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Welcome to your lodge! You're in the homestretch, now!

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Awwww, yay! I have a lodge! Biggrin For some reason I was thinking it started at 37 weeks? :confused: Anyway...I'm at work right now but I'll be back tonight to post my intro! Thanks everyone for the welcome! I'm so excited! Biggrin

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Wow, its been such a busy week. Now I finally have a chance to sit down and write an intro. Smile

My name is Maggie, I am 20 years old. I have been with my boyfriend Carlos (22) for almost 2 1/2 years now. I have a 3 year old daughter named Juliana from a previous relationship, her father isn't involved in her life at all though and Carlos plans to adopt her when we get married.

I guess I should really start from the beginning, but I'm pretty long winded, just to warn you Wink

I met my DD's father (let's just call him XH) when I was 15, in February of 2006. He was much older than I was (22) and really I never planned on becoming serious with him, since I was scheduled to go away to college 2 years early in about 6 months. He was from Mexico and spoke limited English, and since I was learning Spanish and planned to major in Spanish, I really started seeing him for a reason to practice my Spanish with a native speaker.

After only dating for about 4 months, I found out I was pregnant. I had just turned 16 3 months earlier. I tried to tell my mom and she pretty much told me that I would be having an abortion if I was. She got me a test and I dipped it in water so it would be negative. To me there was no question that I would keep my baby, I wouldn't be going away to school, etc. I have always been a planner and I knew I would figure things out. A few days after giving my mom the fake test, I "ran away" with XH. I was gone for a week before my mom was able to get in touch with me and convince me to come home. We decided that XH would come live with us since he was living about an hour away and working a lot and I thought it was important that he be involved in the pregnancy, etc. I was determined to make it work with him and threw everything I had into our relationship. I come from a broken home and I never wanted that for my children. My mom was generally devastated. She tried to talk me into an abortion, even all through my first tri. It was a very stressful time for everyone.

I ended up continuing highschool online (the accelerate college program would have had me get my GED) and I finished my last 2 years in one year while I was pregnant. XH found a job near us and moved in with me. We paid rent, bought our own food, etc. My parents stopped providing for me, we were living in the same house but really it was like renting an apartment. I would clean the house for my mom instead of paying utilities, and studied during the day. Things were okay with XH for a while, but after the first 2 months or so, I started to realize how little I really knew him. He would go out all the time with his friends and stay out all night drinking. Or just not come home from work. His best friend and some other friends of his moved into a house for rent walking distance from our house and that's when things got really bad. He essentially lived over there. I started getting very angry and resentful very fast.

One night he came home from work and had not even stepped through the door when his friend pulled into our driveway and wanted to "show him something really quick." So off he went - despite the fact that I had waited up for him (he worked the last shift and got off between 11 and 12 at night) and had his dinner cooked and ready. He didn't come back until 3 am, and wouldn't answer my phone calls. When he finally did show up, he was super drunk - to make a long story short, I went outside yelling at him, he got mad and ended up slapping me in the face and kicking me in the ribs. I was 4 months pregnant. I was just devastated. Over the following months it became clear to me that XH was an alcoholic. He was physically and emotionally abusive and very controlling. I was pretty much prisoner in my own home. I had no friends and stopped talking to everyone because everything I did made him angry and was "wrong." I tried to learn how to do things that he liked, that made him happy, like cooking mexican food, etc. (I couldn't cook at all when we met, seriously, I would burn EGGS. It was that bad). Nothing I did was ever good enough for him.

He was very distant in regards to the pregnancy. He never wanted to touch my stomach or feel baby move. He never wanted to talk about it at all. He didn't go to either of my baby showers and my dad helped me put all of her furniture together. He didn't even help me pick out her name.

My daughter was born on March 3, 2007, 4 days before my 17th birthday and after 2 days of horrible prodromal labor. I'll have to type up her birth story to post later, but basically I went into it wanting a natural birth and ended up with an epidural and pitocin I didn't need. XH was a horrible support person and threw up when I started pushing. Its a good thing my mom was there to help me or I would have been alone. I immediately loved being a mom, she was so perfect and now I couldn't imagine my life without her. She was always a very good baby, she slept through the night beginning at 2 weeks old and nursed very well. I like to think that she is so mellow because at that point in my life I would not have handled a difficult or fussy baby. I was torn between trying to be a good mom to her, finishing up school and making my relationship with XH work. After she was born he changed for a while, stopped going out, etc. He proposed and I said yes, and we got married on April 11, 2007. The only witness was my perfect baby girl, sitting in her bucket seat watching us with big huge eyes. Looking back on it, I know marrying him was a stupid decision but somehow I felt like it would make things better between us. I really did love him and more than that, I wanted to fix him, to fix our family and make it right for our little girl.

I think my plan essentially backfired. To him it seemed that being married meant I couldn't leave him. I was "stuck." He went right backto his old ways, but it was worse now because Juliana was here. It hurt me that he didn't want to spend time with her and I resented him for not helping me with her, ever. When she was 4 months old I got really sick and found out my gallbladder was blocked and infected, it was so bad that my kidneys and liver started to fail. I had emergency surgery to have it removed and was in the hospital for a few days. During this time, he only came to visit me once and my mom took care of Juliana for me. I really have no idea what he was even doing...? I was so upset because I wasn't able to nurse her or see her while I was int he hospital and I had to dump my milk because of the medicine I was on. Once I got home she had been on formula for about a week, and was having problems latching on. I eventually decided to pump and bottle feed her because she wasn't patient enough to latch anymore (my mom had used fast flow nipples :mad: ). I was able to exclusively pump for 2 more months before giving up and putting her on formula.

In the fall, I started full time at the community college through online classes to get my associates degree in paralegal studies. This was probably the worst time in my relationship with XH. He became much more abusive and would go out a lot more. I became so depressed. I remember crying one night because he kissed me and we were laying in bed watching a movie together and I seriously couldn't remember the last time he had given me a kiss just because he wanted to. I felt so unloved and alone. My daughter was the only thing that kept me going and I tried really hard in school so that I would be able to graduate ASAP and provide for her.

