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Welcome hun! Looking forward to a new year of births around here, can't believe we're in 2010 already!!

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welcome to your lodge!

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Welcome to your lodge!

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Welcome to your lodge!

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Welcome!

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How exciting! I can't believe I'm 4 weeks away from my due date. I've been catching up on posts, since I wasn't at the computer much around the holiday. I'll post a full introduction later on, I'm still waking up (I'm on the west coast).

I did have an appointment yesterday, they did the GBS swab, so keep your fingers crossed that it comes back negative so I don't have to deal with IV antibiotics.

Thanks ladies!

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Fingers crossed for you hun! Looking forward to your intro (pictures are always fun to see:))!

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Fingers crossed! Excited about your intro. Congrats!
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Hope the GBS results come back negative!

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Sending you negative GBS vibes!

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Welcome to your lodge! Fingers crossed for the test results!

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Ok, I thought I'd do my intro post finally...

I'm Eileen and DH is Steven. We met online, but not with the intention of dating, in 2005. He's from South Africa and a former rugby player, and I played a little in college, and I knew a bunch of rugby players I was going to introduce him to if he wanted to play again. He never did start up again, but hey hey got me instead, lol. Our relationship went from 0-60 in about 2.5 seconds once we met in person, after chatting online for awhile. We moved in "temporarily" within a couple weeks of dating, but then I never moved out, lol. 13 months after dating we were on a trip to Hawaii and Steven proposed. We knew very quickly before that though that was what we wanted, but we were broke lol. We were engaged for a long time, he proposed Jan of 07, and we got married August of 08. We were hoping to give his family time to prepare and come to the wedding since they are all in South Africa still. My family lives about 500 miles away so while not too far, it's still a bit of distance. His grandmother and cousin were able to come, but not his parents or brother, so I still haven't met them. Before the wedding we were lucky enough for all of the fates to come together and allow us to buy a home. After the wedding we decided to expand our family and adopted a doggy, he's crazy, but we love him. Very energetic, but the cutest face ever. We were planning on waiting until mid 2010 to start trying to have a baby, obviously that didn't go as planned, lol.

Here we are a year ago on New Year's Eve not knowing what 09 and 10 would have in store for us.

And here is our doggy Linus!

This pregnancy is my first. I always thought I'd have trouble conceiving, but since I did without trying obviously I was wrong about that! I honestly think this was the best way for DH though, I don't know if he would have ever been "ready" to start trying. However he jumped on board pretty quickly and is super excited. He's done so much to help me out when I can't do things, and even refurnished furniture and did an amazing job painting the nursery.

I've had a relatively easy pregnancy with a little BP scare a couple weeks ago, but now it seems like everything is ok. I only had a week of feeling sick in the beginning. I gained about 20 pounds, but I'm a little bit overweight, so I'm right on track. A little heartburn here and there, sciatica pain when I overdo things, and now some insomnia, but everything else has been surprisingly smooth. Oh except that pesky GBS test came back positive.

I'm planning a Bradley Birth in a hospital, but they are very natural birth friendly. I have been seeing an OB during my care, but even if I wasn't going naturally I'd probably not have him at the delivery. I'm part of an HMO that has whichever OB is on call attend the birth. However they have Nurse Midwives in the L&D hospital which I have requested attend the birth. DH has done an amazing job going to all the classes and learning about my "hippie" birth wishes, lol. He's from a country which has a ridiculous 60% c-section rate, he and his brother were c-sec babies. That's all he knows. His step-sister is due the same time as me, and her last pregnancy was placenta previa, so VBAC isn't even part of the vocab back in SA so she's having a c-sec again. I REALLY DO NOT want a c-sec.

Today I'm feeling good except super tired, I did not sleep well last night. I guess it's practice for when the baby gets here.

Here I am at 36 weeks 0 days, tomorrow I'll be 37.

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I enjoyed reading your intro. Congratulations on your first baby! I love the pic of the design on the nursery wall--so cute! Sorry to hear you tested GBS+. I'm glad to hear your hospital is natuarl birth friendly, though!

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Your look so cute hun:) It was fun to read your intro, I giggle at you thinking you couldn't get prego easy....I've heard that one before from friends (yes, they got the same suprise as you). Your pup is very cute, can't wait to see what he thinks of being a big brother!

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I'm thinking of starting on Black Cohosh in the next week or so. Does anyone have any experience using it?

