~*CJWilkes (Cindy's) Birthing Lodge!! *~

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~*CJWilkes (Cindy's) Birthing Lodge!! *~

WELCOME TO YOUR LODGE!! Yahoo

It's a couple of days early, but with your baby being so low I thought I'd get it started for you! Smile

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Welcome to your lodge!!

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LOL ahhh ya little stink! I was JUST about to do this ha ha

Congrats Cindy!!! My birth buddy Smile I'm so excited for you & am really looking forward to following your lodge.

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Congrats Cindy!!!

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Congrats and welcome to your lodge!

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Congrats Cindy on your lodge!! I can't believe the time is here already. It seems like forever ago when we posted together on the TTC 2nd time board! I look forward to reading your journey!

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Congrats Cindy! Can't wait to follow along with your journey! Biggrin

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Welcome to your lodge Cindy!! I"m excited to follow your journey!

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I can't believe it!! Your lodge time already!! I'm so happy for you Cindy! Smile :)

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Cindy ~ I meant to ask, will this be your 1st or 2nd vbac? Smile

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Welcome to your lodge!

Cindy

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WOW! :eek: I can't believe I am here! Thanks a million!!! For a bit I was wondering if I would even make it to a lodge, but baby seems to be positioned a little nicer the last couple of days. (still painful - but nicer than it was!)

Intro: My name is Cindy and DH is Nathan (Nathaniel.) Me and him as babies. LOL - I was born in Utah but raised all over due to my dad being a computer consultant. DH was born in Utah and raised in Northern BC Canada. His tribe is from there. He is Gitxsan Indian. The funny part is that I am half Guatemalan and he is half Gitxsan. He looks Full and I look very Caucasian. (from our mother's side) So our children are an interesting combination - LOL

We were married Sept. 2, 1995 in Manti, Utah in an LDS temple. PICS
Nathan and I were and are the best of friends. We both wanted a large family but unfortunately we kept loosing babies and were told we would NEVER have babies of our own. We delt with mult tests, hormones, exploritorials at which point we decided that 1 more try having ICSI done and then it is adoption. I had the adoption papers in, just had a laperoscopy done with ovarian drilling, and had submitted for the ICSI process (and was told that they doubt that would even work.) and on top of that had just M/C'd our 5th m/c in March - when we found out that I was pregnant again.

Finding out I was pregnant (again) scared me because I just thought it would end the same way. I went in and they said my progesterone was very low so they started me on injections that Nathan gave to me daily. Normally the injections end after the placenta kicks in. Well... With Miriam the prog. levels did not carry themselves until I was 5 mo. pregnant with her - so needless to say, my hips were black and blue from all the injections. I had mult. bleeding scares with her. Turns out my placenta was very low lying. My worse scare was when I was 18 weeks along with her. Thank goodness it moved up before I delivered her. Lots of bed rest and she came at 39 weeks. I got desperate and took casteroil. (Biggest mistake of my laboring experience EVER! It got it going but it was MISSERABLE from the get go. Not to mention that I had a nurse from HELL!
All in all, I labored for 14 hours with Miriam. Pushed for 28 min. She was a great 8lbs. 14 oz. My baby joined our family after 5 losses and 7 years of yearning and waiting. I had given up hope of ever having a baby until her.