2 days before Christmas, 2007 my life drastically changed. XH told me at the last minute he wanted to have people over after work. I ran around like a maniac and cooked food, cleaned, etc. to have people over. I found out later he had never gone to work, he had been drinking at a friend's house all day long. At around 2 am or so XH started freaking out about my back showing (low cut pants plus shirt riding up - told you he was controlling) and completely freaked out. He punched me a few times in front of everyone and a friend of mine named Katie stood up for me - he attacked her, was throwing things, broke furniture...my mom heard and came running upstairs and he ended up fighting with her as well. I can specifically remember him dragging katie around my her hair and trying to throw her down the steps. :eek: At one point Juliana woke up so I picked her up and was trying to calm her down, he started throwing full glass beer bottles at me and came within a centimeter of hitting Juliana with one. It was at that moment that I realized he could have seriously hurt or killed her, or me. I hid under some stuff in the corner and called 911 while he continued to fight with my mom and friend. His friends did nothing to try to stop him just kind of stood there and looked dumb. Evetually the police showed up and took him away. This was the 5th time he had physically attacked me.

The hardest thing I ever did was not go back to him. My daughter's first Christmas was one of the saddest days of my life. I really don't know how I got through life. I lost a lot of weight from not eating and just made sure my daughter was taken care of every day. I got a restraining order and went to Court when Katie pressed charges. He served 3 months and was put on probabtion with partial time served. While he was in jail I slowly discovered the world again. suddenly, I was free. I could go out with my friends if I wanted. I could go to the store alone. I could do ANYTHING! I really felt like a huge weight had been lifted off my shoulders and a lot of the time I was much happier than I had been in a long time. About 2 weeks after this incident Katie convinced me to go out with her and some of her friends. I was really reluctant to go, she and my mom pretty much dressed me and pushed me out the door. But I had a great time and made some new friends. I didn't know it then but the decision to go would also change my life forever.

(Just wanted to interject here that all of the going out that follows takes place at night after my daughter is asleep and my mom was always home sleeping too so she was "watching" her. My daughter always slept 12 hours a night and rarely woke up, so she never knew I was gone. Everyone was encouraging me to go out since I had been on "lock down" for the past year and a half.)

My new friends invited me to a party at their house around the end of January. Carlos was there, with his sister. I remember thinking he was really cute, and we were introduced, but he left pretty much as soon as I got there. 2 weeks later I was again invted out, this time to a dance club/bar kind of place. I had never been there before. While I was there, Carlos came up to me and asked if I remembered him. I didn't (at the time, after I thought about it really hard I did) but we ended up hanging out a lot of the night and dancing, etc. I really really liked him and thought he was adorable. He was very respectful of me and my body (which is not very common when you go out to a place like that, if you know what I mean) and was just genuinely nice and fun to be around. At the end of the night he asked me for my number but didn't give me his. I swear I dreamt about him that night.

The same friend I had been out with then wanted me to go with her to a different place the next day. I really didn't want to go out 2 days in a row, especially because she has been trying to set me up with her cousin who I did not like at all and I knew this was an attempt at that. I couldn't stop thinking about Carlos though, so being me, I called my friend who has the party where we met for the first time and asked him for his number. I called him - he was SHOCKED and pretty much answered the phone "how did you get my number?!" (I found out later he had a girlfriend at the time and was with her when I called him! ROFL ) He said he would call me back and let me know, and later that night he called and said he would go. I was so excited!

We had a great time and stayed up all night talking. I think I finally went home at like 5 am. We talked every day after that. He came clean that he had a girlfriend but swore it was nothing serious and borke up with her soon after. He knew about XH and what had happened to me, and always encouraged me to do what I thought was best - he was always terrified I would decide to go back to XH.

It was really hard for me when XH got out of jail. He would come to see Juliana supposedly, but spend the entire time trying to convince me to go back with him. I filed for divorce. I really beleive that if it wasn't for Carlos I would have gone bck with him. He showed me how happy I could be, what a healthy relationship was like. One morning, XH actually broke into the house and came up into my room at like 6 am with this huge stuffed animal, trying to get me back I guess. He was shocked to find Carlos sleeping in my bed with me. I find it quite funny now, but at the time I was terrified I was going to witness a fight. After that he pretty much became my enemy. He got a temporary card from the bank and drained our bank account (:banghead: stupid me didn't think to change it) even though I wasn't working and didn't have a car. He refused to provide anything for Juliana at all.

So anyway...I continued to go to school, I was able to get a family member to loan me money and I got a car and started looking for a job. I was blessed to find one right away and also blessed that an old family friend watched Juliana for me (she is AMAZING) and would never accept any money. It was a struggle, but I was slowly making my own way. Carlos had been having a lot of problems with his landlord, he had been laid off (this is when the economy pooped) and couldn't pay his rent. I felt so bad for him, I asked him to move in with me. He found a job where I lived (he lived over an hour away!) and moved in. It was hard for us at first because we moved so fast, but we slowly got used to each other. Within 6 months we had saved up enough money to get our own apartment, and that is what we did. Smile

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It was so much FUN to go look at apartments together, go pick out and buy furniture together. At this point even plates were exciting. We were SO happy once we moved and again were BLESSED to find a place on special which was very nice and very CHEAP.

I think I forgot to mention how great of a dad Carlos is. He didn't have any kids of his ownbut LOVES kids and had always been great with Juliana. When we were "dating" and he spent the night sometimes, he would always get up with us if she woke up crying. I can specifically remember asking him what he was doing, and he said he was helping me. I asked him why and he said "because I want to." It seemed so odd to me that he would actually want to help. Juliana has loved him to pieces since the first time he met her, and I'm sure she has no memory of XH. He has always treated her like she was his own daughter. They are my two crazy loves and sometimes even now I tear up watching him play with her because I am so thankful that she has a great dad and that this wonderful man essentially fell into our lives.

