I'm sorry you're feeling so down. Don't feel bad for anyone else though, ie "getting hopes up". Bah! We're excited for you no matter what. I hope that you get good and dialated without having to have a real working labor for at least some of it! (I have an IRL friend who began active labor at 7cm--she had no idea) Enjoy these days and try to have fun. Easier said than done, I know.
Yeah Finn just realized he can siphon it. Now he is just trying to figure out where to since he will have to take a storm window off.
Had a good day today. We went to this botanical garden and indoor butterfly garden and had a really good time. Then we spent the afternoon tye dyeing onesies and burp cloths in the backyard. it was great to just have a family day, we all really needed it especially Hawkes. Of course I asked him if he was having a good day and he said no. I asked him why and he said because Libby was not here. it was so sweet.
The contractions are still here. I have near constant BH's punctuated by more strong contractions. None of them hurt, it just a really intense pressure where I can almost feel her moving down. Right now I am waiting and seeing since I think I might have a leak in my waters. I had this sudden urge to use the bathroom, some pressure and now I am getting some small wetness. I just do not feel I know my body right now and am having trouble knowing when to make the call. So I am waiting and seeing. I also do not want to be on the clock if it is not really a leak. The contractions have also picked up a bit. It is just so weird to me that they do not really hurt since with Hawkes they were excurtiating all the way through.
Glad y'all had a good family day I'm sure y'all needed it! How'd the onesies and burp cloths turn out?
They turned out really well. Not very tie dyed, but cute none the less. The one thing that actually tie dyed was Hawkes big brother shirt. Need to make a t shirt transfer for one of the onesies now that says little sister.
I am feeling like a bit of a watched pot right now since Saturday. In Finn's excitement he posted on fb this might be the day, so now we are getting calls and things. Also finn means well, but he keeps doing things that are good preparation, but make me feel worse like putting plastic down last night just in case. Instead it just kept me up every time the cats walked on it.
The annoying thing is I was totally fine going as long as needed and even wanted to go past my due date until this started and now I am getting ansy just because of this not knowing what my body is doing. I think my biggest fear is my water breaking in class. I know most women do not start labor with their water breaking, but with the start of contractions already and it starting that way last time I am worried. Also I have this feeling once it makes a real start it is going to be fast since my first labor was not long.
Well this week I am just going to focus on getting my school work done since I have only twoo weeks left before finals. I think I am going to take an incomplete in one class though and just focus on the other.
You just never know how different this birth will be. Would it make sense to pack a large towel in your purse or bag when you are out these days? The night before my son was born we went for a walk to the library. My water broke after I got home, but frankly I have no idea what I would have done if it had happened earlier... I guess laughed!
Leo (3 1/2) with Malcolm the cat
Hey Drake, I thought of this while reading about Finn on fb: Some friends of mine who recently had a brith started a twitter account just for pg/birth updates. Her DH updated it a few times a day and then was posting updates from the hospital. Maybe if your dH had an outlet like that, he could post updates so people would not feel like they have to call?
I'm sorry you're feeling so "on the clock" in a way now...I totally understand why you would at this point, though! Not feeling confident I'll know when to call it is one of my biggest labor-related fears. Sounds like you're doing the best you can by just trying to focus on other things as much as possible. Hang in there...baby WILL come, and it really can't be TOO much longer now.
Very sweet about Hawkes, too!
Yeah I started carrying one of my wool pp pads in a pocket to class just in case. It is really class I am most concerned with since I already get looked at like I have the plague by undergrads at school. Going to class was good today, it was nice to get back to my work and have something else to focus on, since I love what I do. Also the more I can get done before she comes the better. had some loss of my plug today, so we will see. She is also definately even lower. I did not think that was possible. You can now feel her below my belly button. I need to try to schedule with my mw for tomorrow just so I can see if it is a good idea to go to my conference or not, I am thinking not. But I hope to get a note from her so maybe I can get a refund if I do not go. Well of to get more work done.
I forgot to add something my MIL said that really ticked me off. Since I first found out she has been saying how we should try to have the baby on her birthday (April 27th). Well the other day she called to see if I had had the baby and when Finn said no she said, oh she is just waiting for my birthday. I just get really annoyed since she is one of these people where everything is always about her, even with her own kids. She never asks how Finn is doing when she calls, just complains to him about her life. I do not want the birth of my baby to turn into being about her as well. Finn told me today I could not have the baby on the 27th. I said I would hope the mental block of not wanting it to happen then would be good enough.