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You should ask about the cohosh in the forum, I don't know who but people have used it.

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Eileen- Even though we share a BB, I learned a lot about you from your intro! I am happy to see some other Jan. moms here! I had forgotten about this board, I am so glad I found my way back here!

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I know I have a couple weeks from my due date, but I figured it wouldn't hurt to start some of the "labor inducers" because they won't really work unless you are ready anyway. I told DH about pineapple and he's sneaking it into every meal.

I've been having a few more BH's than I had been, but no other signs.

Beth: Glad you learned more about me here!

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There's also the famous eggplant parm. Wink

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I've heard that pineapple has to be fresh and raw, not cooked/canned, to work--cooking it removes the enzyme in it that is supposed to be the culprit.

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Loved your intro! Somehow on our jan board I missed that your hubby was from south africa that is really cool. You guys are such a cute couple!

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"MrsMangoBabe" wrote:

I've heard that pineapple has to be fresh and raw, not cooked/canned, to work--cooking it removes the enzyme in it that is supposed to be the culprit.

It's been in tuna sandwiches and things, so it's still been fresh, from a cut up pineapple.

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"emansmom" wrote:

Loved your intro! Somehow on our jan board I missed that your hubby was from south africa that is really cool. You guys are such a cute couple!

Thanks!

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On Sunday my doula came over and we went over everything. She is in the process of being DONA trained, but I've known her for awhile. DH had been skeptical of using a doula for a long time because he thought it would take away from the birth being about OUR family, but after the meeting (she was here for hours) he feels much better about it, and was able to see that she will be able to help him give me better attention.

I also had a dr appointment today. My cervix has not softened at all and I'm closed up tight. I'll probably be in this for the long haul. I know things can change at any time, but I think for sanity reasons I'll just accept that I won't be giving birth in the next week or so. My only worry is if I go too late. The doctor likes to induce at 41 weeks. I'm hoping they'd allow me to push that out at least an additional 3 days and up to 42 weeks if necessary.

In hopes of getting things going I've picked up EPO, Red Raspberry Leaf, and Black Cohosh, and DH and I will use DTD to help as well Smile

I can't complain too much, I'm not "sick and tired" of being pregnant. I ache and get heartburn, but in my mind that is such a minor issue. My only concern is the going too far past my due date, oh and since I'm not working right now, my selfish concern is one of boredom.

But as far as the appointment, everything looks healthy. HB in the 140s, head down. Measuring at 38 weeks (right on time). BP at the beginning of the appointment was 138/79, but by the end it was the lowest it's been since I've been pregnant 117/77. That is a relief after my high BP scare of a couple weeks ago.

I wish the weather was a little nicer, I can go out and walk, but I get so cold. It's been rainy today as well. My birth ball is all blown up and I'm trying to sit on that more as well.

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I'm glad your doing well, sounds like your getting things headed in the right direction! Have any big weekend plans?

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No set plans, but I think DH and I will have a date night, go out for a nice dinner. Plus his male coworkers that have kids have told him if there are any projects around the house to do them NOW because otherwise they won't get done for probably a year, so I'll probably make a "honey-do" list.

The last couple weekends we've spent vegging out together, with him playing Assassin's Creed 2, while I try to read or something, but I get distracted when I see him miss things and I end up helping him find things. Sounds geeky, but it's actually fun time together.

With the supplements I picked up the other day added to the prenatals I take (which is 4 pills plus a DHA caplet) and the iron supp I'm on, I'm taking 10 pills every morning and a few more in the evening, plus the Black Cohosh in liquid form added to water. It's a lot, but I won't have to take so many for too long.

I've been watching a lot of the baby shows on TLC and DHC and they make me SO ANGRY. The other day there was this one where the lady was sick of being pregnant at 39 weeks so they went in for an induction, which started with cervadil, then pitocin, then an epidural, next thing you know the baby is deceling and they almost had to do a c-section, luckily they are able to get the baby out, but seriously, if she had at least tried to wait another week or so her baby wouldn't be at such risk. This is what so many people who don't research things think is a "normal" birth, ughhhh. Oh and the one today where the lady said after her c-sec she wished she had done that with the first.

Last Bradley class tonight, can't believe we made it through them all!

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My DH got Assassin's Creed 2 for Christmas, but he hasn't started playing it yet. He has been really busy with work and when he has time to play video games he likes to play online with his brothers and friends.

