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Our much-awaited miracle!

Okay, so that's probably not the most original title, but I'm a sleep deprived mom who's 4 days post partum, okay? Lol A quick introduction - I'm Sandy, my DH is Tim and we have a beautiful 4 day old baby boy named Nicholas. Biggrin We tried for two long years to have a baby, and now our dream has finally come true!! Biggrin It's almost too much to believe. I look at him laying on Tim's chest, the two of them snuggling and fast asleep, and I just want to sit there and stare forever. How lucky can one girl get?? We are just so, so blessed.

Nicholas was born on October 17th, 2007 at 6:35 PM. My labor was 32 hours long (!!) but the end result was totally and completely worth it. Biggrin Nick was 7 lbs 9 oz at birth, and when we left the hospital 48 hours later he was down to 7 lbs and 1 oz. With the way he's been nursing, I'm sure he must have gained most of it back by now! I had some extensive tearing from his birth, so I am in some pain now. I'm also trying to find a balance between being awake and getting enough sleep, but I'm sure that as time goes on that will get easier. Tim is home for 4 weeks, so we get to do this whole learning to be parents thing together! Biggrin It's a BIG help to have him here. He is such a hands-on dad! I have been totally spoiled so far - he watches the baby so I can nap, gets me food and water while I nurse, and even helps me with getting Nick to latch on. Breastfeeding has been a bit of a struggle for me since we were having problems with Nick's latch. But today I had a lady from the LLL come over and she helped us out so much! Turns out most of my problems were from engorgement that was making my nipples flat. We're ironing out the wrinkles now, and today he nursed like an absolute champ! I am so happy and relieved! Biggrin It was really killing me to not be able to nurse my baby when he was hungry. Sad

So far I am absolutely enamored with new mommyhood! Biggrin Sometimes I like to just lay down and stare at Nicholas. He is just so perfect in every way. I love the way he smells! He is a good mix of Tim and me, although I think he's more Tim than me. He has Tim's eyebrows, eyes, ears and chin. He has my nose and lips. Smile I can't wait to see the awesome little person he's going to turn into!

In two weeks we have Tim's mom coming to visit, right around Nicholas' first Halloween. Smile That should be fun! She is dying to see her first grandchild! We live across the country from them, so they haven't been able to see him in person yet. Tim's dad is really bummed because he can't make it this time, but he and my MIL are coming for Christmas.

Tomorrow we call and make an appointment for Nick to see his pediatrician! We found a really great doctor while we were at the hospital where I gave birth. He is really intelligent and genuinely loves kids so much. Smile I am already planning Nick's outfit for this outing! Lol I just love having my little boy on the outside now instead of inside me! Smile Time for bed, but I'll write more later! Oh, and here's a picture of the two of us:

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Breastfeeding is still going really well, and I am so relieved! Biggrin I love nursing; it's such a great bonding experience. I love the little contented noises Nick makes while he eats! They are soooo cute! :biglove:

I am healing really well. My stitches still get sore from prolonged sitting, but then again, I'm only 6 days PP. I'm not even bleeding that much anymore! I really like that. Smile The main thing now is to get my blood volume back up because I became anemic after the birth. I'm taking iron pills, so that should happen pretty quick!

Tim is out getting Nick put into our insurance company's system. Then after that we'll be going to Nick's first peds appointment! Biggrin I am eager to see how much he weighs now. We also have a few questions for the doctor. Nick seems to be a little jaundiced, although his numbers were fine when we left the hospital. I want to make sure he's still in the safe zone with that. He also hasn't pooped in 24 hours, and that's worrying me a little. I've been reading that as long as he has enough wet diapers a day and he's nursing well, that's not a big deal for how young he is. But of course, being a mom I worry! :?

Uh oh, someone's waking up! Be back later! Biggrin

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I am so glad you are doing so well! I am especially happy breast feeding is working out, it can be tough! And yeah for MIL coming! Take all the help you can get!

T had poop issues as well, the doctor told me 7 in a day or 7 days without one is OK. But I still worried too. This is just the beginning of your worrying days! LOL

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LOL Lis, I know you're right about the worrying!! Scary!

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Some pics I got uploaded:

Tired Mommy and tired Nick (look at his mouth!) :

He loves his car seat!

