even while i held her she would scream like she was in pain. I felt her stomach and it was fairly firm. I really didnt understand what was going on and it was very frustrating. It upset me beyound my understanding cause as her mom i couldnt help her no matter what i tried. It killed me for her to scream that hard. I was trying to load her in her carseat and she would scream and nothing i did would make her quit so i had to take her out. There was no way i could drive with her like that in my car. It wasnt good for her in my opinion. Jason walked in the door and i handed her to him and cried! I walked outside for some air cause i thought i was losing it, and she calmed down all of a sudden. So we ended up not taking her. She seems a little better but im still considering taking her in the morning. Something just doesnt seem rite.
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Sydney is still acting like something isnt rite,although she is doing much better today holding her food down. And i was able to get her to swallow all of her morning dose of medicine this morning (what a miracle!). Although she is still really whiny and grouchy, i just cant figure her out. I would like to avoid taking her to the hospital but if it has to be done it has to be done. Im going to try and wait it out a little longer.
On a more positive note, Sydney held her bottle for the first time in her mouth! Although i dont think she meant to. She always strokes the bottle when she is eating like she used to knead and stroke my breast. Its soo cute i always thought but this morning she actually supported the bottle on her own. Like i said it was prob by accident but it was still cool, she didnt do it for long, and i dont think she knew she was doing that. But i prob wont see her do it again for a while. I cant even get her to focus on her toys much less her bottle LOL!
Anyhow she is starting to love all the attention she gets, and im starting to see the begining smiles of laughter. OOoo how they are teasers i wanna hear her laugh soo bad! I will prob cry when she does it. But its cute to watch her faces when i tickle her. Kat says it will prob be soon when she starts laughing. As I told her on the phone on nite she was making geniune grins.
Well thats my ramble for the day. Time to give Sydney the bottle that has been warming.
-Joyce

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Oh yea my doctor still isnt in his office!! Im going to give up messing with those quacks and find a new one. This is ridiculous. She was supposed to see him days ago.. WTF! She has been almost worse lately! She really needs to see him. If they dont get her in next week with him i will find another. THIS IS BS!
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I just went to the store and bought some rice cereal to add to her formula and bought Similac almentum since she tolerates Similac better than Enfamil anyways. Im hoping this will help her with the vomiting and the diarea.
Only time will tell i guess

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I love Similac Allmentum!!! :love10: She hasnt thrown up at all since she has been drinking that! On top of it the rice has helped sooo much! We are now trying to spoon feed her the rice, she still hasnt gotten used to the texture and is pushing it out of her mouth more than she is swallowing, but im sure we will get there LOL!

I will never in my life again buy cheep diapers. Its back to Pampers we go. Every off brand ive tried has given her diaper rash no matter what we do. And we are even trying to prevent them by changing her every hour and half to every two hours and using diaper cream! EESH! :protest: :bullcrap:

On a good note we went to the doctor Tuesday for an XRAY cause she wouldnt eat, and had bad diarea and threw up everything she ate, poor thing she only weighed 9lbs 3 ounces, meaning in two weeks she had only gained 2 ounces and the doctors were concerned. havent heard anything from her doctor yet, so im guessing no news is good news on that note. Cause im sure if anything was seen in the Upper GI XRAY we would've been notified. Not to mention she is doing better ! HOOORAY!! We go back to the doctor tommarrow if i can resechedule to a more convienient time since we have to go out to town for a few days for DH job.

Right now im loving the faces she is starting to make, they are soo cute! She is smiling alot more too! And im just wanting soo badly to hear her laugh!

Its incredible when she falls asleep in my arms, i dont want to put her down. She just looks sooo sweet!

Well i guess thats it for now.. We will be out of town for the next 48 hours.
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Well we ended up staying out of town a bit longer than planned. We decided that since it was warm in the motel that we would introduce Sydney to the swimming pool. Needless to say she didnt like it. So we ended up setting her in a baby float to the side while she slept (you should've seen it, she looked like a movie star the way she was sleeping it was sooo cute) and me and Jason swam while keepin our eye on her (and no she wasnt floating in the pool, we sat her off to the side). She hasnt thrown up in like a week, its been great! I dont know what has made her better, but im soo happy she is better. Now its cute to watch her blowing bubbles with her spit LOL! She is sleeping longer spirts at a time, YAY!
I love holding her till she falls asleep, Its such a cool feeling. I have never been happier in my life. I LOVE HER SOO MUCH!
Ok well i guess thats it for now. Im exhausted.
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I took that picture tonite.. I sure wish she would smile in her pics like she does when there isnt a camera in her face..

She is resting soo cute like in her bassinette rite now. I love watching her sleep. She has gotten in this mood that sometimes she wants to be held and God forbid you put her down. Im not sure exactly what thats all about cause we certainly havent spoiled her in our arms, Hmmm.. Oh well its not like i dont have time for her. I love holding her its just strange.