Moving was interesting. It took us about 3 days to get unpacked and organized I guess, due to my poor packing. We didn't have much so it really shouldn't have taken that long. I had been applying for new jobs the week before since things were going to be more expensive and was excited to find out during our move that I had gotten a job making about $5K more per year! Yahoo However while we were moving Carlos got a call not to come to work. They said they would call and let him know when they needed him to come in. (This is in September of 08 ). A call never came. He was laid off again. There was no way we could afford everything on just my salary and we were sure no one would be hiring for the winter, since Carlos works in construction and landscaping... My daycare was also not free anymore, and that was one of our biggest expenses. So Carlos did a lot of side work until he couldn't work anymore (the ground was frozen) and then became a SAHD. I'm sure this was the most stressful time in our relatioship. He became very depressed sitting home all day and the role reversal was something he couldn't deal with. He did a wonderful job taking care of Juliana, and kept the house clean, cooked dinner a lot. But he was miserable and out relationship suffered. There were several times we considered separating, but really neither of us could have made it without the other. Through all of this I continued to go to school full time, now at night, so theren were days he was home with Juliana all day long and I never even saw her Sad I know it was hard for both of us, we both made sacfirices, but somehow we made it through that dark winter.

In Spring of 2009, Carlos' brother was able to get him a job where he worked which is a big company around here, and they guaranteed him a year round position! Yahoo We were ecstatic! The starting pay wasn't very good but we were sure that he would earn himself a raise soon, and some money year round is better than good money for half the year.

We were doing pretty well financially at this point and had heard about the tax credit for buying a house. I had baby fever pretty badly too and Carlos didn't want to try until we had our own home. We started looking at houses in August and found one we really loved. It is a gorgeous 4 bd 1 bath single family home with a nice yard. We were REALLY short on the down payment though, about $4K short, and we were worried we wouldn't be able to get the house. Again, we were BLESSED. My real estate agent who is a friend of my dads said I should ask my dad. My dad had just bought a house as well and I was sure he didnt have the money. I did ask him though and he agreed to loan it to me. I learned later that it wasn't his money - I don't know who loaned it to him to loan to me, but they don't want me to know. Maybe one day I'll find out...but someone loves us. Smile We signed the contract in early September and were due to close on October 30. Yahoo

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That's all I have time for for now, but I'll be back later to continue with how we found out we were pregnant and my pregnancy this time around. Smile

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Before I go I guess I should let you guys know how things are going pregnancy wise right?

I have an appointment with the Midwife tomorrow. Last time I went I was 35 weeks, I had the GBS test and shec checked me, I was at a 1, 50% effaced and "very soft". I'm really not expecting to have him early but it would be nice I suppose. I'm really uncomfortable now, he feels so big and I sit down all day at work since I'm a legal assistant so that squishes him in there and has him pressing on my ribs a lot. I'm guessing he'll be over 8 lbs, even though J was 6 lb 14 oz born at 39 and 6. I just don't know where else he can grow at this point, I'm bigger than I was last time (though I've gained less weight) and all my stretch marks from last time are getting bigger. Carlos apologizes to me for that all the time but I told him its okay, Wesley is worth it. Smile

I finally got an MP3 player (yes Ive been stuck in the past with a CD player up until yesterday) and I put all my hypnobabies on there. It is so much nicer to have them all in one place and not have to change the CDs in and out. Smile And I didn't want to look like a dork walking around the hospital with an old school WALKMAN during labor ROFL I'm sure the nurses would have really thought I was weird, huh? Wink I've been slacking on the maintenance schedule lately so I really need to review the workbook and stay on top of my scripts until baby gets here.

Poor Carlos is sick, he came home last night and just passed out on the couch. I made Juliana some bed time shorts using a pair she has as a model. I am just learning to sew. She was so excited when I gave them to her this morning, it was cute. They turned out pretty nice.

Almost everything is ready for Wesley. I still need to wash some of his diapers and lanolize his wool covers, and Carlos needs to put the bassinette together. I hope he feels better because we had tons of plans for home improvement stuff this weekend and I really want to get it done. My nesting manifests itself in the form of home improvement. Smile

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My goodness, what a life you've led! I'm so glad you've found a happier relationship and it sounds like you're in a good place in your life right now. And congrats on getting to your lodge!

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What a great lodge...TFS your story, you've had quite a journey to get to where you are today (and I'm so glad that you did!) Looking forward to more Smile

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I am so proud of you! You are a strong woman, even when you were younger and dipped your pg test in water and kept your baby. Juliana sounds like a sweetie. I look forward to reading more of your journey.

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Thanks for sharing your story! It's really great how hard you worked to make a better life for Juliana and yourself. I'm glad you have Carlos in your life now!

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I enjoyed reading your story. I'm so glad that things are going better for you now and that you are in a good and loving relationship. How exciting for your house in oct.!

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Thanks ladies. Smile

So to continue with my story...

Everything went so smoothly with the house, I had the best realtor and I really feel like we did practically nothing except sign the check and paperwork...it was great. We were all set to close 10/30/09. We were both so excited to move and have our own place and yard!

On October 10 I got my BFP! We had been not trying not preventing since Mayish, even though Carlos was hesitant without being sure we would get the house. I had charted a bit but that month I had stopped doing anything, even coming here, because it was stressing me out too much. I actually didn't even realize my period was late. A few days before I noticed I was having food aversions to stuff I used to like, like greasy froxen pizza (I always hate everything fatty/greasy when pregnant, I guess my body just knows what it needs.) I specifially remember not being able to eat my food a few nights in a row and thinking how wierd that was. The morning of October 10 I took a test and it was positive right away! Carlos had gone with some friends of ours to look at cars (for our friend) so I was alone when I took it. I was so excited, and I really couldn't beleive it. I was shaking so bad, it was all I could do to text my best friend and tell her! In my freak out, I dumped my pee, then realized I wanted to dip more tests - there was just enough left in the bottom of the cup and I dipped 4 more strips which were all super positive. I was already 5 weeks along! I could barely keep it together...it took me like an hour to stop shaking!

DH and our friends (and my sister) got back about an hour later or so. I was so excited and I wanted to tell him so bad, but I wanted to tell him in some way that was special. Of course I had so many ideas on how I would tell him when we were TTC, but right then nothng seemed quite right. Our friends and my sister left my sister was dating our best friend's little brother at the time, so she was always with them) to go do something for a while, I don't remember what. Carlos went outside to talk on the phone and I followed him out. He was making plans for people to come over and watch the soccer game with us. After he finished his phone call, he was about to dial someone else's number and I said "wait! I have something to tell you!" And then I pretty much just blurted it out! He looked like a deer caught in headlights. For a minute he was just silent, then he said, "YAYYYYYYYYYY!" and picked me up in the biggest bear hug ever. And I started crying, and he started crying. And then we went in the house and sat and stared at each other for a while and giggled like little kids. At one point he had me get him a glass of water because he thought he was gonna pass out. It was sweet. Later on that night all his friends came over to watch the game and he announced it to everyone! I was upset because I was worried about telling people so soon, but I couldn't be mad at him for being so excited.