Sucking on Daddy's finger with a dimple like Mommy's:

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He is just too cute! Love the open mouth one, and you look GREAT!

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On Tuesday we took Nick to his first doctor's appointment! Tim and I were talking about how we were all excited about it, LOL. Lol Anyway, he's gained 2 oz since leaving the hospital! Yahoo I was especially relieved to hear that since we'd had some breastfeeding problems at the beginning. We also asked him to check and make sure Nick wasn't especially yellow, and he decided to do another bilirubin test. I held Nick when the nurse stuck him, and he didn't even cry! His face did get red, though. Lol Must be Daddy's Irish roots showing through! Dr. Baker called with his test results after the appointment and said that Nick's levels were climbing back up. He said it could be because he hadn't pooped in a few days, but he wanted us back the next day to do another bilirubin test. In the meantime, we were supposed to give him glycerin suppositories to make him poop to see if that would help. We did all of that and got the news yesterday that his levels dropped wayyy down and that he's completely out of the danger zone for jaundice now! Yahoo Dr. Baker even said that he could go days without pooping and it wouldn't affect his levels. Phew! Needless to say, Tim and I were very happy campers yesterday. Biggrin And something else I was happy about was that Nick's cord fell off yesterday, on his one week birthday! Biggrin The weird things you celebrate when you're a mom, huh? Lol
I can hardly believe it's been one week already! I swear I was just at the hospital yesterday! The days all fly by so quickly when you're tending to a baby's needs. It's a crazy, manic, absolutely wonderful time. Smile

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Aww thanks, Lis! Biggrin You're too sweet!

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Such cute pictures!! glad his levels went down.

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All great news at the doc! WOOHOO!!!!

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Awwwe, the pics are so cute! He resembles you and Tim equally, how is that possible??
WooHoo on good weigth gain!! That's an awsome sign that BF is working well! Make sure to eat some yogurt every day to prevent getting thrush - it's not a BIG deal, but a PITA to get rid off.
How is his latching now?

Enjoy your little prince! Thanks for posting pics, I know it takes longer to post them, but.... it's great to see his face!

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So, how did you come up with his name? If you don't mind me askin'.

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I have a name question too! What does Ishaan mean? If you are O.K with explaining it....

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Sandy he's beautiful!!! I am so happy for you! I have to remember that this morning sickness is worth it and it turns in to a beautiful baby just like Nicholas!

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Oh, sweetie...its so much fun to read about the joys of your new life. Nick is absolutely precious, and you are glowing...I'm with Lis...you look amazing!

I'm thrilled for you that everything went well at the dr., and proud of your little man for being so strong and healthy!

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Thanks for all the comments, you guys! Biggrin You're so sweet!

As for his name, we just liked the name Nicholas. We looked up the meaning, and it means "victorious", so we decided to keep that on our list. Smile Ishaan is an Indian name that means "sun", and we liked that it would be easy for people to pronounce and that it had a nice meaning. Plus, Nicholas Ishaan seemed to flow well. So there you have it! Biggrin

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I am having such a hard time with breastfeeding. I absolutely, positively hate it! I just did not see this coming. I thought with his latch getting better, I'd like it more, but nope. Sad I'm always frustrated and so is Nick. I'm just not able to enjoy him around feeding time like I do at other times. I'm going to pump, and if I don't get enough we're going to supplement with formula. I bawled my eyes out tonight when we gave him his first bottle (of breastmilk). But this is going to be so much healthier for us, I think. Tim is happy that he gets to feed him, and he totally supports me. I feel so guilty about this, but I know that formula is not a bad choice. I just cannot take the stress of breastfeeding anymore. Ughhhh, I wish I didn't feel so badly about switching him to expressed breastmilk and formula. Sad

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Oh hon...I know how you feel, same thing happened to us. I believe its better to use formula and have a happy mommy and baby! JMO

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***HUGS***
It's a struggle. It is so hard! The pain is unbelievable and so un-fair! It was like that for me too. Each time.
Formula isn't evil or bad. If it makes you happier and makes Nicholas happy then so be it! And it's great that Tim likes to feed him too!
Hugs Sandy!!!

