Yay Taryl! That is so exciting! I look forward to hearing all about it!
I hope this is it for you. Keep us posted if you can!
I hope this is it for you! I am so excited to hear how it all goes!
And yeah for your cervix being low, it must be nice to know what to look for that is a talent I have not mastered, but it definitely shows that you are closer than ever.
I am going to stalk you lodge today.
Yay! *bounces* I'm sending ELV your way!
Yay! I hope this is it for you!
KUP! It sounds promising......
............ I am saving this thread, and someday I promise to dock Callie's allowance for every hour she piddled around and refused to come.
I have officially confounded my midwives. Lorna, the one who I spoke to today, is genuinely perplexed. I was having a good labor pattern, it was not false labor by any means. It progressed for HOURS in a good fashion. Everything was looking good, the contractions really were there and very close together. She has no idea as to why my labor could SUDDENLY STALL OUT in the middle of patterns like that.
It, apparently, makes as little sense to her as to me. Which is nice, it makes me feel slightly more validated in going NUTS over all these starts and stops. And unlike in a hospital birth, it's not like there is agitation or stress or even fear causing me to stall, this is MY HOME! I am excited, more than anything else!
I think having attended a lot of births has actually handicapped me in my own labor. I have seen many women give birth at home, I know what a normal labor looks like. I am, unfortunately, not proving to be normal (this shouldn't be surprising, I have this problem in all other avenues of life - why not childbirth :() Either way, despite the emotional exhaustion and physical exhaustion involved in basically extending the latent labor stage for days on end, I remain hopeful, there are upsides to this whole charade.
Thus, the story:
Just short of noon I called the birth center and asked them not to come and check me because I wanted to take a nap, the pain was letting up slightly. I had called two hours earlier and under Lorna's advice, because according to her it sounded like I was definitely in labor, she wanted to come and check me to get a baseline for how to proceed. Then, out of the blue, I went from good, timed contractions to random, weak clenches here and there. The pattern went from good, strong labor to.....blah. Just like that.
I am not discouraged, like I thought I would be, because it does feel nice to know this labor isn't in my head - - - it really is happening and then petering out. Also, I know I had cervical change which is progress, even if it does stop.
Hopefully all these starts and stops will make the final stretches seem much shorter. As I type this my contractions are kicking up a bit more, again, so I will remain ever watchful and as always, keep you guys updated.
Soon, soon. I *know* it will be soon. Since my water hasn't broken I can continue on in this way with no real pressure to progress or get Callie out and that is a blessing. I will continue to wait her out and Wednesday, if I STILL haven't gone, we will look into other methods.
Hang in there, you are doing great!
It may not seem like it, but all this prodromal action has a purpose.
Try to think of it as your labour giving you 'rest, eat and regroup' pauses. Like the 'get up and stretch your legs' breaks one of my profs was so proud of.
Hang in there hun, eventually, she'll be out and in your arms.
Ugh, I'm having a flashback to Carla and her awful dealings with the prodromal labor. Hang in there, sweetie - I'm sure it's incredibly frustrating.
Just keep that cervical progress in the back of your mind whenever you get frustrated . . . visualize your body doing all it needs to do to give little Callie a successful entrance into the world!!
Sounds like you are getting closer! Sorry about all the false starts!
She's being quite the little stinker! I like the Stef's though - enjoy the breaks while you can, your body is doing work!
Had the appt. today, and things are looking pretty good everything considered.
My frustrations over not having gone into labor yet have diminished somewhat, which is nice. My blood pressure was pretty wonky when they tried it the first few times, but the average of the numbers still indicates I am not actually hypertensive, which is a HUGE relief! I was spilling a little protein into my urine but nothing alarming, and I am so close to the end that short of a massive spike in any one reading, the midwives said they won't be worried.
I only gained one pound this week, as opposed to the 4 I gained last week. *shrug*
The internal was uncomfortable but telling. I am now at 2.5 cm or so, as opposed to just 1 like I was last week and the week before, and am now 70-80% effaced. All those miserable prodromal contractions were doing their job and for that I am grateful.Lorna tried to do a sweep, but now we have ANOTHER problem....
