Today was...uneventful? Callie's officially learning how to throw tantrums, it's quite annoying. And discipline issues are arising. Yeah, *those*.
I just wish she WOULDN'T throw tantrums and then I wouldn't have to be the bad guy! She gets frustrated and mad when things don't go her way but she doesn't realize slapping, screaming, or directly disobeying mommy are not ways to fix the problem. Thus, 'it' has begun.
I've been REALLY fatigued lately. I'll be in the middle of something SIMPLE, like making a sandwich, and all the sudden just feel like I finished running a mile. Out of breath, dizzy, and unable to even hold my arms up. This happens when I put on makeup too. It seems like every little movement is a huge effort. I've started taking my iron supplement again, just in case the anemia issue is contributing to it. Waves of random fatigue are normal, but this is excessive. I figure it's a combination of not eating very often (or very well), not sleeping enough, and the blood pressure flucuations and anemia I've had on and off.
It's no big deal, it's just annoying when I can't seem to finish the simplest chore. Bending over to load the washer or dishwasher kills my back, hiking up the stairs makes me see spots, and I can't chase Callie around without contractions.
I still feel good, if I classified myself on a scale, but there is definitely the acknowledgment of impediment of normal activities on my part.
My husband is helping out immensely and very understanding, but when he thanks me for just making (a crappy) dinner it makes me feel WORSE than better! He shouldn't feel the need to thank me for my JOB, especially when I am not completing it in other areas! It's like me doing the littlest thing is so significant because I can't do jack I think I'm just being hormonal about it. Hes kind of damned if he does, damned if he doesn't with that sort of thing. Poor guy!
Um... I made a yummy chocolate cake, it's the best homemade recipe I have for one (but nothing beats the storebought chocolate frosting I've found - and it's cheaper than making homemade from scratch thus more budget friendly) and I've been enjoying it all day. But bad Taryl, as of 7:00 this evening I had eaten the following:
A handful of Goldfish crackers for breakfast
One measly leftover sloppy joe for lunch
A piece of cake for dinner
I usually eat great, but today it got away from me. I had a salad and a hamburger patty for dinner and that made me feel a bit better, funny how much better we feel with decent fuel in our bodies! I should take my own dietetic advice, I swear!
I was afraid the baby might have moved breech this evening, again. I had a big, hard lump wedged under my ribs to the point where any sitting position but reclined was impossible. Thing is, it's hard to tell this kid's butt from his/her head and a group of highly skilled, old-hand midwives have had to break out the ultrasound machine three appointments in a row to confirm positioning, and usually their (very skilled) palpitations are wrong and the baby is still head down. I have had a slightly worrisome lack of movement all day so no kicks to tell where things are positioned either. I am thinking of eating some cake just to coax a little movement, otherwise it's a call to the midwives. I rarely get paranoid about this sort of thing, especially at the end, but 12 hours of nothing noticeable is a little excessive.
Meh, uneventful today, nothing to write home about, but all in all I think we're doing okay in this house. Not great, but certainly better than some!
well, there is something to be said for an uneventful day. I just hope Callie holds off on the tantrums for a few more weeks so you can rest some. I'm truely glad you have a great supportive dh though. That always helps. Maybe he could have some one-on-one time with Miss Callie? I dunno if that would help, but you'd have some quiet for a few minutes.
Taryl, Im sorry Callie learned tantrums at such an "eventful" and already tiring time!! You are doing so great though, and your attitude and ability to analyze your situation (regardless of what that may be) always amazes me. You are such a strong person!!
Im sorry that you have been so tired, I hope that taking your supplements begin to help with that some!!
As far as your dh, Im sure he'd much prefer a healthy, rested wife and baby, than the best dinner in the world, so try not to let that get you down much, yea I know easy for me to say, I dont have all the hormones
Its getting so close and you are doing GREAT!! Baby will be here before you know it!! Hope you feel better today!!
You are doing great! Taryl!
You are doing great. I am so excited to find out what your surprise is. I just loved not knowing.
Remember the tantrums will pass, it seems to take forever but it will get better. And don't feel bad about your dinners, we've had cereal for dinner a lot lately and tonight we're getting a healthy meal of Mac N Cheese. Who has the energy right now?
Oh, DH is great - he'll take Callie in the evenings if she wakes up early from a nap and let me sleep, he plays with her after work and lets me off the hook so I can lounge around and make dinner, and the bath/bedtime routine is his so I get a break during that. He will get her ready to go to Grandma's on Saturday and let me sleep - LIS, he's so accommodating I feel even WORSE because he works more than fulltime at his job, comes home and stays busy with the baby, then spends the weekends remodeling the house.
I have a Super DH, and him being so awesome and not giving me ANYTHING to complain about just makes me feel even more like a slug! Like I said, he's screwed no matter what he does I am not sure he could possibly make life easier on me than he does, pregnant or not!
Ugh, and me - my temper is SO short nowadays, I get emotional about everything. Callie will be whining and hit my last nerve and then I snap and scream at her - then I get the lip quiver, tearful mommy-doesn't-wuv-me face from her and I feel like an ungrateful monster who doesn't deserve ONE baby let alone two! DH will make a comment in jest or rib me a little, which is normal operating procedure in our relationship, and it will totally make me mad or upset and he has no clue what he said or did to upset me, and I can't explain it to him. Pointless, stupid people on the internet that I shouldn't care less about will say things that bother me for HOURS and make me furious... Mommyzilla has struck again!
Moody pregnant women annoy the heck out of me - even MORE SO when I am the offender! I try to take a step back and cool off but it doesn't always work. *sigh*
Oh, and I am thinking the fatigue was at least partly due to the anemia. I took my iron last night and this morning and do feel slightly better. Still tired and dizzy but at least tolerably functional. My pelvis and back are still sore but not too bad today, actually. I had a bone-jarring pop yesterday when I was getting out of bed and it was my sacrum realigning from sleep. It hurt like crazy for a few minutes and the muscles readjusted but now I feel appreciably less lopsided than before, which takes the strain off the muscles and ligature in my pelvis that has been hurting so badly. I do try to position myself in adjustment positions while sleeping and often times with a few well placed pillows, some deep relaxation and then selective tensing of certain muscles (like my thighs or glutes) I can shift, grind, and align my pelvis almost back to normal. My chiropractor was duly impressed
Really nothing eventful today either. I would like to get some laundry done but DH has to haul it up and down our stairs because they are unfinished, the wooden panels are on but the nosings aren't, so it's really easy to slip when carrying a load and I am already unbalanced. Thus, he gets to help. It is a real blessing Callie LOVES going up the stairs (she can't go down, but we're working on it!) because now I don't have to carry her up them, I just follow behind her which is much easier on my back and balance. I can clean up the kitchen (mostly) without assistance so I think that will be what I aim to do before he comes home. If only I can keep Callie away from the dishwasher long enough!
You're so fortunate to have such a great and supportive DH, and you both know this is only temporary so I'm sure he's more than happy to help you out. Yeah for great men!