Woo hoo!! Welcome to your lodge, and to the homestretch! Intro, intro!!
woohoo Kasey!!! Can't wait to hear it all!!!
Welcome to your lodge, Kasey!
WOoohoo! A lodge, a lodge! Thanks Lisa and Lara for the welcome!!!
Well- not sure if anyone really knows what they are getting into when asking for an intro- I can be incredibly long winded, and this pregnancy is a VERY long story!
Well, the basics on me: I am Kasey, 25, soon to be mother of four. I met dh when I was 16, and two weeks after we met, we joked around that we should just get married. We dated for awhile, then I broke up with him, and he went into the Army. We started dating again about 11 mos later when he came home on leave. 7 mos after that he propsed (a few day after I turned 18!) and 7 mos after that we were married!
17 mos later our first lo, Allison arrived (7/02) I had wanted a drug free delivery, and I thought I Was prepared. Umm, no. WTEWYE (and others along the same lines) is not preparation, and neither is the hospital birthing class! That labor was long and hard. My water broke at 40-4 after four days of prodromal labor- immediate hard back labor. I had ctx every 3 min from 1 am to 9 am and only moved 3.5 cm (to about 5.5 cm). I had two shots of stadol, (one after 7 hrs, and another at 8 hrs) then I got the epi at 10a at 6 cm, and as soon as they were done (15 min later) they checked me again and I was at 10! I labored down for an hour, and rested after being awake for 29 hrs (water broke when I was going to bed.) The epi made me about 90% numb, I had no numbing for about a two inch strip all the way down my right side/hip- so I could still feel ctx, so that was good. I pushed for 45 min, and my beautiful girl was born, looking like a China doll, or everyone said! 7 lbs, 12 oz, 21 inches. no tearing.
4.5 mos later I was pg again! :shock: The whole time I was pg, I said I would do without an epi- but when I went into the hsopital in labor after self inducing with castor oil at 40-3 I was exhausted form the diarrhea- and completely scared stiff that it would go as it had with baby #1, as far as back labor that took forever. I got the epi at 6 cm- not even in pain yet. The anesthesiologist said I was the nicest women she had ever given an epi to. This time it made me totally numb. Then about 10 min later, I started to feel ctx. Around the third one, I pushed the call button and told the nurse to get down there, because I thought the baby was coming out! She came to check me and paged the dr to my room "Stat!" My dr came jsut in time, as I was FREAKING out- I went from completely numb- to feeling everything- except the skin on the top of my thighs, about four inches below my hoo-ha. I told them it HURT- and my dr told me it was suppsoed to- and then everything was okay- dh put his arms around me, and I got control of myself, and pushed Nicolas out in three pushes. 8 lbs, 14 oz, 22 inches. 8 stitches. He was not as pretty as Allison, lol! HE had been engaged and coming out "anytime now" for 5.5 wks, and I could barely walk by the time he was born.
My second son, Noah was born in May 06. My first ncb I had 8 days of prodromal labor, every other day, strangely enough. I woke up to a ctx on a Saturday at 7 am. By 10:30 ish I told dh to call his mom so she could come up. We got to the hospital around noon, I rode backwards draped over the seat the whole way there- back labor again! I chanted through my ctx, had an awesome nurse, and a good second nurse who came into help- mostly they just left us alone, and I was in my own head for almost my entire time there. The whole labor was calm, until we were ready to deliver, and fetal heart tones were decelerating, and I was at 10cm without warnign, and my dr wasn't there (I had been at 5 cm an hour or so before) So when five differnt people were called into my room "stat" and they all stood around talking about me like I wasn't there I almost lost my cool. Then my awesome dr walked in and pointed out that my water hadn't broken, and asked if it was okay to break it, so that hopefuly fht would stop decel-ing. It ended up breaking spontaneously on the next ctx, but there was meconium in the waters, and I had to roll over to my back so they could suction him right away if he came out sunny side up. My dr and I had a completely calm conversation about which position I would deliver in between two ctx. (I didn't want lithotomy, she didn't think sidelying would be great due to increased risk of tearing- we both agreed on squatting which was "perfect" in her words!) While the other health professionals and dh looked on incredulously that we were having this conversation right now at this time! lol! I ended up not making up into full squat- I had a ctx and said I *had* to push *now* I was on my left hip, but sitting up sideways, with my right foot on my drs neck, and my other foot up by my butt- and I pushed his head out. He was born completely on the next push. 8 lbs even, 20 inches. no tearing- just "skidmarks."
I forgot to add that I hemorrhaged after both boys. First time I got pit, second one we did extensive uterine massage, and that finally did the trick.
