OK I hope it's totally not lame of me to start my own lodge. I haven't been here in a couple of months but as my due date is 11 days away, I would really like to have a place to chat and vent about how I'm feeling.
Welcome to your lodge! Yay to 11 more days! How are you feeling? Your siggy pic is too cute!
~Joy~ DS1-8/5/05, DS2-10/18/10 (VBAC#1), DS3- 4/11/12 (VBAC#2!)
Welcome to your lodge! Can't wait to hear more about you and your family.
Hadley Christine: 05/17/2008
Malia Rose: 08/14/2010
Blog: Our Jones Family Experience
Tamra's Intro: Hello all, I have been hit and miss on this board for a few months. I have had a hard time posting on boards this pregnancy. I have so much going on at my house most of the time. I'm lucky if I have time to post on facebook. But as this pregnancy draws to a close I find myself wanting to curl up and do nothing for at least a small time before my little one gets here. I find myself daydreaming about a squishy little newborn tucked on my chest and I get so excited! I never thought I would be having this baby and she feels like such a blessing.
My husband David and I will be celebrating our 16th wedding anniversary on July 1st. Together we have six children, five are biological and one we adopted from India. Between homeschooling, my photography business and just general business of a big family we have a lot going on most of the time. I am officially on maternity leave and finally finished up with all of the kids' activities and am looking forward to some time to relax. Our children are Xander(14), Sullivan(11.5), Ahrana(almost 9, adopted at age 3 from India), Oliver ( 8 ), Finneas (4.5), and Virginia (2).
As far as births go, I have run the gamut. #1 labor started naturally but I got "stuck" at 8cms and finally opted for pitocin and epi. #2 was a traumatic face presentation labor where the midwife was patronizing and I felt raped, at a birthing center. I couldn't even fathom getting pregnant again for 3 years after that. #3. was planned for home, but at 12 days overdue and feeling extreme anxiety I went to the hospital for an induction/epi. Thankfully the birth went very well and was healing to me. But the lack of control over my own infant after birth made me never want to go to the hospital again. #4 was a homebirth on a birthing stool after a long labor and extremely painful second stage. It was much more painful than birth #2 but because of how I was treated I felt powerful and elated after it was over rather than traumatized. #3 was born peacefully at home in my hot tub after a relatively short (for me) 14 hour labor and 15 painful minutes of pushing. It was blissfully perfect and I am praying hard for another labor/birth that is similar. I am using the same midwife and we are both hoping for another hot tub birth. It was fantastic! If you would like to read the story/see pics go here http://todaysmodernmother.com/?p=606
Last Tuesday I went in for my third chance at a 4d ultrasound. We had tried several times to get video of her face but she was always either breech or transverse with her feet in her face and we couldn't. According to my 37 week exam the midwife and I were sure she was finally head down so I decided to go in. Much to my chagrin we discovered that she was breech! I had been feeling so peaceful about the birth but finding out that she was breech was so upsetting. I realized I would possibly have to choose between delivering breech at home and having a C-section. Honestly the C-section itself doesn't scare me, but the lack of control over my own infant scares me to death! My midwife suggested a Zen week of peace and not thinking about the prospect. I was all set to have my zen week when my 4yo son came down with severe stomach pains and ended up with an appendectomy this past Saturday morning. So much for zen! Hubby and my older kids were out of town and even my MIL was out of town. All of my main supporters were gone. Thankfully good friends (Chimmy included) were able to offer us support and watch over my 2yo. I was totally swollen and in pain by the time we got home from the hospital on Monday but during the ordeal I swear she has turned head down. I am praying that she has. The thought of delivering a breech is quite unnerving to me. I am kind of a lion during pushing and the midwife says I will have to stay calm. I just don't know if that's even possible. But I feel calm and peaceful about staying home either way. I know she will be born the way she needs to be born and I am hanging on to the faith that she knows what she is doing.
Anyway, that's me! Chimmy and my other friends are throwing me a Mother's Blessing tonight. Chimmy is going to massage me and do foot scrubs and lotions. For gifts I will be receiving perennial flowers to plant in my birth garden during early labor. I'm so excited for some "all about me" time. I am almost positive that this will be my last pregnancy and I so want to enjoy every last bit of it!
Thanks for reading if you made it this far!!!
Welcome to your lodge! I thought about starting mine too.
A hot tub birth sounds like heaven. I wish we knew if ours worked or not. The previous owners left their hot tub when they moved and told us it was in working condition but we don't trust them so we need to check it out. I know exactly what you mean by the not having control of YOUR new born at a hospital. Both of my births were like that. My first DS they gave a bottle too with out asking and I never REALLY saw him till an hour after I had him. My second DS I held him for the first hour except when he was weighed and measured, but after one of his nurses flat out told me she was going to give him a bottle, sense she didn't see him nursing, DH and I yelled at her a told her she better not or there was going to be problems. So now that I just totally took over your lodge, Sorry about that, I know exactly how you feel about that.
I'm excited to follow your journey and I really hope your little girl will turn for you!
DS1-7/18/08, DS2-2/23/10, DS3 1/18/12