Callie, it turns out, is posterior (sunny side up) which explains the painful back labor I have been having, and because of her position she isn't as deeply engaged in my pelvis as she should be. So while I am now more than dilated enough for a membrane sweep, my cervix isn't low enough for one -_-'
Alas, that is fine. I can do pelvic tilts and exercises to get her turned no problem, its the dilation I can't force and that, thank god, is there.
Lorna will stop by this friday afternoon to drop off all the homebirthing supplies, and while here she'll do another check and see if she can't do a sweep. I am hopeful I will be in labor by then, but even if I am not that's fine. I am, officially, the next due date on the list at the birth center. I am the next homebirth, as well, and the only one this entire month.
It feels good to be the most pregnant woman around, finally
All in all it was a good appointment and I am encouraged that I only have 8 cm to go, as opposed to the full 10. And, more importantly, I am much softer and more effaced. The midwives can stretch me a few cm. if they have to, but hardly any induction techniques qill work if the cervix isn't ripening. So the toughest and arguably most important part is already nearly over, which is GREAT!
Now my focus is just getting enough rest and feeling better. I am so exhausted from having hours of prodromal labor, and back pain I cannot sleep through. I feel like no matter how much I rest and relax I can't seem to get fully recharged, and every bout of start/stop contractions wears me out a little more. But the end is in sight if I can keep up enough energy to get to it >_
As I type this I am having regular, mild contractions around 5-7 minutes apart, but only around 15-30 seconds long. Once the duration increases I will probably start dilating out more and who knows, the internal today may have irritated my cervix enough that this could be it. If not, I'll live.
The Taryl's-Amazing-Week-Long-Labor-Watch shall thusly continue. Adieu!
Ahh Taryl. I am literally on the edge of my seat for you! I hope Callie turns and drops right on down soon. You seem to be handling the stalls very well, though. If it were me, I would be pulling my hair out by now (I nearly already am and I'm 2 weeks behind you!) Best wishes to you, and hope things get moving for you soon!
lol Taryl ~ you have a great sense of humor at a time that is almost always insanely frustrating! I had 5wks of prodormal labor with the twins, NOT fun so you have my utmost sympathies.
I hope that today's check helps things progress a bit more, and that that baby girl of yours decides to turn!
I can just tell how ready you are and look at that great attitude you have! Great job!
Naw, you guys just can't hear me throwing things about the house, stomping, ranting, and cursing at my poor, devoted husband
Everytime I find myself getting too frustrated I just pick up a good book, lay down, IGNORE the clock and stop timing the contractions, and pray for patience. I really find focusing on the things I am thankful for in this pregnancy as opposed to all that has not gone my way makes a world of difference at the end of the day.
But that's a life lesson that I find useful, in general. I have a choice in the way I look at my circumstances, and I *choose* too look at them in the best light possible. It makes me happier in the end.
And yeah, we all need to rant every once in awhile, as I did a page or so back on here. But there's no point in dwelling on it. Because I have the REST OF MY LIFE to spend with her, a few more days or a week isn't going to make that much of a difference, even minutes after she is born.
But if I am somehow portraying myself as patient or longsuffering, I am a better writer than I thought I am *this* close to jumping up and down until she FALLS out! I only reserve my actions on this because I have more than enough stretch marks without helping them along.
In the infamous words of Ina May Gaskin, stretch marks are really more like "a psychedelic beach ball". :hippy1:
I am *this* close to jumping up and down until she FALLS out! I only reserve my actions on this because I have more than enough stretch marks without helping them along.
I love your humor...and your strength. It's great that you seem to be keeping such a level head, through out the frustration. I am sure all your knowledge of birth can contribute to hours of second guessing things, but it really sounds like you are also able to "talk yourself down." It sounds like you are doing great...much better than you are probably giving yourself credit for. Hopefully, Callie will stop being such a stinker and make her appearance soon.
Keep up the good work!
You really are sounding fantastic Taryl. Even if you don't totally feel all the things you are saying, I think just saying them is like a mantra and is contributing to your well-being. Good show!
You have some fantastic life lessons in your messages, I should jot them down or something!