Everything went smooth with closing on the house and we moved in in mid November. We had tons of help moving and my mom even unpacked pretty much the entire house for me one day when I was at work! I didn't take any time off work for the move and was really tired all the time so that was so great! I had a lot of fatigue and food aversions in the beginning. I was also really nervous about telling my boss and not having much time off after baby. I told my boss when I was around 12 weeks and sent out announcements to family in our Christmas cards - I signed them "Love, Maggie, Carlos, Juliana and new baby Green Bean coming June 2010." Everyone was really happy for us which was so nice, considering the circumstances of my last pregnancy I had never had people actually be happy for me. Smile

Right after we moved, we found out that our best friend Felipe had been killed in a car accident. It has been really hard for both of us, we still miss him a lot. He was so happy for us about the baby and the house and he'll never get to see any of it. Sad He was only 21 years old. His death made me realize how lucky we are to have each other, and helped me not to take every day for granted so much. Its so hard when someone dies so unexpectedly like that...

At our 20 week ultrasound they told us that we were having a BOY! Smile We were both so excited...we would have loved a girl as well, but I just felt so different this time I was pretty sure it was a boy. We also found out that day that there was something wrong with Wesley's kidney. We've had several follow ups, and he has been diagnosed with a UPJ obstruction. If you want to know more about it, this link has a lot of information and is easy to read.

http://www.cua.org/documents/patient_information/42e-ujoe0107r.pdf

Basically its a blockage of the tube that drains urine from the kidney to the bladder. Urine was backing up into the kidney and it was enlarged. At every ultrasound it has gotten worse, and they expect he will need surgery to correct it within the first couple months after he is born. We went to see a specialist at Johns Hopkins Hospital (one of the perks of living in Maryland) and he wants Wesley to be on antibiotics from birth to prevent a bladder or kidney infection. When he is 2 weeks old we will go in for testing, and if the function of the kidney is impaired they will do surgery to remove the blockage. If function isn't impaired but it is still draining slow we will keep an eye on it and do follow up exams until it is determined that it has resolved on its own or that he needs surgery. It was reall scary at first but I'm hopeful that he won't need surgery or be in any kind of pain when he's born. They said his abdomen might be swollen or misshappen on that side because of how backed up it is... Anyway all we can do for now is pray things will be okay and wait and see.

The rest of the pregnancy has been pretty uneventful thankfully. Everything else has been normal. I've gained 15 lbs so far and have been trying to eat healthy. Wesley is head down and somehow still super active in there. I have had a lot of pain, and sciatica, and SPD, I was going to physical therapy for it for a while but at this point there isn't much they can do for me and its liveable.

Carlos and Juliana have both been really great. They talk to my belly and rub it and give it kisses, which is so special to me since I never had any of that the first time. Carlos has been really supportive of me, even if he thinks my ideas are a bit out there he always listens to what I say and usually ends up agreeing with me because I have done the research. The one thing he wouldn't agree to was a doula, he wants it to be just me and him when the baby is born. I'm really scared of being alone if something happened and he couldn't do it, but I know he'll do fine and step up to support me when I need him to. Juliana is so excited to be a big sister. She is really super sweet and talks about the baby all the time. She asks me if he's done yet a lot, like he's cooking in there or something. Smile Its really cute.

So I guess that's it for my intro - sorry it was so long, but I always have a lot to say.

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Today I had an appointment with the Midwife. She was one of my 2 favorites (there are 5 in the practice) so it was a good appointment. She didn't check me. I gained 1 lb since 2 weeks ago and am measuring a little smaller (35) so she said he has dropped...I didn't know it was possible for him to get lower than he was but apparently I was wrong. I told her how much pain I had been in lately - bascally I always feel like Ive been kicked in the crotch by a horse... She recommended acupuncture but I don't think my insurance will cover it and we don't have the money for that right now. Carlos' truck broke down a few months ago so now we have a rediculous car payment. I'm actually going to see if I can get it refinanced because the interest is insane! Anyway, if Im still pregnant a week from now she recommended I cut my hours at work. I know my boss won't like that, he's being a jerk about giving me even 6 weeks off and making me feel like a big inconvenience since he won't hire a temp. I'm a legal assistant by the way. So I go back again on Thursday for my 38 week appointment.

I can't beleive how fast everything is going! Every day feels like it takes forever, but at the same time things have flown by!

Carlos gave me that cold he had, so no I'm semi-miserable and mucous filled. EW. I really hope it goes away and Juliana doesn't get it, so I can have this baby. I would hate to have a baby sick, or worse, have a baby when she is sick since I know she's going to want to smother him with kisses.

Today Carlos cleaned out the spare room. I'm hoping to find a table to put in there and set up sewing camp...right now Ive been pulling my stuff in and out of bags and boxes every time I want to sew which is annoying. I just started teaching myself recently but its so fun! I'm hoping we can get Juliana's room painted and move the furniture around upstairs this weekend since he's off 3 days in a row. Usually he only has Sunday off.

I should really get off here and go do the dishes...and laundry. Ug. I just want to go to sleep.

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I stopped updating my space as much (I'll put the pictures in there now though) - so here is my belly this week.

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TFS your story. I can be long winded sometimes too, but when you look back at this lodge after baby is born you will enjoy the details. I am excited to read your birth story.

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I hope you feel better soon! Very pregnant and sick is not a good combination!

I agree - you are a very strong woman! It is so wonderful that you have found a wonderful partner in Carlos, and that he is a great daddy, too.

