Thread: Stephie's (stephiebuffie) lodge!! (prenatal)

Stephanie,
Congrats on your lodge and your little one that will be here shortly! You've been through so much to get her here and she will be so lucky to have you as a Mom!!!!

KUP on your upcoming appointments!!!!

My doc told me to call or go to L and D to be observed if Averi stops moving or her movement count decreases....

It's driving me nuts... She never has moved much in the morning I guess she has always liked to sleep in ... but even though I know that...its still driving me nuts that she hasn't moved yet this morning...

When she does move most of them are huge pushes or rolls not a lot of big kicks or anything ... the movement she gave me last night was not big at all...she pushed but it was sooo weak...

So her movement has not decreased but the intensity of her movement has...

Should I go in? Or call??

I get worried now so easily.....the tests I took yesterday my doc said are good for 7 days..meaning you have 7 days to get the baby out ... and we are supposed to get her out on Wednesday or Thursday...

I think I am going to drive myself nuts until I see her and she is healthy... I'm not doing it on purpose and believe me I am trying to give myself peace but all I can think about is her...and her movement...


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Updated

I am eating oatmeal right now, I am also drinking apple juice and then I will lay on my side,... that is what I have always done in the past for reassurance and then if I get nothing...I'm calling...

When I talked to my doc yesterday she told me not to worry...HA... and she said she knew I would worry but that we are going to get her out in time...

If my placenta isn't giving her all the nutrients she needs I don't know how well eating sugary things is going to work... how much of it is actually going to get to her...

I told her that I wanted Averi to come out when it is safe...and she said wed or thursday is safe...I will be closer to 38 weeks and it will be with in the 7 day time frame...but OMG...

Its just me though...I am a worry wart! My hugest battle during this pregnancy has been fear and doubt,

I also asked my doc...when she said to call if her movement decreases... I asked her "isn't it too late by then" and she said no...no movement at all is something to really worry about but a decrease may not be an issue at all...but to call just in case...

Sorry I am whining and complaining so much lately but this whole situation is taking its toll on my emotions


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Update

I'm such a worry wart...I ate and Averi is moving... her movements are still VERY weak but she is moving...

Breathe, Stephanie, Breathe!!!!! I'm right there with you when it comes to being a worry wart and I probably would have called!

Only a few more days to go and your precious daughter will be here! Take it easy and KUP!!!!

So for a couple months now I have been leaking...its always been clear fluid...and it has slowly become more and more frequent that I leak or (TMI) I have to pump myself cause my nipples start to hurt... well... Today they were hurting REALLY bad and "pumped" myself and its still mostly clear but there's a lot of white stuff too...is this my milk... I thought the milk came after the baby was born!?!

My father...the racial issues...huge vent OT (long)

So, as some of you may remember, a while back I posted on how my grandparent were against me and DH cause he is black and I am white... and we never told them that we got married and never told them that we were pregnant...too much stress ect... and finally when I visted Houston for my brother's graduation and my baby shower they found out of course (big belly and all) and they took it actually pretty well...

WELL...

My father was the same way. He was against me dating Brandon and it caused huge issues in our relationship as daughter and father... and also caused a lot of issues in my relationship with Brandon.... finally my dad came around and said he didn't want to get into my relationship and that whatever makes me happy will make him happy... he walked me down the aisle and everything, he has not been involved with my relationship really and we don't even talk hardly anymore...

But everytime I do see him or talk to him on the phone (VERY RARE) all he wants to talk about is how we should move back to Houston, how I got married too young (at 22 )... and how Brandon and I are going to fail and we shouldn't have gotten pregnant... and everytime I defend my husband and then I have to defend my dad too when DH hears about it...

After all this time of tears and battling back and forth trying to keep us a family.. my dad went over the edge

He came to Austin to pick up a broken down car (I had a car and it broke down and it has been sitting at my old apt complex for like forever and they just told us they were going to tow it) so he came to Austin for that and it was late when he called like 10pm and said he was going to just drive back to Houston which made me upset...I asked him how he was going to come all the way up here and not see me...so he came over and I stood outside to meet him just so he could find the place

The first thing he said was "How come Brandon didn't come out to meet us? Is he too good to meet us?" I said no I was on the phone with you and just came outside...wtf??