We knew we wanted more and did not want to wait another 7 years. We never prevented and it seemed to be slow again. I had yet another m/c after Miriam (#6) The dr. put us on clomid and I m/c'd on the 2nd round. The 3rd round I got pregnant again. Once again I went in right away and they confirmed I was preggo and was set up with the shots of progesterone again. With the twins the placenta(s) kicked in GREAT and we only needed the prog. for a short while. We did not find out that we were pregnant with twins until I was about 9 weeks along. From the beginning I was told twin B measured 2 weeks behind twin A. They then said that with my history and how I ovulate they believed that twin B was in fact 2 week behind in gestation - that she was conceived later. Part of the reason they did not find her sooner.
The pregnancy was long and hard. I started P-labor very early - 22 weeks. Lots of bedrest!!! The twins came at 34 weeks when my water broke again. at a 3 (which it always does - even with Miriam.) Jared (twin A was born vag facing the right direction (Miriam was sunny side up.) then Nathanya turned transverse. They did a version to grab her feet and pull her out but she became stuck. They tried for 20 min. and could not get her to come out. My cervix closed up and her heart rate plummeted. It was Emerg. C-sec. from there. Once they got in she was still stuck and they worked hard to get her out. She was blocked by way of vag. and the incision due to Jared's placenta deciding it was time to vacate. When she came out she looked dead! It took a while but they got her going and she and her brother were in NICU for 3 weeks. They came home on monitors and oxygen and 6 mo. later were off of those. What an amazing time for both DH and I! I was so glad Miriam had come first because she was a huge help to me!!!
Jared = Twin A 5 lbs 3 oz
Nathanya = Twin B 4 lbs 7 oz

Twins the day they were leaving the hospital
Me with the twins and Miriam

Again, we knew we wanted more. I tried clomed but kept being hospitalized for severe migraines! It was horrendous. Then it was determined the clomed was the culprit this time. So out the window that option went. It took a while to get preggo, but 1 more loss (mc #7) and then some metformin I did get pregnant with Samuel. Here is Samuel's Birth story

Samuel Hosp. pic

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Sorry those pics turned out so large. Here is a link to my baby page for more pics and they should not be so big: http://www.cjwilkes.com/gallery9.html

In Jan. of 2007 I m/c'd for the 8th time. I felt really bad because I truly had a breakdown because I was pregnant. I was not ready - but when I m/c'd I felt HORRIBLE that I was that way. I determined that when I did get pregnant I would just accept it and be happy. Well, little did I know, but it was intended that I got preggo right away. In May I conceived. I remember chimmy announcing her pregnancy and thought I should test just in case. I got a faint + and decided to go the the dr.s to get my bloodwork done. I did and they said it was negative. Prog. level being a 2. I felt pregnant but they said no - so I went on with life. (my cycles are wacky and I was around cd one hundred something...) I got a horrible headache in July and was going to take percacet for it. I decided to test just in case. Well... I got a blaring + I was pregnant and nursing. I went in the next day and they confirmed the test and said I was VERY preggo. I asked what they meant by that. They said the numbers told them I was around 10 - 14 weeks preggo. (having had twins I asked for an immediate u/s.) They checked it and confirmed that I was around 10 weeks preggo with 1 baby. (RELIEF) and shock! I was 10 weeks almost done with my first trimester.

Time really has flown. We found out that this is a little man. Everyone around was + it was a girl. For some reason I was desperate to find a boys name even though I had girls names and would have more than welcomed another girl. But my heart told me it was another sweet boy! I was so glad I pushed so hard to search for a boy name.

So the journey is almost over again as far as this pregnancy, but the journey only begins at this time. I am ecstatic to meet him - but would like him to come during a time that is safest for him to come.

I am a picture freek so if you want to see anything let me know, I have tons of pics!

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Here are some pics of me and my family:


And yes... I know DH does not smile too much in his pics LOL He is self conscious:

Here is more pics of Him

Here are pics of me

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Wow Cindy! You've had quite the journey. It's pretty interesting that your twins were conceived at different times! There is the article about another woman who had a similar thing happen floating around today. You have such a beautiful family!!

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Welcome to your lodge!

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*hugs* Cindy, I'm so glad that you made it here! I know this has been a long, hard journey for you & Nathaniel, and I'm just so excited for you! I can't wait to hear all about little Edmond's birth and see pictures of him. I know he'll be just as cute as your other kiddos! And have I mentioned yet that I'm so glad you're naming him after me? hahaha! Love you girl!!

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Yey Cindy! Loved your mini-biography! You have gone through so much, I had no idea. Wow! So are you and Nathaniel still practicing LDS? I grew up Mormon, but am a current Catholic convert.

