~*hope_537's Birth Lodge!*~

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~*hope_537's Birth Lodge!*~

Welcome to your lodge!!

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YAY! You hit 36 weeks, Jessica!!! I've been waiting for your lodge! Biggrin

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Congrats on your lodge!!! And hitting 36 weeks, No more bedrest Yahoo

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Yay!!!! Welcome to your lodge!!!

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Yay! Lodge time! and no more bedrest!!! whooohooo:D

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Yay! My very own lodge! I can't believe it's that time already.

I'll be back later to post an intro...now that I'm off bedrest I've got a full day planned! Biggrin

Jessica

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Welcome to your lodge! Congrats on making it this far. Looking forward to sharing your journey!

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Welcome to your lodge!

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Welcome! Congrats on making it through bedrest! Can't wait to follow your journey.

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WOOT!! Welcome to your lodge!

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Congrats!! I can't wait to hear it all!

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Hooray! I've been waiting for you to get your lodge! Hope your first day off bedrest is great.

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Congrats on making it to your lodge. Isn't being off bedrest WONDERFUL! Enjoy it before the little one comes:)
I won't be around too much to post, probably, but wanted to let you know I'm thinking of you!

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Congrats on 36 weeks and the home stretch to meeting your new little guy.

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Congratulations on your lodge and being off bedrest! I'm here to root you on fellow VBACer!

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Time for an intro I suppose…I’ll try to keep this from becoming excessively long!

DH (Kyle) and I grew up in Nashville, TN and met at church when we were 14 and 13 years old. We ran in different social circles during our high school years but we always kept in touch and remained good friends. He claims to have had the biggest crush on me during those years, but I never saw it. He just wasn’t my type (or so I thought!). He graduated high school, joined the Marine Corps and moved to CA and I stayed in TN to attend college. We lost touch for a while but the summer of 2003 he came back into my life again. He had come home after his 1st tour to Iraq and I went to see him. MAN had he grown up during that time we had been apart! Long story short we were inseparable for those 2 short weeks that he was home and when it came time for him to go back to CA we both knew we wanted to make the long distance thing work. So we did. For nearly 2 years! During those two years I stayed in TN and kept attending college and working full time. In the fall of 2004 Kyle prepared to leave CA for his second deployment to Iraq. He came home to TN long enough for us to get engaged and then he was gone for 7 months. I stayed busy working, studying, and planning our wedding and our post nuptial move to Virginia (as decided by the military). Then finally in the summer of 2005 he came home (safely thank goodness!) and we were married in mid September. It was a beautiful wedding, my parents pulled out all the stops, but all I could think about all day was how glad I was that Kyle and I didn’t have to be apart EVER AGAIN! We honeymooned for a week at the Biltmore in Asheville, NC and then we moved to VA.

During that 1st year of our marriage I kept busy by working full time as a receptionist for a local marketing company. We traveled on the weekends, went to concerts and enjoyed our time just being together. We went from having all of our family within a 15 mile radius of us in TN, to living 10 hours away from everyone, so it REALLY was just the two of us. I was on birth control at the time but after about 9 months of feeling wacky and out of sorts we decided to get off of it all together. I got my hands on a copy of “Taking Charge of Your Fertility” and we decided to use NFP as our new means of BC. Now, I’m the oldest of 6 children and Kyle is the oldest of 5 so when our parents learned that we were getting off BC they all laughed and warned us that fertility ran strong in our families. But I didn’t give it a second thought. I probably should have because 4 days after getting of BC we conceived! Fast forward a couple weeks, it’s now June 26th 2006. I’m 16 days late and Kyle actually MAKES me POAS. I was just sure that my body was adjusting and detoxing after being on BC and that I was going to start any day. After all, we had done everything the book said to do!! WELL, I was never more surprised to see both pregnancy tests light up positive before I could even pull up my pants! It was the biggest surprise of my life and I was the last to know!

Kyle and I in DC (I was prego here and didn't know it!)