Guess thats it for now.
-Joyce

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I sat on my porch this morning, and was thinking about something i did. I dont know why but i lashed out on my kitten. And it scared me cause i thought i had hurt her. She seems fine now. But im really shook up about the whole situation. I think i need to see my doctor for some Paxil. Im really not doing to well at the moment, and when i think about it i have no reason to feel this way. Im truely happy, but why all the moodswings and the snapping? I would never snap out at Sydney, but im just really concerned now after what i did that i may have hit PPD. Im tryin to run from it as i dont like to think i have a prob. But in all truth reality hit me this morning, and now i cant focus.

I love my daughter more than anything and she makes me soo happy. But for some reason im sleeping alot, and being very tempermental.

Im going to get out and run some errands and hope i can shake this horrible feeling.

I really thought for some reason PPD wouldnt hit me, but it has, i know it. Im just not wanting to go on meds. Depression has been in my past but im really happy with my life rite now. I dont know what is going on.

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I started my period Sunday! YAY!! Actually i was spotting Saturday. Sydney is still doing great! No word from the doctor so im relaxing now. esp since she is better. We are going to relocate to Sylva for the next 3 weeks. But ill be taking my PC soo i wont be bored being stuck in a motel for the next 3 weeks LOL!. Well at least there is a pool. And well i wont be alone ill have Sydney....
After that Jason will be making really nice money! YAY! and ill be getting a new car. Or well at least one newer than mine and with really low milage ect...
We move into the house that was promised sometime around the 11th of Aug thats the way it looks at least cause those people arent moving and the police will be comming that day to drag them out by changing the locks ect... UGH! But then i get to set up Sydneys nursery so im totally happy!
Im like Screaming FINALLY!

Oh i thought this was funny...This is my kitten PEZ... She loves computers and sleeping on them... Cant ya tell... This one i called her name and she looked at me. But check page 10 of my gallery and you will see more..

-Joyce

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UGH IM STILL ON MY AF!! ICK! I cant remember bleeding this much before... Maybe its the DEPO... I dont know but it sucks... I am having horrible cramping...CAN WE SAY MIDOL!

Anyways enough about me.. We are back in Sylva for a few weeks living in a hotel.. Oh how fun.. This town is soo small.. Anyways we brought as much as we could for Sydney including her swing. I hope all this traveling isnt bothering her. She has been really moody lately. I dont know what is up with her sometimes.
I just try my hardest to do all i can to figure her out or please her. Cause its not her normal change me or im hungry crys..
On another note, she loves to blow bubbles its soo cute! And i absolutely have fallen in love with the milk smell she has and i cant help but kiss her to death.. She totally sooo cuddleable!
Tooo bad she wont stay this small forever..

Im trying to get her used to her playpen. But she isnt crazy about it. And we bought a snuggly carrier and she seems soo little for it. I like carrying her in it, but she gets hot ect... Its a little awkward for us.. Wonder how long i can use that for her?

Oh well im getting sleepy, need to get some sleep while i still can..
Nite.

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Well Sydney is smiling more and more and its really apparent that she is sincere with them. I went to see Jason at work with her and he peeped his head in the car calling her name and she turned her head in her carseat and smiled. She Vomited again Yesturday its been along time since she has done that, but its prob cause we were messing with her diet since they only sell Allmentum in this stupid town in the RTF cans. I cant wait to get back home. Im soo sick of dh's buisness travels.
Sydney and I both have a sinus infection or our allergies are acting up one or the other.

I took us both to the ER here cause well i wanted some real meds for the both of us and for her to get looked at so it dont get too serious or bad, as i know babies are weaker than we are. Basically we are both fine all the doctor here gave us is Some neo-sinephrine for our congestion, and she has her own special mix since she is as small as she is... I also got some meds for my migranes and we discussed IMITREX (except the bad part about that is that they are injections, the doctor here said they dont have a pill form of imitrex) Sooo im not sure what i want to do. But i was given some meds last nite for my migrane that should take care of me for a while...

On the ER note ********SYDNEY NOW WEIGHS********* 11lbs 15 ounces!!!******** Holy cow thats double what she was at birth!

Well guess thats it for now

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Well i found out why Sydneys been a little more fussier than usual.. She is teething! Her two bottom teeth are comming in, she loves chomping on her bottle nipples,fingers,pacys. So i bought her a teether today to help, but unlike her fav rattle in the picture below, she hasnt quite mastered her teether, esp grasping it cause its a little more awkward than her rattle.
She has started playing with some of her toys. Here is a picture with her and her interactive rattle by sassy. She loves shaking it and bringing it up to her mouth.

