October 24 2010
wow you just keep on growing and learning and going so fast! you can sit on your own now, not all the time and it still seems to be a big production of rolling around trying to get the right angle but you do it, daddy has seen it, i keep missing it! i watch you squirm and fuss and then i blink and your up! oh well, lots of time to see it you do this and many more wonderful things! you and daddy are getting a lot better at being just the two of you, i had to run to the store yest and left you home with daddy the second he walked in the door and by the time i got back (45 min) you barely even noticed i was gone, you were playing in your highchair with daddy eating your second helping of cereal!! you have your first cold, some sinus congestion, a little coughing and sneezing, it's not to bad though and i may not have even noticed if it weren't for the fact that you snuffle so much when you breastfeed! ps, you HATE the sinus bulb and seem to be trying really hard to learn how to blow your nose! i watched you trying to blow into your blanket last night! guess it's a bonus that daddy was sick the other week and you got such a kick out of watching him blow his nose! you are officially up to finger foods as long as they are cubed/diced small, that pincher grip is getting better and better all the time and you love to sit in your highchair and eat rice puffs while mommy putters around in the kitchen cleaning or baking, i love this! you love to play on the floor these days and it means that mommy has to vacuum way more often now to keep up with the hair and stuff that gets all over. crawling is almost there! you can get up on all fours and rock and move one knee forward before flopping down on your stomach and doing the worm to get where you want to (see old 80's dance styles!) although you still do the military belly crawl more often than not. you are also trying to stand :eek: mommy needs to get you something that you can stand and play on other than the coffee table (which you are a pro at) so you can learn to get up on your own, you have the basics but your arms are not quite long enough to get you high enough to get upright! you love to play 'fetch' where you drop it and we go get it or you drop it and then you go get it! raspberries are your new favourite mode of communication! and when daddy does 'flying baby' with you, you light up and 'start your engines' by blowing lots and lots of raspberries and then daddy flies you around the room until you start giggling too much keep up the raspberries!!! how did we ever entertain ourselves before you?!! the biting is getting better, but you really dislike mommies stern voice (duh!) and quite often will cry even though i'm the one that got hurt! for now i take is as your 'im sorry' since it usually involves a very loving look and a hug through your tears and then you are more gentle. on friday we are going on a plane!! we are going to see aunty fuchsia and her family and grandma for a whole week! not sure what to expect from the plane ride but at least it's a short trip (1 1/2 hours) so whatever it is will be over soon! if plans pan out the way they look you will get to see your first real forest and maybe some fish (caution, this time of year is stinks pretty bad!) have to look up when the salmon run is for where we are going.
as for learning to make great cakes for your birthdays, this is the latest cake i made, daddy is soooo impressed with my progress and so happy to know that his little girl will have the best cakes on the block, and all made by mommy!
this one still needs to be steamed but you can see what's been done! the whole thing is edible (tag bow and all!) and only took a total of about 8-9 hours (spread out over a few days so that thing could dry properly!) i am really having fun with this and thank aunty robin big time for helping with equipment to do it properly! she has bought mommy a few things now that have made a huge difference! the right tools for the job are honestly a very good idea! well that's about it for now, mommy's brain is starting to ask for more sleep.
love you always, mom!
October 28 2010
tomorrow we fly!! i have such mixed feelings about this, excited and nervous and happy and scared! i have know idea what to expect despite all the advice and stories from other moms. your sinus cold is clearing but still there from time to time so i'm hoping that won't cause any undo irritation to you. the plan for now is to play and play hard in the lobby while waiting to board, keep you distracted while boarding and bf for take off, hopefully you will do a good nap (1 1/2 hour flight) and i can wake you for landing and bf again as you usually do when you wake up. we have a busy week ahead of us and i can't wait to show you all the sights and ppl! Aunty fuchsia has been busy on her end prep'ing things for our arrival and i am so thankful to have such a wonderful bff, i hope that at some point in your life you are able to make a friend who is even half the person she is to me! grandma is overjoyed to meet you and is already planning on spending her next two months of income on you! dinner out, toys from sears (one very cool doll that she already bought you) and then pics. the salmon are spawning so we are def planning a trip to goldstream park, daddy will love the forest and never want to come home!! the costumes are almost all set now except for mine, the dress i had got wrecked and now i have to find something else to pull off 'wendy' by sunday, thinking of just getting something while we are there. funding seems to have come together and we should be set to have some fun and still make all the bills on time! last nights sleep was unacceptable by the way! 2:30am is not bedtime, mommy is not your bed and 5am is the wrong time to wake me up after a night like that, thankfully daddy was still home and he handled getting you up and changing bum while mommy tried to reign in a little temper tantrum. you will find that while mommy is all gung ho and gets things done best in the morning, it is not because i am a morning person, i hate mornings and they are for resting and puttering and waking up, i just run best on autopilot! oh and a couple cups of coffee! so much to do today but have to wait till you wake up officially (yes you went back to sleep, woke me up again around 8:30 then went back to sleep again) so i am taking this time now to do my quiet morning rituals before the mommy tornado hits the house. papa will be coming up to watch you while i run around cleaning and packing, we are hoping to get everything ready tonight so that all we have to do is wake up, get dressed and go tom, we leave at 10 am. well just wanted to let you know where things stand today, you are doing great, some great things coming home for you (i can't wait to shop in aunty fuchsia's basement for your next set of clothes, then come home and go through the very large suitcase of clothes that i have here for you that i forgot about! now that it should mostly fit you!) keep growing and learning the way you are and we will be fine! you sit like a pro now and rarely fall over, although last night i almost pee'd myself, you do this head tilt to look at things sometimes and you did it while sitting and it threw you off balance and you fell backwards! usually you can put your hands out to stop yourself now but backwards is a different story! you are eating soo great now too, you love to feed yourself and mommy has gotten to the point of just cutting up some of my dinner for you as you love it off my plate onto your tray. can't wait to see what you learn from kaiya! well gotta go do some more stuff, love you always, MOM!
