HOLY CRAP, CINDY!!! I thought the "little surprise" was your water breaking! What a story! Congratulations on your sweet girl and on UC, momma!
As for breastfeeding - I don't care what IBCLC's tell you, there *is* a period of your body getting used to that much friction and of baby learning how to properly latch. Both of my girls pinched me in the beginning, but outgrew it within a few weeks. It's *hard* but hang in there - you both can do it!
Oh, WOW Cindy! How awesome!!!!! I just read your birth story to my DH and he is so impressed, too. What a blessing! I would be as pleased as punch to have a birth story like that. I'm so proud of you to be able to catch your own baby, unassisted & unplanned!
I hope the BFing goes great for you. She will get the hang of it soon!
Thanks for all of the congrats! I can't believe it's almost been a week since having Lily, where does the time go?
Taryl- I did use the Hypnobabies but not as much as I would have liked. Turning my lightswitch to off helped me sleep through most of the birth waves and I used the Peace cue when a wave would hit me and it did really help me. When I was going through transition I lost my hypnosis a bit, it would have been great to have Dave around to help me release but he wasn't there. I was able to regain my clarity and get rid of the panic by using the Peace cue so it helped me there too. I wish I would have done the awww pushing better, it was all happening so fast that I didn't pay as much attention to awwing her out as I would have liked.
Brodie is actually doing great with Lily. The first night home he kind of punished me, lots of fits and swatting at me but after that he's been doing better every day. We haven't pushed him to interact with her and he's come around on his own, he even called her his baby yesterday so that was a good sign. My mom is still here for another week and she's giving him lots of attention so I think that's helped. The true test will be when she leaves and it's just the 3 of us most of the time.
Megan - I did freak out during the transition stage but I reeled the panic in as quickly as I could. I knew it wasn't going to help me do what needed to be done and my Hypnobabies really helped me get myself under control again. Once I was over the panic portion I just let my body do what it needed to do, and said prayers in the mean time.
AmyJo - My DH would have freaked at the thought of having the baby just the two of us also. He even commented that it may have been better that he wasn't there for the pushing, I think this would have sparked more fear into him than walking into the bathroom and seeing the two of us there. DH's are so funny sometimes.
I've been thinking about everything over the last few days and there are a few things I wanted to write down, just random thoughts. I really believe that my induction sort of fooled me as to what to expect during my birthing time. I was comparing this birth with Brodie's and the Pitocin (though I didn't realize it at the time) really made the birth waves intense and really close together. My body naturally didn't do that to me so with the PW's spaced out and not so intense I didn't realize I was as close as I really was. My body also didn't make me go through as many PW's as the pitocin did and that again confused me.
The OB that stitched me up commented that he hoped I would pass on my birthing genes to my little girl because when she's having children the c-section rate will be at 80% and she'll need all she can get to help her have a natural birth. That's a scary thought!
When Brodie and my mom came to visit us in the hospital he was more interested in checking out the room than visiting, not surprising with a 2 year old. He even pressed the code blue button and had nurses running in in a panic, I think they were worried it was me and not the baby. When he and my mom left he said Mommy sick, and my mom tried to explain to him why I was staying overnight at the hospital. I'm so glad we were only gone one night, it was hard on him knowing we weren't there but not really understanding why. He's doing great with Lily and is very loving toward her. He's even got his tantrums under control so I'm thanful for that.
Lily has her days and night fixed, yeah! The second night home was horrible for me, she wouldn't sleep and I was only going on 3 hours so I couldn't stay awake. I had to wake Dave up and ask for help, I think my tears did all the talking for me. He comforted her while I found a pacifier and mixed some formula. I could tell she was hungry and was just frustrated with not getting anything from my breasts. She did finally sleep, though it was with us and I just don't sleep well with a LO next to me. She's been doing great at sleeping at night now and will go 4-5 hours. She's also sleeping in her bassinet for the most part so I'm feeling well rested.
As for my BFing battle. I am producing milk but still not nearly enough. We have the latch down and my nipples are sore so that's a plus. I've been using the SNS to supplement with formula while she's BFing. I'm taking so many herbs (I have an odd smell to me now) and drinking lactation tea but I'm not really seeing any increase at all. I'm going to give it a few more days to see how it goes and if there's an increase I'll keep at it if not we'll move to formula. I'm not feeling as sad about it this time around, maybe because I've been there before and have prepared myself to an extent.
I've been much more emotional and the first night when I saw Brodie breaking down over this huge change I just lost it. I felt so bad for my little boy and wanted to comfort him but I wasn't able. It was a horrible feeling. All in all I'm feeling good. I'm a bit more sore this time around (had bruising from Lily) and can feel my stitches more but it's getting better every day.
I'm going to upload pictures today and get them posted, thanks for the patience!