Whew! What a lot to write! What a lot to read, and you have no idea what you are in store for next- I wonder if there is a limit as to how long a post can be, lol!
Welcome to your lodge Kasey! I hope you get another ncb (without hemoraging.)
lol, I am going to copy and paste this from a document I have on my computer, labelled, "pregnancy saga." Just to warn the faint hearted, this is VERY long- I think three pages in MS Word. This has been a very interesting pgcy to say the least...
I discovered I was pregnant on the first Friday in October. It was a complete (total, utter) shock. I should have known, though, since my husband had called it and said he had a dream I was pregnant two weeks before that. As in one day post conception. In the five days leading up to my bfp, I often had an upset stomach, but I attributed it to nerves, since my mom had a surgery coming up that we were all anxious to see done and over with. She had surgery on a Thursday, and Friday I still felt a little funky, but was in denial. ;o) I picked up Luke at work, and we went out to eat, then we stopped at the store for a pg test. Yup! Positive!!! :o)
In the following week, I still felt nauseated, but I wasn’t too worried. I was sick for 24 wks my first pgcy (5/6 times a day for 15 wks, then 1-3 for then next 7, then only once), 19 my second (twice a day, without fail, every day), and 17 my third (sporadic, not even every day.) The nausea had gotten less in each pregnancy, so it couldn’t be any different this time, right? I was expecting a pregnancy like my last, which was so pleasant and wonderful (comparably.) I started getting sick the same week, but wasn’t too worried. Skip forward two weeks (Saturday Oct 20), and at this point I was SO sick I was miserable. After two and a half days of keeping almost zero food in me, I went into the after hours clinic, and was diagnosed with hyperemesis gravidarum. I received a prescription for zofran, and went home. What a miracle! For the first time in almost three days, that evening, I kept food down- and it was SO delicious!
The zofran worked great for a few days, then the vomiting started again, but it was reduced somewhat than when I was without the zofran. On Oct 30, I woke up and had intense lower back and abdominal pain. I was sure I must be having a miscarriage, I called my husband crying to tell him what was going on. I decided to wait to go into the doctors office, since I knew from experience there is nothing they can do if you are miscarrying. (I had a m/c between my two sons.) Later that day I fairly rejoiced when I discovered blood in my urine, and I thought it must just be a severe UTI or something. Anything that meant the baby was okay was good news to me! I went into the doctor office, and they prescribed me an antibiotic, though they found no bacteria in my urine sample- they sent out a culture to the lab. The next day, I didn’t keep a single antibiotic down. I was sent to the ER. There they checked me out, and started IV saline to keep me hydrated, took another urine sample, then did ultrasounds to check out my kidneys and bladder, and make sure baby was in the right spot (as in not an ectopic pgcy.) After several hours of hydration, they sent me home with pain meds- and told me to keep taking the antibiotics as they did not have the results of the culture back yet.
The next afternoon, I still hadn’t kept any of the antibiotics down, and I was no longer keeping the zofran down. I was sent back to the ER, where they started IV fluids immediately, and IV zofran and phenegran to stop the dry heaving. They checked my blood sugar and started a glucose drip when the results came back at 57 (should be between 70-120.) I was admitted and kept overnight. The next morning a dietician came to see me, and told me that I had the labs of a starving person. She told me all the things that I could do for nausea (all of which I was doing, and I told her a few she didn’t know of!) I was diagnosed with hyperemesis gravidarum (duh), possibly a severe kidney infection, severe dehydration, malnutrition, hypoglycemia, and hyperthyroidism. Everything was secondary to the hyperemesis. That afternoon I got to go home, with a doubled prescription for zofran, and one for phenegran, B6, Pepcid, and Claritin- all in an effort to control the nausea and vomiting.
I was okay for a few days, and then I woke up one night with severe back pain, to the point where I laid on the couch and cried with a hot pack on my back, it went away and the next day it came back in the afternoon, so I stood in a hot shower and cried, just hoping it would go away. Both times it went away within an hour- I thought it was just leftover from the “kidney infection.” By Wednesday morning, the fifth day after I left the hospital, I was doubled over in pain. I called my doctor and she told me she thought it was kidney stones, and to come into the ER. I called my sister-in-law balling and asked her to pick up my two older children to come play at her house. My youngest was napping. I called my husband at work and told him he needed to come home NOW, because I thought this pain was going to kill me. Several times while waiting for him to get home, I literally screamed and fell on the floor when the pain would hit. It hurt so bad that it would make me heave, which made it hurt more- I thought I was going to explode my kidneys every time I would heave. I laid there and cried out to God to give me relief. I had a respite from the pain for a short time. During this time, my husband got home and loaded Noah and myself into the van to go to the ER. I couldn’t even stand up straight. We went straight to the hospital, and Luke brought me in, by this time the pain was back and I was moaning and heaving they put me in a wheelchair and brought me straight back. I told Luke to go drop Noah off at his parents 10 min away because it would scare him too much to be there with me.