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Aww, thanks you guys. That is so sweet. Smile I really appreciate all of your support. It's funny though, that things took a turn in a much different direction than I was expecting, but that's for my next post... Biggrin

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So after I posted about our decision to switch to pumping and formula, we decided to do that for a 12-hour stretch (through the night). Turns out I hated bottle feeding him even more than I did breastfeeding! Lol Yeah I know, I'm never satisfied. Every time I would look at him with a bottle, I would bawl. I'd think about all those cute expressions and noises he makes when breastfeeding, and how I'd never see them or hear them again, and I would bawl. There's one in particular that Tim and I call his "evil nursing face" - he raises up his eyebrows and opens his mouth like he's going to bite the crap out of my nipples - that I absolutely love. I couldn't stand the thought of not seeing that again! Weird, huh? So after that 12-hour break, I nursed him again in the morning and we did so much better! I think it was just good for me to have that break. I talked it over with Tim some more, and we've decided to keep formula in the house so that if and when I do get overwhelmed, I'll always have the option of giving him a bottle of formula. I'm also thinking about supplementing one night feeding with a bottle of formula, because it seems that it's the 3 AM feedings that frustrate me (and him) the most. So anyway, I'm happy to say that we're still breastfeeding and doing much better with it. And even happier that I have a backup plan in case I start getting really overwhelmed again! Biggrin

My MIL is coming to visit us and stay for a week on the 5th of November. We are all so excited! Biggrin She is already soooo in love with her grandbaby, she's absolutely giddy about seeing him in a week. Biggrin She's going to be such a great help to us, too! I'm really looking forward to getting a bit of a break and maybe even sneaking in a date night with Tim. Biggrin

We received a sample of our birth announcement that we were thinking about getting in the mail today. It's everything we want, so we're going to take some pictures of Nick and send them to the company to get printed up. I am so excited!! Biggrin I can't wait to send announcements out! Biggrin The company we're using is www.sassybabydesigns.com.

And now for picture time!! Biggrin Here are a few of his latest:

Mommy and Nick snuggling:

Aww, love the legs all curled up!

Daddy and his baby boy:

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He is just soooooo cute! I am glad things are working out with the nursing! My parenting motto "Do what works best...."lol

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Yayy!! Yayy! I am glad that you are doing a little better with BF.
It is tough. I was going to suggest 1 feeding with formula, that's what I do. I feel like the beginning of BF is too challenging to take it on without some relief.
He is so cute! I love the description of the " evil nursing face"!!!LOL
As for changing your mind....you are looking for what's best, you are just a few days pp, you have a right!!!!!
Wishing you all the best !

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Hi Sandy!! Those pictures are absolutley precious Smile Nothing like a sweet little newborn to cuddle up to. I'm sorry that breastfeeding as been so challenging, I really struggled with my first boy ~ between a bad latch, raw nipples & no sleep I wanted to crawl under a rock lol I would supplement with formula when I needed a break & by the time he was 2-3 months old my nipples had tuffened up, he got better at nursing & it was SO much fun!!! I think even in the easiest of situations your going to go through a period of "this is NOT fun" ~ but once you pass that phase I've yet to meet a mama who didn't love it. I hope things continue to go well for you (((Hugs)))

Also ~ some tricks I found that helped with soreness, was to use Lansinoh, as well as putting some breastmilk onto my nipples and then keeping them as dry as possible. It did wonders & you'd be suprised how fast they heal up!

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Happy 2 weeks, my little man!! Biggrin I can't believe he's two weeks old already... time flies when you're having fun, huh? We went to his pediatrician appointment today, and he's gained another 3 ounces!! Yahoo I always feel a frisson of happiness when I find out he's gained weight. Smile He's also gotten a wee bit taller, and his head grew 1/2 an inch in circumference! Lol That's my smart cookie! He's in the 70th percentile for height and 20th for weight. It's not too concerning because he eats like a horse! I think he takes after Tim... they were almost the exact same size at birth, and Tim has always been really tall and skinny. The pediatrician was really happy with everything he saw and heard, so I am too. Biggrin Nick seems to have a bit of congestion in his nose, but we're treating that with the old bulb syringe and saline water.

