Welcome to your lodge! I look forward to getting to know you and sharing in the journey of your home waterbirth for baby #2!
Thanks so much for starting a lodge for me!
Where to start? I guess my journey to homebirthing started with my last pregnancy. Although I went into the hospital seemingly prepared (three signed birth plans, very specific, supposedly "OK'd" by my doctor) I was pressured into an induction for a "large baby" and fleeting, debatable BP issues. I had a Pitocin induction on August 28, 2007 and had my water broken soon after starting the pitocin. The monitoring machines were on one side of the bed and with monitoring bands on both my arms I was quite literally strapped to the hospital bed. My external fetal monitor kept slipping off (why of course it would, it's a round contracting belly!) and I had to have an internal fetal monitor ... that was replaced several times because it kept falling out as well. A few hours into the Pitocin induction I was having very intense contractions 30 seconds apart and at about 5 cm (around noon), I asked for an epidural. i cried after getting it because it was not something I wanted in the first place but it allowed me to rest and not feel the artificially induced contractions while not being able to get out of bed or move at all. By the late afternoon/evening I was complete and ready to push just as the epidural was wearing off. I am glad that it wore off enough that I could push effectively, but my legs were numb and as I was pushing it seemed like there were 30 people (more like 15, but I felt very surrounded and watched) yelling at me to PUSH and then of course when my DS started crowning I was told to "DON'T PUSH, We'll go get the doctor!" and they held my son in while I screamed that I didn't care that the doctor wasn't there. The doctor eventually came in and performed an episiotomy (against my birth plan that stated I would rather tear than have an episiotomy performed) and I pushed my son out into this world. They handed him right to me but my arms were too tired, either from the labor or the drugs I had in my system, to hold him and I had them take him back because he was so slippery and I was afraid I was going to drop him. I had excess bleeding, not a hemmorage but what they said was just "more blood than usual" and for the next few days had a nurse MASHING on my uterus until I was bruised to make sure it was contracting even though I was nursing and could feel my uterus contracting on its own. The only good thing about that particular hospital is that they encouraged rooming in and i was able to be with my son for all but a couple hours while we were there (at one point they took him away during the night for tests and I hadn't slept in a couple of days). I healed well physically but am still healing emotionally from that birth. I wholeheartedly believe that most of what happened in the hospital that I feel negatively about was a result of being in the hospital system itself- no matter how "natural" and accepting they may seem of your wishes, it is still a system that you get put through and it is VERY hard to overcome it. I applaud women that are able to naturally birth in a hospital but I wasn't able to and don't know if I could ever.
This time, I knew I wanted things to be different. My sister-in-law had a homebirth with her DD and was planning a homebirth with her second child when I got pregnant this time around so we had been talking about natural childbirth for a few years . Even before I had gotten pregnant I had done a lot of research and reading regarding what had happened at the hospital and what I could do to try to have the birth I wanted this time around. One thing I knew would make a world of a difference was having a midwife. I interviewed a couple and found what I was looking for in a CPM that had done missionary work in Africa and had dealt with lots of emergency situations there and then gone on to perform homebirths and births at her free-standing birth center in my area. She has been great in helping me find literature to help me work through the issues I had leftover from my last birth (Birthing From Within) and I can't wait to have her support during labor. I am feeling confident and excited to have our daughter in our home with just my husband, midwife and birth assistant. No crowd of people yelling at me to push! A calm, peaceful birth... well as peaceful as birth can be . I have confidence in my body's ability to birth and have been working on getting my mind to a place to accept that and handle birth as well (again, thank you BFW and also Spiritual Midwifery). I have Aquaborn birth pool for laboring and I hope to deliver in the water, with my DH catching our sweet daughter as she comes into this world.
I think that's it for now... I've never had a lodge so I don't know if I'm doing this right
Stephanie & Skyler <3 4-27-06
Cashion Michael 8.28.07
Delilah Juliet 11.5.09
Welcome to your lodge! There's no 'right way' to do this-we all have our own stories to share. I'm so glad you're able to work through the birthing issues and that you now have an awesome midwife!
Ryan and Rachael
Parents to Chase, Abby, Hunter, Rachel, Caleb, Hannah & Nate
~Remembering sweet baby Oliver, born to Heaven October 20, 2009, & keeping Carole in our prayers~
This is why I rolled my eyes when the MEDwife at the OB/GYN office I started out in suggested I just have a "well prepared birth plan written out."
So happy for you guys!
Dylan 4/22/04, Devon 6/24/06,Dorothy 9/13/07, Derek 12/19/09, Daniel 12/18/10, Daphne 2/24/12
Mindie and Mark, 5/16/09
Welcome to your lodge!
I'm sorry you had such a rough time for your first birth. I think it's amazing that you've chosen a natural home birth for your second and that you've been working to overcome any outstanding issues from your first experience, so that you are prepared to have a great labor and birth this time around.
Wishing your all the best on your journey!
Due on 12/10/09
It's a BOY!!!
Great intro! I can't wait to follow your lodge and hear about your home birth!
Well I've got all my birth supplies ready and birth pool is in and tested... Baby can come out whenever she's ready!
I'm feeling alot of pressure and she felt like she was going to fall out when i was walking around the grocery store this morning. It's Halloween and I'm making candy apples, caramel apples, and this toffee made with saltines and chocolate chips (sooooo good!). I'm having a bunch of people over tonight and was kind of hoping I would go into labor before then but no luck . At least it will motivate us to clean the house... I haven't done much nesting at all and we moved in at the beginning of the month and still haven't unpacked everything.
I got the last of the newborn diaper stash yesterday and washed all her clothes and set aside her first outfit and swaddling blankets along with the towels and other things I have in boxes ready for my birth team in the kitchen. I have an appointment with my midwife Monday but we've gotten everything taken care of so our visits are pretty short... she doesn't rush me but I just feel prepared and don't have many questions anymore. I'll get a chiropractic adjustment then, too because the chiropractor's office is connected to the birth center my midwife works in. I hope the adjustment will help her rotate into an optimum position and drop down a little more- that plus the full moon that night and I may have a baby! We'll see ...
Stephanie & Skyler <3 4-27-06
Cashion Michael 8.28.07
Delilah Juliet 11.5.09
I hope you get the birth you want this time around! I just saw the aquaborn pool online earlier today on the site I get my homebirth supplies from. It looks like it would be really great to birth in. Have you got it set up yet?
Desana 12/22/07, Freya 01/21/10
yumm...the stuff you're making sounds really good! I hope you have fun having people over for Halloween. I'm glad you're feeling ready for the baby to come.