I feel like I'm taking a ton of supplements too because I just switched to a 2 pill prenatal vitamin and I just added floradix liquid iron. I'm still not taking as much as you are, though Smile

My advise is stop watching the birth shows. I don't watch them anymore, though I used to--a lot. You don't need to be flooding your mind with negative images and stories about pregnancy and childbirth right now. Unless it's House of Babies on DHC (if they're even running it) or an episode where the woman is obviously planning a NCB (and even those are iffy sometimes because they tend to focus on the negative parts or have negative narration, comments by nurses, etc), it really isn't worth watching. You already know about the compounding effect of interventions, you don't need multiple examples of it coupled with people trying to use it to make birth seem dangerous or scary.

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Oh I totally know I shouldn't watch the shows, but sometimes I just can't help myself. I'm a glutton for punishment I guess.

Just a heads up on AC2, it's LONG, just like the first one, but yeah, it's long. DH has played a lot and isn't even halfway through it. His problem is he likes to get caught up with the side things and doesn't just go through the tasks.

When I picked up the prenatal I am taking now I should have looked closer, I didn't realize it was 4 tablets and 1 capsule. Next time I'll get something different.

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I am so glad that you are having a doula! I wasn't sure if you were or not. My husband was also very skeptical of having one because he too thought that it would take away his position. After we met with her he started to see the need for one and after the birth (of our first) he could not believe how extremely helpful and wonderful it was to have a doula. He tells everyone he knows how great they are Smile
Yeah I also try not to watch those stupid shows but sometimes I end up watching and I am always angry and sad for the people on the show and for every pregnant person who is watching and thinking that is normal!
I too am taking a million pills a day! I haven't even started the EPO yet so that just adds a few more to the handful I already take:rolleyes: Oh the life of a pregnant women Smile

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I finally packed my bags last night. For some reason I kept putting it off. It was some kind of mental block, like I've now allowed my body to go into labor, sub-consciously.

The last two nights, while laying in bed, I've started having a few more contractions that feel stronger than the BH that I've had so far, they might still be BH, but they are lower and take my breath away for a second. I catch it easily and they last a minute and a half or so, but I wouldn't call them painful. Just a warning for those that are Hypnobabies method, I'm planning on fully embracing that this will be a painful process, but that the rewards outweigh any temporary discomfort (and I don't use the word discomfort lightly) that I may experience.

I'm hoping that this is a sign that things are starting to get moving and that I'll meet my LO in the next week.

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You can do it!! It is a very intense experience, just remember to take the contractions one at a time, and that each one that's over is that much closer to holding your baby. I believe you are on to something when you say you've kept your self from going into labor. With DS2 I was SURE he's be several days late, but I had been wanting my big kids bedroom clean before he was born soooo the night of my due date I stayed up much later then I normaly would have and cleaned their entire room. I went to bed saying I was ready for him and guess what woke me up:) I bet your close, and I'm so excited to see your baby!!

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Thanks for the encouraging words.

My doula was going to come over and hang out today, but I just got a call that she's not feeling so hot. No big deal unless I go into labor, and then I'm without a doula. Oh well, at least DH seems well prepared.

Since DH and I don't have family nearby, my biggest fear is that DH would get sick and not be allowed in the hospital. I can do it without a doula, but not so sure I could without DH. Luckily he's been good and healthy this whole time.

Errands to run today. I have a couple things to pick up, that would be helpful for the birth. Also I need to get a baby book, so we have it for the footprints.

No contractions last night.

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I got bored...so I came over here!!

So exciting, reading your lodge, I kind of wish I could do it again! LOL

My husband felt the same way about us having a doula...but honestly, he was SO thankful she was there. If anything, she'll be able to take over while he pees! LOL The other thing our doula did was teach HIM how to calm me down...and he dd the actual work!

I LOL'd about you embracing that it will be a painful experience! You're in a better place then I was the first time around. I was in TOTAL denial! Luckily for me, my labours really weren't painful, per se! Intense, YES...but not painful!

But giving birth is an AWESOME experience...and I know you can do it!!!!

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Thanks Kally! Yeah DH has really softened to the idea of a doula and all that comes with natural birth, except a home birth. We'll see how this goes and maybe next time, if we can afford it (my insurance won't pay for the HB midwife) I'll broach the subject.