*Sigh* And now onto a more difficult topic... we've decided to make the switch to formula. I only officially decided yesterday, and it wasn't easy. After my happy post about going back to nursing, things started taking a nosedive again. Not only was his latch the problem, but also, I realized I have a lot of issues with breastfeeding because of some things that happened to me as a child. I just could not relax and enjoy the experience more than superficially. Sooner or later, I'd always revisit those negative feelings and memories, and that would make me depressed. Tim would come in to find me upset and Nick wailing. It just wasn't good for anyone. I am so lucky in that I have the most supportive friends and family. Everyone has been so wonderful about telling me not to feel guilty. Now that we've done a whole day and a half of formula feedings, and I see how much more I can enjoy my son, and how much more relaxed he is at feeding time, I know that I made the right decision. The guilt is already starting to fade, because I can see how this is positively impacting our whole family. I told Nick's pediatrician about our decision to switch today, and he asked me if we were doing better this way. I said yes, and then he gave me a smile and said, "In that case, I am happy with that decision and so is Nicholas!" I was prepared for a "You know breast is best" lecture, but I was pleasantly surprised. Smile So right now I am trying to decrease my supply and then eventually dry it up completely. This morning I woke up and ouch!! I was so painfully engorged! I pumped for a bit, and that relieved the pressure a lot. I'm also using cabbage leaves and taking 1/4 tsp of sage three times a day. Hopefully by the end of next week I should be seeing some real results. I am so in awe of Tim for how supportive he's being. He told me he wanted me to be happy, and nothing was more important to him than that. He is the one that made me see how Nick was feeling the negative impact of our breastfeeding sessions, and made me realize that switching to formula was nothing to feel guilty about. I know breastfeeding is something he's always felt strongly about, so for him to make that leap for me is truly amazing. And my doula is the same way - she's the LLL leader, so obviously really invested in breastfeeding. But when I told her about my feelings and experiences, she immediately told me to be proud that I had made it two weeks. I am so lucky to have so much support. Smile

Since today's Halloween, I'll be taking some cute pictures of Nick in his Halloween outfit! Biggrin His grandparents bought him the cutest sleeper, and we bought him a hat to go with it. I'll be sure to post those soon! Biggrin

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Happy 2 weeks sweetie!

I know the move was tough, but formula is yummy too! YEAH on all the stats!! I need more [LEFT]pictures[/LEFT]!!!

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Hi Sandy,

I have been having breast feeding issues as well. I am sticking with it though only because I realize that formula feeding comes with its own set of problems. Not only do babies who started at the breast have trouble switching to the bottle (because the sucking is different) but also the side effects of formula like constipation, allergies ect. My ped. reminded me that once you go to formula it is almost impossible to switch back to the breast because of nipple confusion. I decided to stick with it for all of those reasons although I have thought about exclusively pumping and feeding him the ebm. Maybe you could give that option a shot before you switch to strictly formula. The longer your baby gets breast milk the better. Babies immune systems don't fully develop until 6 months so its really important and beneficial for them to get breast milk until then.

If you are worried about supply issues with pumping you can try mothers milk tea and pumping every two hours for the first few days.

Whatever you decide I hope that your feeding issues improve. Smile

Good Luck!

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Glad he is growing so well!!!Can't wait to see those pics you PROMISED!! LOL!!!

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As promised, here are the Halloween pictures!

Grandma's Little Pumpkin:

Halloween Outfit:

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Hi Sandy,

I have been having breast feeding issues as well. I am sticking with it though only because I realize that formula feeding comes with its own set of problems. Not only do babies who started at the breast have trouble switching to the bottle (because the sucking is different) but also the side effects of formula like constipation, allergies ect. My ped. reminded me that once you go to formula it is almost impossible to switch back to the breast because of nipple confusion. I decided to stick with it for all of those reasons although I have thought about exclusively pumping and feeding him the ebm. Maybe you could give that option a shot before you switch to strictly formula. The longer your baby gets breast milk the better. Babies immune systems don't fully develop until 6 months so its really important and beneficial for them to get breast milk until then.

If you are worried about supply issues with pumping you can try mothers milk tea and pumping every two hours for the first few days.

Whatever you decide I hope that your feeding issues improve. Smile

Good Luck!

