Sarah's (mom2sebastian) Lodge (prenatal)

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Sarah's (mom2sebastian) Lodge (prenatal)

Tag - You're it! ROFL

Since you did my lodge - and we're due the same day - I'll do your lodge!

Now it's you're turn to tell us more about you Biggrin

-Jodi

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yay!! Welcome to your lodge Sarah!

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Welcome to your lodge! I look forward to reading your story! Smile

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Yay! Welcome Sarah!!

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Sarah, Sarah, where aaaaaaaaaaaare you? I want to hear all about your shady past LOL!!!! (kidding, of course) Biggrin

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Well...I wasn't always as upstanding as I am now. Wink

I'm not really sure what I'm supposed to include here...I guess a little bit about myself?

I am married, and have been for almost 6 years. DH and I met the day after Thanksgiving in 2000, and got engaged on Christmas Eve of the same year. We were married the following September.

I am an elementary school teacher turned SAHM. I taught grades 5/6 my first year as a teacher, and then taught kindergarten for three years after that. I quit working one week before Sophie was born, and have stayed home with my kiddos ever since. I don't plan on returning to teaching...I didn't love it. When (if) I return to work, it will definitely be in some capacity related to pregnancy and childbirth. Perhaps as a doula or even a natural childbirth instructor?

I got pregnant with Sebastian early in my second year of college...about a month or so after I moved out of my parents' house. :roll: I was 19 when he was born. His biological dad and I gave it a go, and lived together until Sebastian was not quite a year old. We were kids, and it didn't work out very well. The last time Sebastian's bio-dad saw him was when he was around 18 months old. Sebastian just turned 11 this past weekend. :shock: So, my DH has been his "dad" since he was 4 years old. Unfortunately, bio-dad is taking me to court for visitation after all this time...but that's a whole other story.

Thankfully I have a natural birth supporter as a mom, so she steered me towards a midwife when I was pregnant with Sebastian. I didn't know nearly as much about pregnancy and birth as I do now, but in a way it was a blessing. I never even thought about all the medical interventions that I know about now...the only pregnancy book I had was my mom's copy of Spiritual Midwifery that she had when she was pregnant with my brother and I. I just went through the pregnancy, and didn't think much about what kind of birth I would have. I just kind of did what my midwife told me to do...took Lamaze classes...and that was about it. Thankfully, I had a wonderful, totally natural birth with no interventions whatsoever. My mom was with me...but my midwife kind of took me under her wing. Maybe because I was so young? She was with me from the moment I arrived at the hospital, and never left my side. So, my first birthing experience was very positive. I think I've developed a lot more fear about things since then, but I knew what I was capable of after I had Sebastian.

Ok...I'm getting long-winded here...I will post some more about Sophie's birth when it's not so late. I'm not sure what else I should include here.

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Sarah, I am looking forward to reading more about you! Welcome to your lodge!

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Yay! Another August mommy! Hearing your stories about having NCB is very inspiring and reassuring (esp for this FTM).

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Congrats Sarah on your lodge!!!!

This so exciting all the Aug mommies and their lodges Wink

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Good intro Sarah! I think it's awesome that your Mom is so pro-natural and helped steer you that way with Sebastian. You know your body can do it, we just have to ignore everything that is going on in our minds Smile

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Hurray for another Augsut lodge!!

I'm glad you had a NCB so young...gives me hope!! Wink Most girls my age would take an epidural at 30 weeks if they could!

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Congrats on your lodge!

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So...on to Sophie's story.

With Sophie, I sailed through my pregnancy, and just expected that the birth would be as uneventful as my first one was. DH and I did Bradley courses...mainly because I was so excited to have a "real" partner in the birth. I didn't expect to truly need to use any crazy relaxation techniques, because with Sebastian everything just kind of came naturally.

At 38 weeks, I had been having BH contractions pretty much all day. That night I couldn't sleep, and at one point got out of bed and started walking around. While in the middle of walking, I had a BH, and could feel the baby's head really push down hard. At the same time I had a gush of fluid. I wasn't entirely sure whether it was amniotic fluid, or if I just peed myself. I couldn't believe that I could lose control of my bladder like that, and since I was drinking soooo much water, it was hard to detect an odor that let me know for sure what it was.

I went and woke up DH and told him that I thought my water broke. I had tested GBS+ at my 36 week appointment, so we called the maternity center, and of course they told me to come in.

We got there, and they tried to check any fluid with the amnio-strip thing. It showed that it was not amniotic fluid, so I figured they would just send me home, since I wasn't having any real contractions.

