Welcome to your lodge!!
Welcome to your lodge!
Oh, wow, cool! Thanks!
I guess I'd better post an intro, then . I apologize in advance for bad typing - my hands are so swollen and they hurt.
edited to add: oops, it got REALLY LONG, sorry for the novella.
DH and I met after my freshman year in college. I had intended to be pre-med, but burned myself out with too many college courses in HS. I took a break from all that my freshman year, only to discover that I really missed it. Sooo, I came home for the summer and took chemistry and calculus 2 in summer school at a university near me to get back on track for the premed curriculum. DH was in my chemistry class and was my lab partner. We pretty much hit it off immediately and dated (even long-distance, 1700 miles) for the next 3 years.
He was 24 when we met (I was 19) and had been previously married and was custodial to his then 4 year old daughter, Boo. He had been in the Navy, but after the divorce had come back home and gone back to college to earn his degree in engineering. He graduated in June 2000 with an electrical engineering degree.
We got engaged over Thanksgiving in 2000 (my Sr year) and decided to see if I got into medical school before planning the wedding date. I was accepted to med school in March of 2001 and started in June 2001. We decided to put the wedding off until after my 1st year of med school. I moved to the new city (only 300 miles from DH - it seemed VERY close) and we visited 3 out of every 4 weekends.
We got married in June, 2002, in the break between years 1 and 2 of med school, and he and Boo moved down to be with me.
Medical school is very busy and we knew it would not be a good time to have a baby, what with bad schedules and residency looming. We had 1 other obstacle, also, in that I have Bipolar I disorder (manic depression). It is well conrolled on meds, but all of those meds are not good to take when you're pregnant, so we HAD to plan things, we couldnt afford to have an "oopsie".
So, I finished medical school in 2005, and started a Pediatric residency at the same institution. I watched some of my colleagues get pregnant and knew that we had to wait - residency is NOT a forgiving time. Some of them had to be away from home so much that their own children had stranger anxiety towards them. I knew that was NOT what I wanted, AND I knew that working 80 hours a week with 30 hour days every 4th night would be a BAD time to get preggo, not to mention, that you get 3 weeks maternity leave, and if you take more than that, your residency gets extended or you lose all your vacation (which is precious when you work that much - we only have 4 24 hour periods off per MONTH).
ANyway, the schedule got better as I got further along, so we decided in Spring 2007 that we would try to have a baby around the end of residency. I met with my OB and my psychiatrist, tapered off meds, tried to fix my schedule so it would facilitate our goals, and we started TTC in June 2007.
I have always had VERY irregular cycles - Ive been on BC since age 15 because of it. Obviously, I had to come off of that. My LMP was June 13th, and the waiting got to be terribly nerve wracking - POAS weekly, at least. I finally went back to my OB in September b/c I was very concerned about it and thought that maybe the tests just werent picking something up. so, Sept 21st, I had a blood test, which was negative for HCG and was given a course of provera to see if that would make me cycle. 10 days after finishing it, I STILL Hadnt had a period and was getting worried, so I planned to call in for a f/u appt. I had 1 test left in my bathroom and figured I'd try it just for grins.
It was positive. VERY positive. IMMEDIATELY positive. I about died right there and then from shock. I tested 5 more times with 5 different brands from 5 different stores throughout that day.
Anyway, I got an appt and had a dating ultrasound on 10/4 that put me at 6 week 5 days, and a second one to confirm (she thought she had seen 2 yolk sacs at the first u/s) at 10 weeks. I also took progesterone supplements for the first trimester and had a 1 hour GTT b/c I started out a bit fluffy (which I passed).
Things went smoothly then, but I immediately was concerned about delivery - at my hospital, the OB nurses dont really like residents very much and have been known to go out of their way to "put us in our place" while in labor. (It happened to EVERY ONE of my colleagues who delievered there). Also, I had done my OB rotation in med school there - in 6 weeks, I saw THREE vaginal births, one of which was an unstoppable PTL with a 21 weeker, who obviously didnt make it. EVERYONE else had a c-section. So, I was apprehensive. I KNEW I didnt want a c/section and had never really wanted the whole schebang with epidural and all of that, but didnt know all that much about NCB - that's when I found a few sites, including this one, and started educating myself. I started bringing it all up with my OB at 18 weeks. She seems really open to most things, the only thing we've come to loggerheads on is the "delivery in lithotomy position" thing.
The private OB group decided to move their delivery practice to a community hospital (actually closer to my house) but that made me nervous b/c I am, of course, a pedi, and Ive done a LOT of neonatology. I was NOT comfortable delivering at a hospital that didnt even have a *pediatrician* in house, let alone a neo. I kinda freaked out at that point b/c the idea was that private pt who chose to stay at the "old" hospital would be delievered by the maternal-fetal medicine attending on call (who we would've NEVER met and who would most likely be even MORE intervention-oriented than a regular OB). Also, I found out that once that went into effect, the MFM attendings were very disgruntled about it b/c they were ALSO in charge of the high-risk L&D service, so spending hours with a private pt in a relatively low-risk birth was NOT something they were happy about. I thought about changing to the midwife service, but (and yes, I guess this is elitist of me, but...) they only work with the indigent/medicaid patients and they are all over seen by the MFM people anyway. I had worked at one of the RMCHP clinics (where the midwives are) for 2 years (some were combined pedi/OB) and did NOT want to spend any more time there than I absolutely had to (I saw mothers/moms-to-be get into fistfights in the waiting room, the language was enough to blister your ears, and it just was NOT an environment I wanted to subject myself to).