November 19 2010
so it's been a little longer than i had planned but here i am! the trip went great. followed instructions and did not feed when we left, however you did great (at least until mommy beaned you in the forehead with the seat back tray, oops!) everyone was very impressed at how well you did since you were awake the whole flight and only really fussed on landing, but edmonton is 2500ft above see level and victoria is like 5ft so the air pressure change alone on landing would have bugged anyone (and did bug the lady beside us, so she was really impressed!) you didn't scream you just moaned and whined! coming home was different, we were in the middle of the plane so mommy just went ahead and fed you and as a result you slept the whole way! the trip itself was fantastic! we are already planning on doing it again next year (something we weren't going to because daddy and i wanted to plan our 10 year anniv, but that's 4 years away and this was too fun not to do again!) had a blast with aunty fuchsia and her family, grandma was head over heels in love with you and spoiled us all rotten! it seems that she has been saving her pennies since we told her we were preg, either that or she budgeted to be in debt for a while, took us all out for dinner (6 adults+herself+ you and Kaiya) at boston pizza, def not the cheapest place around! plus she spoiled us by helping out with the pictures, and went half on a really cool fisher price musical table for you! the pictures were fantastic and we ended up getting a whole package, thank goodness for mommy getting the smile saver card way back when! grandma got a special treat, the way she went into the studio on her scooter, the handle bars were on the right, so mommy put the decorative stairs under grandma's feet and we cradled you in her right arm (her good one at this point, i am hoping that the MS doesn't get worse before you get to know her.) and we got pictures of just the two of you. this has been her greatest fear with having a grandchild, that she would never be able to hold you safely, and now she has pics of it!!! we all almost cried! we also went to goldstream park to watch the salmon spawning. you and daddy were sooo cute looking at all the nature! my little nature bug that you are now! i had to introduce each tree to you and then when you touched it you beamed and giggled and smiled and had so much fun. and daddy, it turns out, has three extra smile lines that run up his cheeks to his eyes! the picture looked like he had been mauled by something and clawed up, but he was just smiling!
you are currently teething again and this is now the fourth time i've sat down to write this! you don't want to sleep for any length of time and naps are getting harder and harder to get you down for. also looks like you have some intestinal something going on, IBS or gas or something as your belly button has been sticking out for about three weeks now and the doc said that it wasn't healed on the inside so it may have herniated, we go in to see him on monday to find out what's going on. you are potty training now and doing very well, it's called elimination communication now and basically means that while we are not focused on getting you to be fully potty trained we are working on signals and concepts. you can now use sign language to tell me that you need to go to the bathroom and consistently go poop in the potty without dirty diapers (up to 5 times one day!) it's been over a week and the only poo was my fault, i didn't get out of bed fast enough, but you did hold in as much as you could until we got to the potty! pee's are really hit or miss, you sometimes signal but mostly just for poops. for your age and just starting out you are doing fantastic and we are all so proud of you!! well i'm going to go now and try to get some sleep before you wake up again, we have an early day tom, mommy is taking you to a baby fair (weestock 2010 holiday edition!) and we leave at 9:30am! love you always, mommy!