It took over 20 minutes for someone to bring me pain medication. By this time I was praying my face off, then thrashing and hollering and completely out of my mind with pain. I was given stadol, which sucks. Luke came in right after that, and I was taken for an ultrasound of the baby and my kidneys and bladder. The stadol worked well enough that I would only cry and moan in pain occasionally, when the pain was at it worst, but at the end of the ultrasound it wore off and it started all over again. By the time we got back to my ER cubicle, I was out of my mind. The resident on-call was trying to talk to me, and pissing Luke off, because I obviously couldn’t follow what was going on. I was given morphine after my own doctor intervened. (She told me later that the on-call doctor wanted to give me a half a dose, they thought I just had a low pain tolerance. My doctor told her to listen up, this lady gives birth without pain medication, it is not a low pain tolerance issue- give her a full dose!) Finally some relief. Not total relief, but I didn’t think I was going to die anymore. My doctor came to see me when I got up to my room, and said that the ultrasound showed I had a complete blockage of my left kidney, there was zero output into my left ureter, so my kidney was just getting more and more swollen. I was weighed, and they found that after at least 5.5 liters of fluid (11 lbs of saline) I was still down 11 lbs from my starting weight- so a total loss of 22 lbs, or 16% of my body weight in about three and a half weeks.
The next day, I had a PICC line inserted into my left arm. It is a “peripherally inserted central catheter” a line that started in my arm, went into a vein, and ended just above my heart. I was started on TPN- “total parenteral nutrition” which was to provide me with almost everything I needed to live, 1800 calories, fat, protein, carbs, with a multivitamin that I injected into my tpn bag before I hooked it up to my picc line.
The next day I got to go home.
For the next six weeks, my backpack felt like my near constant companion. I had some time each day where I wasn’t hooked up to it, and those felt like the ultimate freedom. I even slept with it, since I had to have my tpn running all night long, to keep my blood sugar stable. I was responsible for eating about 400 calories a day, if I could. After the first six weeks, I requested that my TPN be lowered, so I could try to eat more. I had absolutely no appetite, and my home care nurse thought that it could be because my body was supplied with everything it needed, so I had no reason to hunger. It was reduced to 900 calories. But then I had to be hooked up 24 hours a day, because my fluids came separately from my TPN.
Weekends were awful- that is when I work, and I didn’t want to bring my stuff to work with me, (No-one except my supervisors and three closest friends at work knew what was going on) so I started my TPN very early on Fridays, so I could get the full dose before Saturday when I left for work. I would work all day (15 hrs) and come home, hook up again, and get about 60% of my usual dose of TPN, and left for another 15 hrs of work on Sunday. As soon as I got home, I would hook up again, and then be hooked up well into Monday, giving myself about 2 hrs of un-hooked time between when I stopped my pump, and had to start it again for the next dose. My doctor okayed this as long as I wasn’t becoming sick or losing more weight, and it was never more than one time per week that I didn’t get the full dose. So I just stayed doped to the gills on meds over the weekends. (In case anyone wonders, it wasn't just because of privacy that I didn't run my pump while I worked, but I work with people with brain injuries in a residential care facility, and have consumers with very unpredicatble behavior- not a safe place to go around with my line hanging out of my arm, or my back-pack grabbable.)
Reducing my TPN did not help to bring my appetite back. After the first two weeks of having my picc line, I had gained 10 lbs of almost all fat. I was told it would happen- but still surprised when it happened so quickly. The starving body’s response to nutrition is to hold on to everything it gets, and turn it into fat. I went up two pants sizes in two weeks. But, then I didn’t gain any more weight for the next 8 wks. I had to force feed myself everything that I ate, and I hated to eat. It took forever, because despite all of the meds I was on, I was still nauseated most of the time, and I felt “full” always, so eating felt like I was stuffing myself, and I almost wanted to throw-up. But while I had my picc line, I almost never vomited, I had the heaves a few time, with no results, but almost never vomited. I was lucky- some women continue to be sick all of the time, even with a picc line, and IV medications.
I had lost a substantial amount of muscle mass before I got my picc line in, and it didn’t improve any while it was in- I couldn’t use my left arm for hardly anything, it became sore very easily. I couldn’t even push a grocery cart with a few items in it because my arm would become so sore.