Nope...they spoke to the midwife who was on call (not one of the midwives that I had been seeing throughout the pregnancy), and she wanted me to stay because of the GBS. I stupidly agreed, and they set me up in a room, hooked me up to the monitors, and started antibiotics for the GBS. The monitor was picking up contractions, but they weren't regular, and I knew they weren't real. We stayed at the center all night, and my favorite midwife finally came in at around 11 the next morning.
She took a swab of fluid and looked at it under the microscope to check for ferning. She said that it was difficult to find, but eventually she did find a fern, indicating that there was amniotic fluid present. By this time it had been 10 hours since the initial gush of fluid, so she recommended we start pitocin to get things started. I agreed...although I think it was a decision based on exhaustion. I had been awake all night kind of waiting to see what was going on...I knew I wasn't in labor, and I wasn't entirely convinced as to whether my water had actually broken or not...but I was tired, and worried about the baby because of the GBS, and after sitting there for 10 hours, I was just anxious to have my baby.

I had no idea that a labor with pitocin could be so much more difficult to handle. Then they started me on pitocin. Of course, because I was being given pitocin, I had to be continously monitored. Thankfully, the center had monitors that were wireless, so I was able to labor in the tub for a couple of hours. I got out of the tub because the contractions were just unbearable, and I wanted to be checked. I was only at 4 cm. I continued laboring with the pitocin, mainly on the birthing ball. It was excruciating! I could not get a handle on these contractions at all! After laboring for about 2 more hours, I asked to be checked again...surely contractions this hard were doing something. Nope...still at 4 cm.

I couldn't believe it, and at this point I had a little breakdown. I could not handle being in that much pain and making no progress. I told DH that I was finished, and that I wanted an epidural. He was so great about reminding me that it wasn't what I really wanted, and that I was not going to get an epidural. I must have gone on for about 30 minutes, at which point the nurse looked me right in the eye and said, look...you have not had one single contraction since you started talking like this. You need to get control of your body again and get this baby out.

That was what I needed to hear. I was able to snap out of it and realize that the pitocin was clearly not helping me make any progress. I requested that I be taken off the pitocin and see if my body was laboring on it's own. My midwife agreed, so the pitocin was turned off, and my midwife broke my water (again?)...since I had not been leaking at all since the initial gush. Thankfully, my body was contracting on it's own!

I was able to regain control of myself and relax my body instead of fighting against these terrible pitocin contractions. By this time, it's around 4:00 in the afternoon. I decide I want to get back in the tub. In about an hour I start feeling like I need to push. They have me get out of the tub and check me...I was at 9 cm! I went from 4 cm to 9 cm in less than an hour with no pitocin, whereas I was stuck at 4 cm for over 4 hours with the pitocin. It's amazing what your body can do when you can actually relax it!

I was really feeling the urge to push, so my midwife told me to go ahead if I needed to, and she was able to get the last bit of cervix out of the way. I pushed for about 30 minutes, and then Sophie started having heart decelerations that were worrying the midwife. She was coming out with the cord around her neck, and one of her arms up by the side of her face, which was not making it easy for me to get her out. Unfortunately I did have an episiotomy because of that little arm coming out with the head, but she was born rather quickly after that.

I have a lot of mixed feelings surrounding Sophie's birth. It definitely did not go the way I had planned or hoped for. I'm still not entirely convinced that my water ever broke to begin with. I dealt with a lot of strange emotions after she was born because of the way the birth turned out. I also had a lot of problems with my milk supply right after she was born, and I truly believe it's because my body wasn't ready to give birth yet.

Phew...that was long. This time around, I am using the same midwifery group and delivering at the same maternity center where I had Sophie. I spoke with my midwives very early on about all of my feelings about her birth. I feel like I have worked through the wierd feelings I had about the way things happened, and am going into this birth knowing what I will and will not allow to be done.

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Hey Sarah. Thanks for sharing Sophie's story. Definitely sounds like a different experience than Sebastian. It sounds like you learned a lot through that birth and have shaped how you want this birth to be - knowing what you want and what you will do in different situations. Good for you!

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Thanks so much for sharing your story about Sophie's birth. It really helps to encourage me as first-timer that it really is better to be patient and not go beg for an induction!

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I cannot stress enough how different it is to go through a labor that has started and progressed all on it's own, and one that has been started synthetically. Thankfully I was still able to get through it without the use of an epidural or other pain medications...but I was ready to give up at one point.

It just showed me how important relaxation truly is during labor. I was not able to relax at all with the pitocin...and it showed in the progress I made after the pitocin was stopped. The labor tub was so wonderful! I am looking forward to laboring in that tub again.

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DH and I went to my 36 week midwife appointment on Tuesday. She did the swab for GBS...we'll see what the verdict is on that at my next appointment. I am hoping that I will not test positive again.

