Awwwe poor Nick! I hope he didn't catch some tummy virus.
I'm sorry you guys are having such hard times right now.
Hope he feels better soon!
The pics are adorable! What a cute smile you caught!
When I was pregnant with Nick, I constantly worried about how the relationship between Tim and me was going to change after the baby came. People were constantly saying how I was sure to love the baby more than my husband, and how I'd find out what love REALLY was. To be honest, I wasn't looking forward to that because up until then, Tim had been my whole life and I loved him more than anything. Well, now that Nick is here I can honestly say that I don't love either one of them more than the other! I love them both equally, but very separately. I love Tim like a soulmate and a companion. I can't wait to see him every night and can't wait to tell him all that happened during my day and hear what happened during his. I can't wait to do silly stuff like cuddle on the couch and read together. I love talking about the future with him, and I love to imagine us as this old, gray, shriveled couple walking hand in hand down the street. With Nick, I feel a fierce, protective kind of love. My heart hurts for him because he's so innocent and I so want to protect him from everything bad and I know I just cannot. I love his cute little personality, and cannot wait to see who he grows up to be! There is just no way to compare the two kinds of love. They are so very different! I know a lot of women say they love their kids more than their husbands, but I am just not one of them. And I like it that way!
Nick was feeling a lot better yesterday. He was up a little early this morning with gas, but Tim took care of him and I got to sleep! :woohoo: He's asleep now after his 7:30 feeding. I hope he has a good day today, too.
Oh, and I know this isn't my adoption journal but I had to make note - I spoke with Jenny at our old adoption agency about the current situation with Indian adoptions, and Tim and I made the official decision last night to go ahead with an adoption from India! We will be starting the paperwork in April-May, and hope to have our dossier submitted by October. I'm going to have two kids about a year apart, holy crap!
I know what you mean about wanting to protect them! Its so hard!
YEAH for the adoption!!!!
What a sweet little munchkin:
This is what I spend all day doing:
So it sucks, but I am sick as a dog. Tim was sick for a little while, and of course, I caught it! When Nick wakes up crying for a bottle, my head feels like it's going to explode! It's terrible. AND to top it off, we're out of cold medicine and Kleenex! Tim's going to pick me up some today. Can't wait for it to be the weekend so I can get some rest while he takes care of the Nicky-boy.
I think Nick's going through his 12-week growth spurt. It's hard to tell with him because he's so happy all the time! Sometimes I want to tell him that it's okay to scream or be grumpy all day if he feels bad. He's been waking up during the night again, and he wants to be held more than usual, so I'm sure that's what it is. I cannot believe that in a week, he'll be 3 months old! That was always such a big milestone for me in my head with him. 3 months old is definitely not a newborn anymore. He's growing up! I wish there was a way I could record every single thing he does. I want to remember everything, every nuance and every detail. I just feel so sad that some of this will be lost to us forever. Our first child, our little miracle... okay, I'm going to stop before you all start gagging!
or slapping you
Never, you deserve to have that happy baby. He's so tall, look at those legs.
The love you feel for your baby and husband is completely different. I think that while you'd certainly save the baby first if they were drowning, it doesn't mean you love them less. I always told my friends that they'd love their husbands completely differently, but probably love them MORE after a baby. How can you not rediscover love when you see your man and your baby asleep together, or watch him get googly over the baby. You'll love them each differently, and depending on who's driving you crazier at the time I wonder if people didn't mean something about how having kids can change your relationship. It certainly alters the dynamic of it and can sometimes leave us behind as partners and lovers and turn us into parents, particularly while in the "Trenches" of parenthood (you know, that first couple months)
Gah I'll stop now.. I just love the post baby relationship, and while he drives me up the wall, I love my bf more now than I did before we had kids. There's something about seeing how happy he gets when he sees his babies.
How fantastic about your adoption! I'm looking forward to following the next journey
You are just so sweet. I love how emersed you are in Nick . My first few months with our first was a blur really. So I am glad you take time and you try to remember as much as possible. He is your miracle!
You guys are awesome. I love reading your comments! :bigarmhug: Thank you for always taking the time to leave some.
Some more pictures!
Photo shoot in his "Daddy's Team" outfit. He's worn that ONCE and now he's almost too big for it already! People really love buying him clothes, especially all his "Grandmas" (great grandmas, great aunts, actual grandma, etc.)! I am so thankful, but sometimes I feel sad that he doesn't get to wear all of them - it seems so wasteful! My eyebrow lady told me that her granddaughter has the same problem, and she's only a month older than Nick, so maybe it's a common issue?? Oh, right, here's the picture:
Umm, can we go yet??
