Good for you for an adventure! And while I would not put him smack dab in the middle of germs, a bit of a build up of resistance is good! LOL
I have heard bad things about the patch. Have you looked at the Minera (something like that) IUD? It apparently restores your fertility ASAP once removed. Just a thought.
The Mirena? Yeah, I looked into that but it bothers me that they have to essentially embed it into my cervix. Just seems like too much to me. Oh, and they're not sure "exactly" how it works, which sounds ominous to me as well. But thank you for the suggestion, Lissy poo!!
I spoke with Tim last night, and told him how I felt about going back on birth control. He immediately said I didn't have to do anything to my body I wasn't comfortable with, and said he would be extra diligent about our condom usage. We're going to try it and if we forget more than once (assuming I don't get pregnant right away ), I'll get on something else. While I don't want to get pregnant now, if I did, I wouldn't be upset at all. I think pregnancy and childbirth really agree with me! Who woulda thunk after all that time of trying, I'd have such an easy go of it! I was telling Tim that I can see why people have big families now. It's almost addicting to feel that excitement of being pregnant and giving birth, and then to hold your sweet little baby and feel your love grow everyday! Just amazing to me.
Speaking of love, I was NOT one of those women who instantly fell in love with their babies. I mean, of course I LOVED him and would have protected him with my life, but the love I felt back then feels SO different from the love I feel for him now! It's almost as if back then it was a "chemical" kind of love, one that my body made me feel. But now that I KNOW him, and I see his personality emerging everyday, it's just totally different. Sometimes I look at him and just tear up because it's so *amazing* to me how much my heart swells just seeing his sleeping face, or his pouty lips. It almost hurts my heart because I want to protect him from anything and everything that will or can hurt him, and I know that's just not possible. It was so much easier when he was inside me, and I just had to take care of me to take care of the both of us! I always knew he was protected. Being a mom is the hardest, most rewarding, most tiring, most fulfilling, most fun, most complicated job I've ever had! Life couldn't get better.
Some of them are similar to each other, but I just couldn't choose. Oh, and I will be cropping them so that all the background stuff isn't in the pictures - just him and his ornaments and the bow.
Only 6 more days till Tim comes home, and that's counting today!! I am so excited. On Monday I'm going over to a friend's house so the kids can play together (well, not really, but it's cute to see them together ) and so that the mommies can chat and visit. I'm trying to keep myself somewhat occupied with different things to do to vary my schedule and help speed time up a little bit. Tonight I'm going to watch my Netflix movie, "The Holiday". Should be fun! I'm taking advantage of Tim being gone by ordering all the chick flicks I possibly can.
Oh, and I forgot to add - I gave Nick his first big boy bath since Tim's been gone today! So far I've been doing spongebaths because I am deathly afraid that he'll drown in the water. Yes, I know, I am so paranoid! But today I just decided to do it because (a) he really needed it! and (b) I wanted to get over my irrational fear so I knew I had to jump in with both feet. It worked! I am now no longer afraid to bathe him by myself. And he LOVES his baths so much, it was really sad that he wasn't getting them while his Daddy was gone.