November 23 2010
so we saw the doc yest and it looks like surgery. you have a retractible herniated umbilicus, basically means that your belly button didn't heal properly when you were born and now the intestines are putting pressure on the hole. there is some risk of strangulation with this (the intestine can poke through the hole and then gets squeezed off by the base of the hole and well, you can imagine the problems that would cause) but so far so good you don't seem to be showing signs of that. good news is that mommy caught it early and it's an easy day surgery at the stollery. bad news, is that it means you have to go for day surgery. this is called a congenital problem which means that it was present at birth and in most cases it heals itself by 12 months (or 5 years depending on what research you read!) but yours is getting bigger not smaller. doc had wanted to wait till 12 months to see if it would heal (see your 6 month doc check up notes) but mommy and daddy noticed that it was getting worse so i took you in early, doc gave me brownie points for that because it means we caught it before it got dangerous! so now i am waiting on a call to let me know when and how and all the wonderful details, hoping that there will be a meeting with the specialist (pediatric surgeon) before hand so i can ask questions and get the full information. most surgeries that are planned have a pre-op appointment with the doc to make sure that you are fit for surgery and know all the details for preparation. good news is that all the surgeons for this are at the stollery at the u of a which is a great childrens hospital program so i have confidence that you will be in good hands. mommy has some major mommy guilt over this even though i know there is no need, there is nothing that we did or didn't do to cause this and i've done the best thing that i can in observing the issue and responding promptly. but it's a mommy thing! i know it's not because i stepped on a bug when i was 8 but part of me can't help but feel responsible, this is the same guilt that makes moms try to be supermom and do everything at once, and feel bad when they aren't the best mom in the world by any and all definitions! totally irrational but hey it keeps us grounded. you still aren't sttn again and i think it is because of the discomfort you are experiencing with this. although i'm not sure it seems to be that you have to poop at night and it just won't happen. trying to make you comfortable as i can and at the same time not make a big deal out of this, i want you to know that it's life as normal until the recovery comes and then i can pamper the heck out of you for a little bit, then back to normal. with you being so active, this is the part that i'm really dreading, i don't know what the restrictions will be but i am sure that there will be some for at least the first little while. daddy is being supper supportive while mommy wrestles with all the emotions that come with news like this. i hope that you never have to deal with it, but if you do at least i will be able to share some experience. aunty fuchsia is my sanity right now with this as she just dealt with a similar situation as kai went for tear duct surgery, same deal, day surgery, routine procedure, just something that happens, so she is there for me with some experience as well as understanding the mommy guilt. i hope that you are able to make a friend in your life like this that you know you can count on and that you are grateful counts on you. these friends are a basic necessity in life sometimes, even if it's just for coffee or a phone call, they can keep you grounded, help pick you up to wonderful heights and are more than just family. i will try to find this wonderful passage that was emailed to me ages ago called friends reason, season or lifetime. it really has helped me to accept that not all friends are there forever and the ones that are, truly are! well that's about it for now i guess, mommy has some help coming over later this morning for me to talk it all out and i hope that you are on good behaviour! going to go out to the veggie store as daddy gets home so he can sneak in for a nap before you see him (you want him if you see him so naps don't happen!) and after the last week of interrupting everyones sleep, moaning and crying and whining in you sleep and then bouncing off the walls all day, daddy NEEDS some sleep, he's been so good to both of us and today especially he started work early and so had to get up extra early. lots of love always, mom!
December 7 2010
Hello my little love! well you are sleeping, daddy is sleeping and mommy knows that the second i lay down you will both wake up so i'm not even going to try! it's only 4:40pm and i did nap with you today so it's all good. well, it seems that pears are mommy's new best friend, after a rough start with them earlier on, you seem to be doing great with them and guess what... your belly button is doing great! may not need surgery! you were just really bunged up it seems and that was aggravating the problem, got you cleared out and life is good again, pears were the trick! you are starting to sleep longer at night again too. it seems that you needed more than just booby at bedtime so we added a bedtime snack and so far so good. daddy just got word from the doc that the vasectomy was successful and he is now clear so it's official, you are a one of a kind one and only! christmas looks to be pretty great too, we got you a few new toys and all the decorations are bought and up (will just need a bigger tree when we get a house) for now the 4ft tree is on the old holly hobby table inside the playpen and seems to be working great for keeping you and the cats off of it! you are starting to stand by yourself without support, still need a little help getting up but you are working on it, and the other day you took three steps all by yourself. i think you are still a little unsure of your ability to walk, even though i've been watching you and i know you could do it if you were ready. we are not pushing it though, if you want to hold hands then that's just fine with us! soon enough you'll be running around and the last thing you'll want to do it hold our hands so we are both trying to enjoy it while it lasts! you crawl like there's no tom though and are really fast! hoping to get you into the mall this week for a weigh and measure, you are getting so big, but at the same time sometimes i look at you and you seem so small. with christmas fast approaching i cant help but look at you and want to cry happy tears sometimes that i get to share this life with you and teach you all the little things. christmas is supposed to be a time of family and love and sharing and compassion and i hope that by the time you are reading this, that we have taught you these things. presents are good, but the good feelings are supposed to be more important. you saw santa last week, you did pretty good and didn't freak out too much! it was the second time you had seen a santa and we got a picture this time. you even got a free stuffed reindeer because it was your first pic with santa! you love it! there are so many things that i want you to know that it's hard to get them out sometimes. i talk to you when you are asleep in my arms and hope that you will someday understand, through all the good times and bad, no matter how frustrated or sad or happy or whatever, i will always love you more than you will know and hope that somewhere in your life you find someone that means so much to you! i dread the teenage years of you hating me (hey, it's inevitable at some point as you struggle to secure your own life and place!) and hope that it's not too bad and doesn't last long! you are my happy place, my shining thought and my reason for getting out of bed in the morning (usually because you've woken me up hours before i'm ready! lol!) i love you with all my heart! love always, mom!