I'm so sorry I missed all of this up until now! I did go back to the beginning though and read every bit! You've had a wonderful journey and a fabulous birth. Thank you for sharing. I hope you are doing well today and enjoying these first days!
Thanks so much, everyone, for the well wishes. Sorry for the lack of updates.
Things are going fine. Camille is a great nurser and just sleeps tons and tons. My milk has most definitely come in... last night I took a bath and the water was only 8 inches deep or so, and by the end of the bath I had leaked so much milk you couldn't see the drain at the bottom of the water, it was so milky.
We took her into the pedi today, her bili level was 14.1 (Daniel's at this point at 21, so I take this as happy news). They'll keep testing until the levels start going back down, but it looks like we've avoided the bili lights this time. Woohoo!
I'm doing alright. It's hard not to either be productive or feel guilty for not being productive. But I just hurt down there enough that being up and about isn't very practical. I don't remember feeling so bruised down there last time, but then, I got pampered in a hospital for a few days. DH is doing great at picking up the slack and I'm terrified of him going back to work next week.
He is SO funny with the baby. You'd think he hadn't had a baby before. His face lights up and he tries SO hard but he's just so awkward with the floppy newborns. And she usually ends up crying at him.
Daniel is being a pill. Oh, he's sweet to the baby and very helpful, but he breaks down over EVERYTHING. Thank heavens he has preschool a few days a week. Still, no major acting out or potty accidents or anything, so that's not too bad.
What an amazing birth and story! I just totally love that pic of her in the herbal bath you guys took after delivery. She just looks so peaceful and alive at the same time!
Sounds like you've got lots of milk. Take it easy this week and let your body heal. Its hard not to be able to do everything and be up and around but you deserve to let things go and recover.
~Joy~ DS1-8/5/05, DS2-10/18/10 (VBAC#1), DS3- 4/11/12 (VBAC#2!)
Congratulations on your sweet baby girl and your wonderful homebirth. Sorry you had to go to the hospital, but like you said, caution is a good thing.
So Camille is now 8 days old. She still sleeps A LOT. Her only real "awake" hours are like 8 pm- midnight. She's doing great, though- only took her a few days to get back to her birth weight, her jaundice levels never got bad enough to worry (WOOHOO!!), her umbilical cord stump just fell off today (YAY!), and she's just pink and pretty and sleepy.
I'm having a bit harder of a time. Definitely dealing with some (hopefully short-lived) PPD, I just get weepy over nothing and keep find myself seeking out things to be in a bad mood over. I feel like kind of a waste of space, but my husband (who is WAY too hard-workery) often has that effect on me.
That and while my external hemis got much better after labor, apparently I have internal ones that are far worse and leave me writhing and moaning in agony on the floor. I think they're a bit improved, though, today, so hopefully they are on the mend.
I'm pretty happy with where my body is at, feels like I lost a bit more flub with this delivery than I did with Daniel. Poor DH is horny as all get out, what with my giant but untouchable boobs (and by giant, I mean "maybe I'm finally a B cup"). He's making me feel very loved and sexy, even if we can't do much about it.
Daniel is getting better. The first 5 or 6 days he was VERY dramatic and intense and energetic. He's always been very sweet and excited and loving to the baby, he just needed to sort out where he stood with US still. Fortunately his preschool teachers say he's been great this week and there aren't any signs of him acting out or struggling there, it was only at home with us.
DH goes back to work on Monday and I'm terrified. I can handle the baby just fine on my own, it's the toddler I worry about.
And now, for getting through this post, some pics (the first one just made me laugh):
The whole album is up at smugmug.
Camille is just so gorgeous and I'm glad to hear that Daniel is doing better at adapting, too. I'll be praying that all goes well for you on Monday when your husband goes back to work. A friend of mine said that she helped her toddler by making nursing time into story time for her toddler. She'd have her bring her favorite books and then read them together. Baby was occupied and it turned that time into what felt like one-on-one time for the older one. I don't know if that will help you or not, but that advice stuck with me and seemed like something I might want to use, so thought I'd pass it on to you, too, just in case.
I hope that the PPD stuff evens out soon for you. That is absolutely no fun what so ever! Some people swear by getting enough sunlight each day (60 minutes if your arms are covered up), lots of fresh produce and as much movement as being newly postpartum will afford you to kind of try to even things out.
Are you getting any "you" time in your day? If not, is there any way you could fit in 15 minutes morning and night with hubby's help? You could use it for pampering things, taking a quick rest, journaling, stepping out for a casual walk, running to the store alone or what ever you'd like.
Anyway, I'm thinking about you. I've been through my own postpartum stuff over the years and it is no fun. Hang in there .
Anne, mommy to five:
Lillian, born 12-24-10
Will, born 10-19-07
New little one, due 9-19-2012
Lucas Robert, born to Jesus @ 18 weeks on 12-26-08 (due 5-28-09)
Ectopic Angel 10-24-06
about all the things you're struggling with a bit right now. I was just saying to my mom last night how surprised I was by how painful and hard the postpartum period was--I feel like it's something that nobody really prepares you for, other than a bunch of platitudes about taking it easy and making sure you have help...well, okay, but that still doesn't prepare you for feeling so sore you're practically an invalid, and the helplessness that comes along with that!
I am still (5 months out) dealing with fissures and hemis, and I've found the thing that helps the very most is a daily snack of prunes. I've just adopted it a couple of weeks ago and worked it in as a daily thing and it is helping me be able to finally heal. I was really bad about taking the fiber supplements I tried before that, but the prunes I actually like so it's easy to do. Anyway, just a suggestion! I know how awful and frustrating that kind of pain can be.
On the good side, your DD is a doll baby! Sooo cute, and it sounds like she's fairly easy so far. Glad your little guy is handling the change pretty well too. I'm sure the thought of handling them both alone is a lot worse than the reality will be...it usually is. Good luck!
I hope today goes well for you with Dh heading back to work....that is always a scary day! I love the new pics of Camille, she is such a pretty little baby.
Where did you purchase the nursing bra you wore during labor? It is pretty (for a sports/nursing bra) and looks so comfy.
Chase-13, Trey-11, Layton-9, Zander-5, McKay-3, Declan-1, Keely born 9/6/2012
So far, today has been good. Thank heavens for preschool! I do miss DH, but I'm feeling less daunted. We'll see how tomorrow goes (he only has preschool on MWF, so tomorrow I'm on my own).