Hope you get a call back about the wheel chair. I bet that would make you feel much better just to get out of the house for a bit.
Glad you have such good boys to help you out! Hopefully you get the wheelchair soon so you can get out of the house more!!
Sorry girls I'm going to post a whinge...
I had a presentation scan today and although it was good news in that baby is healthy, placenta is healthy, baby is cephalic etc. I'm quite upset as it showed her to be quite big already. From what I can gather her legs and stomach are measuring at 39weeks and her head is measuring at over 42 weeks. Her estimated weight at 36+3weeks is 7lbs 9oz already, and we're expecting approx another 2lbs to go on before term...
I know these things are just an estimate but I have felt for ages like she was big and everyone just blew me off like they did last time and last time I was right in that DD1 was 10lbs 2oz born at 39+6weeks. I know she's big already, I can feel it and I'm really dreading another big baby.
I have faith in my body. I absolutely do. I know that even if she's bigger than DD1 I will have no problems giving birth. My problem is that I have a lot of emotional baggage after my last birth and although my birth experience was great, the weeks following when I came so close to dying were not great. And worse than that before I survived everyone just wanted to sweep it under the table and forget about it, so even when I got upset about it everyone just basically brushed me off with a "well you're here today so it doesn't matter"...
I know my health issues had NOTHING to do with her weight... But I really wanted this time around to be completely different from last time around. And the main thing I hoped was that this baby would be smaller as that's the only real thing that COULD be different this time around as my labours are all so similar...
And now I find out I'm having another hippo. And the fear of dying has come rushing back and everyone just says to me "you had no problems getting out a 10+lber, this one will be easy" or "she'll still be beautiful even if she is big like Lacey" as if that's even the issue!!! Or telling me to think positive and that nothings going to go wrong as if that somehow protects me from death!
I'm just feeling really down now. The one and only thing I didn't want was a big baby. I wasn't even bothered if she was breech so long as she wasn't huge...
Don't even know where I'm going with this post so maybe I'll just stop here. Just a bit upset and a bit fed up that no-one IRL seems to get the fact that it's not her size or the birth I'm worried about. It just brings back too many bad and scary memories for me that I really don't want to have to face.
My Pregnancy.org babies!
Robin (2), Liberty-Hope (3), Lacey-Rose (4), Ashton (6), Raistlin (8 ), Jaeven (10), Tristan (11)
No more babies for us - POF with very low AMH levels, told the only option would be IVF, so am stopping here.
That is tough about having a big baby - more so that it brings back so much unpleasantness for you. Is there anyone you can talk to or books to read to help you prepare for having a big baby?
Mommy to three gorgeous girls
at 6 weeks 22/10/09
I'm sorry you don't have someone to talk to as I really think that would help. Could you talk with your midwife? Talking usually something they are really good at, and they know how important it is to get your head in the right place, I think calling your midwife is a good idea. Because this has nothing to do with the baby, I think you should let them know that it's not her your worried it's you own safety. Maybe there are some herbal thinkgs you could be takeing now that would help? I hope you have a good day, and let us know if you find someone to talk with. Oh...as a side note, I know you know this, but u/s weights are OFTEN way off! Please use us for support when ever you need to we're here to listen and help when we can.
Hugs to you sweetie. Being prego and go through everything that you are doesn't make it easier. You are in my thoughts..
Oh, I am so sorry that you have to go through this without any IRL friends there to understand what you are going through. You have some real fears that need some one-on-one attention. I agree with Vanessa that calling your MW may be the first step toward finding some help with this. Do you have a doula to talk to? And while it's not IRL, there are plenty of us on pg.org who I am sure would try to help you through this - either on this thread or through PMs. You are so right about not wanting to sweep it under the carpet - it will end up surfacing again. Please KUP on how you are doing with everything.
DH - Gordon (aka Woody) 2/29/08
DS1 - Justin 3/11/98
DS2 - Gordy 11/2/08
Glad to hear she is not breech..hopefully the u/s is off my some and she won't be as big as they expect her! Thinking about you!