So I am having a better day today. My logical brain realizes that I can do this. It was my subconscious that was struggling. I listened to my pg affirmations CD yesterday at that helped a lot. Not much going on today. The weather is nice. We need to get out and do something.
I had about 4 hrs of consistent contractions and then Isaiah had a huge melt down and it stopped. My poor little guy needed me, but Ugh! So now I am praying it starts up again!
I totally know the effect that c-sections can have on your confidence in birthing. It can make you doubt your ability to push out a baby. My babies are on the bigger side too and the OB at the hospital insinuated that my body wasn't capable of letting out my 8 lb 12oz baby... my vbac kiddos were the same size, with bigger heads!
I have a great feeling about this for you Christy! I think you're prepared and it seems like you have a very supportive caregiver.
I feel your fear, its my biggest, that I'll go through labor, reach a 10 and then get stuck, but I've been so encouraged reading the lodges of others who vbac'd with theirs when they'd been told they were too small. It's helped me a lot and its what I keep in mind everytime the thought creeps in.
Tiff + Bobby 8/22/04
If it helps with the big baby thing, my SIL just had a baby at 38 weeks, I know it's not past due, her first was born a couple days before 36 weeks at 6Ibs 2oz and the little boy she just had which was 2 weeks further along than her first was born at 6Ibs 8oz. In all reality he should have been at least a full pound bigger than her first and to top it off she had GD and her husband is HUGE, well over 6 foot and around 300Ibs and she isn't much bigger than me other than slightly bigger bones. So yeah her baby should have been huge according to the doctor. I'm a firm believer that in most cases the moms body doesn't grow a baby bigger than she can deliver. You will do great! I am so excited to hear your story! Hope those contractions pick back up for you!
DS1-7/18/08, DS2-2/23/10, DS3 1/18/12
TTC in fall/winter of 2014
One of my favorite fear release techniques is to write out by hand what my fear is, everything in very great detail, maybe draw a picture, take all the fear out of my mind & put it on the paper. And then take the paper outside to a safe place & burn it. Watch the fear disappear with the embers, watch it blow away with the smoke. That's actually a ritual that I use frequently for other things, I guess you could say that it's my form of prayer, my way of getting my thoughts & energy out into the universe.
I also used a hypnotherapist during my pregnancy with Weston to address some fear issues that I was unable to resolve on my own. The technique she used was to get me to relax completely, and she would have me walk, in my mind, down a flight of stairs into my psyche. She would help me find the fear and then drag it back out, up the stairs, and set it free. You really need someone to talk you through this kind of thing, it's not something you can do yourself. If you can swing a couple of sessions with someone, I recommend it!
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I really hope those contractions pick up for you again. I'm glad your doctor is being so supportive! He sounds wonderful.
big boy 12.8.07 @ 39+2 7lbs 8oz, 20.5" BFed for 13 months
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