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I love that you're in lacy undies that far along (if you don't mind me commenting- and I do think you look great)- I'm pretty sure by week 30 I've whipped out the granny panties:).
Your story is so sweet, how wonderful to have a supportive man there with you who is excited about the baby. Sounds like he is a great dad.
Sorry about the cold- I really think anyone in the third tri should be immune to diseases, don't we have enough going on?:)

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"jooniper" wrote:

I love that you're in lacy undies that far along (if you don't mind me commenting- and I do think you look great)- I'm pretty sure by week 30 I've whipped out the granny panties:).
Your story is so sweet, how wonderful to have a supportive man there with you who is excited about the baby. Sounds like he is a great dad.
Sorry about the cold- I really think anyone in the third tri should be immune to diseases, don't we have enough going on?:)

I don't really own any granny panties...I need to actually go buy some so I can wear pads after baby - all my underwear are the same as in the pic except in different colors, and I own like 3 pairs of boy shorts, LOL. Theyre super stretchy and comfy. Smile

And I agree, we should be immune to everything in the third tri. I just hope my body knows better than to go into labor when I'm this sick! Its been getting worse yesterday I started coughing up junk and I got like no sleep last night. I kept waking up coughing and would have to go downstairs and make a cup of herbal tea with honey to get back to sleep. I think I drank four cups of tea last night! So I don't really have a voice today. What a fun way to spend memorial day weekend. *insert sarcasm here* I just hope I can go to work tomorrow...I don't want to miss any more time than I have to, especially since the doctors are pushing me to cut my hours. I guess I'll consider it again at my next appointment depending on how I feel but honestly being this sick has made me forget pretty much all of my pregnancy discomforts, besides the peeing all the time and hugeness that at this point have just become a part of life.

I should really go look over my hypnobabies book again. I still have some last minute stuff to do for baby but Ive been putting it off. I have been so anxios to meet him but now that its so close, Im scared. Everything is going to change. Its pretty nice to have a mellow 3 year old who lets you watch movies and stuff. She really is a super well behaved kid and I feel so blessed that she is...but I just don't know what I'm going to do with 2 now...I barely have time and energy to just keep the house clean as it is! I hope I'm not repeating myself...I feel like I am a little bit, but every since I hit 37 weeks I've started to get cold feet :confused: ...

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Aw, sorry you're feeling cold feet...I'm entirely sure it's normal! Having another baby IS a huge change...but in the balance it's going to be a wonderful one Smile

Sorry for the cold at the last minute, too, what a PITA. Hope you're feeling a lot better before Wesley makes his big entrance!

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So I went to the doctor today...I have a sinus infection and bronchitis. GROSS! So Im on Zpak. I got something for Juliana too because she has the sinus infection. Poor baby.

After I went to the Dr., instead of going home and resting Ive nested all day. I went to the store and bought food, and all the last minute stuff I needed to get for me pp...I installed the carseat, and bedding is in the wash right now. I cleaned upstairs and have the rest of the diapers waiting to go in the wash. I finished packing Wesley's bag...need to go pack mine. I dunno, I suddenly felt like I ran out of time. Its weird.

Hopefully he stays in until Saturday so we can all be well. I dreamt he was born on 6/5 so that would be pretty cool if it turned out to be true.

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(((HUGS))) I'm sorry your so sick:( I hope your feeling better soon and that Wesley doesn't come while your all feeling icky! Good job on the cleaning, I'm not sure where you found the energy!!

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"graysonsmom" wrote:

(((HUGS))) I'm sorry your so sick:( I hope your feeling better soon and that Wesley doesn't come while your all feeling icky! Good job on the cleaning, I'm not sure where you found the energy!!

Thanks. Smile I'm not sure where that came from either...I'm paying for it today though. My whole body hurts, especially my legs. I was so wired last night, I couldn't fall asleep and I kept tossing and turning. No position was comfortable. I was cold and hot at the same time...Carlos kept covering me up with the blanket and I would just push it off because I felt hot even though I wasn't. It was really wierd. I'm hoping that all this means he's coming soon, but at this point I'm starting to think nothing means anything anymore. He's been really quiet in there lately, its odd not to feel him shoving around so much. Makes me worry about him.

Poor Juliana is soo sick too. Sad She fell asleep at like 7 last night and hardly ate anythign all day. Sad I hope she feels better today. Poor kid has been sick more this Spring than in her entire life added up!

38 weeks today! YAY! Only 2 more weeks. Or at least I hope so. I would hate to go over, especially because my boss is pretty much counting on me going early. I'm so tired of him asking me how long I think it will be...wish I knew! If I go on time he'll be annoyed, and if I go late I'm sure he'll be asking me every day to go get induced. Because you know that my baby is supposed to just come out when its convenient to his vacation schedule *rolleyes*

Looking forward to my appointment tomorrow...I know she probably won't check me, and as curious as I am I know it wouldn't mean anything if she did. But I'm still kind of hoping she does, or that she has SOMETHING to say. But more than likely she'll just ask me how I feel, push me to cut my hours (which I can't do) measure me and send me on my merry way.

Send me patience please.

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Had my appointment yesterday - well, really it was supposed to be for Friday but I guess my preggo brain got that mixed up LOL. So I asked if they could see me anyway since I had already left work early. Of course the midwife that was there is the one I really don't like. The nurse asked me if I wanted to be checked and I told her I kind of did, not that it meant anything... so I got undressed so they could check. When the MW came in she seemed like she didn't want to check me, but since I had already gone through the trouble of taking off my pants and all she did. I'm still at a 1 and 50%, very high (I had to pull my legs back so she could even reach, it was insane!). What really annoyed me was she said, "So it probably won't be this week" then followed up with a whole speech about how second time moms tend not to drop until labor begins, and how that could all change if I started having regular contrax, etc. etc. so it could be any time. DUH! Why even bother telling me "not this week" then?! I mean, obviously I know that how dialated I am today has nothing to do with when I will have the baby, but not every mom does and I'm sure that "not this week" is not something any pregnant lady at the end wants to hear.

*end rant*

So anyway, baby measured 39 (up form 35 last week, I think it just depends how he's laying) and HR was 150 BPM. She felt my stomach and sais she thinks hes between 6 1/2 and 7 lbs right now. I feel like he's at least 7. I guess we'll see soon enough. So I go back next Saturday the 12th (I'll be 39 w 3 d). I'm sortof hoping not to make it to my appointment but I really doubt it. I'm probably going to go pretty close to my EDD I think. He seems to be pretty comfy in there. Smile

I'm starting to feel much better today which is awesome. DH and I DTD last night, and this morning (sometimes I really think he's trying to chase him out! ROFL ) so I was glad to get some awesome sleep for the first time this week, but now I'm awake extra early since DH gets up at like 5 am for work. And my arm is sore, I mustve slept on it wrong. Very annoying.

My original prediction was that he would be born on June 5th, just because I dreamed it. I really don't think so now though, although I guess anything could happen. Ive been really missing my grandma and shes been calling me every day (shes like my mom pretty much - we have always been super close) because shes worried about me and has been wanting to see me. She lives in PA, about an hour away, so I havent wanted to go visit her without bringing Carlos and he works every day but Sunday and then never feels like driving all the way out there, understandably. So maybe Ill just suck it up and take Juliana up there by myself tomorrow. I really want to see her, and hey, maybe it will be just my luck that I go into labor while I'm there Smile Its only about 40ish minutes from my hospital so it wouldnt be the end of the world...

I'm gonna go doze on the couch for a few minutes before I have to get up and get ready for work. I have to admit, I'm ready for baby to be here but I'm going to miss my quiet easy mornings - since my mom watches Juliana here at my house, all I have to do is get up and get myself ready which takes about 20 minutes. Easy peasy.

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Sorry your appointment was kind of annoying but glad they were able to fit you in!

A good night's sleep sounds divine right about now Wink

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Yay for them fitting you in a day early. I can never keep dates straight. Glad you are starting to feel better from your cold!

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Thanks gals! Feeling a LOT better now. Still have an annoying cough, but eh, its better than hacking up a lung every night. Ive actually been sleeping good these past 3 nights, not even waking up to pee, which is really really great, except that when I finally do get up in the morning Im about ready to pee my pants LOL.

Yesterday I super nested and did everything else I needed to do. I finished the nursery and set up the bassinette, I even moved furniture around up there, LOL. I really love the way it turned out. I just wish we had a rocker/glider or something up there to make it perfect but thats not really in the budget right now. I went and got a pacnplay Friday to replace our old one, even though DH doesnt think its necessary. I think it is. We can keep it down here so I dont have to be up and down the stairs with the baby all day long. I washed and lanolized all of his woolies too, which took forever, but im glad its done, considering they probably won't be dry until 2 days from now!

A friend of my moms gave her a whole trunk full of baby boy clothes for me! I was soooo excited, almost all of it is 3-6 months and up and winter stuff, which is exactly what we needed since I only have mostly tiny clothes and some summer 3-6 months stuff. I felt so blessed I almost cried. So I got all of that washed and sorted out and put away in his closet by size yesterday.

All my weekend cleaning is done except the bathroom and sweeping/mopping again which is nice,so Im feeling pretty accomplished. IDK where I got the energy to do all that but I feel better that its done. I still want to cut out some fleece liners for his dipes, maybe Ill go sit down and do that now.

DH and I got into it last night because all week, every night after work, hes been going to the visados house (the company brings in mexican workers on VISA every summer and their house is right next door to the company, its like a freaking FRAT house over there :angry1:) to drink "a few beers" with them before coming home, and he hasnt been home earlier than 8 pm all week. Yesterday he was only supposed to work until 3 and he didn't get home until 7, and thats only because I called him freaking out about it. I think he feels like this is his "last chance" to hang out with them or something, since the baby is coming soon, but really having a baby is not the end of your life, and if he wants to go over there once in a while after work or whatever I dont usually get mad, but this is rediculous! Its depressing to me at 9 months pregnant that I come home from work and cook dinner and wait for him like a fool just so I can eat alone with our toddler, who misses him too and knows he should be home with us. This started about 2 months ago when all the visados got here and he promised me he would stop going over there so much (and that was when he was going once a week!) so to have him go 5 days in a row was like a slap in the face to me. I never get to go anywhere without my daughter, and when I do I spend the whole time worried about her and rushing to get home. I can never just go out and chill and I dont even have any friends anymore because all my old friends were single and I was that boring mom person who never accepted their invitations.

Sorry for the rant, its just so frustrating. Im too pregnant for this. So I gues to somehow "make it up to me" we went over my moms last night and swam in the pool and cooked out which was nice, and today were supposed to go to PA to see my grandparents (theyre like parents to me) since I haven't seen them in like 3 months because its too much for me atthis point to drive the hour there with a 3 year old on my own and DH never wants to go. UG. He seems annoyed that were going now but it was his idea and for once were going to do what I want to do even if he doesnt like it. I thought about telling him to just forget it, but I really do want to see them and he owes me. Smile SO we're going.

On the pregnancy front, Ive been feeling pretty good besides all my regular aches and pains. I had some pretty strong contractions and a little bit of bloody show on Friday but of course I got all excited about them and woke up to 0 contrax and still very much pregnant. Hoping he decides to make his grand entrance sometime this week... or whenever I guess. My sister is having dental surgery 2 days after my EDD so I have to find someone to watch J that day and I hope I dont go into labor because my mom was supposed to be with J when that happened and she will obviously be at the hospital with my sister and taking care of her. My luck is that will be when he decides to come.

Anyway, hope everyone is having a good weekend, Im going to go get ready to leave now.

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Yesterday was like the longest day of my llife. I woke up several times during the night, just plain olf uncomfortable. At 3 am I got up to pee and couldnt fall back asleep. I realized I was having contrax so I started listening to my hyponobabies and changing positions, etc. They werent really too painful, but started getting more painful as the morning wore on. When DH's alarm went off at 5 he didn't feel like going to work, so I said, "How about we have a baby today instead." He called out of work and we just cuddled there together for a while. Eventually we went downstairs. I started getting really tired around 10 am and the contractions slowed down a lot while I was resting on the couch. After that they were just plain irregular! I took some blue cohosh which did NOTHING. I took a shower to see if they'd stop and they didn't. I mustve walked MILES yesterday. I took DD out with her bike and walked with her, we played outside, DH did the lawn and when he was done we all went to walk around the park and to 2 stores. We got taco bell for dinner which I couldn't even eat, and all the while I was contracting, some painful and some not, anywhere from every 5-15 minutes apart. It was rediculous! I just wanted them to get regular and do something, but no.