She confirmed that the baby is still head down. I asked her to check my cervix to see if anything is going on...plus, I had done a self-check, and wanted to see if my estimates were off. She confirmed that I was at "a good 1 cm...not quite 2 cm" and that the cervix was "extremely soft" but still "a little long". She noted that the baby's head was "really low", which I definitely already knew...I swear I could push her out right now if I gave it a little effort. Lol So, basically my body is getting ready, as it should be. I know it doesn't necessarily mean anything, but I like to know what's going on in there.

I hadn't been having many BH contractions to speak of, just feeling kind of crampy here and there. Later in the evening though, after the appointment, I was definitely having more frequent BH and more cramping. I think she must have just stirred something up while she was in there.

Of course, now that we're getting close to 37 weeks, DH is more than willing to help things along. :roll: We DTD Tuesday night, and again yesterday afternoon. My BH last night were definitely more crampy then they have been, but still nothing significant.

This is the only part of pregnancy I find to be difficult...because I'm looking at every little thing and wondering if it means anything. Like last night, I kind of got woken up at some point by a crampy contraction, but was able to go back to sleep pretty quickly. Then at 3:30 I was woken up by another one...I noted the time on this one. Then at 4:00 another one. Then at 4:30 I had another one...this one was very crampy and lasted a minute. So I thought, if I have another one like this, I'm going to wake DH up. But then, of course, the next thing that woke me up was my alarm clock. Lol

And so it goes...the last weeks of pregnancy. Smile

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Smile How exciting. (This from someone who has never experienced it all before!) I am glad to hear your little one is head down and things seem to be progressing.

Oh and thanks for the reminder about relaxation. I think I should do some more practise!

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We did our belly cast on Tuesday night. Here I am...in all my glory. Lol

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Sarah,
sounds like you're doing great! I love your belly cast too - it turned out fine! I know you were worried about it being a bit strange looking because of it being thin in spots - but I love it!

I think I'm about 1cm too - but one of my MW's will be gone on vacation all next week - so I'm not doing anything extra to move things along Lol

(and Have I mentioned that I love the name Scarlett??? it was my first choice - but DH vetoed it! )

-jodi

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Beautiful belly cast! It looks awesome.

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Ok...so I lost my mucous plug about an hour and a half ago. TMI...but it was quite large and brownish-yellow.
I never had any sort of mucousy or bloody show until I was definitely in labor with my other two. I know that having a bloody show is different from losing your mucous plug, so I'm trying not to read too much into it.

I called my midwife, since I'm not quite 37 weeks, and she said she's not worried since I'm past the 36 week mark. I asked her if it means anything, and she said, "If you go into labor soon, then it meant something, if you don't go into labor soon, then it didn't." I guess that's why I like her so much.

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Just catching up on all the new lodges.

I never really appreciated how much the pitocin screws up labor for a body that wasn't ready until I found this board. And I completely emphathize with the BF problems associated with a body that didn't "know" it already gave birth (particularly when it was a c/s).

I hope Scarlett's is a beautiful natural birth without any of the interventions of the previous one.

And here's hoping for a neg on the GBS test.

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Sounds like things are moving along nicely!!

I lost my mucous plug too...scared the crap out of me! Since then I've been so jumpy about every little twinge! I can only imagine how you're feeling now!!

You're so close!!!!!!

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Congratulations on losing you mucous plug. Sounds like things are getting there!!

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Sounds like you're making good progress! And I love the belly cast Smile

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Cool belly cast!!!!

Thank you for reminding all of us how different induced contractions are! It really helps me to remember to wait things out.

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Wow, mucous plug! I always thought that happened kinda right before labour kicks in (or a day or two before)... is that accurate?

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Congrats Sarah! Progress is being made! (maybe Wink ) I love your MW's comment - sounds like something my MW would say Lol

(Wendy - your mucous plug can regenerate sometimes)

-Jodi

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Good luck, I hope that you are feeling well. I never saw a mucous plug with DS and I haven't seen mine yet this time...Hope it's a good sign for you!

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"wendles" wrote:

Wow, mucous plug! I always thought that happened kinda right before labour kicks in (or a day or two before)... is that accurate?

My doctor said it really doesn't mean much. It can grow back (like Jodi said) or can can be a sign that things are starting. Some people lose them as early as 28 weeks and go on to have their babies full-term!

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Good to know Sarah. Thanks!

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I love your comment from the mw, she's completely right too! I am still waiting to see if I will lose my mucous plug or not..

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**Lurking from april 05*****

I am so excited I can hardly contain myself....I know that you will have a much more encouraging birth experience this time...you are so much more in control and self assured when it comes to pg....I think you and Joel may be telling the MW what to do haha!

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YEAH SARAH!!! I can't wait to hear all about your birth. I know this one will go much better for you.
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Well, I just got back from the midwife for my 37 week appointment. I'm more thinned out than I was last week, and I'm about 2 cm dilated now.

