Today my best friend treated me to lunch and a prenatal massage... *dreamy sigh* i feel aaaaawesome
I don't have a whole lot to say today, but a random thought suddenly crossed my mind. I am on Procardia for the ctx I was having a few weeks ago (which caused my cervix to soften and begin dialating). My doc says I could stop taking it at 37 weeks. Now I'm paranoid that since the baby didn't come when he wanted (when all the ctx and cervical change was going on) he's going to be stubborn and say "well, fine then! i'll just stay forever... or at least go overdue" I still feel good currently, other than some ctx that have been going on the past few days and the dropping of the baby the other day. I'd still rather that this kid didn't wait too long after my EDD to make his entrance
Ok, I'm having a panicky moment. I hope it's just a moment. At my dr appt yesterday, I got checked and haven't progressed, which wasn't a big deal to me. My doc sid "well it's a shame you haven't progressed" and I was totally fine and said "well i've got a few more weeks, change can happen at any moment. Think positive thoughts, doc. I am!" But today, I dont' feel so positive. I don't know what it is, but I'm having a few negative thoughts like "omg i'm 38 weeks tomorrow and nothing's going on. I was already 1cm last time at 38 weeks" I was having good ctx last night, about 4 mins apart for several hours. I thought it had the potential of being actual "show time", but they petered out. I'm sure the false hope last night hasn't helped my negative thoughts. I don't know what I'm looking for, I just needed to get out the negative vibes, hoping to make room for more positive ones. It's just kind of hard when I feel like I'm in the time crunch b/c of vbacing
*chanting* I will be fine, I will go into labor on my own, I will dialate when the time is right, my baby knows what he's doing, my body knows what to do
Try not to panic! Those ctx are a great sign that your body is making progress. It's so hard to trust your body but what else can you do at this point, right?
Hang in there!! Hope you're feeling better about it today.
Ready for a feel good story?? Ok, good!
So yesterday my dad and I were out and about by ourselves doing some fun, foodie errands that we like to do together. My dad and I have a great relationship, but we don't really talk much about the pregnancy, except when mentioning the baby. We just don't really like to get into details of the physical part of pregnancy, that's what I use my mom for hehehehe. My dad's of the whole mindset "omg i DONT want to think of my daughter's uterus, vagina, or breasts. she's my DAUGHTER" heheh that kind of thing.
anyway, surprisingly yesterday while on our errands, we started talking about my VBAC. He's aware of what I am going to do, he just has never really inquired about it. He asked lots of good questions and I answered them for him. He was just really interested in the research part of why vbac is safer, etc. Then after all the research-talk, he says to me "I know it probably doesn't make a difference, but I'm proud of you. You can do it. You have a really good head on your shoulders... you get that from me, ya know." Now this is the part where you'd (insert) preggo hormonal daughter tearing up about to cry.Of COURSE it matters to me that he knows I can do it! Any extra support that I can get is an amazing addition to what I'm doing. Each little comment of support just further motivates me and adds to my confidence. Ok, I just had to share my little feel-good story
Oh, and Rebecca I don't know if you read my lodge, but I'm still borrowing your mantra "This is is TOTALLY coming out of my vagina"
Awww, that is really sweet that he took an interest in learning about it, recognized how important it is to you, and told you he believes in you! It sounds like you have a wonderful relationship him--how special that is.
Its great that you have your Dad's support and he told you.
Keep going, this baby will be born in a VBAC!!