Storytime! Aren't my boys sweet?
I am sooo excited for your upcoming adoption, how wonderful!! It sounds like things are going smoothly for you, I'm so happy for you!
I'm sorry your feeling sick (((hugs)) I love the pictures though, he's such a beautiful baby & his parents aren't so bad either I love the one of you kissing his head, how precious is that!
ETA: We must've been posting at the same time. That 1st picture of Nick cracks me up, I love his facial expression! LOL The one of him & his daddy is a treasure.
Hehe, thanks, Chims! He is a total crack-up - before him, I had no clue babies could have so many expressions and be so animated at such a young age!
So, Saturday was one of the most amazing days of my life!! For the first time ever, I got to hear Nick LAUGH!!!!! It wasn't just a little chortle either, it was a full-blown "hahaha" laugh! This is what happened: Tim was hanging out with Nick on the loveseat, and I was on the big couch, surfing the internet for a good recipe for dinner. Tim was just being goofy, and Nick was "talking" away, being his usual cute self. All the sudden, I hear, "Hahahaha!" in a little bitty baby voice! I looked up at Tim, and he was looking at me with a look of TOTAL amazement and wonder on his face! His mouth was hanging open and he was speechless! I said, "Did he just laugh?? OMG, he just laughed!" And I ran over to them. Tim did whatever he was doing again, and Nick did it AGAIN! So I ran and got the video camera thinking that surely he would stop, but he did it again and I got it on video!! I'll be sure to post it later, it is the most adorable thing!! Since then, he's done it a few times, but not with as much enthusiasm and never for as long! I can't wait for him to start doing it alllll the time, it's too cute to resist!
oh I just LOVE baby chuckles, congrats mama!! Can't wait to see the vid
lol aaww!!!!! Oh how stinkin' adorable. I can't wait to see the video too!
Yayy for baby laughs !!!! They are so genuine!
Here is the promised video!
LOL! That is SO CUTE!!!!
Not much cuter than that!~!!!
I just od'd on cuteness.
I'm not sure which of the three of you is cuter.. I looove new baby chuckles
Hehe, thanks you guys! I loooove that video, every time I watch it (yes, I've watched it multiple times already :oops: ) it makes me laugh and tear up!
Nicholas Ishaan turned three months old on January 17th, 2008! Don't ask me where the time went, I'm just as confused as the next guy! Here are his 3-month stats and milestones:
- He's growing out of his 0-3 month clothes now, and is in that awkward stage where the 3-6 month clothes are a little too big on him.
- He LAUGHED (!!!!) for the first time on Saturday, January 12, 2008! He's chuckled many times since then but never for as long as that night!
- He can hold his head upright about 90% of the time.
- He can roll from his back to his side.
- He loves to watch us eat! Solids are probably not far behind.
- He talks constantly now, and we can tell his "mad talking" from his "happy/excited talking" from his "content talking".
- The other night he said, "Mama" when he was crying! I know he didn't mean to, but it made me tear up (of course) anyway! He regularly says, "Mamamama" when he's sad.
- He's such a happy little guy, we've caught him cooing and talking to himself in his car seat after he wakes up. He won't cry or alert us, he'll just sit there cooing until one of us hears him and gets him!
- He's still a snuggly little monkey, and I'm so lucky to be his mama!
Okay, so that last one isn't technically a milestone, but I had to add it in there. I love, love, love my little boy!!!!
OMGosh that video was precious!!! What a sweetie pie!
Now that he is 3 months old the fun really starts! His personality will blossom and he will "connect" with you more. I know you will love it!
Nicky and Mama like to snuggle!
I came home one day to find Tim carrying Nick in the Ergo like this! He said Nick just slid down to this position and happened to like it!
Mom, I'm going to punch you!
I think he looks beautiful in this picture:
he is wonderfully beautiful honey. Like Asha said, you think you've been in love this last 3 months you just wait
I can't believe he's already 3 months.. wow
He is beautiful...like his mama
I just LOVE the first pic of him and you snuggling! He looks so happy and comfy!
All the other pics are adorable too, but....that one really touched me!
Oh such sweet pictures That 2nd picture is soo beautiful!
I HAD to get this for Nick from Old Navy. It was too cute to pass up!!
Cheering on the Packers!
In his purple Bumbo!
And again. It's so hard to get a pic of him that's not blurry - he loves to move and groove in his Bumbo!
More of me and my boy (yes, Tim loves taking pictures of us! ):
Please ignore my messy house!! :oops:
What?! Your house isn't perfectly clean anymore? Did you have a baby or something?