Of course I'd love to see more pics, you have an awesome camera and a great talent! I say fill up your lodge with pics! The more the merrier!! Biggrin

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"Mommy2Cal&Major" wrote:

*hugs* Cindy, I'm so glad that you made it here! I know this has been a long, hard journey for you & Nathaniel, and I'm just so excited for you! I can't wait to hear all about little Edmond's birth and see pictures of him. I know he'll be just as cute as your other kiddos! And have I mentioned yet that I'm so glad you're naming him after me? hahaha! Love you girl!!

Did I ever tell you you were the inspiration behind his name? Wink Of coarse I named him after you! It was that or Major! Biggrin

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"HappiLeigh" wrote:

Yey Cindy! Loved your mini-biography! You have gone through so much, I had no idea. Wow! So are you and Nathaniel still practicing LDS? I grew up Mormon, but am a current Catholic convert.

Of course I'd love to see more pics, you have an awesome camera and a great talent! I say fill up your lodge with pics! The more the merrier!! Biggrin

We are LDS... but do not go to church as often as we should. But we are still on the records. We did not bless our last child in the church and I doubt DH will have this one blessed in the church also. (Not that anyone is unworthy or anything. We have some questions and hang ups and I think it is due to my childhood and my trust issues. ;))

I did not know you were LDS. Do you attend Catholic meetings often? That is pretty neat. As long as you are happy!

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Things I like to do:

~I love going to beaches or traveling with my family! It really is a highlight in all of our lives!
~I love to read but find I read to fast for my habit!
~I love doing different crafts and sewing. I do crochet some.
~DH is a ME and artist... I love to critique his work and help him improve it.
~I love cooking (just not while preggo! LOL
~PG.org is a wonderful yet terrible love of mine! I spend way too much time on here! (while kids are napping or before they wake or after they go to bed! I have no life!)

Pregnant with Miriam
Pregnant with the twins approximately 29 - 30 Weeks
Pregnant with Samuel

Pregnant things I enjoy - most everything but the painful things like acid reflux! LOL I love to feel my baby move in me. IN fact... after baby is born that is the first depressing thing to me... not feeling that baby in me ever again. It is such a bitter sweet feeling.
I love the need or desire to protect this special being at all costs that I get. I become a mamma bear from the time I find out I have conceived to (well, it has not ended yet!)
I love the baby needing me - internally and externally. They are helpless and rely on me. Not only that, there is an unconditional love or bond that is there from day one! INside me!
I love educating myself and discovering the things that are best for me and baby in the entire birthing process! I love fighting for that right! I also love that it is my body and baby... and that ultimately the decision is mine (along with DH.) Heaven forbid the nurse or Dr. who thinks they can run me over with their superiority! It does not work that way! It never should!!!

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About me:

I am half Guatemalan. I am the oldest of 6 children. My dad is dead (and although it is sad in some ways it is a very good thing too.) due to complications from heart surgery. One of my brothers is also dead. He died 6 months to the day from when my dad did. The circumstances are not completely known. They think it is either, Suicide, Assisted Suicide, or Murder. My opinion is that it is murder from what I know... but he is not here to ask and they cannot prove anything solidly either. He was 19 when he died. I named my son Samuel after him. My son Jared is named after an uncle that passed away on DH's side from a river accident. 2 people we dearly love!

I think one of my greatest accomplishments was writing my life story and publishing it. It happened at a very trying but needed time and was one of the greatest healing experiences of my life. My husband was and is the greatest supporter and held my hand through the entire process.

The most rewarding and cherished accomplishment though is being a mom! I never thought it would happen - and now that I am I am so grateful! I love my children and I love being the mother of Nathan's children. There is not another man I would want to share this experience with!

Anyway, just a bit about me.

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I love your lodge, Cindy, I feel like I can really get involved because of all the pictures etc.
I'm really sorry to hear how hard your journey has been. :bighug: Good luck with the new LO, I'll bet you'll have your hands full when he comes along Biggrin

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"chimmy" wrote:

Cindy ~ I meant to ask, will this be your 1st or 2nd vbac? Smile

This will be my 2nd Vbac.