At 20 wks pregnant, I had my picc line removed, 10.5 wks after it was inserted. This was mostly by my choice, I was SO done with it, and I was sure that I could eat and drink. The last 5 wks of having my line in were awful- I developed an allergic reaction to the adhesive or cleaner or something used at my picc site, so my arm hurt and itched like crazy. I would wake up in the middle of the night itching it. My skin was red, swollen, raw, and weeping constantly. In the last two weeks of having my line in, I had to have dressing changes every other day, because the skin was weeping so badly that the stat-lock (what they use to hold the line in place so it doesn’t get pulled out) would not stick to my skin anymore, so they had to tape it, and use a gauze dressing so the skin could breathe a little bit.
Th first day of no TPN, I thought I was doing great on eating. I wrote down everything I ate, and when I added it up at the end of the day, was crushed to realize that I had eaten just over 1100 calories. That started my on-going war between food and fluids. If I get enough of one, I don’t get enough of the other... At this point, food is easier for me most of the time. It doesn’t reflux up as much as the fluids do.
Six weeks after my picc line was removed I was able to stop taking my zofran regularly. I had slowly weaned off all the meds except that one. Since having it removed, the only real issues I have had are hypoglycemia and some kidney issues. Thank God that they are both easily remedied. Assuming that I drink my water!
I have had 10 beautiful weeks of pregnancy where I rarely needed meds, and I was okay for the most part as long as I drank all of my water and ate something every three hours. This past week has been rough, as the nausea has started again. I went in and got my zofran refilled today so that I don't run out this weekend. So far I am not vomiting (thank GOD!) I am really hoping that if I stay on top of my meds that it won't get to that point. I am so scared of a relapse, after what I already went through.
For some reason though, the amount of water and the amount of fodd that had worked so well for the past 2.5 months isn't enough anymore- so I am just trying to adjust and find the right amount.
I coudn't refill my antacid today b/c my insurance no longer covers it GRRRR. So I am waiting on my doc to see if there is something else she can prescribe. I have no pain at all with the reflux- I don't even know it is happening until I feel it in the back of my throat and then taste it then gag :puke: Gagging is NOT a good thing when you are trying to avoid vomiting, lol! :roll:
Soooo, that is my story of this pregnancy so far... If you made it this far, God bless you! It is LONG! If not, no hard feelings
What an incredible story about your deliveries! TFS!
Oh my, Kasey, you've certainly been through an ordeal! (((hugs hugs hugs))) Well, we're here for you for the rest of your journey, and beyond.
Welcome to your lodge!
Congratulations on your lodge Kaseye! I'm sorry this pregnancy has been so rough, I hope the remainder is smooth ~~hugest hugs~~
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Welcome to your lodge! I totally remember reading your birth story when Noah came along--it was particularly inspiring to me at the time when I was preparing for my baby's birth.
Boy have you had a rough time this pregnancy! I knew you were sick but I had no idea how bad. I hope that from here on out it's (relatively) smooth sailing for you!
OK, now's when you post pics of your brood!
Nuh-uh! Kasey has a lodge already!?!?!? Geez!
I read every word of your intro and your "pregancy saga" and I had no idea what you have been going through. I can't imagine having a PICC line in 24-7. I think the insertion would send me right over the edge - did they sedate you at all for that?
Oh my goodness you have gone through so much, Kasey! The rest of this pregnancy just *has* to be better! :bigarmhug:
My, you have had quite a rough go of it! I'm hoping these last few weeks go well for you! :bighug:
wow you have been through a lot, here's to smooth sailing over the next few weeks. congrats on bby #4 you belly is beautiful. do you have the same doc this time as last?
YAY!! Welcome to your lodge.
WOW, you look so good!!
Welcome to your lodge! Sorry this pregnancy has been so rough for you so far...but you really look great! Love the belly pic!
Awe man! I completely missed the part about your HG. I can completely relate as I had the same problem with my son. It is the hardest thing that I have ever been through, and I'm having the same problem again this time (16 lbs lost since I found out I was pregnant 4 weeks ago). :bigarmhug: I so feel for you!
Wow Kaseye, you have been through a lot! Thanks for sharing your birthing stories, and I'm sorry this pregnancy has been so rough for you. Hopefully the last few weeks will be smooth sailing. Wonderful belly pic too!
Thanks for all the well wishes everyone!
I can't find the question, but I think someone asked if I had the same doc as last time- the answer is I do! I have a wonderful family practitioner that has actually delivered all my babies. (Barely made it for the last two, lol!)
having the same problem again this time (16 lbs lost since I found out I was pregnant 4 weeks ago).