It was a very uneventful pregnancy and everything was progressing well. But around 19 weeks I started having frequent BH contractions that started to worry me. Kyle and I were celebrating our 1st wedding anniversary at a local bed and breakfast on the day the contractions started and by that afternoon we were in the emergency room (per doctors orders-it was the weekend). They decided to do a routine ultrasound to check and see if I was dialated. They wouldn’t let Kyle in the ultrasound room (ER policy I suppose) so off I went alone. After a couple minutes of moving the wand around on my belly the tech asked me if this was my first ultrasound, I told her “yes” and she paused for a second. She then said, “Well I’m not sure if I should tell you this…but you’re having twins.” WHO ME?? That’s literally what I thought! She turned the screen around and there they were… my beautiful boys, wiggling around and kicking each other in the head! I was absolutely SHOCKED. She quickly ran and got Kyle and I was able to tell him the wonderful news. Needless to say, we had a wonderful and VERY memorable 1st anniversary.

The second part of the pregnancy was not quite as uneventful as the first but I was able to carry the boys until 34w5d, after 2 months of bed rest and terbutaline. William “Avery” and Ezra Lee were born on January 10th 2007. Avery made his appearance at 9:27am, weighing 4lbs 8 oz. Ezra Lee was born just two minutes later weighing in at 5lbs 11 oz. They were born via c-section, perfectly healthy in every way. My (ex) OB had told me that if I was able to carry them to 35 weeks we could then discuss me delivering them vaginally. But since I had not quite met that goal, and since Avery was measuring smaller than Ezra, he wanted to be careful and not put them thru too much trauma. I later learned that just before they were born I was 4 cm dialated. Avery’s bag of water actually broke when the doctor checked me just prior to my section. The night before they were born I had lost my plug and awoke to strong and frequent contractions in my back that were coming every 3-4 minutes. Looking back I am sure I could have delivered them vaginally, my body was doing everything right, even while on the highest dosage of Terb! The days following their birth were hard on me. They didn’t have NICU time but had to stay in the Special Care nursery for 5 days while antibiotics were administered and they learned to suck and swallow. I wasn’t allowed to nurse them until they were 4 days old, and again, looking back I shouldn’t have stood for this. I really allowed the nurses to scare me in to thinking that my babies were sick or that I didn’t know what they needed. Hindsight is 20/20. Luckily we were all able to come home together once those 5 days were up.

Me with my boys (1 week old)

We dealt with severe nipple confusion and an infection in my c/s scar during those first 6 weeks, but we made it through. Breastfeeding preemie twins was one of the hardest things I’ve ever done but I’m really proud of all 3 of us for sticking it out for as long as we did. The next several months went by in a flash. I was lucky to be a stay at home mom to my boys, and so my days were full of juggling babies! We quickly got them on a workable, flexible schedule and that saved us. Again, we lived 10 hours away from family and really knew no one here in VA so we just had to learn to survive! The time went fast as it does with babies.

Fast forward to Fall 2007. Life was regaining normalcy again, and Kyle and I were finally sleeping thru the night on a consistent basis. We began discussing BC again because I was beginning to tell that my cycles were starting to become more regular for the first time PP. I was still EBFing the boys so I decided to not take the mini pill my OB had suggested. I had not had a good track record with BC and I didn’t want ANYTHING compromising our breastfeeding relationship. We decided to keep using NFP and so I started charting and temping again as best I could given that I wasn’t even SURE that I was ovulating. Well low and behold September 26th rolls around and I realize that I’m 3 days late. Again, I was in total denial. But my curiosity got the best of me. That day while Kyle was at work, I waited until A&E were down for their naps and I snuck away to POAS. I laughed at myself all the way to the bathroom, that was until I looked over and saw a BIG FAT POSITIVE. The world stopped spinning in that moment. “I have 9 month old twins….I CAN’T be pregnant!” But I was! I called Kyle at work and told him immediately. He was so thrilled and that relieved me. He brought me home a dozen roses and the sweetest card telling me how excited he was. It was a wonderful day. I continued BFing A&E until they were 11 months old, at that point I was 4 months pregnant and nursing was beginning to take a toll on my weight gain. It was very bittersweet for us but they adjusted well.

Ezra and Avery @ 9 months old...

