I also think you probably just overdid things. I'm going through the same thing myself. I was down to just pink spotting on Wednesday & Thursday, and then today I did way waaaaayyy too much and I'm back to lots of red bleeding. Hopefully both of us will be able to take it easier over the weekend and it'll lighten up.
"No more hurting people. Peace."
-- Martin Richard, age 8, Boston, MA
Rest in peace, Martin.
Katherine - the wrap I made is the same concept as the moby, wraps have been around for waaay longer than the moby, so I wouldn't call it a knock-off, per se! I love them - in fact, LO is in it right now!
ugh, I keep going back and forth w/ the bleeding and it's driving me batty! Esp since I have to wait for it to clear up completely before hubby and I can touch again - so stinky!
in other news, the diaper rash is getting better, I think it's the detergent we're using, though... Shana, you were the one that showed me soapberries - anyone have experience using them on dipes? I'm gonna xp to the cd board too. I haven't seen 7th generatiion here or any of the other natural soaps, but I do know where I can get soapberries...
Wed is his next appt! I can't wait to see how big he is, I think he's growing really fast - but maybe it's just my perception... we'll find out on Wed!
(xp from the thread w/ the letter to the MW - I want to have this here too, so I can remember my process...)
I still find myself imagining in my mind of how it could have gone. And I can see the whole thing as if it were real, I can feel the calm and the love and the peace, but I can't change the story. If they had stopped the ambulance, then Yoram could have come around and supported me and there would have been no clamps and no pulling of placentas. I would have arrived at the hospital cuddling and nursing my newborn under my shirt, with his placenta wrapped up and still attached to him.
Or if I had allowed myself to keep pushing after she called the ambulance, if I'd made them just wait to take me until he was born, then he would have been born in my living room and my mother and Yoram and my wonderful mother-like neighbor would have boxed out the MW to help me.
Or if I hadn't called her until I was pushing, which I had seriously considered the previous night. That when it would start again, I wouldn't call her until it was too late for her to get here for the birth. But I didn't trust myself...
I just want to heal...
Oh Ayelet, I'm so sorry hun I wish I could call you and help you process this. My prayers are with you for peace and healing.