Elizabeth, I am so sorry that you are dealing with this again I hope that you can find what works for you, to be able to enjoy your pgcy!
I think the insertion would send me right over the edge - did they sedate you at all for that?
No, they don't sedate. You can't see them do it, you have sterile drapes all over the place (which was kind of disappointing, I would have liked to watch!) They give you a couple of numbing shots in your arm so you don't feel much pain but lots of pulling and pressure. My arm was SO bruised after I had it done.
I just prayed a lot and tried to detatch myself from it, so it would be more of a clinical interest type thing, than a "this is what is happening to me right now!"
OK, now's when you post pics of your brood!
Thanks for sharing Kasey. I don't know how I missed that you were so young when Alison was born. I'm such a dork. I just never thought to calculate back
And I'm dying here - that pic of Noah is the best! You have to save that for when he gets married, or first date or some other important event. It is awesome.
Hoping the rest of your pregnancy goes much smoother than the beginning did. And that your confidence comes back in full force. You can do it momma!
And I'm dying here - that pic of Noah is the best! You have to save that for when he gets married, or first date or some other important event. It is awesome
lol, I know, I LOVE that pic- he is such a ham! He loves the potty...
Okay, here is one more pic, dh and I together! I had to go back WAY too far to find one of us together :oops: This was two and a half years ago...
What a LONG weekend this has been! I am SO happy that I only have two more weekends left to work before I start my mat leave. I REALLY hope that the baby comes quickly after I start it!
Our HRD department has approved of my request to request paid time off donations. Thankfully, they deemed my situation a little different than most requests for mat leave time (you are not allowed to ask for pto requests for mat leave usually) I used up over half of my time when I was sick- so now I will have just under what I need to cover my first two weeks of time off- then I get 60% pay for up to 6 wks after baby is born. Origianally, pre-sickness, I was going to have enough pto to have 6 wks 100% covered, and we were going to use the stimulus pymt to cover some extra time. Now we had to use that just to get my 6 wks covered! So hopefully some kind people with too much vacation time will want to throw a few hours my way!
I feel like I am in a bit of a haze for parts of the day since starting my zofran regularly again. I am hoping that initial zombi-ness wears off soon... It is lame that as soon as my head starts feeling nice and clear, I start getting nauseated again, and have to take another pill to get that under control, then the tired haze comes back. :confused: Oh well- Baby is healthy, still inside the womb, and I am not vomiting, so I guess I can't complain too much!
And I am feeling somewhat more confident. Knowing that we have a plan in place for if I do get too nauseated during labor, and reading lots of good birth stories, and reminding myself that I have the ability to relax my body and not fight it when the pain comes has helped. I need to just stay positive, and eat and drink, and have faith that no matter how everythign works out, it is God's perfect will. I think when I was pregnant with Noah, and awaiting labor, I had a blinkie that said "Let go and let God." I think that needs to become a part of my mantra...
Love the pictures! You're so pretty, Kasey and your kids are cute (ROFL at Noah on the potty!). They all look like hams!
I had a blinkie that said "Let go and let God." I think that needs to become a part of my mantra...
Good for you! This is the conclusion that I finally came to in the last few weeks of my pregnancy with Sarah Cate. I'm such a control freak and Brian pointed out to me that I couldn't control every aspect of my L&D no matter how hard I tried. Then I realized that I truly had *no* control over *any* of it, but that God did. That was my moment to "let go and let God".
Love the pics! What a beautiful family you have! I can't believe how big they're all getting. And your belly is simply perfect.
I'm glad they approved your PTO donation plan! I hope you get it all worked out for minimal loss of pay and maximum time off. It's a pain to have to deal with it.
I can't imagine having to take zofran for so long. Yikes! Well, you're almost done, it must be a relief to have an end in sight.
I can't imagine having to take zofran for so long.
I have actually had a nice long break from it (about 10 wks) and just started taking it again- trying to head off a full relapse. I am hoping that if I catch it at the nausea point that I am at and get it under control now, and make it so I can eat and drink the way I need to, I won't get to the vomiting part. wishful thinking???
The bad part about starting it again is dealing with the side effects. Sooo tired, and constipation. Yay, fun. :roll: But so much better than the alternative!
Today was a good day! I met a girlfriend and her kids at the park, and we had lunch there, and played. We stayed for 3 hours! :shock: I don't think we would have lasted even 1/3 of that if it weren't for my friend, and the other moms there! Lots of moms and a few dads to help with swing pushing for my 4yo, and my gf to chase Noah if he went too far.
My poor kids- mom forgot the sunscreen- it didn't even occur to me until we got home! But I actually got the worst of it. Thankfully it was only faces, and on the kids only a bit of red cheeks. My whole forehead is bright pink, lol!
