Carla, I completely understand your frustration and feel for you. Try to stay as centered as you can.
Sending you love for a positive outcome. All babies come out, and I can't wait to see photos of yours.
You are doing a fantastic job. Believe in yourself!
:bighug: Carla. This is soo hard I can't even imagine being in your situation. You are such a stong woman. Trust your instincts and know that we are all here thinking of you!
I'm so sorry things aren't going well for you right now. I really hope you can get some rest and find some peace before the show gets really going. I know it's hard but hang in there. You'll have your little one before you know it!!! It's ALL worth it!!
Ahhhh, the glorious healing power of sleep! I feel like a whole new person today. I slept 7 hours at the hospital last night. I awoke with a couple contractions and to go pee, but otherwise it was a good solid night. When I woke up I even had an appetite which was a nice change over the last few days. Also, when the nurse checked me last night I was 2cm dilated; hey, that's up 1/2 cm from yesterday morning. Had two NSTs and the baby is fine. I sat and talked to the Dr. for a long time this morning. He wanted to be sure that I understood that he wasn't being indifferent to my pain and suffering. He said he could see in my eyes yesterday morning that I was ready to throw all of my plans and desires out the window in order to stop suffering. He really wants to give the baby more time and let mother nature take her course. I feel like I am back on track after the good nights sleep. We agreed that if I wasn't back in the hospital by Saturday morning because of consistent contractions or water breaking, that I should go in on Saturday morning (41w3d) and we would make a plan. He said as long as I feel the baby moving regularly all is good. I've discovered over the last couple days that my contractions come when I am sitting or lieing down (no wonder I'm not sleeping!) so he suggested that I try to spend as much time as possible during the day on my feet. He doesn't want to rush or push the contractions because he feels they are somewhat "false" and not doing much for the cervix and that they are just tiring me out. He said I'll know when the contrax are really doing their job. Also, if I spend most of the day on my feet, then when I do lie down at night I will probably be so tired as to sleep through some of the contrax. DH is being awesome and thank goodness for MIL!!! I'll keep you udpated as and when I can. I can't say enough for how wonderful the nurses are at the hospital; I feel so wonderfully taken care of!
So glad you're feeling better today. Isn't sleep a wonderful thing?
I really admire your strength through all this. Hang in there, your little one will be here any day now!
That is fantastic Carla. Glad to hear you got a good sleep. Your body will thank you so much when your little one decides to come.
Alrighty! Keep hanging in there! I'm so glad the rest did the trick.
It sounds like you have an awesome support team - both with your family and the medical staff. Your doc sounds like he's really in tune with what you want - that's great!!! And you sound so much better too. Things will happen eventually, just keep your head up!
Glad you were able to get some rest! It sounds like your dr. has a plan that sounds reasonable, and as long as you and baby are doing ok, I guess your little one just likes being inside!!! You can do this! Don't lose faith in your body--your strength will amaze you when the time comes.
I am glad your DH and MIL are being so helpful and supportive. My MIL was wonderful after the baby came with the cooking, dishes, laundry--even if sometimes I just wanted to be ALONE with DH and Luke, everything would have been so much more difficult without her.
Keep positive! :bigarmhug:
Contrax 5-6 minutes apart for last 1.5 hours. Warm gush of liquid with each of the last 4 contrax. Heading to L&D. God, I hope this is it.
I've got a good feeling for you this time, Carla. Good luck!!
:woohoo: if your water has broken there isn't any backing out! Sending you fast and easy :vibes:
yayy, thinking of you Carla!
Whoo hoo! So glad to hear Carla! Look forward to hearing how it all goes!
hooray! I am so glad you had a good night's rest last night!!!
Thinking of you today...
Oh Carla!! I wish I had been able to keep up with your lodge over the last couple of days! You have been on my mind. I so know what you have been going through, it is so similar to what I just went through. And now you are off the the hospital, hopefully to have your baby. Even though you won't see this post from me for a while, I hope you know on some level that you are in my thoughts. I will be anxiously awaiting an update!
So happy you have had some rest! Hope this baby comes real soon for you!
fingers, toes, eyes, legs... everything crossed for you that THIS IS IT :!:
c'mon, baby surprise--your mama is ready and we wanna meet you!!
Oh, how exciting! Hope everything is going well!
I hope this is it hun!! ELV!!!!!
I hope this is it!!!!!!!!!!
Oh Carla, I really hope that this was it for you and that you're now holding your beautiful baby! Can't wait to hear from you. :bighug:
Good luck, Carla! I'm sure it will happen soon for you. Hang in there!
Can't wait to hear some news!!!
Congratulations Carla!!! I am so happy for you!!
So glad that this was it! Can't wait to hear about it! Congrats Momma!!!
Congrats! Can't wait to see the story!
Thinking of you!!!! :bighug:
Our baby surprise is a beautiful baby girl! Claire Helen was born on Thursday, October 5, at 6:03 am East Coast time. She weighed in at 7 lbs. 7 oz. and is 19.9 inches long. I'll give the full details later. It was not exactly the birth I envisioned (thanks to the days of "false" labor) and became especially difficult when I experienced "pain without purpose" for several hours, as my doula put it. I had the smallest dosage of pitocin possible and only dilated 3 cm over 4 hours. Then I had the smallest dosage nubane (sp.?) possible, fell asleep between contractions, and went from a 5 to a 10 in a little under an hour. I pushed for a little under an hour and she made an exquisite arrival that included the Dr. having me reach between my legs and pull her to my chest myself as she was born. Oh joy. 6 stitches from tearing (2 on my my labia). We got home today and I am overwhelmed, emotional, and exhausted. Breastfeeding is going well although one of my nipples is a little torn up. I'm going to sleep since she is sleeping. Pics soon. Thanks ladies for all your support. It was, as I expected, the most transformational experience of my life!!!
