(((((HUGS))))) That must have been so scary! I know you're stressed out and feeling spread thin right now... Put yourself on a timer if you need and eat something nutrient-dense every couple hours. That may be easier than trying to force down meals right now...
Yay for placenta's! So glad to hear that it's helping you. I can only imagine how hard it must be to see your baby struggling to breath, even knowing the reason why. I'm glad you and hawkes were able to reconnect, very sweet. Also, I know finances always play a role when deciding things like this but have you thought (if it's possible) of hiring a postpartum doula for a few weeks?
Oh my parents are here till the 8th, so I am good on support. My mom is doing all of the cooking, cleaning, laundry and shopping. Finn is not around at all since he has to have his dissertation done by the nineth. He is working twelve hour days and will not even be taking this weekend off. He also has a big job interview next week in New Mexico. So we are seeing nothing of each other which is hard since he is the only one I can talk to that understands. I am glad my parents are here though, do not know how I would be managing. Went to the chiro yesterday and have more of an appetite and no insomnia last night. I am actually one who cannot force myself to eat. If I do not want to eat something I will make myself sick i I try. I am having my mom get some more protein rich quick foods for me at the store today.
I am usually good until it is time to go to bed. I am just too afraid to sleep unless she is in my arms, but that does not get me good sleep. Luckily she is a good sleeper and super mellow. I am finally resigned that I am not going to be able to side lie nuse since she has trouble breathing doing that.
Oh that's right, I forgot your parents are there. That's great that their so helpful. Also glad to read that the chiro appt helped. Do they have her on a breathing monitor? You know those blanket type things that'll go off if they stop breathing? I'm not sure if something like that would help in a situation like this, but it came to mind so I thought I'd mention it.
No they did not send us home with an apnea monitor since the ped said they tend to false alarm and freak parents out more than help. Also he said they have not shown to reduce the risk of SIDS. She did not have any anea episodes in the hospital though, just two false alarms.
I found some perfect solutions for sleep, but they ae really exspensive. I am going to wait to talk to the ENT to get his advice on what is good and probably ask the ILs if they will get it for us.
I am doing much better today. A woman came over yesterday who is doing an ethnographic study of the culture of birth and how it has changed. It was really cathartic to tell my stories and get that off my chest. I feel much better. Also Finn has been getting a ton done and was able to come home for dinner last night. My parents left so we could have some amily time. This was the first real family time we have had. It was crazy but nice. Hawkes loves his little sister but is jealous when people pay attention to her and not him.
Nursing is going better. I just have my crazy over active letdown again which means I end up choking her and making her more gassy. Need to figure out what to do about that. She is doing really well on the meds and now crys normally. I just need to find a way where she does not gag and choke in the car seat though.
Two positives though are she has started STTN. This is just crazy to me. But she is up and eating almost all day. Also I am back in my pp pants. Finn finished the first draft of his last chapter so can actually spend some time with us today and tomorrow.
I'm glad to hear that your mom is taking good care of you and also giving you guys space when you need it. That sounds pretty much ideal.
I have a super power letdown as well. I have found that if I stimulate my nipples before nursing (pumping a tiny bit if need be, but usually a squeeze or two while looking at baby works) then I can get my letdown to happen first...then I will put baby to breast and the worst is already over. Adam developed a click while nursing which was his way of breaking the latch and controlling the flow. Caleb seems to be adapting so far but when it's too much he just lets it all run out.
Sorry I have been pretty MIA. I really only get on the computor when I have a baby nursing or fussing on me, so I have been mostly lurking. Just thought I would post a quick update.
We had Libby's almost two week appointment and she is looking good. Same height, but she is up to ten lbs now. This means she gained a lb in a week. Looks like she is going to grow like her brother. She is already looking chunkier and out growing clothes and diapers. Also she is already holding her head up if on her tummy. She is crazy strong. We also had her ENT appointment this week and she looks great. They scoped her again and said she looks good. They did change her reflux meds since she is still having some stomach problems. But she is breathing so much better. And today she smiled for the first time. First for me, then my mom, and then Hawkes. Finn is gone so he missed it. But on that front he was at a job interview and he got the job. It is a governemtn post doc in Las Crusez, NM. He starts August 1st, so now we have to whirlwind sell our house, pack, find a place to live there, and move in six weeks. I am looking forward to when life can finally settle down or a bit after that.