It wasn’t until I was a couple months into the pregnancy that I was reading thru my journal and found a dream I had had right before A&E were born. In the dream I was in the OR and my OB was delivering the boys. Avery and Ezra were delivered and then he paused for a second and said “Wait, there’s another baby in here! But it’s not ready to be born yet.” So he sewed me up and I remained pregnant! In the dream I remember him saying something about the baby being 16 or 17 something. At the time I took that to mean weeks of gestation, as in, the boys were 34 weeks and this baby is 16-17 weeks and not ready to be born. But once we got our BFP and I started doing the math I realized that the age gap between my boys and this baby would be 16-17 months. I about flipped out!

This pregnancy as a whole has been quite a journey for me. At the very beginning I was sure that I was going to have a repeat c/s, after all I knew what was involved in that and my OB, who I felt very loyal to, recommended another section. I began discussing things with other women who had had VBACs and I decided that I should at least do my research before making a decision, so I did. That’s when I posted on this board for the first time and I was quickly directed to ICAN’s website for more VBAC info. I started reading everything I could get my hands on, everything from Ina May to Nancy Cohen. I quickly found that I had more options than I realized and I became dissatisfied with the lack of info that my OB was giving me. I knew that in order to make my VBAC possible I had to get a group of people around me to support my decision. DH and my doula were already on board but something was missing. At around 23 weeks I decided to switch to a midwife. We met with her for the first time and I was never more sure that I had made the right choice for me and my baby. She is an absolute angel. I have spent the last 9 months trying to wrap my head around the fact that I am going to be a mommy again and I think it’s finally starting to sink in. We will be moving back home to TN this fall (Kyle is getting out of military) and still can’t believe we’ll be moving back with 3 babies! I’m so ready to be an active participant in my birth this time around. I have so much peace and confidence in my body. I have you ladies to thank for that. The advice, encouragement and support I’ve gotten from you all over the last few months has been overwhelming. I can’t wait to share the rest of this journey with you guys. Not too much longer now!

Sorry for the length, but thanks for reading if you made it this far! Biggrin

Jessica

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What a great story! You and Kyle make such a beautiful couple, and of course A&E couldn't be any more adorable. What a shock to find out at 19wks that you were having twins!! And then what a neat dream you had--how cool that you wrote it down in your journal to find later.

I'm really psyched that you found a good MW and are getting ready for a VBAC. I know you'll do great! Smile

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I can't believe we are here already! Welcome to your lodge!

And that is so cool about your dream!

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Welcome to your lodge, and great intro! Totally cool about your dream too.

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Jessica, what a beautiful intro! I'm truly moved by how grounded and positive you are. Can't wait to see how this next chapter turns out for you!

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Welcome to your lodge! That's a freaky cool dream you had!

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I loved your intro and I'm super excited to follow your lodge!

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Welcome to your lodge, it was great to find out more about you.

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Jessica ~ My fellow Feb 07 Mama!!!! KNow that I am rooting you on for your VBAC, I cant wait to follow your story these last weeks of your pregnancy Smile Thank you for sharing your beautiful story!

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Well I wanted to update you all on my 36 week midwife appointment. I'm still not quite sure how I feel about it.

As most of you know I was put on modified bedrest at 34 weeks due to frequent contractions and effacement. We all (my midwife included) thought this little guy was trying to make an early appearance! Well I get to my appointment yesterday and she decides to do an internal to see if things have progressed at all and they haven't, I'm still soft, but not dialated. She then mentioned that my cervix is actually positioned BEHIND Trevor's head (weird!) and his head is VERY low (-1 station as of a couple weeks ago). She asked if I had had any cervical surgery and I mentioned that I had had a cryotherapy and biopsy done 3 years ago due to an abnormal pap. She said she thought that I could possibly have some scaring due to that from what she could feel. She was also worried because he seems to be somewhat OP. This came as a HUGE shock to me cause I have been looking for signs of a posterior baby and I didn't think he was. I guess he's facing my right hip bone instead of my butt, or at least that's the way I understood it. Does that mean he's halfway posterior?? LOT?? I'm really confused.