Sounds like you'll be thankfull for all this trouble later! I had a lot of early labor off and on with my second baby and by the time things were really going they went quick. Not too fast, I had a day of contractions about 30 minutes or so apart and had chances to nap, by the time our oldest was in bed for the night we were ready to go to the hospital and once there things moved right along! I'm sure you'll be very thankfull for the early help:) Your doing great, and your DH sounds like he's doing well helping you! Hang in there.
Just checking in and thinking good thoughts for you, Taryl! I hope you have the same lucky payoff that Vanessa describes!
She's due today! I'll be checking back in..
Easy Labour Vibes
I hope that you are feeling well in body and mind!
Just checking in to see how you are doing.
With all the births the past few days I hope something is happening for you. For purely selfish reasons I want to be next but I hope it is you.
How's it going?
Any news? Baby news would be great, but we are equally receptive to the news that you are still pregnant and uncomfortable.
Wishing you well!
Nothing here, and I was due BEFORE Melynda and Audra. I am SO thrilled for both of them, but DAMNIT I'M NEXT!!!! WHEN IS *MY* TURN?!?!?!
I have had hardly ANY contractions the past few days, as opposed to earlier this week and the week before. Jenny came in to drop off the home birthing supplies (all five bags of them!) and took my blood pressure, just generally checking in on me. My mood was pretty good today until coming online. I was avoiding anything having to do with the pregnancy for a reason, but I *have* to check in on my other mommies to be (well, mommies now!). I feel like such a slimeball, being less than happy for ANYONE who has their baby before me. How petty am I?! Just for this, I am sure I'm not going to have her for another week or two!
I'm sorry for ranting but I am SO frustrated! At my church, for example, two women who were due AFTER me (one due in May and one due in mid-April) both had their babies this week. One was just premature (poor baby) and the other had to be induced for pre-e... I feel like an absolute SCROOGE for being even slightly jealous that they had their babies before me because both moms have hard hospital stints they are right in the middle of, but I feel even WORSE when I try to fake sincerity regarding the issue. Those babies should have baked longer, darnit! No one remembers that *I* am due today because of all the hullaballo surrounding the two other moms in the congregation. Just a few days ago the lady who was supposed to be in charge of my baby shower FINALLY remembered about it. She'd completely forgotten about me weeks ago and so I never had a shower. I am glad she remembered but God, that makes me feel more than a little worthless! I am not even worth REMEMBERING!
I am a horrible person, it feels like. I am miserable, sick of being pregnant, my feet are swollen horribly and my hips feel like they are going to shake apart. I am anemic, exhausted, have constant heartburn and STILL, I am pregnant. STILL, I am being stalked daily by well meaning friends and family who seem more interested in meeting a new member than anything *I* have to go through to BRING HER HERE! I have had so many friggin false starts I am just ignoring every crotch twinge and tightening I get because I am not sure how many more letdowns I can take. DAMNIT DAMNIT DAMNIT!
I am going to go throw things and cry now. When I come back I will be nicer, I promise. But um... not right now. I am NOT in the mood to be nice right now.
I'm such a bitch. :WTF:
:bighug: Don't worry, Taryl, it's okay to feel the way you are feeling! You aren't the only still pregnant on this board- I'm here too I know that probably doesn't make you feel much better, since I am nearly 2 weeks behind you, but, at least there is one person you will have your baby before! I completely sympathize with you because I am already over being pregnant- AND I remember how I felt going a week over with my dd. You're doing great! Just keep hanging in there- soon you'll have your sweet baby and all this aggravation will be just a memory!
*hugs* Oh hun, I know exactly how you feel. I went twelve days 'overdue' with my little girl... apparantly no one informed her that she was a third baby and therefore obligated to arrive ON of BEFORE her due date... especially since I had so many preterm labor issues with my boys. Every few days I'd start contracting and I'd think "this is it!!" and it wasn't.
My cousin was due 3 weeks after my due date, and her daughter is a full month older than mine. Let me tell you, she was my LEAST favorite person for a long time. I was even so petty as to be secretly happy that my labor was easier than hers. It was like I was thinking "well at least you had to SUFFER for it too."
