I think I am slowly and surely dialating. I hope so anyway! First labor was 26 hours from start to finish, second was 15...so I am hoping this one will be shorter.
The morning was a busy one. I haven't been able to sit down and relax and focus and try to get in the zone to progress these further. I took a walk to a birthday party this morning and we walked back. Went and got a spicy chicken sandwich for lunch hoping that would help. Then walked around for an hour getting groceries. Home now...so I am hoping I can relax and try to get things going better.
I haven't really had any contractions since last night. I woke up this morning feeling really frustrated and hopeless. I called my mom and talked to her for a while, kind of had a break down.
She reminded me the importance of just relaxing and letting go. I have been praying for the baby to come on this day and that day, specifics...and she said I should pray to put it in the Lords hands completely. Put my trust and faith in Him...that he knows what is best for me and the baby. He knows our needs, knows what is best.
So I said a prayer to just let go. I feel that my stress and anxiety over having this baby now, before DH starts work, before we possibly lose insurance, having a timeline, etc. is what is holding me back. My body is not cooperating because I am not relaxing and just trusting that it will all work out.
I am feeling better. I am trying to relax and just focus on the kids and DH and get things done that need to be done...but still taking it very easy. I am also going to take some time to write in my journal. I need to get some thoughts and feelings out.
So my outlook has changed. I am going to visualize having my sweet baby girl soon...but I am going to stop trying to get things going. I am just going to let my body take over and I have faith that the Lord will help the baby come when the time is right.
I'll be praying hon. Everything always works out perfectly in God's timing. I promise.
This is a beautiful way to look at it & it's a win win situation. Your in my T&P's hun that all works out ~ it somehow always does in the end :) *hugs*
Originally Posted by Meemers
Kimia, you are looking at it in the right way. I can't imagine how stressful it is to be on a timeline and wanting (and needing) the baby to come now. . Things will work out for the best in one way or another, but it's very easy for me to say that. I am still praying for you!
Thanks ladies! I really appreciate your thoughts and prayers. I definitely need them.
Well today I woke up with yet another problem. DS was feeling sick all day yesterday and started feeling better by last night. He threw up and had no appetite. I thought he had food poisoning. Well, it was contagious...because this morning I woke up feeling nauseated and sick. I have already thrown up 3 times today. I drank a little Gatorade this morning and couldn't keep it down. Then I tried 7up and couldn't keep that down either.
Called my midwifes office and she isn't in today but they asked me to come in and see the other midwife. So I had to drive myself there and wait in the waiting room, all the while feeling like I am going to throw up and pass out. Finally, I go back and run to the bathroom just in time.
When the midwife comes in, I tell her what is going on and she said it sounds like a 24 hour bug. She writes me a prescription for the nausea and says I can take that or just ride it out. I ask her to check on the baby and baby's heart beat sounds just fine. She also checked me by my request because I wanted to see if all of these contractions have dilated me any more. She checks and said it is the same. That was very disappointing to hear.
Of course, she is a bigger lady than my regular midwife and her fingers may have been bigger also. So there may still be a change. I have my regular weekly checkup tomorrow, so we will see.
Now I am home after stopping at the store for some club soda, per her recommendation. She said it may be easier on the stomach that Sprite because it doesn't have all the sugar. I have gotten some down and so far have kept it down. Just woke up from a little nap. I hope this goes away in the next few hours so I can feel better and get something in my system, in case I were to go into labor anytime soon.
Any prayers on my behalf today because of the sudden illness would be greatly appreciated!
I am also praying that DD doesn't come down with this and manages to stay healthy. DH hasn't felt well today either. He isn't as bad as me but I hope he feels better soon as well.
Oh my, that is horrible, Kimia. I really, really hope that you get over it soon. Definitely not what you need right now. Sending prayers for a speedy recovery and no more sickness in your family!
I am SO sorry to hear about the stomach bug you guys have. My kids came down w/ one a few weeks ago & we have something similar again ~ it's the pits. I really hope you all heal quickly ((giant hugs))
Oh sweetheart. :bigarmhug: