I lurk here religiously Helina!! Sending you lots of Labour Vibes and ELV's!!! I can't wait to meet that baby!
Im starting to stalk you too... sending you easy labor vibes... I'll be thinking about you tomorrow
Morning ladies! Completely uneventful night. That second small dose of CO never even made me go to the bathroom. No lying awake, no ctx to time except a couple as I fell asleep.
I called and they said to come right in, so I took a shower & am about to get dressed. The MW on today is not my favorite but not the worst either. I'm sure she'll be good...just wish it were someone else.
I'm pretty pissed, bummed, upset, crying, and so far from joyous I can't even describe it. I know I need to turn my feelings around to be in a happy state to birth this baby, but how can I? The one thing I've been hoping against hope for 2yrs to avoid is here.
For me, NCB isn't about avoiding pain meds. Quite frankly I'm all for pain relief for birthing mamas, whether it comes from water, hypnosis, epidural, what have you. It's a personal choice and being able to declare that I did it w/o meds isn't important to me (though I want to avoid using them.) The part that I feel strongly about is INTERFERENCE. I want to let my body do its thing without interference. I know I'm physically able to birth this baby. I know my body will decide when it's time. I know it can produce all the hormones needed to start the process. What's being taken away from me is the chance to just let it be, let it happen. I know I can still decline the induction but they make it so flipping hard.
So, there ya go. Wish me luck, you guys! Once I get there & get checked I'll have some decisions to make, I suppose. I hope the wireless is working--I'll update from the hosp. Thanks for everything!
Helina, I will be thinking of you today. I know what you mean about the feelings related to being induced. I felt the same way when they told me I had to have a c/s with Jackson. I was at peace about the decision shortly after he was born and I hope that you can find that too. Pleassssse keep us posted!
Thinking of you today. I hope your interventions are minor and your baby comes quick. GL
I'm so sad that you are so upset. I really wish I could give you a hug right now. I'm almost in tears at work. I know exactly what you mean about not wanting to be induced. It's my biggest worry for when we have #2 since I never had strong contractions without Pit.
You have an amazing support system here and at home. We all want you to have a wonderful birth experience and it will be. I am hoping with all my might that all you need is a kick start today at the hospital to really get your body going on it's own.
Just keep picturing in your mind holding that beautiful baby against your skin. That moment will make you forget about all this emotional pressure you're feeling right now.
HUGS HUGS HUGS and LOTS of LABOR VIBES!
Molly & Elton 10/2/04
Mary 5/24/06, Celia 6/9/09
Baby #3 due 6/21/13
I'm so terribly sorry Helina. I just can't imagine how you feel right now! I can't believe that little monkey is holding on. I really hope this time its a much smoother AND shorter induction. I'm counting on less than 12 hours this time around from start to finish! I'm sure you'll be thrilled once you meet this little guy (i'm starting to really think boy but if its a girl I KNOW you'll be thrilled about that too!!!!).
Totally have a great day~! And I wish that your family would've been more understanding as to why you are so upset that you aren't getting the chance to have this baby on your own!
Ouch on the birth ball bursting. Mine did too while I was sitting on it a few months before labor. Glad it was your dh sitting on it and not you when it burst.
I'm so sorry they're pressuring you into this induction. I had the same fears and I understand why you don't want to do it and why you are doing it anyway. Wishing you the best today.
Last edited by 24me; 05-15-2008 at 09:01 AM.
I'm lurking from the April board
I'm so sorry you're going through this. I have just been in love with your positive attitude through your whole pregnancy and it breaks my heart to hear the anguish in your post, but I completely understand it. I wish I had been more like you through out. I was a big complainer and now that I'm not pregnant anymore, I miss it sooo much.
I really hope this LO decides to come on his/her own, you deserve to have the birth experience you want. I'm really hoping and praying that it happens today.
Hang in there mama, and I can't wait to hear that you brought your beautiful little baby into this world,,on YOUR time