I don't know Sandy...Nick doesn't look too happy in that purple bumbo...ROFL... He is so cute!
I love his tiny toes!
It looks pretty clean to me! lol Those pictures are adorable he's such a happy little thing
that second picture (on this page) is awesome. He's looking at the camera like, yes, I stole mommy's heart, I know it!
You guys are hilarious! Lisa, that pic is funny because Tim says he looks like Yoda with his ears!
I had these grandiose ideas that I was going to get a job. A full-time, daytime job. Tim and I talked and decided we'd hire a nanny for Nick because we didn't want to do daycare. So I was on my way to an interview, saw a bulletin board with a baby and his mom on it and started crying! I came home, and even though I was excited about the job, something didn't feel right. I just kept feeling sad and stressed out. Then it hit me - I am not ready to leave Nick. Not even for 5 or 6 hours a day (Tim and I had decided to stagger our work times so he'd only be with a nanny for that long)! I don't know why it took me that long to figure out. I love being home with him. I love watching him grow, learn new stuff, and be himself. I love being the one who gets to see all his exciting new things first, and I love that I'm the one who comforts him when he's sad. I do miss working though, so I've decided that until I can find a good nighttime job, I'm going to volunteer at night at our local domestic violence crisis line. That way, Tim can watch Nick when I need him to and I'm not tied down to any set number of hours. AND I get my baby-break!
I've been to the dentist yesterday and today for a deep cleaning. UGH!!!! It really sucks! I hate the dentist. I have to go back in the near future to get some cavities filled and possibly a root canal. :? Well, that's what happens when you don't go to the dentist for 7 years! I decided I had to get over my fear and go because I didn't want to pass on my irrational phobia to Nick. He needs to see that the dentist is not scary!
I've also been talking to Tim more about the adoption, and I was telling him that maybe we should wait to even get started until October. I want Nick to have time to be the baby for a while. I know that will only extend the process another 3-4 months, so maybe I'm just being silly. I think the developmental leap from 2 to 3 is so big that it will make a difference. I want him to be able to verbalize if he feels sad or bad about the changes that his little sister will cause, you know? I just worry about my little sweetie. I think he'll be about 28 months old when we bring her home if we start around his first birthday. Tim thinks 24 months is good enough. We'll see how we feel as we get into the summer months!
Soon I'm going to go shopping for some new clothes for Nicky. He has so many clothes, but almost none of them are clothes that Tim and I bought him. This bothers me for some reason! I want him to mainly wear clothes that we picked out. Isn't that strange?? I must be the only mom who feels that way - most people are glad when their kids get free clothes!
I went through something similar after I had my oldest ds, it's so hard to try and find that balance. I think it's wonderful that your wanting to volunteer at a domestic violence center!
Oye the dentist, I hear ya loud n' clear I hadn't gone in about 12 yrs b/c of my fear, finally went & spent a good 3 months in there getting my poor teeth fixed LOL Thankfully just lots of fillings n' such.
And, for what it's worth I dn't think your strange lol Your a mama!
OMG! I have an ongoing hate relationship with my teeth! I got really messed up growing up in Poland and going to this butcher dentist... and not having fluorinated water was also a factor... but I keep getting my fillings and root canals- it just sucks!
I also stress out majorly before I go, the only thing that helps, is my nice Indian lady dentist who is so sweet!!! She is so loving and gentle that I wouldn't do it without her. She kind of looks like you too, it helps to have nice associations lol....
I can understand how you wouldn't want to go to work. I feel that way, even if i'm gone for a few hours on a fieldtrip for one of the older kiddos. I miss my babies.
Yeah, the guilt of bringing another baby home...It happens each time. That will be an adjustment every time, no matter what age.
You guys are so sweet! And OMG Chims, 12 years?? Holy moly, I thought 7 was bad. Asha, I know, I went to a butcher dentist too and that's why I never went back! It's so cool that you like your new dentist (and aww about the nice associations! ). I like my new hygienist, haven't yet spent time with my dentist. I am so nervous about possible root canals - how painful was your recovery?? They told me they're going to sedate me for the actual procedure, so at least that's something!
I found a really cool volunteer opportunity! It's as a Service Unit Director for the Girl Scouts in my area. It comes with a lot of responsibility (which is what I was looking for, I need my brain to be stimulated!), and the lady who will "hire" me was enthused about meeting with me. It's neat because I would get to hire their volunteer team, approve girl programs, and do a lot of generally neat things if I get hired. And of course, being a volunteer means flexibility! I am also going to a meeting on Tuesday for the domestic violence council. Since both of these things sounds so interesting to me, I'm going to see which will fit my schedule better. I feel really good about my decision not to work yet!