Mandy,

I realize you were trying to be helpful here, but I must say this - please realize that every mother who makes the decision to switch to formula has thought about it long and hard. I didn't wake up one day and say, "Hey, what would make my life easier?" This was something I cried over for hours and talked with my husband about for hours. I did a lot of soul searching. I am not giving up breastfeeding simply because it is difficult, I am giving it up because I honestly want to do what's best for my son. I know all the effects of formula feeding on infants. I also know first hand of the ill effects of breastfeeding on my son and me. I am glad you are deciding to breastfeed in spite of challenges that you are facing. However, just because you chose to do so doesn't make it the right choice for everyone. I hope that next time you decide to "educate" someone about the ill effects of formula feeding, you will stop for one second to think that maybe they're just making the best decision for their family. After all, we're all just trying to do right by our children.

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Sandy, he is such a cutie and I love his Halloween outfit! Very very cute!

I also had breastfeeding issues and like you I had to make the switch to formula, at first I felt awful and like a failure. In the end it was the BEST thing for me and my dd. It worked out so well and she never suffered any peoblems from switching and my dh loved it because he also got to be more involved! Hugs sweetie I know you did what was best for you and your ds and thats what is so very important!

Hugs...he sure is a handsome little man!

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First & foremost ((((((big big hugs)))))))) While my circumstances are different, I can understand the emotional rollercoaster that one goes through when having to make a big decision like this, one that will affect both you and baby & in doing so trying to make the one that is right, regardless of opinion or acceptance.

I wish you nothing but the best & am so glad your doctor is supportive of you, that's really important. He can also help with any problems you might face when your in the phase of trying to find the formula that best fits him, while I nursed I also supplemented with all of them from time to time, with my babies enfamil seemed to work the best, with my sister it was Right Start by Nestle if I remember it right. I also LOVE LOVE LOVE the Playtex bottles w/ the drop in liners, advent are good but I could never screw them on right so they'd always leak on me lol I do love that you can turn those from bottles into sippy cups :thumbsup:

Anyhow ~ good luck hun! Your little boy is SO STINKIN' CUTE!! Love the Halloween pictures, gosh he is so sweet.

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Hey sweets! It sounds like you've had a long couple of days, and in the end did what you do best these days...made the best Mommy instinct decision you could make for your family.

You know (because we've talked about it!) that I struggled some with not being able to breastfeed. I will honestly tell you, though, that formula feeding has been a blessing for our family in so many ways. I think I *get* Tim, and he seems a lot like Ryan...and if those two guesses are right...then he will absolutely LOVE participating in the feedings. Ryan gets up at night, which is lovely, and he and Ollie get to share the bonding time that is so often reserved for only mothers and children. Certainly, there are merits to breastfeeding, and I commend those who do. However, there are certain benefits to formula feeding, too, and in the end, if your Mommy heart tells you that this is what's best for your sweet, precious family, then it is. It just is. It sounds like life is already more positive for you, Tim, and little Nick, so don't you let yourself, or anyone else, make you feel inadequate or sad about your decision. You are a wonderful mom, you are doing what's best for your son and your family, and you all will be healthier and happier for it. Doing what's right is not always the same as what's easy. Smile

OK, off the soapbox... Biggrin I agree wholeheartedly with Chimmy! Having tried three different brands of bottles (Avent, Dr. Browns, and Playtex Drop-Ins) the PDI are by far the best. Ollie loves them, they are a breeze to clean, and they make his tummy more settled. Smile If you want to try Avent or Dr. Browns (or even Playtex...we'll be moving to the 8 oz. size soon!) let me know...I have some of all three and would be happy to send them to a good home! Biggrin We also tried Enfamil, Enfamil Soy, and Enfamil Gentlease, and have settled on the Gentlease. Every baby is different, and you may find you'll have to play a little to see what works, but Nick will help you figure it out.

You stand strong, sweet girl! You're doing an awesome job! Know I'm here for whatever you need! Biggrin

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Adorable!!!!

You know I had the same issues with breastfeeding and once we switched to formula everyone was MUCH happier. And now I have a almost 26 pound, super smart kiddo. You are doing what is right for YOUR family, no one else should give you any grief about it. Especially since you did not ask for advice about it! Wink

SMOOCHES!!!

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wow, he's so cute!!!!!! love the pumpkin outfit!