My poor pelvis! I don't know how baby moves when I sit, but as soon as I stand it feels like my pelvis is coming apart. ow! I tried out my mat support belt again, but that seems to impede my digestion, it doesn't really hold baby up, but pushes my belly in, since it is small and low... Then I get (tmi) horribly gassy and uncomfortable. So I pick the lesser of two evils and just move slowly!
A little late, but I wanted to welcome you to your lodge. I loved the pics of the family, you are truly blessed!
Your family is beautiful (sp?)
It sounds like you've had a very long 36 weeks! Thanks so much for sharing your story. I hope these last few weeks go by quickly and you have the birth you are hoping for.
hi sweetie!!! sorry i'm late in welcoming you!!!! I'm so proud of you making it so far with your chin up. you look STUNNING in all of those pictures, and I can't believe how far we've both come since we met at the mall that day a few years ago.
Will be here to support you all the way. Drink, rest, and drink so more. :bigarmhug:
I got some fantastic news last night from my our hrd person at work! People from my company have donated 45 hrs of PTO to me! :shock: I about fell out of my chair! This will probably sound ridiculous to most of you- but if you had HG you may know what I mean when I say that it got me so worked up/emotional that I almost threw up, lol!
I am still completely in shock at the generosity of people. I work for a pretty big company and have for 8 yrs this summer (minus one year I lived out of state) so I know a lot of people and was hopeful- but I never imagined this much generosity! Anyway, I was SO excited that I had to come share! :D
HOLY cow that is awesome!!! 45 hours is WONDERFUL!!! Now to see if the company will 'match' it j/k. What wonderful people you must work with!
Wow, Kasey, that is great news! You must be very well-loved there.
What a relief!
I am having a blah day today... I don't want this baby to come before it is ready, and hopefully not till after Tuesday (my ds2 2nd bday) but after that it is fair game!
I feel so fuzzy headed the last couple days ffrom the zofran, but at the same time, the nausea is increasing- so I either sit and feel sick and don't eat or drink enough, and hope it passes, or have to start taking the phenargen too... I would really rather not do that, then all I will want to do is to sleep all of the time!
But it sure would be nice to sleep through a whole entire night... The reflux is starting to make my throat hurt now (and my left ear strangely enough!) I woke up in the middle of the night gagging just waiting to get sick, but it didn't happen (thanks to the zofran) but I almost wished that it would have, so I could get it over with and go back to bed. Though that is usually not how it works with this, once I start I seem to keep going with it... yuck.
And my nurse got back to me about my reflux perscription- they can't do anything. Both of the meds that my doc would give me are now available otc, so I just have to suck it up and buy them. Thankfully it will only be $20, but that is a lot compared to free!
I am SO glad that this is my second to last weekend working. I really need to go on maternity leave- I feel SO b*&%$y half of the time- being exhausted and sick makes it hard to care for other people! I keep it all in my head for the most part- just vent to a couple of my good friends that I work with- but I know I am not my usual self with my consumers, and I don't like that *Sigh* Makes me feel disappointed with myself.
My ctx that I was having before are still here, but annoying me more now though. I think it is only because of my already not-so-cheery mood though :oops: I am almost ready for them to accomplish something, and until then I wish they would just stop for a couple of days!
Soooo, sorry to be such a downer, I just needed to get all that out!
Wow, Kasey, I just read through your lodge and you are one strong woman! I had no idea what you've been going through. It's okay to have some crappy days, especially after everything you've been trhough this time around. I hope you're feeling better. That's fantastic that you have such wonderful co-workers that donated you some pto time!
I'm so late in saying this but... welcome to your lodge! Your children are soooo cute!
Ugh. Need a day off!
Yesterday we went to Wal-Mart, which is always an adventure anyway :roll: But it was especially adventurous b/c they built a new (Super) one and it is directly behind the old one which they are tearing down. SO you either walk all the way around from BFE, or you get a ride on a golf cart or trolley. We got a ride. I felt like I couldn't find anything, though things were set up pretty much the same except for the added grocery area. The kids thought it was the GRANDEST adventure EVER. It took forever!
But the good thing was that the rx that I needed that is now otc, and the lady at the pharmacy told me it would be 19 something- I got a 30 day supply for $2.97. :roll: Wish I would have checked that out last week before the reflux started to hurt! Oh well, Good for me!
Today is my youngest baby's second birthday! It was a pretty crummy day as far as how I felt, but I had to rally the troops so we could run to the local grocery b/c I forgot to get cocoa y'day, and it is hard to make a cocoa cake without that! So, we went to the store... again. Not so bad today, since ti wasn't Wal-Mart, but still... a lot to do!
I felt like a super bad mom today- SO short tempered, and just exhausted. So, we skipped school this afternoon and took a nap instead I was falling asleep while trying to just do reading with the kids- I figured I better nap!
But 2yo had a great time doing birthday- he LOVED his gifts, lol one of which is an undershirt of 5yos that she colored a clown on and decided to give to him as a gift!
So after all of the excitement and out of the house-ness of the last four days, I am taking tomorrow OFF from going out. Which means I'll bust my tail in the house since it has been neglected, but at least then I can sit down as needed, get some real school done with the kids, get some laundry done. Exciting
Aw happy birthday Noah! I hope you enjoyed your cocoa cake!
Hope you get to rest tomorrow Kasey. Since you'll be home anyway, maybe you could upload some birthday pics to show us j/k, you should rest.
Wow, Kasey, what a story! I'm so sorry the pregnancy has been so rough. You are such a strong woman!
I'm glad your little guy had a good birthday, and that's great news about your medication.
Had my check up. It went well, not really much new, get measured, listen to hb, get weighed, pee in a cup Had my short term disability papers filled out, and I can't WAIT to be done working!!! I didn't get a cervical check, so I can't tell you if I have any dilation/effacement yet. Though if history is a likely predictor, I do, but will still be pg for another 2-2.5 wks. My doc said that of course she can't predict anything, and to have stuff ready jsut in case, but she wouldn't be surprised if I delivered right around 40 wks. Not that *I* expected any different, really, but I would have loved to hear her say that she thought Iwould go anytime. lol- I don't know *why* I want her to say that- I know the words won't make a difference, and may get my hopes up only to be dashed and get discouraged- but all the same, it would have been nice...
Sometimes I wonder if I am overly worrying about this l&d. I seem to be the only one concerned about my body being able to handle it, and my stamina. I mean, I am glad that dh and my dr have so much confidence in me, but when people have just a ton of confidence, I don't feel like my fears/feelings are being validated, ykwim? Maybe they are unfounded, and that is why they aren't being validated, but STILL.
Had a good day y'day- avoided the zofran until almost bed time I think not having to get up and do a million things and leave helped. Today I haven't taken any yet either, but I probably should- feeling crappy, but I want to hold out. Getting SO constipated from the meds Taking a bunch of colace, eating as many prunes as I can without :puke: and drinknnig as much water as I can. I really don't want to have to deal with hemorrhoids at this far pg!
I have to decide what I am going to do about this baby's dr too. Right now the older kids are all still technically patients at our old FP office, where my dr used to be before she switched practices, and I like to have that one for them, since it is only five min away, and they have been going there since birth. But with new baby- I don't know how the other dr is going to react to me, and my choices for this baby. I am leaning towards not doign any vax's until baby is nearing/at six months old. I know my dr would give me her educated opinion, and then let me make my choice and respect it- but I don't know that the other dr will. I guess we will jsut go in there for the 2 wk check up, and see how that goes when I refuse stuff. If they try to pressure me, or give me too much crap, I'll probably jsut remove all the kids from there... I think I won't worry too much about that though until the time comes.
Having ctx, like always, but they have been more often today (like 2 an hour, instead of one every 40-60 min, lol) and I always wonder if *this* will be the day that they pick up and something happens... So far it hasn't been That can get frustrating too- so I am trying not to think about it. lol- that jsut makes me think more about it though! Ah well...
Good to hear you are feeling a little better. Sorry about the doc. dilemma (sp?). I hope that you get some relief from the reflux soon, that would be very trying. My nurse always said that every ctx is doing something, even if it's just practicing it's doing something. Hang in there baby is on a schedule and will be here soon!
I had some high hopes this am, but nothing doing yet! My ctx felt... *different* this am. Then I had the strangest sensation at my cervix- one that I never had with my other three kids. Felt like a definite... "separation" maybe is the word I am looking for. The first thing I thought of was allt he stories you read where women say they actually *Felt* the pop of their water breaking. SO I watched out for that, but nothing. That is okay though- a Wednesday or Thursday night would be better!
lol, baby will probably bake for a long while yet though, so I am not let down at all. I am expecting to be pg a week from now. (Hopefully not two, but if I am, OH WELL)
Had my last day of work on Sunday!!!! I am THRILLED. SO glad to be done. (Well, done until 6 wks pp) Though I now feel like I am on the clock for the baby to be born, finance wise- but things will work out.