Some pictures of my baby boy today:
I need to vent for a little bit. For some reason, Nick has been having a bad day today (well, technically yesterday). He just would not go down to sleep easily, and was fussy everytime we tried to put him down. He cried for a while in the afternoon, and I finally got him to go down at 3 PM. He slept from 3-6 and that was his only nap. So Tim comes home at around 4:45 PM. He plays the computer, talks about his day, asks about mine. Then Nick wakes up so he goes and gets him and feeds him. While he's feeding him, his friend calls, so I take Nick from him and finish up with his feeding, etc. I am also making dinner. Tim talks on the phone, and after about half an hour, Nick is getting tired. So I take him into his room but I don't put him down because the stuff in the oven is going to beep in about 5 minutes and I'm waiting for Tim to get off the phone so he can put Nick down. The stuff beeps, and Tim's still not off the phone, so I put Nick down and go finish up with dinner. Nick starts crying, and I go back into the bedroom and hear Tim say to his friend that he's got to go get the baby to bed. So far so good. That's when the trouble starts. Tim has a really hard time getting Nick down. No matter what, he always says, "He's hungry." Even if Nick has JUST eaten. So I said, "No, he's not." We went back and forth and I told him, fine, go get a bottle. He says, "Are you mad?" I say, "No." So he says, "What's the matter?" I say, "Nothing, I'm tired. I've been doing this all day." So he says, "Okay, just go out there and relax." Nick is screaming his head off. Yeah, not going to happen. So he gets the bottle, and meanwhile I get Nick to sleep (because he wasn't hungry!). Tim goes back to his computer game and I come out and do my homework. Nick wakes up a half hour later, and Tim is taking care of him. And Tim starts getting grumpier and grumpier. Why? Because he's fussy and he won't stop. He won't just go back down to sleep. He even half-jokingly said, "He's spoiled." :roll: I told him you can't spoil a baby at 3 months! And I know he knows that, he just gets so frustrated. So I told him, you just have to accept that he's young and some days are not going to be so great for him. So he says, "Well, it seems like you have a much easier time getting him to sleep. It's not so easy for me." My jaw about dropped. Just because I don't constantly ***** and moan about it doesn't mean it's EASY for me!! I told him it seems easy when I do it because I don't constantly complain. And since then, we haven't really spoken to each other. *Sigh* I'm going to talk to him and tell him how incredibly stressful it is for me to have to take care of Nick all day, and then when I think I'm going to get a break when Tim gets home, he just gets all grumpy and upset and frustrated with Nick. It's everyday! Whenever he has to take care of Nick I always have to hear how Nick won't go to sleep, or he's so grumpy, or, "Do you think he's hungry? I think I should give him a bottle." I'm trying to break him of the habit he has of sucking on the bottle before bed even when he's not hungry, and Tim is not helping! Aargh! I want to tell him to just suck it up! I do it everyday for a lot longer than he does, and I don't constantly complain. Listening to a crying baby isn't my idea of instant relaxation either, but you do what you have to, you know?? And to think that he thinks I have it easier than him! Makes my head spin. I mean, yeah, I can get the baby down faster usually. I'm more patient, and I spend more time with him calmly trying different things till he settles. But that does not mean it's easy for me, or that it doesn't frustrate me. I just don't see the point in huffing and puffing about it! He's a BABY, of course he's going to have his bad days, you know? I know it's hard and annoying sometimes, but don't be dour and pissed off all the time because of it. How does that help anyone? Gah. We are definitely going to have a talk. And the big irony is that Nick is fast asleep now and I can't sleep!
:bighug: I've come to the conclusion that there is a mommy trait that genetically give women more patience and understanding when it comes to fussy babies. Maybe it's from carrying them inside or something. anyways, hope things get worked out.
oh, and that outfit on him looks so cuddly warm!
Thanks, Lisa. :bigarmhug: I wish he could accept the fact that Nick is a baby and babies fuss and cry when they're tired! Wonder how he'd react if we had a high maintenance baby...
That outfit is one of my favorites! I actually put it on him for the first time yesterday (he got it a month ago - the kid has too many clothes!) and I love it.
I don't know why I didn't talk about Nick's cloth diapers on here! We got them about 3 weeks ago, and have been CDing him faithfully every night since then. I seriously LOVE it!! I love how he looks in them, and I love the fact that he has breathable cotton against his bum and not plastic and chemicals. And it's better for the environment! He's had two or three poopies in them and washing it out was not as bad as I thought. We bought a sprayer and I use that and then just toss it into a trashbag. When he's used 3 diapers, they go into the wash. Super easy! And I love that we don't have to change him in the middle of the night - no leaks for 12 hours! I just use a regular insert that it came with plus a newborn insert and he's golden. We went with the BG 2.0s and we'll definitely be buying some more. Right now I only have 6 because I wanted to see how we liked them. Here are some cute pictures of him in his 2.0s.