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Sandy, honey. I had a VERY public and difficult struggle with nursing and my decision to feed formula.
There are so many ups and downs, and so many issues. I would love for you to talk to me. Problem is my cell phones are currently turned off. I'd be willing to give you my home number, if you want. If you want to talk I'll happily do so.
He's beautiful, he's wonderful, and he's absolutely perfect. Your decision to feed formula is not going to change that. You will have to deal with other issues .. and as a mom who wants to BF but also wants to FF you never feel like you "fit in" with either group.
I love you dear, and I know the thoughts going through your mind right now, and the emotions you're facing. I will happily be here for you if you want

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I second the case about leaky Avent bottles!!! I thought it was ME who didn't know how to close them right, but it must be their fault! I use Playtex drop ins and I love them.
Formula is NOT goat's milk - like 40 years ago. Formula is good food made especially for babies!

Your little Nicholas is SO adorable! Thank you for sharing the pictures! Just makes me want to hug him...

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feel free to have this post deleted if you don't want me to hijack.. but I wanted to say this.
Tell me formula is bad for babies..
http://media3.dropshots.com/photos/337567/20071023/194943.jpg

I know, I'm back again. Jeez Nadine shut up. But seriously. I will be the first to say "breast is best" but formula is OKAY! Really it is! My kids are happy, I'm happy, they're healthy, they're huge!! (30+ lbs each) and they're perfect.
Don't let anybody tell you how you should feel. You're allowed to feel sad. I sat on the floor in wal mart, and cried holding my first can of formula I had to buy. People must have thought I was stupid but buying it is so final.. you know? Agh.
Okay shutting up

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Lol Nadine, you're not hijacking! I love that picture of the twins! Biggrin
I am sooo thankful for all these posts of support, ladies. You have no idea how much it means to me! I was more than a little bummed yesterday, between being a first-time mom and having a touch of the baby blues, I just felt crappy after reading that. But then I come on today and I have PMs and posts all over the place helping me feel so much better! Biggrin I know that I made the right decision for my little one, there is no question in my mind. But it just stings when people try to tell you you're doing the wrong thing, you know? I know that every single mom out there is doing something that another mom wouldn't agree with, but aren't we all stressed out enough without having to call each other out on those things?? Anyway, I am just so glad to have you all as my friends!! Biggrin You certainly helped me cheer up and put this behind me! Biggrin *MuAh*!!!!

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One of my favorite pictures of all time...

Lol I LOVE that face!! That combined with a big, open mouth is his "evil nursing face". I am thrilled to note that he does the ENF for his bottles too! Lol So I guess I should rename it to his evil feeding face, or EFF. Wink

Everyday I fall more in love with my little guy as his personality starts to emerge. I had no idea 2-week olds could be so interactive! Smile I love how he grabs on to our fingers and forces them into his mouth because he's a sucking machine! Lol He also makes the cutest cooing noises, especially after he's been fed and is wrapped up in a blanket and resting on one of our chests. Smile The other day we put him in his car seat (and he LOVES that thing!) because we wanted our hands free while we ate, and suddenly Tim turns to me and goes, "Is that him??" So we got really quiet and listened and he was cooing away in his car seat! Biggrin He was just so happy and cozy in there. It was just adorable! Those noises and his various, various expressions are probably two of my most favorite things in the world. Biggrin

I've been dealing with a mild case of the baby blues, mainly exacerbated by my nursing issues, but I'm happy to say that for the past few days I've been feeling SO much better! I still have those moments of, "Oh my gosh, I feel so overwhelmed by all the decisions I have to make for this little life" but I think that probably every new mother feels that way. I know once I get a little more used to all this responsibility, I'll feel better about that. I am just so petrified of doing the wrong thing by him, but I have to start thinking like Tim. He says that all we can do is the best we can with what we have at any given time (that's from a quote he borrowed from someone, I can't remember who). I really like that philosophy. I don't think there are really any right or wrong answers, just a variety of judgment calls.

Today I'm taking the day to have a little "me time"! Smile I'm going out to get my eyebrows done (woo hoo! I'm growing a little forest on my face right now - yuck!!) and then I'm going to run a couple of errands. Not really anything majorly fun, but that's all I can do right now. Still having trouble walking for long periods of time because of my stitches. It'll be my first time anywhere without the baby in over 2 weeks! I'm a little excited and a little nervous. I just hate not having him in my sight!