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"bellablu81" wrote:

Thanks Kally! Yeah DH has really softened to the idea of a doula and all that comes with natural birth, except a home birth. We'll see how this goes and maybe next time, if we can afford it (my insurance won't pay for the HB midwife) I'll broach the subject.

Just throwing this out there--even if homebirth isn't covered by your insurance, it is not necessarily always more expensive than hospital birth that your insurance "covers." It depends on how much your insurance actually pays and doesn't pay (what your deductible is and what percentage of physician and hospital charges your insurance covers). With homebirth, there is no facility fee, because the facility is your house, and homebirth midwife fees are usually really low.

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My birth is free out of pocket. I pay $5 a visit for dr visits, and all the hospital is included. No deductible, no copay. If ever admitted to the hospital for any reason it's the same thing. It's hard to beat "free". I only pay $40/month pretax to my work toward the benefits too, the rest they cover.

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"bellablu81" wrote:

My birth is free out of pocket. I pay $5 a visit for dr visits, and all the hospital is included. No deductible, no copay. If ever admitted to the hospital for any reason it's the same thing. It's hard to beat "free". I only pay $40/month pretax to my work toward the benefits too, the rest they cover.

Wow, that is good health insurance! Yeah, it sounds like hospital birth is definitely the least expensive option in your situation.

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Yeah, I'm super lucky about that. I'm also lucky that the hospital seems so NCB friendly, as I don't have another option if I don't want to pay.

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It's my due date. Doubt she'll get here today. I have a dr appointment this morning, so we'll see if anything is going on, but I don't think so.

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Eileen- Don't freak out if they tell yo nothing has changed. I know that is easier said than done. Like I am sure you have heard a million times things can change over night! That is what happened to me the first time. Your baby will come when she is ready and it will probably be very soon!! Hang in there!! Most first timers do go overdue so you ae part of the majority. Try and relax as much as possible and think only positive thoughts! You are almost there and are going to do great!!! I can't wait to hear your birth story!

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Well it's better than "closed up like a drum", which is what they told me 2 weeks ago, I'm a fingertip dilated.

It's not much, but just knowing that my body is doing SOMETHING is enough to keep me going. I know it can all change in an instant, but it still is hard when it feels like nothing is happening.

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Have you read this? http://www.midwiferytoday.com/articles/timely.asp It's a good thing to read to re-assure yourself that you are doing the right thing for your baby by trusting nature.

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Thanks for the link.

I also feel better after my appointment because I was worried they would really try to pressure me into an induction right at 41 weeks. After talking to the doc, I'll go in next week, if needed. They'll check everything, schedule a biophysical for the following day. If all is healthy, they'll recommend an induction within 2-3 days, however if I choose to wait til 42 weeks, while they don't recommend it, they will honor my decision. If things were looking iffy with fluid levels etc at the biophysical, I'll submit to the induction. I told the doc I'd really like to avoid pitocin, and he said that is their goal as well.

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Well, I might be starting something, not sure if it really is it or not, but it's a possibility. Since about 5:30 I've been having what I think are contractions, at first they weren't painful, but pretty regular, a little over 10 minutes apart. DH got home (I didn't tell him yet) and we went to go eat, they slowed a bit while I was eating and after, but since then I've been relaxing a bit to see if they would stay slowed down, I've started having some that hurt. The last hour or so they've been about 13 minutes apart. Although my last one was about 9 minutes.

I finally told DH about 2 contractions ago. I didn't want to get his hopes up, or get excited for nothing, but I'm starting to think that I might have a baby tomorrow. I'll probably try and lay down and see if I can sleep in a few minutes, and let DH sleep/nap. I'll have to decide when to call our doula.

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I hope this is it. Smile

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Hoping this is really it and sending you ELVs in case!

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Woohoo! Good luck!

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My baby Bronwyn Rosalie was born last night at 10:59 pm. She weighs 7lbs 6oz. 20.5 in long. Champ nurser already. I'll post a pic later.

I'm not up on my twittering, but it looks to me like we have a BABY!! Congratulations Mama:) Looking forward to hearing more!!

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Congratulations! Can't wait to hear your story!

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Congratulations Eileen and WTTW baby Bronwyn!

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I've been MIA taking care of my new baby, can't believe she's over two weeks. Here is the birth story, it's LONG. I had some complications with pre-eclampsia and severe dehydration (from vomiting the entire night), but I feel like I made the best decisions I could in the situation and am really comfortable with how it turned out. I'm glad I didn't plan a home birth because I probably would have been really disappointed and would have needed to be transferred.