Oh, I was not a fun pregnant lady to be around, I can assure you. It's perfectly normal to feel the way you do right now. It doesn't make you an awful person, it makes you a human being.
No one was ever pregnant forever, your little girl will show up on her birthday, just like she's supposed to. It just sucks that you don't know when that is.
Thanks guys, I already feel petty for such a rant, but I needed to get it out.
I just got back from Mexican with my husband and am feeling much better. The trick with me, apparently, is not dwelling on it. I am addicted to this site but at this stage in my pregnancy my mental attitude just can't withstand bombardment. It is denial and skilled self-talk that allows me to even fake patience, after all
I am doing everything I can, but I *know* she'll come when she comes. It is just so hard to be patient when I have waited so long for my reward and according to an arbitrary ticker, it says I should have that reward by now Someone forgot to tell her and apparently my gurgling digestive tract is drowning out all orders I am giving her in notice!
Soon. She will be here soon. *deep breathing*
That's it... practice that nice, calming breathing.
One thing I DID do is change my ticker so that my due date was at the 42 week mark. It helped me soo much not to have that little bar telling me my baby was already here when I was huge and miserable and very much still pregnant.
I also stopped using my siggy as often. You'd be surprised how much of a difference little things like that can make.
Ps. I also ate a ton of fresh pineapple. I had read somewhere that there is an enzyme (the name of which I can't recall right now) in fresh pineapple that helps ripen the cervix and tone the uterus. I figured it was worth a try. It didn't do anything, but I discovered it is very hard to be miserable when munching on yummy, fresh, juicy pineapple!
It's so hard being overdue. I was a week overdue with both of my girls, and that week was harder than the whole pregnancy. Hopefully she'll listen to reason and come out soon.
Oh hun, I'm so sorry you're not feeling well. From what I hear tho, it's right about this time that the babe decides to pop out.
(((HUGS)) Taryl. Vent away when you need. We are all here for ya!
Vent away! Let the frustration go, everybody here understands.
Don't worry abour being resentful towards us moms who were due after you. Go ahead and take it out on us. I would do it if I was in your place!
Oh Taryl, bless your heart! You are not mean, or horrible or petty for feeling those things, although I know by my saying that wont change how you feel if your anything like me lol
Hang in there, momma, you'll be holding your baby soon enough and then all this frustration will melt away.
I promise you that all babies including yours come out. She'll be here soon!
I just had a funky thought. If she is born today or tomorrow, it's a year from when Ridley was born and it would mean that Jenny is attending my birth and then a year later yours. How cool would that be?!
You are doing great!
You are absolutely amazing Taryl. Keep your mind off of all things baby-related. Stay away from this site even! Try to keep busy with other things and when you least expect it, the time will come. Lots of hugs!
It did help me to let go of the idea that I had any control over Hadley's birthday and just except that she would get her when she got here. Just take care of yourself, that's what matters:)
Okay guys, I really needs prayers if that is your bent or positive thinking if it is not.
My midwife asked me to come in today to check on me after a no-baby-moving episode last night. I did eventually get Callie to move but she is definitely running out of room in there.
So at the appt. today Kaye and Lorna did a Pelvic exam, and despite all the contractions I have been having Callie's head is *higher*, at like +3 station, and I have not dilated out further from my last check. Kaye is getting concerned because Callie not engaging or rather, not staying engaged, is indicative of her being on the big side. Kaye has had over 20 years of midwifery experience and really knows her stuff, and even she seemed a bit worried. Her hand estimates of Callie's weight put her around 9.5 pounds, which isn't problematic in and of itself. But that, coupled with the fact that after two weeks of contractions she will not stay engaged is posing a lot of issues.
My blood pressure is where it should be thankfully, and aside from hip pain and frustration I am doing fairly well, but I can't stop stressing about this latest development. It is bad enough that Lorna and Kaye recommended I schedule an appt. with our local medical center so they can meet me ahead of time in case I need to go in for a c-section. These women, of ALL the people in the world, are the least likely I can think of to recommend such a thing unless it is absolutely necessary. They were the ones telling *me* I had another 2 weeks before problems would kick in, but that opinion has since been revised.