Last night we ordered the baby announcements! Yahoo I have the proof sitting in my email inbox, I'm just waiting on Tim to get done with his bath so we can look at it together. Biggrin I'll be sure to post it when we approve it!

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Glad you are feeling better and YEAH for getting out of the house! Cannot wait to see the announcements!

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Oh Sandy, you are doing so great! I know taking care of a brand new life is so scary b/c they seem fragile and you just want to give them "the world" but I know you are a great loving mother, even if i never met you. Your little pumpkin is growing surrounded by love.
WooHoo for going out! It is crucial to get away, even for an hour! It will make you feel "like there is still you" and it will give you a chance to miss your sweetie pie.
He is gorgeous by the way! i love the EFF!

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I'm so excited, I'm participating in the Biggest Loser Challenge for November/December! Biggrin I really want to lose the baby weight. Believe it or not, I've already lost over 20 lbs since giving birth, but I want to get down below my pre-pregnancy weight, so I've still got a long ways to go. I would like to weigh 120-125 by the time Nick is 6 months old. I think that's a reasonable goal! Biggrin

So my day out yesterday wasn't as enjoyable as I had imagined! I think I would rather have spent that time here at home with Tim and Nick. Lol I'm such a homebody! I missed them the whole time I was out, and it didn't help that my bottom was hurting the whole time! Should've taken the donut with me. Wink But at least my eyebrows look civilized once again! Lol

I LOVE how Nick's announcements turned out, but unfortunately, I can't figure out how to post them. The lady sent me the proof as a PDF file, so I have to convert it to an image file in order to upload it to Photobucket. I'll have to ask Tim if it's even possible to do that! If not, I'll just scan one once we get them in the mail and post it like that. Smile

Only two more days till MIL gets here! Yahoo I am so excited!! Biggrin

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Sorry about the day out, I am the same way, even at a year old!

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Some cute pics:

My baby boy looks so tiny in Mommy's Boppy:

Posing:

Cute little feets!!

Daddy makes me soooo sleepy!

So as of this morning I weigh 157 lbs! That's 32 more lbs to my goal weight of 125 lbs. I'm giving myself till May 2008 to get there. Smile I can't wait to see how I do with the POBLC!

Tim is out right now picking up MIL! Biggrin Her flight comes in in less than an hour, but the airport is about 45 minutes away so he had to leave early. I get to give Nick his bath (gulp) and dress him! I've never done that by myself before, so I'm a little nervous. :? I know I need to start getting used to doing baby things by myself though, because Tim goes back to work on the 19th. Sad So not looking forward to that! I love being able to hand Nick off to him because it really breaks my heart when I have to set him down somewhere and he cries for me. Sad

We switched Nick to Enfamil Lipil ProSobee because he had a mild allergic reaction to Enfamil Lipil with Iron. I'm slightly allergic to cow's milk too, so I figured that's what it was. He's doing much better on the soy stuff. He has a bit of constipation from being switched over, though, so we're doing the Karo syrup thing. It's supposed to work really well, so fingers crossed! Biggrin If anyone wants a half-full big (26 oz) can of Enfamil Lipil with Iron, please PM me and I'll mail it out to you! Smile

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isn't he just the cutest little thing!!!! Is he darker complected? It looks like it in the pics. I love sleeping baby pictures!!!!!!!
a-freakin-dorable!!!

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He is SO adorable!! You'll be amazed at how well you do the mom thing once dh goes back to work, it is a bit unnerving at first but you'll do awsome.

My twins were on the Prosobee too, worked great! I hope the kyro trick helps Smile

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He is so cute!!!! Have a fun visit with MIL!

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I hope your visit goes great. Another person to love your litte Nick, who....OMG is SO cute! The Boppy pic is precious!
Good that you are getting some practice of caring for him on your own before Tim goes to work. You will do just fine.
Hope Karo syrup works.

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Nick is so beautiful. What good parents he has. Good job Sandy. Biggrin

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Sandy, I just wanted to tell you that I have followed your entire journey through this pregnancy and the birth of your sweet baby. I admire your strength and positive attitude so much! Now, finally being pregnant with my own baby, I can relate so much! Congratulations to you and your husband- Nick is darling!

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