Anyway, I was VERY relieved when I learned that the neonatologists from my hospital agreed to cover the community hospital deliveries 24/7. That's when I decided to switch places for delivery. (this was...oh...26 weeks or so?). I completely trust the neonatologists/fellows/NNPs that are covering - Ive trained with all of them, so that makes the baby side of things easy.
I was dx'd with GDM in week 28 and tried to control it with diet/exercise and failed. My numbers were always high at night but fine at all other times, I was told by the dietician that it was a common thing in residents b/c we have so much stress and are exhausted by the end of the day, so our cortisol level is sky-high, which causes elevated numbers.
So, Im on insulin as of 34 weeks (now up to 10 units regular before dinner only) and started twice weekly NSTs because of it. I now have an "eviction date" at 40 weeks per my OB - I will keep pushing it a much as I can, as I really dont want an induction, but Im ok with 40 weeks if I have to. Im hoping I can get her agree to let me go to my due date (june 9th), which is officially at 40+2 , if I dont go on my own before then.
I have a fabulous doula who has been to >300 births (its her only job) and had 7 herself. DH and I went through her private childbirth class and she will be with us for the labor - we will stay home until transition, if I can (OB says this is OK as long as I check my glucoses and keep them <120), and then go in.
Im planning on working until June 6th, b/c if I can make it that far, I am officially finished with residency. I have my medical license now, so all I need is the piece of paper from my program director that says I have satisfactorily completed all requirements. Im done with everything except 3 clinics (1 half day per week) and a "fluffy" elective that Im taking now - working 10:30 - 12 M-F with no call and no weekends. We kinda cut it close on that end, timing-wise.
Anyway, Im not worried about the pain of labor, I AM worried about medical interventions. Im trying to keep myself calm about them and negotiate w/my OB, which is why Ive posted so many threads in the last week or so - and thank you to everybody for all the info and advice!
Boo is NOT handling things well, either, actually. Her bio-mom just had a baby girl in March, and now she's getting a baby brother here. She will have gone from an only child in both houses to "big sister". She's 14, so her acting out is in teenage attention-seeking ways - threatening to kill herself with a safety pin, etc. She is in counselling, and we dont think she is actually a risk to herself, she is NOT clinically depressed. She is, however, in a rebel stage (black eyeliner, attitude problem, etc), so that's been a bit crazy too. I just hope she settles down soon. Ive been letting DH deal with her, mostly b/c I cant take on that kind of stress right now. It's hard enough being 9 months pregnant and bipolar off meds in residency.
DH is doing really well, considering. He's dealing pretty well with Boo and is doing pretty well with me, too. He's not at all medical, so my anxiety stuff throws him for a loop - Im trying to not burden him with it, too much.
Wow, that was long. Thank you if you made it this far!
Welcome to your lodge, and it sounds like you are well prepared for this birth!
DS Jacob 12/12/06
DS Nathaniel 6/5/08
Welcome to your lodge!
I hope that all goes well for you with the rest of your pgcy and delivery! I was wondering with the BPD, if you were planning on breastfeeding or going back on your meds as soon as baby is delivered? Just curious, I hope you don't mind me asking- if you do, just ignore me!
That sounds tough with your dsd. 14 yo girls have such DRAMA!
My BP is type I, and I have been hospitalized twice (once at diagnosis when I was su*c*dal (age 15) and once at the end of college when no one would see me b/c I was moving in 2 weeks and KNEW I was going to go full blown manic if I didnt get help - this was due to a stupid doc giving me amitryptyline without giving me a mood stabilizer also - a guaranteed combo to send a BPer manic, EVERY SINGLE TIME). Im pretty darned good at monitoring my moods, and I know when to call if there is a problem. I daresay I wouldnt have made it through med school and residency (WITHOUT accomodations) if it were really severe.
and yeah, heh, 14 year olds are FULL of drama tonight she cried hysterically for >30 minutes b/c we were "dissing" one of her friends - who has admitted to using drugs and having sex/trying to get preggo at 14. BUT, of course, Boo is livid that we still dont like her b/c of that - after all, she's been to a COUNSELOR (for 2 weeks0 and she SAYS she's CHANGED.
Yeah, whatever. We still dont want her hanging out with that girl.
I went to the Webster trained chiro today, she did a bunch of muscle testing and stuff and I go back tomorrow after my NST to get "the plan" to turn Brayden around so he's not OP anymore. No adjustment today, though I did get a 10 minute massage and some TENS unit time, which was nice, my lower back has been KILLING me on 1 side.
I'll update after that, b/c Im taking articles (including the Gaskin one) to my OB for discussion tomorrow, along w/my updated birth plan.
Im gonna push for my EDD - which would give me until 40+2 before "eviction date".
HOPEFULLY I'll have at least SOME dilation or effacement (I know it doesnt really make a difference, but it would be emotionally satisfying, kwim?)
Ooh, and on the really good side, I got crystal light to add to my water and managed to drink so much yesterday I was 4 lbs lighter this morning after getting rid of all that extra fluid that was making my feet look like pillows! WOOHOO! (I figure that upping water intake will balance out upping intake of fake sugar...)
Welcome to your lodge, and thank you for sharing such a lovely intro.
I had terrible back pain (especially on one side) during part of my last pregnancy too, but as soon as little one changed positions it went away. I hope the same happens for you.
DD - Nov/06, DS - Sept/08, DS - Mar/11
Welcome to your lodge!
Your intro was a great read - what an interesting story! I feel the same way you do in that I'm not afraid of the pain of labour, it's the interventions that worry me. I hope things settle down with your DSS.