Bronwyn Rosalie born 1/28 10:59 pm

Around 5:30 pm on Wednesday night I started feeling really regular BH contractions. I didn’t say anything to DH because they didn’t really hurt, but they were super regular and felt “different” than my usual BH. I decided I didn’t want to cook, and was in the mood for Chipotle. The episode of Oprah that day was about food and trying to eat food that is antibiotic free and not processed. The Chipotle owner was on because they have those values and seeing the food made me want it! It looked so good. I tried to make it extra spicy to help things along. I was a day past my due date and ready to have this baby. Well, after dinner, we came home and relaxed, and watched TV for a bit. Then at 9pm I felt it. I had my first painful contraction. I managed to still not say anything to DH for about an hour. I was slyly timing them on my phone. We went to bed around 11:30, but I had the feeling I wasn’t going to be able to sleep very well, and I was right. I downplayed the contractions to DH because I wanted him to sleep. I may have catnapped in this period, but no real sleep was happening. Around 3am the contractions definitely intensified. They were about 10 minutes apart, but lasted a long time. At about 3:45 I wasn’t feeling very well. I started throwing up. Every time I changed positions, or laid down it would make me sick. I kept trying to drink liquids when I started to feel better, but I would throw up again. I called my doula around this point, since she lives a little bit away. I was handling the contractions pretty decently. I got in the shower while waiting for the doula, the shower helped speed up the time between contractions, but it shortened the length of them. My doula arrived at about 5 am. Shortly after that DH tried to make me some light food, toast and things, but once again I couldn’t hold it down. For the next several hours I labored at home, mostly sitting on the birth ball leaning over my bed. By about 8:30 they were within 5 minutes apart lasting anywhere from 1 -2 minutes long. We decided to call L&D since I couldn’t drink fluids and the contractions were close. They said to come right in. I managed to get to the hospital without too much difficulty. Thank goodness no contractions came while we were going over railroad tracks. I got to the hospital about 9am. They got me checked in to triage. They asked for a urine sample, and I could barely get out half a cm worth of a sample. It was enough though. They checked my blood pressure, and I can’t recall any of the actual numbers at this point, but apparently it was high. My urine came back and it had protein in it. I had just been at the OB two days earlier and there was no protein and I had normal BP. I was severely dehydrated at this point so they wanted to hook me up to fluids and I agreed. Then they checked me. After laboring all night, I was a grand total of 2cm. Yeah, that pissed me off. The contractions hurt like no other, but that was probably because of the severe dehydration. I was 70% effaced though. They had to take a blood sample at this point because they were worried about my BP/proteins. About an hour and a half or so goes by and the labs come back. At first they say they are fine. I’ll probably be sent home. Especially after they check me again, and oh yeah I’m still 2cm, but hey I’m 90% effaced though. I was bummed that I was going to have to keep going, and dealing with two more car rides. So the OB leaves, and then all of a sudden like 7 people are in the room, which is TINY. They say they looked at my blood work wrong and I’m not going home. I’m definitely diagnosed with preeclampsia. This was a mixed bag of feeling. Worried, but relieved that I wouldn’t be going home. They tell me I will need to go on Magnesium Sulfate because even though I’ve been rehydrated with IV fluids my BP isn’t going down. Oh and because of this I was going to admitted to the high risk wing and wouldn’t be able to deliver with a nurse midwife as I hoped. 20 minutes or so later they change their minds and tell me that the CNM will be able to oversee it, but the OB will be on call in case of complication. Luckily the baby had maintained a wonderful heart rate the entire time, so everyone thought she was handling things well. They get me back to an L&D room at this point, about 12:30pm. Until then I thought that I’d be able to walk around and things even with the IV. When I get to the room I find out things are going to be very different than I was hoping for. Because of the Mag IV I needed continuous monitoring and can’t walk. Because the Mag can slow things down, I’m going to need Pitocin. Oh and a catheter , and oral liquid restrictions. They brought me so much water at a time and if I ran out before the time they gave, I couldn’t drink anything else til the next hour. I still didn’t want to drink much and was feeling nauseous, so they gave me Zofran, which finally made me feel a little better. I also knew ahead of time I need antibiotics for my GBS positive. An hour or so goes by, they check me again, and I’m only 2-3, but fully effaced. My mind started getting very discouraged about this point. Knowing how long I’d been going and not much was happening, and knowing it was about to get worse with the pitocin. Oh and that pesky catheter, the thought of