Then we all come inside and Brandon was on the computer and my dad says "Is he too good to come say hello?"...OMG... so Brandon came out and we socialized and it seemed to go well...then they decided to leave

Brandon went to lay down (it was already 12am)...and I walked them out...and then it started...he attacked me verbally...about my marriage, about the baby, about our decision to live in an expensive place (1200 a month) instead of buying a house, he attacked my religion (Christianity) and when I told him no offense but I don't want to take your advice on marriage because you are divorced and you have different women all the time, I didn't want to take his advice on life cause he is unhappy, I didn't want to take his advice on money cause he is constantly broke, he just got even more mad....maybe I should not have said those things but they have been eating away at me all this time...

He said I was brain washed because I am a submissive wife... and I told him to read 1 Timothy and 1 Corinthians and then he just attacked God again... OMG....

It went on and on... and I cried and he basically told me f off and that he didn't want to come around anymore and that I was disrespecting him...so then I blew up!!!

I WAS DISRESPECTING HIM???? He was disrespecting me and my husband, he came into my house and started an argument and said racial and terrible things about MY HUSBAND and MY BABY!!!

I went back inside and locked the door...it had appeared he left...then he came knocking on the door...I opened it ... he apologized and he wanted me to apologize, I didn't and still don't believe I owe him an apology....maybe its pride but I seriously don't think I said anything wrong especially since I stayed calm the whole time...we were talking as adults (I thought)...

Then he started insulting my husband again...this time Brandon heard every word so he came and stood by my side and told my dad to leave...my dad didn't want to leave and said he had a right to tell us what to do cause he is older...Brandon said he is my husband and we follow God and so therefore we can and will make it without his help and that we didn't want his help as long as he was going to be negative around us...

My dad pushed me I flew back against the kitchen bar (ahhh.. hello I AM PREGNANT)... My dad went after Brandon and threatened to kill him, Brandon grabbed my phone to call the cops and my dad took the phone out of his hand so Brandon went to get his phone... my dad went after him again...too late cops already on the phone...so my dad left

I know this was long and VERY off topic...I was actually debating whether to post about it or not... but I need to get it off my chest and I hope that maybe y'all can pray for strength for me and Brandon right now... and pray for my dad...despite it all I love him and the only way he is going to change is with God...

His whole life is falling apart around him and he can't see why...cause he gave up on God!

I know I said some things to my dad that maybe I should have never said even though they were true...the truth hurts and he can't handle it...but anyway....I think I am done...

I just can't believe my dad flipped out like that we have fights every time he comes around but it has never escalated to bodily harm!... here I am...I'm almost full term pregnant, my baby is going to be induced on Wednesday or thursday and I'm totally stressed about that...and now this on top of it...

Thanks for reading if you got this far

I'm sorry you're having to deal with all this now. Just do your best to relax and take care of little Averi.

I just had my last DA today... she checked out Averi because I told her the situation with my dad and Averi is fine

My cervix has finally dilated more...but it was only 1/2 cm...

So now I am 1 1/2 cm but still thick! and Averi is still not engaged into my pelvis ...

I was negative on the GBS test ...YEYEYE

And we scheduled my induction...I go into the hospital on Tuesday night at 5pm to get the cervidal and then the pitocin starts 12 hours later ...

My baby girl is almost here!

OMG OMG OMG...So of course with all the observations and poking around and such that has been going on I have known that Averi would be coming soon...then today my doc tells me...go to the hospital tuesday night to get cervidal and then wednesday morning we will start the pitocin...and I'm sitting there...kind of anxious and excited but I'm sitting here at work all by my self and it hits me...

HOLY CRAP I'm going to be a mom in two days!!!!!!

TWO DAYS!!

Did anyone else feel this way when they were about to be induced? It's like the weirdest feeling in the world because I have been so anxious to meet her but now I'm kind of scared lol... not really scared but nervous... wow ... I'm going to be a mommy! A little angel is going to be completely dependant upon me! It's just blowing my mind ... and I'm SOOOOO HAPPY!!!!

Just thought I'd share! It is hard to explain how I feel, I'm all mixed up with anxiety and nerves!!

Now this may just be my imagination... but remember how I said that Averi usually sleeps in during the morning...she doesn't have much movement till around 11-12 in the day....but today she has been kicking, poking, rolling, and slamming her head into my pelvis...lol

She's excited!!! I think she knows she is about to see the world for the first time and she just as anxious as I am... (like I said its just my imagination...) but that's how I feel about it...

I can't believe that I could be holding her in less than 24 hours!!!

So exciting Stephanie!! I can't wait to hear how your birth goes.