Carla, I'm so happy for you! You have been on my mind a lot these last few days. Rest up Mama!
Carla, how wonderful. Beautiful. I got all choked up hearing that the doctor guided you to catch your own baby.
Enjoy every minute.
Oh, Carla! I have chills and happy tears just from reading your post. I am so excited to hear more and see your pictures when the time comes. Many hugs to you, Michael and baby Claire!
Congratulations Carla! I'm so excited for yoi, Michale and Claire. (A very beautiful name I might add!!!)
Enjoy your time together, can't wait to hear the full story.
Sending hugs your way,
I added a pic to my siggie; this was taken by the hospital nursery.
Oh Carla, she's lovely!
Congratulations - she's beautiful! After all those hard days, I'm sure you have no doubt that she was worth it! I hope that she turns out to be a natural birthing mama just like you, and her own birth story can be such an inspiration for her!
Carla- Claire Helen is so beautiful! Congratulations on your precious baby girl!
What a gorgeous girl! Hope you are relaxing and getting some rest
Oh gosh, tears of joy for you & your family, Carla. She's absolutely beautiful and I've loved following your story. I can't wait to read the full birth story too!
Carla, what a beautiful baby girl! Congratulations on, what seems to be, a spectacular birth experience. I can't wait to hear more about it. CONGRATS!!!
Carla, she's just beautiful!
She is beautiful. What a terrific picture.
Beautiful, awesome, wonderful. She is gorgeous!
Hi, everyone. We are doing well here. Claire is an absolute delight; she is a very calm baby. Breastfeeding hasn't been a problem and last night she slept 3 hours in a row, followed by a 2 hour marathon feeding, and then slept another 2.5 hours. I felt like superwoman when I awoke this morning. DH and I have fallen into a wonderful rhythm that involves him taking her after the last late night/early morning feeding and I am able to get some more sleep.
MIL has been absolutely priceless...it will be hard to see her leave...but then my parents will arrive a few days thereafter. I have had a few hormone swings. The other night I just sobbed straight through dinner because DH was at work and I missed the sound of his voice, but when it passed, it really, well, just passed. This morning, I had a melt down because I felt exhausted after doing a load of baby clothes laundry and watering the plants and I couldn't believe that made me soooo tired!!!
We had our first pediatrician appointment today and the Dr. said "Claire is perfect". I laughed and said "but don't tell her that, it is way too much pressure". She has not lost any more weight (5 oz.) since leaving the hospital so the Dr. says I do not have to worry about waking her to eat on a schedule. As long as I'm seeing enough wet and poopy diapers a day, then I can let her sleep as much and when she likes.
DH is the master swaddler; when he swaddles her she just calms right down...puts me and MIL to shame. I love to watch how DH looks at her and see how she responds to him...she responds to him in a completely different way than she responds to me.
I love being a mommy and am overwhelmed by the gift of it. The doula stopped by yesterday and gave me her version of the birth story. I told her again that I will never do it again because of the labor...and she gently reminded me that the memory of the pain will pass AND that I did have an extremely unusual and long labor. I cannot, at this moment, imagine ever considering a number two...
I am sorry to not be posting more, but I know all you BTDT moms can relate. I think of you all often and look forward to catching up soon.
Well, she sure looks perfect to me!
Thanks for filling us in when you have a spare moment - I loved hearing about your DH and how he's taken to fatherhood!! So SWEET
She is perfect!
Loved your update, Carla--tfs. Claire (one of my all-time favorite names, btw) is BEAUTIFUL and your post made me think of so many sweet little things about the first days.
Isn't it amazing to watch your partner become a father? I am teary now LOL
Hi, all. Breastfeeding continues to go well, although she likes to sleep more than eat. The Dr. says that as long as I'm getting a minimum of 6 wet diapers and 4 poopy ones a day, then it is all okay. She will sometimes sleep 3 hours at a stretch! Wow! I find myself worrying about her sleeping too much and worrying about SIDS and worrying, worrying, worrying, worrying... I thought I was a nervous wreck when I was pregnant! Hah, this worrying puts that worrying to shame!
MIL leaves tomorrow and my M & D arrive Monday. The weekend should be interesting as DH will have to be at work quite a bit. I think it will be time to call all those friends that I asked to wait on stopping by...I may need them this weekend. I've been managing to nap with the baby once a day and that feels awesome. I've noticed that evenings are the hardest time for me emotionally and I think, baby blues, wise. From about 6pm to 9pm I just feel really down and lonely and worried and scared and tired. DH is at work at this time and I always start to miss him terribly and I either call him to hear his voice or he calls me because he has noticed the pattern, too. I'm a bit worried about this and will watch it closely. DH says that by the time I am alone (no MIL, no M&D) I will have stopped bleeding and be rested enough to have gotten out a little every day and will not feel quite so "stir crazy" when evening comes along. We shall see. I cry happy tears every single night when DH gets home...I love just sitting with him and the baby (asleep or awake) and talking. I am more in love with my DH since having this baby.
Off to feed Claire on the 2nd breast...MIL just finished burping her. Take care, everyone.