SOOO, she recommended I start DTD lots and taking 2-3 grams of EPO daily, along with Dr. Christopher's Prenatal Formula (black cohosh) in order to start loosening my cervix some. I've also got to do the polar bear (inversion) 2-3 times a day to encourage him out of my pelvis somewhat, so he can rotate and then re-engage. From bedrest to this. I can't believe the irony.

I guess I'm left feeling like I'm in for a long and hard labor. She simply said that things like this take patience and work, but they aren't impossible obsticles to overcome. I just know I've heard so many horror stories from women who had sunny side up babies and I worry that despite my efforts he won't turn or I won't dialate.

I'm just going to stay positive and along with my midwife's recommended measures I'm also going to start visualizing my cervix opening, moving, and Trevor's head rotating the right way. I've been saying lots of prayers and telling my little man exactly what I need him to do....

I still have time, I still have time!

Jessica

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Awesome intro, Jessica...and your baby boys are SO adorable! I love the pic of you holding both of them - it melts my heart! My prayers and thoughts are with you turn this little guy around to where he needs to be! I've been telling my LO all week to head towards the light Wink

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Jessica loved your intro and pics - you have an adorable family! You can do this. One of my closest friends had cervicle cancer at 17yo and went on to have 9 vaginal births - she had to be cerclaged.(sp) I know this is different from your situation, but wanted to share, because it involves the cervix. KUP

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"helivt" wrote:

What a great story! You and Kyle make such a beautiful couple, and of course A&E couldn't be any more adorable. What a shock to find out at 19wks that you were having twins!! And then what a neat dream you had--how cool that you wrote it down in your journal to find later.

ITA!! You're a lovely family and what an incredible dream! I have always dreamt of being pregnant just before I found out - weird I know!

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Indeed, you still have lots of time!!

Try not to worry too much--the way I see it, you're only 36wks and not dilated, so maybe the urgency is lessened now. -1 isn't fully engaged so he could still rotate a bit--and it sounds like he's not *totally* posterior, right? If you do those positions I'm sure you'll get some good results especially while he still has some decent room in there. But it is ironic that you've gone from bedrest to contortions! Wink

Interesting about the cervical scarring. I wonder why it wasn't noted before--you almost had a V-birth with the twins, right? I also had cryo many years ago but no one ever said I had scarring from it.

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"helivt" wrote:

Interesting about the cervical scarring. I wonder why it wasn't noted before--you almost had a V-birth with the twins, right? I also had cryo many years ago but no one ever said I had scarring from it.

I had no trouble dialating with the boys so I don't see why it would be an issue this time. She simply said it "felt like a cryo cervix" whatever that means.

I'm just gonna stay positive. In my heart I feel like everything will be fine.

Jessica

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I really enjoyed reading your intro Jessica. You and your family are gorgeous!

My baby seems to be posterior and it's worrying me too. I also had cryotherapy on my cervix. It was a long time ago and I'd almost forgotten about it and hadn't even reaslised it could impact on my birth. That's interesting.

I agree with staying positive. I've been warned about a couple of little things, but I really do have a gut feeling things will work out fine.

I'm looking forward to reading more about you. Smile

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Great intro, I love seeing pics of your family, you guys are beautiful.

I think that everything sounds very manageable to get your VBAC. You should still have lots of time. I really hope that it all works out for you Biggrin

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Thanks for all the sweet comments everyone!

Well over the weekend my grandparents and mom surprised me and showed up at my front door (they live 10 hours away!). It was a wonderful and welcome surprise since I didn't think I'd get to see my mom again until after LO is born. It was nice to have help with the boys and all my meals cooked for me for two days as well!

They left this morning and of course I woke up super early having contractions every 3-5 minutes. They felt very similar to the contractions I was having 2-3 weeks ago that sent me to L&D. But I chose to ignore them and chalk it up to "practice" labor and the EPO (maybe?)! My mom was all worried about leaving since I was having so many of them, but I convinced her that today WAS NOT D-day and they got on the road right on schedule.

Our church had a huge BBQ today complete with kids rides and face painting. It was fun. The service was held in a huge tent outside and although it wasn't that warm I had a horrible time getting comfy. The contractions were still coming (4 hours of them by that point) but I just kept timing them. They eventually became more and more irregular and then I just started ignoring them. We came home, I took a long nap and then DH and I were able to sneak in a little "alone" time. All in all it's been a wonderful day.