So around 7 pm we decided to head to L&D even though I knew theyd probably just be sending me home, so I could be checked and get some ambien or something because I was NOT up for another night of "false" contractions. We dropped DD off at my moms and headed out. In the car on the way there I was actually having some good ones five minutes apart. When we finally got up to L&D, the nurse was very snooty and not nice. She had me PIAC and undress, and they put the monitors on me. Not 2 minutes later the Midwife came in and checked me, she said I was still at a 1 and "long" which is funny to me since the last MW who checked me said I was 50% effaced, maybe that just means she doesn't know how to check? She is my unfavoritest MW by the way, I just can't stand this woman. Last night she said, "So I know youve been trying to have this baby..." because at my last appointment I asked to be checked and she didn't want to check me... I responded with, "yeah, as much as once can TRY to have a baby." Crap, if I knew how to do that I would've already had mine. IDIOT. Anyway, she didn't even bother to look at my strip, said IDK why youre having contractions and gave me some ambien and sent me on my merry way.

I creid and felt so dissappointed. I wish I was on of those women who just one day woke up to fast and furious contrax and a few minutes later they have their babies, but I guess Im just not made that way. I especially felt dissappointed because DH was so awesome, not really mentioning the contrax or anything but making up all kinds of things to do so we could go walk, etc. He never made me feel bad or anything and was so supprotive of me. He kept telling me how strong I am and that this is natural and that he'd rather us have to wait for him to come out on his own terms than have me hooked up to all kinds of machines and medicines to get things moving, and that sometimes nature just takes a while. I :wub: him so much.

Anyway, I just woke up a few minutes ago, that stuff really kicked my butt. I don't think Im going to work, I still cant see straight and I fel really weird, besides my entire body hurts from all the contrax and walking yesterday. Hopefully I won't get fired.

Please send labor dust my way. I dont think I can deal with another birth with days and days of prodromal labor. Its just not fair. Sad

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I'm sorry that MW yesterday was not so kind. Sounds like a good idea to take another day off and get some rest after so much happening yesterday. Hopefully your time will be soon.

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Aw, get some rest and take care of yourself! I'm glad DH was so great and supportive, though--will definitely make things easier on you when "real" labor hits...which hopefully won't be long now!

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huh, sorry, double post!

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I just got caught up on your lodge. I'm so sorry about the unproductive contrax. That blows. I can relate on the cervical front---I don't drop or have any cervical change until I am in full-blown labor.

I can also relate to the DH partying frustration. Mine is part of a soccer supporters club---lots of dudes drinking way too much beer. He was really irresponsible a few times and I finally put my foot down. He has not gone and gotten hammered since.

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"kvo" wrote:

I just got caught up on your lodge. I'm so sorry about the unproductive contrax. That blows. I can relate on the cervical front---I don't drop or have any cervical change until I am in full-blown labor.

I can also relate to the DH partying frustration. Mine is part of a soccer supporters club---lots of dudes drinking way too much beer. He was really irresponsible a few times and I finally put my foot down. He has not gone and gotten hammered since.

Yeah I can relate to that too. DH's best friend was in town the past week and while we are all super close and I enjoyed seeing him too, it definitely amped up the partying factor to a really annoying degree at times. I finally had to get angry in front of a houseful of people at a dinner party we threw on Sunday. I said four or five times both to DH and to guests that I was pregnant, exhausted, and had to get up early to go to work--everyone needed to start winding down/leaving (it was well after 10pm), and DH was not helping AT ALL. He kept saying quietly "Oh, okay...yeah, um, Leigh needs to go to bed." and then ramping right back up to acting crazy and keeping the party going. Finally I threw my hands up all dramatic and stomped out of the room (so not like me, normally) and FINALLY our friend noticed and took me seriously. And then after they all left DH was like "Omg how annoying was it that they wouldn't leave!" :angry1: It was really, really frustrating.

They should be more sensitive, absolutely, but I hope it makes you feel better that it's a pretty common problem and not just you!

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Glad to know I'm not alone ... I have to say that it is rare for Carlos to actually get druk when he goes over there, but what bothers me is that he would rather be over there than at home with us, kwim? I mean I know he needs "man time" and all, but its just too many times a week for me. I never get to do anything alone, and I really wouldn't know what to do if I had the chance, but even so its a fairness issue for me too. I come home and am the responsible one every day, so he knows he can just not come home from work if he doesn't want to because I will be there with Juliana. He takes it for granted that I will always be there for her and takeing care of her. And even though she isn't his bio-kid, hes raised her since she was a baby and made it very clear to me and everyone that she is his daughter, period. So to me there is no reason why he can't be just as responsible for her as I am. IDK. I guess I'm still ranting here. He hasn't gone anywhere so far this week, and he had better not try anything or I might lose it. I am too pregnant for him to be out drinking with his friends right now. :angry1:

Back to work as of yesterday. If my contractions aren't doing anything I may as well go to work and make some money, right? Its really uncomfortable to sit here all day, and annoying that everyone has to ask me how Im feeling and make comments on how huge I am, how I look like Im about to pop, etc. etc. every day. I got the same comments this morning, and I was here yesterday. Really, I'm pretty sure nothing has changed. I guess I need to get used to everyone being surprised to see me every single day. SIGH. Yesterday I called my grandma and she answered the phone "so are you heading in?" and I told her if she ws going to answer like that when I called I wouldn't call her until I was. And I called my mom for something else and she said, "Oh, I thought you were calling because you were in labor" and sounded like I just killed a kitten or something. Everyone is askng me when Im due and when the baby is coming and making stupid jokes, like "Someone should try to scare you" (scare the baby out....har de har har.) IDK how much more of these kind of comments I can take. I'm not impatient, just uncomfortable, but everyone else makes me feel impatient. Makes me want to go hide somewhere until he's here.

DH has just been great. He made dinner last night and bathed J even though he didn't want to, and is really understanding even when I fly off the handle at him for no reason which is a lot lately. Poor guy. Sad And he lets me cuddle him on the couch and in bed, which he really can't stand, but he knows I like it and it helps me relax and sleep. He said DTD is out until after the baby is here now, he just doesn't want to do it anymore because I'm so big and its so uncomfortable and ackward for us both. It kind of makes me feel bad, even though I know he doesn't want it to - I can't wait to be normal size and get back into shape so I can be sexy again.

