Welcome to your lodge!
I hope that you don't mind, but I seen that you needed one.
Welcome to your lodge Amie! Can't wait to follow your story.
Sienna 11/2/05 Michael 1/11/09
Thanks! Time has flown...pretty crazy, I just can't believe I am here.
I guess I'm supposed to do a intro, so I'll do that soon and rack my brain as to what people are supposed to put on their intros! LOL
Hi! I was pregnant with you when you were expecing Aiden in Dec. '06 I look forward to following this birth and hope it is much easier for you then your first. Welcome to your lodge! Oh, and I want to see a new pic of your family in your intro...perty please!
Finally doing this intro...
I'm Amie mommy to Aiden who is 2yrs old.
I've been married to Kevin for 12 wonderful years now, he is in the Navy. We met when I was a senior in HS and he a freshman in college...we worked at the same resturant. We became friends and it just went from there. We are best-friends, lovers and soul-mates and always want to spend all our time together. I miss him right now! He is a wonderful father and helps me so much!
I am very excited to be here among all you wonderful ladies, I can't believe this journey is about to end and I can't believe that I made it here without heartache and pain that I felt with my last pregnancy and birth. I have learned so much about myself and the path that I am taking and I will forever be grateful that I have this board and ladies to turn to who understand me and understand what I have gone through to be here. I am SO excited about my upcoming birth! I get chillbumps just thinking about it. I never thought I'd be here!
I am thinking of writing Aidens birth story in another post for anyone interested. He was healthy..but it was not a happy story. I feel like I should put it here.
Last edited by Purple_Butterflies; 04-27-2011 at 02:38 AM.
Aidens Birth Story...(will try to do the fast version, or it will be LOONG!)
It all started when I was around my 28w and my BP started going up, just a little. I was in HI at the time and going to the "big pink hospital in the sky" Tripler for my maternity care under the midwifes. It is a HUGE practice with many docs and mw so I saw a different person every time. Every time I went my BP was elevated and I had to go every week from then and I kept asking if I should be doing anything and slowing down and I always got the same answer..."NO..you can resume normal activites." My urine was checked and was told it was fine. So I didn't slow down... Got to 33 weeks when it was higher and was sent to a high-risk OB but they couldn't get me in for over a week so I was to do NST's untill then.
DH came home from deployment and we just had a move...went in for my 34w NST and my BP was high...around 150-160/90-100. Everyone was making a big fuss over me and I wasn't allowed to leave. They already were talking c-section before we even knew what was wrong. Aiden was breech still....I had one doctor try to trick me into signing the papers into one..saying it was for a strep-b test but when I looked at them it was for a section. She played it off as being hospital protocol.
Got admitted and got stuck FOUR times by someone who did not know how to give IV's..my BP shot up really high, which in turn freaked everyone out. Finally they got an actual doctor to give the IV. HOURS had went by and I was starving, I was forbidden to eat. At that time my sister and DH had shown up and thats when my room became a revolving door to every doctor to tell me I had to have a c/s now because my baby could die. I had just had a u/s and the baby was fine and healthy and in no distress. At this point no tests had been run except for maybe a urine test which came back as fine. I might of had some blood tests but I don't remember... By that point I was anxious and scared and my BP was going through the roof. The head doctor came in and screamed at me that I was "killing my baby" by not having a c-section and when I tried to explain to her that I wanted to wait to see if my BP would go down and keep him in a bit longer she was like "well DID YOU go to medical school?" "I think not..." I told her to get the **&^ out of my room and never come back. My BP shot up to 215/100 something after that incident and it was a really scary moment for us! My DH took that doc outside for a talk in the hallway. Whatever he said she was a lot nicer after that. I forgot to add that...I was also told that eventually something had to happen and I had to make a decision or they could obtain a court order and force me.
They put me on Mag. That stuff is poision...I couldn't breathe or get up without trying to pass out. And it didn't help my bp either. I couldn't get up and had to be cathed and we started doing the 24 hour collection to see what my protein output was. I was crying and I just couldn't stop and they were all trying to tell me to calm down but I just couldn't! DH crawled in the bed with me and we spent all night huddled up together. We had a few scary times with my BP that night. They finally had to give me something for sleep to calm me down.
By the morning I was mentally and physically exausted. I hadn't eaten in over 24 hours and I was just beat down. I finally consented to getting a epidural and trying to manually turn him for an induction and if it didn't work I would consent to doing the c/s.
The nurse aneth. came in and she kept going on and on about how swollen I was...I should have took it as a sign and asked for someone else. She was kind of kooky and made me feel uncomfortable.
They rolled me in the OR and tried 5 times to turn him and he just wouldn't budge...it was a weird feeling. They started going through the process of prepping me for surgery which was scary and I started crying again. My arms were strapped down and I felt so out of control and scared. The doctor was the same one who was mean to me, but she was alot nicer to me this time.
In the middle of my c/s I started feeling alot of movement and pressure/pain and I freaked. The nurse aneth. was not even around or beside me to tell me what was going on. She was behind me doing who knows what!? I told her what I was feeling so she gave me Ketamine, which is used for animal tranquilizer btw...which I wasn't made aware of at the time. I started tripping...seriously tripping. It was terrifying! I thought I died because I was up on a grassy hill having a conversation with God. I saw parts of my life flash through my eyes and I was asking god if I had been good enough to go to heaven. I then came back "down to earth" to hear my son cry and my DH crying. I vaugely remember seeing him. He was born at 5lbs even! Then everything just jumbled up like a kaledioscope for a long time. My ears were ringing in recovery loudly and I remember it worried the nurses because it was not a good thing supposedly. I was so messed up from the drugs I asked my sister over and over if the baby was okay and breathing...we laugh about me doing that now. It took me a LOOONG time to recover. I didn't see my baby well after 24hrs later. I kept asking and kept getting shot down. I was really upset about that.
I finally got to see my little man and he was so tiny and cute and I just cried. The NICU staff was great and we spent alot of time there holding him and doing kangeroo care. He was very healthy and off the cpath (i think thats right) by 24 hours. He had a hard time eating though as his jaw muscles were underdeveloped and he didn't come home for 2.5 weeks and I stayed in the hospital for over 10 days because of my BP. It worked out well that I got to see him alot!
We never found out if it was pre-e or not because my urine was not collected for 24 hours and thrown away... I'm sure it was that or PIH.
We also found out a year later that you are NEVER supposed to give a adult Ketamine as it has horrible side effects.
Anyway not the happy story that most people like to hear about but definately has a happy ending. Now ya'll know why I plan to homebirth...I am scared of hospitals!
Last edited by Purple_Butterflies; 04-27-2011 at 02:39 AM.
omg, that is so traumatic. I totally understand why you're planning a homebirth. It's crazy how the staff treated you...you would think it would be common sense that telling you things like "you're going to kill your baby" would raise your BP.
I hope this birth is a totally different experience and your little one arrives in the peace and comfort of your home.