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"SandiCarr" wrote:

It's pretty interesting that your twins were conceived at different times! There is the article about another woman who had a similar thing happen floating around today.

Very interesting... I would love to read that. You know - When Nathanya came out it was obvious that there was an age difference. She looked like an alien vs Jared who looked like a baby that had a small baby. The size difference was ounces... but there really was no doubts once she was here. I was also told that if the roles were reversed they believe that Jared would have died. The boy was just as not as strong of a fighter as the little girl. I thought that was interesting as well. It turned out well though.

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"CJWilkes" wrote:

Very interesting... I would love to read that. You know - When Nathanya came out it was obvious that there was an age difference. She looked like an alien vs Jared who looked like a baby that had a small baby. The size difference was ounces... but there really was no doubts once she was here. I was also told that if the roles were reversed they believe that Jared would have died. The boy was just as not as strong of a fighter as the little girl. I thought that was interesting as well. It turned out well though.

http://www.foxnews.com/story/0,2933,322485,00.html

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I love all of your wedding pictures, your dress was absolutley georgeous!! You two are such a cute couple Smile He looks a lot like my friend Kirt who's Navajo.

I didn't realize you'd had so many losses & that it'd taken you so long to get pregnant, goodness! I think it's really neat how many littles you have after all that you've been through. What a blessing!

I love looking at all of your pictures too, it's a lot of fun! You have such a neat family Smile

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"CJWilkes" wrote:

We have some questions and hang ups and I think it is due to my childhood and my trust issues. ;))

I did not know you were LDS. Do you attend Catholic meetings often? That is pretty neat. As long as you are happy!

Yeppers. We stopped going when I was a teen though, and then in my early-mid twenties I went through a spiritual journey, looking for the right faith because as you mentioned, I too had many hangups with the LDS faith... and then met my DH who is Catholic. We've been married two years and were married in the Catholic church, but it took the baptism of my daughter last April for me to really start to look into Catholicism. I haven't looked back much. I go to weekly classes, and the more I learn about it, the more I fall in love with it. So yes, I am very happy! Thanks!

Good luck on your journey!

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"SandiCarr" wrote:

http://www.foxnews.com/story/0,2933,322485,00.html

That is creepy to read because aside from the m/c while preggo my story with my twins is almost identical! I was monitored weekly where each week confirmed that Nathanya was aprox 2-3 weeks younger than Jared. So she was born at 32 W gestation and Jared 34 W gestation. I remember looking into what the dr.s told me and I have a book called Twins, Twins, and more...
That book also described my situation and said it was VERY rare... but does and can occur.

How cool. Thanks for sharing it with me!

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"HappiLeigh" wrote:

Yeppers. We stopped going when I was a teen though, and then in my early-mid twenties I went through a spiritual journey, looking for the right faith because as you mentioned, I too had many hangups with the LDS faith... and then met my DH who is Catholic. We've been married two years and were married in the Catholic church, but it took the baptism of my daughter last April for me to really start to look into Catholicism. I haven't looked back much. I go to weekly classes, and the more I learn about it, the more I fall in love with it. So yes, I am very happy! Thanks!

Good luck on your journey!

My hang ups are mostly with trust issues. But I still go to church and love much about the church and what it teaches.

I am so glad that you have something you enjoy and that your family is unified in your decision. That is wonderful!!!

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Hi Cindy, Congratulations on your lodge! I loved reading all about you and your beautiful family. I"m so sorry for all your losses, it is heartbreaking :bigarmhug:. I really enjoyed all your pics!

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Cindy ,
Congrats on making it to your lodge. It is so nice readin up on ur and your family and your journey into motherhood. I have to say that you are very blessed to have had to the opportunity to be a mother despite all the hurdles. Very inspiring to read all your stories

"SandiCarr" wrote:

http://www.foxnews.com/story/0,2933,322485,00.html

Worry that story is freaky but inspiring too.

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Cindy I just got caught up on your lodge. Wow girl you have been through alot!!! Congrats on getting to this point so 'easily' this time. ((HUGS)) I'm excited to follow Edmund's story more - I hope he waits a while yet though!