There's a Murphy's Law for military wives that goes something like, "When your husband is TDY or deployed, anything that can go wrong will." It's true! My lucky streak started yesterday. In the early hours of the morning, I heard this smash - one of our cats had climbed up the Christmas tree, and broke an ornament. So I cleaned that up and when I got back to the couch, Nick vomited all over me and himself. And I'm not talking a little bit of spit-up - he soaked the front of my shirt, the top of my pants and his own onesie and swaddler. Not to mention got the couch messy. So I cleaned up that mess, fed him, talked to Tim on the phone and then collapsed into bed once Nick went down (which took an inordinately long time because he was fussier than usual, go figure). I woke up at 6 AM to feed him, and found that BOTH my dogs had pooped in the house. They are potty-trained, I guess they just didn't want to go out in the snow. So after I fed him, I cleaned that up. Then, my little dog gets sick on the carpet. So I cleaned that up too. Fast forward to early this morning. I wake up, and find about 15 (no exaggeration!) puddles of puke on the carpet, in the living room and in my bedroom. And not just puke - some of the puddles are just pure dark, dark blood. Holy crap. My dog was looking fine and acting fine, so I decided to watch her to see if it really was HER blood, or if she had eaten something and was puking it back up, and it only looked like blood. I was cleaning up the mess and then started to steam clean the carpet when she puked again. And again, it was blood. There was no question - it smelled like blood too. So I call the vet, fully knowing that he would charge me an astronomical fee seeing as how it's Sunday and the clinic's not open. Thankfully, I got this really sweet guy who assessed her over the phone based on her symptoms, type of vomit, etc. and said he thought she had strained too much while puking, and her capillaries in her stomach burst and made the blood pool in there. Blood is irritating to the stomach, which is why she was puking it up. He said to give her some Pepto Bismol and plain white rice, and take her in tomorrow. She hasn't puked since. So after I steam cleaned the house, Nick kept spitting up. So I gave him a bath, and as soon as he was in his fresh clothes, he spits up all over me and himself again. I have never been this exhausted!! It's almost comical, really. Let's just say, I am glad this day is OVER!! Tomorrow can't be any worse, CAN IT?? Please tell me it can't! I am soooo ready for bed, but I know Nick's going to wake up any minute for his next feeding. 5 more days, I can do it! Oh, and I had to cancel Nick's playdate because my friend's husband has the flu. Sorry if this post is inordinately whiny, I am just feeling a little run down today.But I know it's not too much longer till I get a long break! Tim's taking a couple of days off work when he gets back so he can watch Nick while I have some time to sleep/unwind/do whatever. Isn't he thoughtful? He called me today to tell me he got me some cool Christmas presents! He's so sweet. He really keeps me going.
Conversation between Tim and the team he's working with on his TDY:
Them: "Sgt. F, do you think you could stay with us through the weekend and help us on this project [rather than leave on Friday]?"
Tim: "Hell no! My wife needs me."
I love him!! 3 more days, 3 more days, 3 more days!!!! Cannot wait!!
I took my dog Kaylee to the vet to get her checked out after the vomiting episode. They said she probably just has an upset stomach and that the forceful vomiting caused a blood vessel to rupture, resulting in her vomiting blood. They gave me 3 different medications for her, and told me to go back in for an X-Ray and bloodwork if she still continues to vomit today. Thankfully so far she hasn't vomited. She even ate regular dog food today. *Knock on wood!* I hate when my fur babies get sick!
I actually got about 7.5 hours of (broken) sleep last night! I feel great. Nick sleeps really well through the night, but now that Tim is gone, I usually have phone time with him from about 11 PM - 1 AM. So that drastically cuts down on the amount of sleep I get. But it's all worth it! Early this morning, I fed Nick and put him down and he spat up all over his clothes. So I had to change him into clean clothes, and then I realized he didn't have a clean swaddler! So I had to put him back into the one that had spit up on it. I'm washing his other swaddler right now. We had three total that are really good, but one of them has disappeared. I definitely want to get him another couple of swaddlers so that I don't have to wash them everyday.
I watched the movie The Holiday on Sunday night. It was pretty cute! I think Cameron Diaz is sooooo pretty! I have a humongous girl crush on her. She's one of the few actresses I think is naturally pretty. And of course, Jude Law made that movie worth watching!
Nick has started this new thing where he chews on his fist! It's soooo cute!! He just sticks it in there and gums it. LOL! The other day he pulled one of his hands out from his swaddler and stuck his fist in his mouth. So I took his hand and stuffed it back into his swaddler. He looked at me for a second, then whipped his head to the other side, pulled his OTHER hand out of the swaddler and chewed on that instead! LOL!! My boy's got spirit!!