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    Elicia, I think I'll PASS out when Nick does his first sign!! It's sooo cool that signing empowers them in that way so they can help us understand what they want! At what age did Josh do his first sign?

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    I'm trying to get some schoolwork done, but pg.org is looking so much more interesting just now.

    I came to a conclusion about breastfeeding. I had soooo wanted to breastfeed Nick, even enjoyed it off and on, but we stopped at 2 weeks because of the emotional aspect of things. I had no idea that I still had unresolved issues until I tried to breastfeed him, and then I got this major bout of PPD and I felt like we weren't able to bond because of it. I am really glad I stopped when I did, because I honestly don't think our bond would be what it is today if I hadn't. However, now that I *know* I have these issues, I would love to try and breastfeed our next biological baby. I asked for help on my birthboard, and got some resources to contact. I really want to beat this thing, I want to give it my all and be able to say, "I fought it and I did it!" I feel sad that Nick and I didn't get to experience that relationship for very long, even though I know it was the best thing. There's a sense of loss there anyway. Phew, I know that's heavy stuff for 9 AM! I just had to post about my revelation.

    Now for pictures!

    He held his rattle for the first time yesterday!


    A smile I caught (I always have to angle the camera so that he can't see it or he won't smile!):


    Hanging out in a "super bouncy seat" (this seat is crazy, it plays all kinds of songs and noises, and you can even plug your IPod into it!) that was a gift from Tim's aunt:


    Sorry about the uninspired pictures, I was having camera issues!!

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    Sandy, I think it's great that you're looking to work through some of those issues. I know that it's hard.

    I love, love, love your pictures. Nick is so cute holding that rattle and his smile is just ADORABLE
    Anne, mommy to five:
    Lillian, born 12-24-10
    Will, born 10-19-07
    New little one, due 9-19-2012
    Lucas Robert, born to Jesus @ 18 weeks on 12-26-08 (due 5-28-09)
    Ectopic Angel 10-24-06


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    Sandy,

    I've read your journal from the beginning and wanted to tell you are an amazing woman. Like PP stated you should shout from the hilltops about what you've accomplished. I personally look up to any woman who can birth naturally and you are one woman I look up to. My LO's birth board March 07 is so supportive of everyone. You are more then welcome to come post over there. We love everyone, NCB, epi birth, breastfeed, formula feed, we are all mommys who try/tried to do what is/was best for our LO's and our mental well being. I personally couldn't NCB or breastfeed but I respect and am in awe of people who can. I live through them and there stories, like yours.

    Take care and btw, your LO is just the cutest baby ever. You take some really great pictures of him. Thank you for sharing and allowing us a peak into your life.

    Val

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    Val, I PMd you, but want to say it here, too - Thank You. You're awesome.

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    I love this journal... writing in it gives me so much clarity. After I talked about breastfeeding, I realized that I was now ready to try a breastfeeding relationship with Nick. I felt sad that these precious months would just fly by and we'd never again be given another chance. So I looked up relactation, and discovered on Kellymom that it is very much possible. I called my LLL leader (aka my doula, Debbie) and told her what I was considering. So this is what I've decided on as a course of action - a LactAid supplement nurser to help him stay latched on, a nipple shield to draw out my nipples more, and a hand pump (Tim says we can buy a Medela PISA if I decide the hand pump isn't working). I tried latching him on on and off today, and he did really well! I was surprised that he didn't reject the breast after so many months on the bottle. He actually started rooting around for it on his own too. It was exciting because I didn't feel those old feelings creep back up. Now that our bond is so secure, and I am in "charge" of breastfeeding (i.e., I don't feel it's essential to demand bf him for him to thrive) and have some control over it, it is so much easier for me. My doula was just an awesome resource too. She said she was sure my body would start producing milk again, she just wasn't sure how much. But like she said, even if its just a teeny amount, that's still liquid gold that he's getting. And more than anything, we'll get to enjoy that breastfeeding relationship and the emotional benefits that go with it. I am so excited about starting! I am glad I decided to this now versus later - I feel like this way I have a lot of time to establish my milk supply and teach him to be a nurseling again. It's so freeing to be able to take this into my hands versus feeling like it was forced on me or that my body is being "used" without my permission. I'll be sure to update with my progress as I go! Tomorrow my doula is coming over to drop off whatever supplies she has that I can borrow; at the very least, the Avent Isis breast pump. She said she might also have nipple shields and the LactAid nurser. Wish me luck!

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    I can't get over how cute Nickolas is - I was showing my dh pictures of him and he even mentioned how cute he is!

    Wow - you are making some amazing progress Sandy, really your inspirational & I couldn't be more proud of you ~ your taking some really incredible steps twoards healing.
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    (((((((((Sandy))))))))))

    You are simply AMAZING hon! Really, I can't get over your strength and perseverence. Go you! I can't wait to hear how this relactating goes for you. I love to hear your empowered and strong voice as you talk about it. How awesome for you and for Nick! He's one lucky baby to have a Mama like you

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    Lillian, born 12-24-10
    Will, born 10-19-07
    New little one, due 9-19-2012
    Lucas Robert, born to Jesus @ 18 weeks on 12-26-08 (due 5-28-09)
    Ectopic Angel 10-24-06


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    Thanks ladies! You are so sweet, both of you. I am so excited! I really want this to be a positive experience for us, and for our last memory of breastfeeding to not be one where Nick and I were both stressed out and frustrated.

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    So today was a great day! My LLL leader came by just a few minutes ago and dropped off all three of the things we had talked about - a breast pump (a manual one which I had really liked when I was bfing, but if it doesn't help me produce much milk I'll probably get a Medela PISA), breast shells and a LactAid nurser. Woo hoo! I am excited to try it with Nick, and also a little nervous! I just hope that we are able to develop a nice, close bfing bond. I've decided to start out really slow, maybe give him a little of the bottle to stave off his hunger and then encourage him to latch on and nurse with the supplementer for one feeding. We'll see how that goes, and then gradually I'll start doing that for more feedings.

    Another great thing that happened today was that I got an awesome volunteer job! It's the Service Unit Director position I had mentioned before. It pays nothing (of course) but will really let me utilize my skills and education. I will be in charge of the whole volunteer team for our service unit. The hours are very flexible, and I get to do a lot of it from home. I can also take Nick with me for certain parts of the job. I have to look around for a good babysitter for the few hours a month that I might have to leave him (meetings and conference calls). I think this'll really help me feel like I'm using my brain and let me have some adult time. I am excited to get started.

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