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Welcome to your Lodge!

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I can't believe I'm so late with this. WELCOME TO YOUR LODGE! Congrats on making it this far. Thanks for sharing your story and all your pictures.

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I love all the pictures, you have such a beautiful family. TFS!

Cindy

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awww what a great intro Cindy! I can't believe you've been through so much, you are a super woman!

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Hey Cindy !
I can't believe that it took me this long to see your lodge. I just wanted to welcome you and, tell you what an amazing family you have there.Thanks for sharing your story.

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Thanks everyone! I like my family Smile

Went to dr. today. Uneventful but that is good at this time. Everything looks good - baby seems on the smaller side (that will be a change!) Other than that... not much.

I had a migraine from H yesterday, but it seems to be gone today. Hanging in there and getting lots of rest. Just need this baby to bake a bit longer. Wink

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My mother in law is coming this weekend!!! Yahoo She will be with us for a few weeks. I can't tell you what a blessing that is to Nathan, Me and the kids!!! I am just so excited I want to scream! Now to convince Edmond to stay in until she gets here.

Tonight I am contracting quite a bit and nauseated TMI WARNING -- and my bowels are moving again + loosing more bits and pieces of the plug... so I know that something is going on. I have tried to lie down and just stay down in general but I hurt tonight. I have lost weight at my appointment... I am not sure if that is ok or not but I chalked it up to vomiting all day yesterday. //// end of tmi warning.

DH has helped to organize our room to be ready for the baby. He senses a change as well. I hope it is just the anxiety of his mom coming. It is still too early for this man IMO!!!!!

We have moved all the kids into one room so that my MIL can have her own room for her stay. They are so excited it is funny!

Well, that is about it for today.

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How wonderful that your MIL will be able to come out!! I know you've been worried about that for awhile wondering who would watch the kids, what a blessing that is Smile

I'm sorry your feeling so low though but glad that your resting ~ it sounds like your body is wanting that little one to come soon! (((Hugs)))

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I'm glad your MIL is coming & able to help you all out. Take it easy & get some rest.

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Colored in because of my undies...

Do I look real low to you? I am dying here tonight!


Sorry to complain here. I just feel like he is trying to push out my cervix and I can't even sleep right now. I really do want to cry...

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Maybe you've dropped. You do look real low to me Cindy. I'm sorry for any discomfort you're feeling :bighug:

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That's great your MIL is coming!! How wonderful for you guys and the kids. And yes, you do look really low, you must have dropped. I'm sorry you're so uncomfortable though. Sad I'm sure it won't be long now! I hope he hangs on until your MIL gets here. Biggrin

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I'm sorry you are so uncomfortable! But I LOL'd at your facial expression in the first pic! He he he! I think you look low, maybe not engaged, but still, low!

I hope the discomfort eases up for you Cindy! And Happy Day that your MIL is coming!! Smile

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((HUGS)) Mama. I hope the pressure eases up soon. I love your bikini Wink

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I'm sorry you are uncomfortable.

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You do look low. My DD sat low for a few weeks before she was born and it was really uncomfortable on my cervix and perineum, but it was also my first, so I can only imagine it could get more uncomfortable with subsequent kids. :bigarmhug: Hope you get some relief from your discomfort. Laying on your side doesn't make the pressure ease up at all? (Not that you can tell your kiddos you are going to just lay on your side all day...)

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I could see that "Ok all of you grab 1 toy and head to the living room. Today is mommy's couch day. So you all get to play in the living room with that one special toy, while i lie there directing you not to hit each other upside the head!" ok so that's probably what it would sound like in my house, but seriously I hope you find a way to make you feel better.... maybe you should invest in a large bath tub or birth pool for relaxing in at night after dh is home and the kids are in bed. i have heard that it can be very relaxing to get the gravity off ones self by floating in the pool.

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I agree about the pool
pool= pregnancy paradise
we are going with the MW on monday. Is there a community pool anywhere you can go to, like at YMCA or something?

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