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I havent written in a while cause ive been really bizzie and moving ect... But i have a little time rite now...

Sydney is 3 months old now!!!

She is still as adorable and cute as the first day i saw her... Or well felt her presence for that matter...

She is loving her toys, learning to grasp more and more.. She scoots on her back like crazy!! And well it drives me nuts and at other times i find it quite cute... I blew on her tummy and she let out a short giggle about a week ago but i havent been able to get her to do that again since... Hehehe i was rolling with laughter, you would have thought i was the one who was tickled hehehe....

On another note she also is developing personality... She lets out a few squeels and it sort of sounds like she is crying but all she wants is attention and for us to pick her up ect... And she does this all the time, which we are trying to find a balancing point. Dont get me wrong we play with her but we are trying to get the point across that she doesnt always get what she wants esp if we are bizzie ect... we arent neglecting her but she really cops an attitude if she dont get her way which we dont want her growing up like that KWIM?

All in all though life is still very sweet for us and we worship the ground she walks on...

Thats all for now, will post again later when i get the chance...
-Joyce

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Last nite i was at Dh work and well, it was raining really really hard. We had Sydney sleeping in her bassinette part of her stroller, and well her carseat was in the car. I told Jason that he would have to put the stroller in the car cause i wasnt about to do it in the pouring rain. Well out on the patio where our cars were parked i wheeled Sydney and preceeded to lock the wheels in place on the stroller. I turned to pick something up off the table and the stroller took off on its own (THE BREAKS HAD FAILED!) Jason and I run after it and it hit the curb and flipped over on its side... I ran and grabbed Sydney and we took her to get checked out, i was histerical, i never cried so hard in my life and on top of it my heart felt like it was crushed! Turns out all she had was a goose egg where she hit her head and we monitored her for a concussion all nite and day and well so far soo good. Im calling Graco to let them have it! That shouldnt have happend! Thank GOD she is alrite!

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Well, Sydney is seeing her pediatrician, the are going to schedule her a sleep lab study for a few nites in our hospitals sleep lab. We think she has sleep apnea. My Father in law(jasons father) has severe sleep apnea, he has it soo bad he has to be on a machine everynite to keep him breathing, it forces him to breathe. Well Jason has a very lite case of sleep apnea but we think Sydney may have it almost as bad as my FIL cause she totally quit breathing tonite, until i picked her up and blew in her face. She had only been sleeping for 15 min until she started gasping really loud trying to catch her breath, well she gasped about 10times till i got to her, it was scary. She does this other times but it was never as many gasps as tonite and usually she can catch her breath. So she is seeing her Pediatrician tommarrow... Wish us luck!

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Sydney fell off the bed day before yestuday. She was sleeping just fine in the middle of our kingsize bed knocked out. I had to go to the bathroom and i looked at her and debated putting her in her crib, but she was sooo knocked out i didnt want to wake her up and she was centered on our kingsize bed.. Im not sure what happend i was only gone a min or so, and allof a sudden i hear a thud and she starts crying, i go running she was ok. But poor thing thats the 2nd time she has had an accident. UGH! I guess i need to pad the world.

She didnt hit very hard though. Her gooseegg from her stroller crash is still there but going down just very slowely.

She loves playing with her EEYORE and her Piglet its sooo cute she loves to suck on the ears.
Ill be taking pictures of that soon.

Guess thats it for now.
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Sydney is looking up at the ceiling as if someone was there looking at her and she smiles even if im standing there talking to her it seems as if she doesnt see me but she see's something else... Hmmmm Oh well, if thats what floats her boat.

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I havent been able to post in my journal in a while but lets see, well Sydney is now 4 months old. And eating baby food now. Her favorite is bananas she totally inhales the jar as im feeding her, i cant feed her fast enough. She has learned that rice isnt as yummy and refuses to swallow rice and so i have had to buy rice with bananas blend. Lets see how that works. She also loves her banana and yogurt juice by Gerber. I cant believe how much bigger she is now. She wears 6-9 months clothes because she is so long! She cant still wear 3-6 months but from the looks of it she seems more comfortable in the 6-9months as her feet arent so crowded.

Now she likes being a rolley polley and turnes herself on her back and her tummy as she rolls all over the place. She is laughing a whole lot more, and tries to talk or well coo at least. She loves her walker/saucer. Well i gotta go...

-Joyce

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Sydney is now 8 months old... She has two teeth and is eating me out of house and home.... She loves to squeel and talk baby jabber, but she does say mamama and dadada. Sometimes i think she is going to tear her saucer up because she bounces and jumps earatically in it... She is standing now too on her own and holding on to her crib while jumping up and down in it.. She is wearing 12 months clothes and blows kisses.... Awww I love sooo much being a mommy!

-Joyce