To keep Callie's weight from increasing too much more I have been instructed to cut out cow's milk and sugars, completely. That isn't an easy bill to follow, but I have lots of soymilk here at home and despite all my cravings lately I think I can manage without sugar for a week or two! The birth center is remarkably anti-diet and this pregnancy I have been healthy, and able to eat anything I want (I haven't gained a lot of weight, myself, either... which is nice) so getting a diet ultimatum also tells me things are not going as well as they should.
Bartlett, our local hospital, will probably want to go ahead and offer me a c-section because an induction isn't going to work if she isn't engaged. I am having LOTS of contractions, which is the point of pitocin, and my cervix is soft, which is the goal of any synthetic prostaglandins like Cervadil. If she won't move down she won't move down and that is c-section time.
God, I don't want a section. Especially not on my first baby. I want a big family and weakening my uterus like that will forever put me in a risk category I probably shouldn't belong to. My pelvis IS big enough to fit the baby's head once she engages, Kaye is almost sure, but her head can't get a chance to mold to my pelvis if its not sitting in there to form up the last few weeks! And I love homebirth so much, but very few midwives will do an HBAC in this state or any other. So one can see my dilemma. Yeah, I am afraid of an epidural... I hate surgery to begin with and being AWAKE for a major abdominal surgery just seems like my worst nightmare, but I am really more concerned with the long term effects of slicing myself up.
So right now I am just asking for as many prayers as possible, and talking with Callie daily to try an encourage her to come out, it's really not *that* cold in Juneau and such... but all my fervent prayers just don't seem to be working, or at least haven't worked yet. I am running out of options, time, and just don't know what to do other than keep trusting in God and my own body, and hoping that things turn out for the best,
The only proactive recommendation I got was to walk like crazy, which, despite the hip pain I am having, seems like the thing to do. So Peter and I will head out shortly after this.
I have my appt. on Wednesday still, where I will get another pelvic and we'll see where we stand. And every other day from there on out the midwives will see and check me, and we'll decide what to do if I am still not going naturally.
I don't mind a chubby baby, don't get me wrong. And I haven't even a *hint* of gestational diabetes, so even if she is heavy at least she is fully developed, but I don't want her to pork up to the point that she can't be born!
I will keep you guys updated and try to stay calm, but at this point things aren't looking good.
Oh Taryl! ((HUGS))
Hang in there. I really never dropped or engaged with any of my babies until I was in full labor. All of my babies floated until labor day-- always +3 or more...lol. So don't give up hope.
I'll continue to pray for you and know that you CAN and WILL have a beautiful baby and delivery. Once your body decides it is ready, it is going to birth that baby (even if it is 9 lbs of her!)
Don't give up hope! Or let your fear get the best of you!
Wow, I can't even imagine what is going through your mind at this point. I know babies have a mind of their own and we can't predict how things will go, but I am keeping you in my thoughts and hoping you get your home birth or at the least a vaginal delivery.
I know you are a really strong lady. I have faith you can handle whatever comes your way and that you will meet little Callie very soon. I hope your walk helps things along.
That sucks Taryl! But i will keep you in my prayers! I have faith that you will have your homebirth! Have your mw's given you any homeopathics or herbs to get labour started? Also walk on lots of stairs!
oh, Taryl, I'm thinking of you! keeping my fingers crossed that Callie decides to make her great escape tonight!
:bigarmhug: good luck taryl. I'll be keeping an eye out for you.
((((HUGS)))) Taryl, thinking of you and Callie, I hope everything turns out okay for both of you!
Good luck to you and Callie, I'll be thinking of you two and sending lots of positive thoughts your way!
Thinking of you and hoping this baby decides to come out sooner rather than later.
I can only imagine how you feel.
you are definitely inmy prayers, sweetie!
walk lots and do squats if u can. also sitting on a birth ball will be better at encouraging descent than sitting on a solid surface.
Callie!!! We all wanna meet you! and Odeliya says that homebirth is the way to go, so come on out!!
Oh Taryl... I am sorry things are not progressing as one would hope. I second the suggestions of stairs and squats. Comme on little Callie! Your mama wants to meet you!