Huge (((HUGS))) hun, I'm so sorry your day has been so ruff. Please take care of your self and try to take it one step at a time. I know I don't have anything to say that will help, but do know that we're here for you at any time.
Tiff, I am so sorry I have been out of the loop for so long! I just read up from page 7 about the scan, and the c/s...
I'm going to say something, and you know that it is coming from my heart.
You are a religious woman and so am I, and I will tell you that miracles do happen. They really do, little miracles and big miracles. If your heart is telling you to pray for labor and a misjudgement on the scan, or that her swelling goes down, and before you or the dr's know it you are pushing your beautiful little baby out- then pray for it. It doesn't mean the answer will be yes, but follow your hear, Tiff, and know that if the answer is, no, the best thing for your baby is to be assisted by medical professionals to be born into this world, then you know you have gotten your answer, and it is what God wants.
I know I don't usually post a lot of spiritual stuff, but truly at my core it is what drives me, and I can tell by the fact that church is so important to you that you can relate to that as well.
I am praying for you, Tiffany, that you have the birth you and your baby need, in the right time and place, surrounded by the right people.
Love and hugs!!
~Ayelet & Yoram
NJ, USA to Israel 12/29/08
Welcome baby boy!! 26.7.13
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Thanks Ayelet and everyone else. Your support is always so encouraging. I really hate getting down about this, but sometimes it just feels so overwhelming.
On another note, my day did get better. We finally got the cement in for the clothes line so I was able to use it adn DS loved helping me get the clothes on and off, though sometimes his help wasn't that apprieciated, lol. But it was cute. I was able to get 2 loads out. I would have been able to do more, but I ran out of things to wash And time since there was a long break to pick up DH and eat dinner. So last night went well. I also got in a nap not long after my pity post which really helped. DS did wake up before me, but he came over and just sat on my hip. Funny boy. And today is DH's last day for the week, he's taking the rest off to help at VBS which I'm super excited about cause that means I get to spend more time with him this week.
On a not so good note I forgot about DS's ENT appt yesterday afternoon so now I need to call and reschedule. Hopefully I don't get charged for forgetting.
Well its another day another adventure and I'm getting hungery.
Tiff + Bobby 8/22/04
I'm glad you're feeling a little better today. It would be very tough to give up that chance at your dream birth, and I'm sorry you're faced with such a hard decision. I know you probably hear it all the time (like I do), but what's most important is that she gets here safely.
I'm glad you're enjoying your clothes line. I think hanging clothes outside would be kind of nice.
Ayelet's words were very inspiring. I will be praying for you, also.
Of course you can add me to the list of those praying, and wishing you all the best. I'm glad you got a nap in, that always helps me get things back into perspective Have you been eating anything extra yummy these days?
This week I've been working VBS nursery this week. We only have 4 babies, all non walking but all crawling. Well the heaviest is 25 lbs (2 lbs lighter than my 2 year old) and every woman in there (including the 70+ ones) try to keep me from over doing it, lol. I mean I have no problem doing things, I can pick them up, get up and down off the floor no problem, but they all cluck over me like mother hens. Its endearing really. I keep telling them that I'm used to doing things still since DS is 2. I just don't run around like before which is why I took the young nursery in the first place. Every one of them today told me that at this stage in pregnancy there was no way they could do the things I was doing in there Yay me I guess.
I can't believe it's only 13 more days!
On another note, we finally got our bedroom cleaned, well almost. Every thing is in bags ready to moved to different rooms so all that is left then is to vaccum!
Tiff + Bobby 8/22/04
I hope they don't charge you for the missed ENT appt! Hopefully you can use preggo brain as an excuse and they'll take pity on you!
had an uneventful appt today. I wasn't too thrilled with the doc I saw (Doc B is having elbow surgery and out for now). He was soft spoken, but he was just off for my kind of doc. I'm sure he is a great doctor, he just rubbed me wrong that's all. Just no click. Anyway, he said he would do an internal check next time I see him in case Rya's next u/s goes well next week and her abdomin is again smaller than her head, then I can try for a vbac if I go into labor before my c-sec So we'll see how that all goes. He was concerned that we still couldn't find the notes from my previous c-sec so we can't be 100% that they used the correct incision for a vbac, but he did say that even so it just raised the risk a little and most women who didn't know when on to vbac successfully.
As for the rest I gained 3 more lbs but I'm still under my underline goal (my new revised one) of 195, I'm at 194 right now. Under but barely.I might have to just revised it to being under 200lbs. With Logan I ended at 205lbs which I'd rather not get to again. I guess my bodyo will do what it will do though.
I did get chided for not taking my sugars more often though. Honestly I thought he should be happy I took any at all, lol. I will try better this week though. He did mention that normally when GD is confirmed they'll have you come in for a NST twice a week, but since I don't have confirmed GD (which I don't think I do if you look at my sugar readings) then they don't do them. You would think if it were that important that they would send you in if they suspected GD, but I wasn't going to press. That I believe is the chunk of my ob appt today.
Tiff + Bobby 8/22/04
ok my son is driving us in insane with sleep deprevation. All week he's been waking up at 230 and at first it was ok cause you could tell he was in pain. Then the night before last he didn't seem to be, but I figured I just missed the beginning of the complaint, gave him his ear drops and motrin and let the night of no sleep go on. He will basically wake up at 230, rubbing his head and crying (he's had a month long ear infection so I figure his ear is bothering him). Then after his meds I try to put him down, but apparently the pain has made him wide awake, but I do try to keep him in bed till 530, but he doesn't sleep, he'll just kick me in the back, pull my hair and roll around. Then last night I noticed that for the second time I saw no signs of pain in him, I think that all the waking up at 230 has gotten him used to getting up then. So I think we're going to have to do some tough love tonight and shut his door. I don't like to do this cause my mom told me a while back that children with Autism can't comfort themselves, and though I didn't see this problem with Logan, I always felt mega guilty leaving him to CIO in his room, esp when I went to put him back in his bed and he would be shaking. Well I finally asked the director at his autism school and she said that while that is true she didn't see Logan having that problem, unfortunetly the thought is ingrained in my mind still and I really need to break it. I just don't want to traumatize him, kwim? So I think I'll be spending a few days to a week sleeping in his spare bed with his door closed and hopefully he'll get used to it and won't have a problem when I am not there cause right now he totally freaks out when his door is shut.
Last night I made DH deal with him as I've been up with him all week and boy did DH make me mad. I woke him up and told him to get Logan but all he did was go back to sleep. So I took Logan to bed and then called DH which made him actually have to get out of bed for me. Poor guy was still so sleepy and I felt a little guilty cause I was feeling wide awake at the moment, but I was tired of dealing with Logan so I just told him to sit and watch Logan. 30 mins later Logan was in our room (DH still sleeping on the spare bed in DS's room) so I took Logan back, walked out and shut the door. He did ok, but I do know that at some point he got up and was annoying enough that DH got up with him. Now this is where I start getting really testy with DH as he took Logan out to the living room! I mean hello! I don't care how much he fuses, he needs to know that it is not up time, grr I'd rather he get in bed with us before he gets to get up like that. Hopefully tonight won't be too bad, but we'll see.
If you made it through this kudos to you
Tiff + Bobby 8/22/04