I actually have a bag semi-packed for when baby decides to come, and a list of the last minute add ins too. I feel so prepared
Okay, so when we found out I was pg, very shortly thereafter we found out that 3 of dh's friends wives/gf were also pg. All three due the day before me. (June 5)
Today, I find I am the ONLY one still pg. Two went into spontaneous labor in the last week, and one had a sched.c/s. And yep, I am still pg. Happy to be so, but still pg all the same!
Why is it I am so caught up in still being pg, when I am not even due yet? Idk, I think I kind of assumed that after this pgcy my body would have given up by now... I just have to be grateful that my body bakes 'em so well I guess!
Just had to put that out there.
Had my check up today. Urine is good, BP is decent. Lol, I have discovered that my BP directly correlates to how many children I have in the bathroom with me getting my UA right before they take my BP. 1 kid= 129/something, 2 kids= 138/ something, 3 kids+ 147/ something. Not kidding- this is how it has worked out, lol. With no kids it is around 115-120/ something.
The resident was feeling my belly forever, it seemed. Between laying on my back for too long, not taking any zofran before I went, and then trying to keep the kids in some semblance of decent behavior while my belly is being measured, palpitated, and baby's hr taken- I ended up announcing that I needed to sit up or throw up. lol, poor resident got in a tizzy trying to help- when all I needed was to sit up and put my head down. Then I was fine
I think my doctor felt bad for me- she is very respectful of my desire not to interfere with my body doing it's thing, so instead she just asks me when do I want to come back, is there anything she can do to help (ie s&s, but she didn't say it), and gives me her pager number in case I go into labor or take matters into my own hands. And a hug too- I must have looked pretty frazzled!
Having lots of cervical pressure with twinges, some long lasting, lately, which is uncomfortable, but makes me slightly hopeful. With #1 and #3 I didn't have this till right up when labor was imminent, but with #2 I had it all the time for the last two weeks or so, so I am not getting too hopeful.
I need to prep my prefolds a bit more anyway, and I have a wedding to go to on Saturday, so if baby waits, that is okay. But if she wants to come meet me that is okay too
Had some really decent ctx last night, accompanied by some shooting pains in my girlie parts, and even I got a little bit excited, (How often are you excited by pain down there, lol?) But htey stopped. Now back to the normal every half hour to hour stuff. Oh well I stayed up late and straightened up the house just in case- I figured nothign would happen, but I thought, when I wake up *still* pregnant it will be great to wake up to a clean house, at least! And it was!
I am getting kind of grumpy though, for sure :oops: I have been feeling so/so as far as the nausea, and avoid taking anything whenever I can- but then things afffect me more, like my kids breathing on me. Normally, it would be no big deal, but I get green around the gills hwne they so much as whistle and it goes by my face. Poor kids.
You look great! Sorry you're getting frustrated. I know it gets rough there at the end. But you're so close now!
Warning, I am pg and emotional and ranting...
I think I need to stay off the HG board that I lurk frequently... I went on today and three of the moms had their babies in the last couple of days, all who were due in the two days before or week+ after me. How bad is it that when I read how great they feel that they are now HG free, I cried? I should be happy for them, and I truly am, but I am SO jealous too.
I got to go to my gf wedding yday, and it was beautiful It was quite a bit longer than I expected though, and I started getting lightheaded and nauseated b/c I needed to eat, so I crouched in my pew and ate the pb crackers I have in my purse for such occasions... :roll: The lady behind me was NOT impressed. I didn't get to go to the reception though Baby sitter cancelled and dh really did not want me going alone very pregnant sick and contracting a fair bit from home in an unfamiliar down-town area. I am SO sad that I missed it, though I can see where dh's concerns are valid. But what he doesn't see is that it is like this every day- no different for me, except tha tIwould have been alone instead of with three kids to wrangle!
Having tons of ctx today, though nothing regular, and they don't feel like they are accomplishing anything. They are uncomfortable, but not enough to make me stop what I am doing, just uncomfortable enough to make me irritable, as if I wasn't already :oops:
I feel awful that I just want this to be over. I am sick of forcing myself to eat, of taking meds to do so, of feeling sorry for myself, when it could be so much worse... Of ctx that are just often enough to annoy me, but not enough to do anything. Every half hour for weeks gets kind of old. I wish they would either kick things into gear, or stop until it is really game time. *sigh*
Thanks for reading if you made it through all of that.
:bigarmhug: Kasey, I'm so sorry you're having a rough time. I completely understand the contraction part, it's so darn frustrating. And I honestly can't imagine dealing with nausea on top of that. We're in the final days now though, so I'm just trying to take it one day at a time and keep busy so I don't obsess about it. It's not easy though, as you know.
(((Kasey))) thinking of you.