Hanging out on the couch, looking like Bobby Hill from King of the Hill!!
Whatchu lookin' at foo??
how cute!!! glad they're working out for you!
Sorry about grumpy days... Does Nick take a pacifier? Those always help with settling.... I agree that feeding just to make a baby sleep isn't right...I think Tim just wants to "fix" the situation as fast as possible...
I hope talking about it helps... babies are usually fussy in the afternoon, what can you do?
I love the pics of Nick in his dipes! How adorable!
I read all the time, sweetie, but rarely chime in.
I think what Tim's going through is totally normal. I know with Ryan, when he gets frustrated, he's not actually frustrated with Oliver, but more so with the fact that he knows I can settle him faster. It's like it hurts his feelings or makes him feel bad...which in turn makes me feel bad for him. He wants so much to be a hands-on dad, and sometimes, it's just so hard. It is easier for us to read the boys because we're home all day with them, but it certainly doesn't mean we "have it easy".
Hang in there, sweetie...things will level out so much when the boys are more active and can go do "Daddy and Son" stuff!
Thanks, you guys! When Tim came home last night we talked and he immediately said, "I know I complain a lot and I'm sorry." So I just reiterated what I'd said here and we apologized to each other and that was that. Last night was much better, Tim really did make an effort and wasn't frustrated/upset. And it helped that Nick was over his little difficult bump, whatever that was! Wonder if he was feeling bad because he was grumpier than usual, and it only lasted about 3 days or so. He already had his growth spurt, so I'm not sure exactly what was going on. Who can tell with babies??
Anyway, here are a couple of pictures:
I got some awesome tips on taking pictures of babies on the Photography board, and I think my pictures are getting better! That last one was taken today, and I think it's better than the rest. I love taking pictures of him, I swear I take like 50 a day at least!!
On Monday we have a playdate with a baby who's actually younger than Nick! Makes me proud that my boy's such a big boy that he can now play with babies younger than himself. For a while he was the youngest baby wherever we went. It'll be nice for the mommies to get out of the house too! This is a fellow-substitute teacher I used to work with; she gave birth in November. She's also a natural birther!
It's amazing to me how much Nick changes and grows everyday. Lately, he's been obsessed with the pets, especially our cocker spaniel Odie. He watches him wherever he goes, and yesterday he grabbed on to his ear! Poor Odie, he just gave Nick this blank stare and kept walking. I love watching the pets interact with him; they really do love him! Our little dog Kaylee is so maternal towards him, and she usually hates kids. She'll run up to him when he's in his Bumbo and gently lick his hands (yuck, I know!) and sniff at him and wag her tail. They're going to have fun with him when he's mobile!
I've finally solved the dilemma of what caused my nicely-napping baby to morph into a big grumpus at naptime. He has allergies. The poor thing, I feel horrible for him. So far it's just a little bit of coughing and sneezing and a stuffed-up nose. We're suctioning him and keeping his head elevated. The lucky thing is that he has been sleeping well at night (knock on wood!) so we haven't lost any sleep... yet. We think it's allergies to pet dander like I have, because we found some red splotches/welts on his skin like I get when cat hair sits on my skin. So for now the course of action is to vacuum a lot, and of course to keep preventing the cats from getting into his stuff. The other night I found Lacy (our medium-haired tortie) in his car seat! We washed the fabric in there, of course, but we're going to be more diligent about keeping them away from his stuff.
Hi Sandy! Sorry I'm such an infrequent visitor! I just wanted to tell you that men just appear to have such a shorter fuse when it comes to fussy babies that it is unreal and, in my opinion, totally normal. My son was REEEEALLY high maintenance as an infant with terrible colic that turned out to be reflux that caused hours of crying every day until we figured out what the problem was. I remember feeling so inept and frustrated with myself and with my own child. DH would come home from work and feel like he needed to do nothing to help me because he'd been at work all day while I'd been at home in my PJ's.
I just really think that men require to-the-point communication and I can tell you that once Nick is old enough to communicate his desires clearly, Tim will be more comfortable helping with him and things will get better. We had great luck with teaching my son sign language from very early on and my DH was then so much better equipped to help him instead of (you guessed it) giving him a bottle every time he fussed, LOL! Don't worry, this too shall pass!