Only 4 more days till I'm offically FULL TERM!

Jessica

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I'm happy to hear you had such a good weekend. It must have been a lovely surprise to see your family! My Mum only lives 2 hours away but I really miss her at times like this. There's nothing quite like your mother's cooking is there?

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Loved your intro - great pics, too! Oh your old OB and the nursery nurses make me so mad! Sadly, your experience with the boys seems to be typical Sad I'm glad you found a great MW and are receiving excellent care this time.

As for cryo-cervix - I had cryocautery for mild cervical dysplasia 10 years ago. I think my gyn froze off the outer third of my cervix :-? Anyway, in no way has it been a barrier to me conceiving or giving birth. As you pointed out, you had no trouble dilating with the twins!

So glad you're moving back to Nashvegas! Dirol

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Sounds like you had a super fun church BBQ! Except the not getting comfy thing. And family showing up! very wonderful!:D

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The BBQ sounds like it was lots of fun. Sorry about the contractions, I hope they stay away for at least a few more days.

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Hey girls.

I don't have long to write but I wanted to ask for your thoughts and prayers. I don't even have time to x-post this on my BB but I just wanted to let you all know.

Long story short I've spent the last 24 hours in the hospital with Avery. He woke up severely congested yesterday and once I finally got him in to see his pedi they decided to do several breathing treatments since his respratory rate was very high and had lots of "belly breathing" (struggling to breathe). They ended up transporting us via ambulance to the closest hospital and we've been there ever since. They have done xrays, antibiotics and dozens of breathing treatments. He is breathing better now, but they are just trying to get his white blood count back down. They first thought he had RSV, then phnemonia, now they think it's an ear infection causing the high white blood count! I stayed over night with him last night and they are keeping us again tonight to finish off antibiotics then they will do more blood work in the morning. PLEASE, for those of you that pray, pray his blood work comes back okay and they send us home tomorrow morning. He is getting so restless now that he can breath again, and we're both suffering from lack of sleep.

To top it all off I think I've begun to lose my mucus plug. I've been having TONS of contractions, almost constant for the last 2 days and I'm thinking they are dilating me. I just want my little Avery to feel better and get us all back home before Trevor decides to make an arrival. Plus, the hospital we are at is NOT a VBAC friendly hospital so if I were to go into labor I don't know what I'd do.

Keep us in your thoughts please. Sorry for all the typos, I'm off to hospital again for the night.

Jessica

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HUGS!! You'll be in my thoughts!

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Hi Jessica. I hope all is well with you and Avery and you and Trevor. The contractions are a good sign that all is well with Trevor and his future delivery. I am sending good thoughts and prayers your way. Hang in there.

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:bighug: Hope Avery feels better soon - your in my thoughts and prayers!

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(((Jessica))) You're in my thoughts.

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I just wanted you to know I'm thinking of you and hope all is well with both you and Avery.

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nak...praying jessica

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I'll be praying that Avery gets better very soon and that all of you will be home.
Sounds to me like Trevor is not likeing all the attention on his big brother Wink

I hope that it all goes well for you and your family.

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Thinking of you and your family today!

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Oh Jessica that must be really scary. Poor little Avery! I'm sending lots of positive thoughts your way and hoping everything turns out fine for you and your family.

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Oh no! Poor little Avery! I am thinking of you and hoping that things settle down soon.

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My prayers and thoughts are with you and Avery!!! I hope you both got some well needed rest last night...

I went through something similar with my DD Tristyn about 3 months ago, and I understand how stressful it is staying in the hospital with your LO - the docs thought it was RSV or pnemonia, but it ended up being a bad ear infection/virus that manifested into bronchiolitis. KUP hun and take good care!

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Oh my gosh, how scary! I hope Avery gets better really soon.

I also hope those ctx back off a bit--surely it's just from the stress of being in the hospital. That baby isn't ready to come out just yet, you need a little more time!

:bigarmhug: thinking of you!

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I hope Avery recovers quickly so you can get a little time at home with just the 4 of you before Trevor arrives. :bighug:

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