I really need to get myself started on birth affirmations!
Last night as i was settling into bed, I felt a lot of those shooting pains in my pelvis and cervix. I'm pretty sure it's just the baby's head rubbing some nerve the wrong way as my muscles relax in that position--but it was so intense that I started moaning loudly, so much that it woke up my DH (and he is hard to wake up). But after that I started to feel really afraid--can I really do this? My head knows the answer is yes, but I really need to work at it. I stayed up for a little longer reading birth stories from Ina May. any other suggestions?
I find having a series of mantras you can repeat to yourself helpful. Something really simple you can repeat over and over.
Glad you are feeling better, I was anemic with Hawkes and it was horrible. Mine never cleared and I did bleed pretty bad. I had the shot of pitocin after delivering the placenta. It really was no big deal.
I also find taking 20 minutes or so, or even just before I fall asleep at night, I talk to my baby. It might sound silly, but I really think it helps. I pretend baby is listening and responding. We talk about how the birth is going to be a challenge (in a good way) for us both but that mama will take care of him/her and we'll do it together. And in the end it will be great and we'll have accomplished something wonderful as mother and child.
Don't know how you feel about Bible quotes, but one that was helpful for me was:
"I Can Do All Things Through Christ Who Strengthens Me" Philippians 4:13
Simple and to the point!
Here is a great site I came across once: http://www.positivebirthstories.com/ It has positive birth stories, affirmations, and some gorgeous birth art.
ETA: oh, and I had IV pitocin and a shot of methergine because there was too much bleeding after my DS's placenta came out, but there's really a big difference between the feeling of post-birth cramping and labor contractions. I had a pitocin induction for my DD and it was totally different to have the pitocin contractions with the baby in there. Really, the cramps I got from the drugs post-birth with my son were not worse than the ones I got while breastfeeding him in the days following and they were not harder to deal with than the spontaneous unmedicated birth I'd just experienced.
Great news! I had my m/w appt today and got the lab results from my 2nd hematocrit. It went from 29 to 33! So it's well above the b/c minimum of 30. So unless something drastic happens, I'm set to use the center.
Other than that it was a very routine appointment. I had my GBS test and will get results next week. I ased the m/w if I would be checked and she said they don't do it unless I'm leaking or something until 40 weeks, unless I request otherwise. I'm glad they are so low-key but I do have a feeling that maybe something might be happening because the baby's head is sitting very low in my pelvis. I'm having the sciatic nerve pain that I had with Adam right at the very end.
Fantastic news!! What a relief for you!