We don't have any plans for this weekend but I kind of want to make some. I would love to take J to the water park so we can all go swimming or something. I guess it depends on whether DH works Saturday or not. But swimming sounds nice. Smile

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I'm just getting caught up on your lodge and wanted to say how I think you are a strong amazing woman. I hope Wesley makes his arrival soon. As for your boss and needing to reduce your hours, could you do some work at home? I've worked as a legal assistant and I know I could have done a lot of my work at home. Would your boss be agreeable to that?

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"mjones6102" wrote:

I'm just getting caught up on your lodge and wanted to say how I think you are a strong amazing woman. I hope Wesley makes his arrival soon. As for your boss and needing to reduce your hours, could you do some work at home? I've worked as a legal assistant and I know I could have done a lot of my work at home. Would your boss be agreeable to that?

Awww thanks. Smile

I don't think I'm going to be able to reduce my hours. We are a really small firm and my boss is very set in his ways, so I don't think he would ever let me work from home. I think he is feeling bad for me a little now, and since he doesnt want anything half way done when I leave hes been giving me less work (I feel like a lot of the time he makes up things for me to do when we're slow, LOL!). We've been slow this week and he's going away to Spain at the end of next week so luckily work hasn't been too bad. Much easier than I thought it would be. Its just the sitting here like this all day that takes a toll on my hips and back.

Yesterday I had a small gush of something when I was leaving the bank...enough to wet through my pants. Then I had another smaller one later in the day. I haven't had any other ones though, so I'm pretty sure I must have just been peeing myself :eek: but it made me wonder for a minute there. I checked and it didn't really smell like pee, but who knows?! But I wanted to mention it just in case it did end up being important somehow, later. I've been feeling crampy and still having irregular contrax all yesterday and through the night. We DTD last night (even though DH said no more DTD, he's such a liar!) so I was kind of hoping it might start something but nope. Just made me contract a lot while I was sleeping I imagine, since I got up a lot to pee and every time I did I was having contractions. Peeing during a contraction is painful, BTW. But I did still manage to get a decent amount of sleep somehow.

Last night baby was sitting in such a horrible position, with his head up my my left hip and his butt sticking out under my right ribs. Its like when I wear tighter pants (at this point all my pants are tight!) to work, it bothers him that its squishing his head so he moves into that position and it hurts sooooo bad! I finally got on my hands and knees yesterday and sort of pushed him with two hands to spin him down into the right position again. DH was looking at me like I was insane, but it helped so much. I have enought hip pain without his head pressing on it directly!

Juliana was so cute last night, we were watching Supernanny and it was a family with 2 sets of twins. She loves babies, and she was telling me that she wanted me to have lots of babies for her to play with! She said she wants me to have 4. Biggrin She's so excited for Wesley to come out, and I can't wait to see her as a big sister in action. Sometimes I feel like Im taking something away from her by having another baby because she won't be my only child anymore, but I try to think of it as giving her a gift instead. I always remember growing up that my mom never had time for all of us and felt so stretched out with 6 kids, but now I think it was more of a personal problem than a number of kids problem...but I still worry that will happen to me and my kids, and I don't want any of them to feel left out or like they are missing out on things because they have brothers and sisters to share with... I want them to love and appreicate each other. I'm probably rambling, I know. I just love her so much and I don't want to take anything away from her. I love Wesley too already, and I know it will be even more real once he's here - its hard to imagine loving another person as much as I love her, but I know I will. IDK. I almost feel like going from 1 kid to 2 is as scary and new as going from 0 to 1.

I have an appointment tomorrow and for some reason I'm really excited about it. Maybe because its my last appointment before I go overdue? I really am starting to think I will go over...Anyway, not sure why I'm so excited or what I expect them to do, but I can't wait. DH has to work tomorrow though, so I have to figure out something fun to do with Juliana. If its not too hot we could go to the park... IDK. Sometimes I feel like I don't know what to do with her. I want to make our time together special since soon it won't be just us anymore, and I feel bad that most weekends we really dont do much because there are always things to be done at home...so tonight I want to get my "chores" done so we can have fun tomorrow. Any suggestions for a fun day with a 3 year old? That I can do by myself?

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The gush could be the start of a slow leak. I would definitely mention it to your m/w tomorrow. I know how you feel about going from 1 to 2 kids. I am so afraid about how DD1 will react. She loves babies and I know she will be a great big sister, but I don't want her to feel left out or that Mommy doesn't have time for her anymore. I know everything will work out for both of us, but it is that fear of the unknown that is really scary.

As for ideas to do with Juliana, do you have a children's museum anywhere near you. DD1 and I are going to one this weekend by ourselves. There are so many activities that I'm sure you could find something that would entertain her. It would also most likely be inside so weather wouldn't be an issue.

I hope you find something interesting to do with Juliana.

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"mjones6102" wrote:

The gush could be the start of a slow leak. I would definitely mention it to your m/w tomorrow. I know how you feel about going from 1 to 2 kids. I am so afraid about how DD1 will react. She loves babies and I know she will be a great big sister, but I don't want her to feel left out or that Mommy doesn't have time for her anymore. I know everything will work out for both of us, but it is that fear of the unknown that is really scary.

As for ideas to do with Juliana, do you have a children's museum anywhere near you. DD1 and I are going to one this weekend by ourselves. There are so many activities that I'm sure you could find something that would entertain her. It would also most likely be inside so weather wouldn't be an issue.

I hope you find something interesting to do with Juliana.

Yeah I'll mention it. I wasn't too worried about it until now because like I said, DH had "cut me off" from DTD so I figured nothing would be going up there to cause infection or anything, but since we did last night I'll definately mention it to her tomorrow. I kept feeling wet between my legs last night walking back upstairs after getting up to pee 3 and 4 times, but I know I wiped good so that was odd- but I was too tired to really pay much attention to it at that point. They wouldnt want to induce for a slow leak would they? I mean usually it either breaks or seals back up right?!

Now that you mention it there is a Port Discovery downtown...I would love to take her there, but at the same time thats something I would like DH to be there for, so we could do it as a family, kwim? IDK. I really like for him to be there for stuff like that, it feels so lonely when hes missing but he works so much we hardly have a chance to do anything as a whole family. Maybe I can get my sister to go with me or something...I need a friend with kids in real life, I dont have any mommy friends - this would be something perfect to do as a playdate.

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Here's my 39 weeks belly pic, comparing to last week:

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