I found out that I tested positive for GBS, which I kind of expected since I was positive with Sophie. But, I was hoping that I would be GBS-, because that was the cause of me being given pitocin last time around.

I guess as long as my water doesn't break before I'm in labor, then it's fine...I just can't help but feel discouraged and anxious now.

I'm trying my hardest to stay positive about the whole thing, but the news about me being GBS+ again is not helping...I do not want a labor like that again, and this was definitely not in my vision of how things were going to go this time around.

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I know how you feel Sarah. I just got prelim results and it looks like I might be +ve too.

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Ugh...these last weeks can be so exasperating. I'm trying not to pay attention to every little thing, but it's becoming increasingly difficult.
TMI...but like the thing with loose stools before labor...I've been having this for a few hours now...but it's like, do I just have diarrhea because of something completely unrelated, or does it have to do with labor?

I've been feeling like an emotional wreck these past few days, and today just put me over the edge. I don't know what the heck is going on...I actually told DH today that I didn't even want him at the birth...that I would just do it myself.

And I'm having lodge guilt because I only read other peoples' lodges, and never actually respond in them.

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Oh Sarah... big hugs coming your way! Try not to think about whether things have to do with labour (easier said than done I'm sure!). Find something to keep your mind occupied. Hang in there, you are a strong woman and you can do it.

(And don't worry about posting on the lodges... only do it if you feel like it Smile Not a big deal!)

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Sarah, I just wanted to offer a :bigarmhug:

These last weeks are hard on a gal!

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:bighug: Sorry about the GBS+, but I am sure you will still be able to have the experience you want.

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Sarah, I'm sorry to hear about the test results, but hopefully you will still be able to avoid pitocin.

And I know what you mean about the lodges...I so appreciate all the ladies that are able to keep up with the lodges. I never feel like I am commenting enough either.

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That sucks about the GBS + but I think you're doing the right thing staying positive. Some things are just out of our control, but our attitude going into it can make all the difference!!

And I hope your hormones cut you a break soon, I know how tough it is!!

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Sarah :bighug:

I'm sorry that you are worried right now about your birth because of the GBS - but I'm sure that everything will work out fine! Did your MW's tell you that they are still doing the pitocin? The reason I ask is that I think they had updated "rules" about GBS? I know that my last doula client was GBS+ and her water broke at 6am, she decided to stay home and not tell her doctor till noon if contractions didn't start (which they didn't ) and so she went into the hospital - they gave her antibiotics every 3-4 hours through IV and between doses she walked around, took a soak in the tub etc. Her labor took a long time to dilate, but she was never given pitocin. She ended up having the baby about 30 hours after her water initially started leaking.... so I don't think that it's a for-sure thing.... at least not at our local hospital. (now they did finish breaking her water, because it was a slow leak and she wasn't dilating very quickly...and she did get an epidural for the pain at hour 20... so she could sleep....)

Anyway - I wanted to let you know that.

-Jodi

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I know that last time I was given 12 hours after my water broke before they started pitocin...I wasn't contracting at all...but like I said in my previous posts, I'm not entirely convinced that my water even broke. So, I'm hoping that even if my water breaks early, that I'm at least having contractions.

I have no problem receiving the antibiotics...
it's the water breaking------>pitocin that has me freaked out.

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Hopefully you will be able to avoid the pitocin then...I kno nothing about that stuff so I'm not much help!

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Pitocin doesn't sound like fun. I hope you are able to avoid taking it!

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I had my 38-week midwife appointment today. I asked her to check me again...I like to know what's going on in there. I'm dilated to a "stretchy 3 cm" and am 50% effaced. The head is at 0 station, which we already knew. Now, we just continue to wait. Last week I was a tight 2 cm dilated, so at least I know that all these contractions I've been having since the weekend are doing their job. Biggrin

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Hurray!! Things are moving along!! I bet it feels good to know that at least the contractions are doing something!! For me, its just annoying...and they're aren't doing anything. At least they don't hurt yet...

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Sarah, I am just getting caught up on the lodges too so don't feel bad about not posting.

I am sorry about the GBS +. I really hope it doesn't lead to pitocin. I'm no expert, but I don't really see why it has to. My m/w has not mentioned anything about that, I will definatly ask her at my appointment on Thursday.

I also wanted to mention how much I appreciate having you over on the Aug '07 board. I am always to chicken to say what I really feel sometimes but you always seem to voice what I am feeling in regards to NCB, etc. while remaining respectful and backing up your opinions with facts (where I just want to reach through the computer and smack people, lol). I totally admire how you do that. It also helps that you have been through 2 different, yet drug free births. Very inspiring to a FTM.

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Sarah,
I'm so excited for you that progress is definately happening! That's great to be already at a 3!

I'm glad the contractions are doing something for you!

-Jodi

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