getting that with no pain meds was weighing on my heavily. I started thinking about things and I knew I couldn’t bring myself to take any narcotics, but I might have to get the epidural. This was a very hard decision for me to make. I had prepped so much for a natural birth, and I was now having more interventions than I could count. Since I couldn’t walk around to help things along that Pitocin was definitely going to be necessary. The two good things I had going were my baby looked great on the monitor and my bag of water was still in tact. I failed to mention earlier that she was still really high up when I got to the hospital, -3 station. I finally decide to get the epidural, and came to terms with it. They tell me I’ll have it by 3:15. No way did that happen. At 3:15 they came to give me another IV of something that they wanted before the epidural, because my BP wasn’t responding to the Mag. Finally about 5ish the anesthesiologists arrive, but there is all the talk they have to go through first. About 5:30 they start, and it was taking a really long time to go in. With my relaxation techniques though they said they had never seen anyone stay so still and not flinch at all. After this I get settled and they do the cold test, and I felt everything. Yeah, it didn’t take properly. They had to do it AGAIN. It was about 6:30 by the time it was in and working. They stared pitcoin shortly after. I finally decided to try and rest. I catnapped for a while and then they came to turn me, because baby’s heart rate had gone down a little bit. The problem with this was that the epidural had taken a little better on my right side and now that I was laying on my right side my left started feeling things. I started clicking the button to release more, more often and went back to being more even. Some time passed, and I knew when I was having contractions, but it wasn’t as intense as with no epi. Finally at 9pm they check me again. Yeah I’m 3cm STILL, but -2 station and a bulging bag of water. They up the pitocin. Shortly after I start feeling lots of pressure on each contraction. After about 45 minutes of that I almost feel like I have to push, but don’t say anything because I knew I wasn’t far enough along, so I just bear through each contraction, trying to relax and let it do it’s job. I told my doula and DH that it was starting to feel like I had to push at about 10pm, because it was becoming overwhelming. We told the nurse as well. They got the Nurse Midwife to check me again. At 10:30pm, yeah I’m 8 cm all of a sudden. At this point things start getting crazy in the room, they start prepping for delivery, and I’m REALLY feeling the urge to push. More than anything I’ve ever known, and the moaning begins. The nurse knows this sound and starts hurrying the nurse midwife back, and jokes (she was really funny and great the whole time) that I better not push that baby out while she was the only one there because she’d have A LOT of paperwork. Within 10-15 minutes the nurse midwife is back and checking things again and I’m complete. She says I can push a little and my water breaks spectacularly. It went everywhere. On the next contraction I start pushing. Even though I had an epi, I was able to have full control over my pushing because with the pressure I could feel them. I wasn’t pushing for long, but at the time it felt like forever. I got to reach down and feel her head. She came out at 10:59pm. The first thing I asked was “Is she really a girl” and yes she was. She let out a wail and then calmed down pretty quickly. The cord was short so she couldn’t get past my stomach, and once it stopped pulsating DH cut it and she was brought to my chest. This is where things went wonky with me. I started losing a bit of blood, but they didn’t tell me til they had it under control. DH told me I went white. My placenta came out with 5-10 minutes. Then they started checking things over. That began a TWO HOUR repair. It hurt worse than labor. I didn’t tear in the traditional spot on my perineum. I tore up top, and inside. This was because she came out so fast. She didn’t even have a cone head. The tear up top was so bad and near my urethra it led to me having to have a catheter in until Sunday (It was Thursday night at this point). They had to take out the epi catheter for the repair, and bring in an OB because it was complex. They then had to put the new catheter in because they needed to make sure the repair “didn’t close my urethra up”. I was luckily able to keep Bronwyn (which as soon as we saw her we knew that was the right choice of name) on my chest for an hour before they took her to weigh and check. That helped me bear through the pain of the stitches. I still don’t know how many stitches were required. After the OB came and finished everything up and I was stable and had scarfed down a bite of food they took me to my recovery room where I stayed for 3 nights. She came out so fast that I couldn’t move for a bit, but it was worth it. They kept me on the mag for 24 hours after birth. She was super healthy, APGARS of 9 and 9. Bili levels later were only 8.5. She was ready to go before I was! Although nothing went as expected I got a beautiful, wonderful baby girl out of it, which I wouldn’t change for anything.

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