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Rheannon, it is your time here now! I look forward so much to your journey and story! Have you knit any items for baby? Tells us how you're doing. :bigarmhug:

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Welcome to your lodge! I'm looking forward to getting to know more about you! You are in the last stretch now. Smile

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Welcome to your lodge! Can't wait to see your experience unfold here in addition to the BB. Biggrin

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Yayyyy... Welcome to your lodge!!!

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YAY! Another September Mom!!! Welcome! Tell us about yourself!

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Welcome to your lodge! I can't believe it's already time for September mama lodges!!

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Welcome to your lodge, fellow September Mama!!

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Oh, wow! This is so exciting! Thanks for such a warm welcome! Well, I don't have time to write much today as I'm preparing for my home visit from the midwives. They're coming at 6 and we're having dinner together. It's going to be around a 3 hour visit. I still have lots of cleaning to do even though I've been doing a lot throughout the week. I'll let everyone know how it went tomorrow and perhaps get started on the background. Yay! This is so cool!

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Hope your home visit was wonderful! Wow, 3 hours. Now that is a homevisit!

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The home visit was wonderful. DF cooked an excellent dinner and the midwives scarfed it down! They got to meet DSD and they totally loved her. They really like our house and feel that it will be a wonderful place for a homebirth. They liked where we're planning to put the birth tub and our bedroom is nice and big, with a nice big shower in the master bath. They consider 37 weeks full term, so I'm cleared for a homebirth any time after next Thursday. They said I can start taking EPO orally and vaginally any time now, if I decide to go that route. I actually haven't decided. I really want a homebirth and if it helps prevent me from going over 42 weeks, I should really do it. I really don't like the idea of the vaginal method, though. What happens to the capsule? Does it totally dissolve? Does it come out later? That just seems weird to me. Although we pretty much have everything ready, I'm still in a bit of denial. I'm sure that when labor finally hits, I won't be able to deny it any longer! I've written up a bit of my history, but the 1st part is a little depressing, so I wanted to wait to post it until I've written the rest, which is much happier. It will be coming soon.

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Wow, sounds like a fantastic visit!! I don't think I'm going to do anything other than maybe some nipple stimulation to get things going unless I get to about 41 weeks. I really don't feel strongly either way about it, so it's just my personal decision. I can't give you any answers on the EPO... I've never tried it. I can't wait to read your intro!!

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History Part 1 - Warning: Long/depressing!

Well, lessee… I’m not one of those women who has always wanted to be a mother. I didn’t have a horrible childhood or anything (although there were some really rough times), my mother just wasn’t really the nurturing type and didn’t have a good relationship with my father. They divorced when I was around 12 or 13, which was actually a relief, as they fought constantly. So, I didn’t have the best family model. Not that I’m alone in this in any way, but I think it contributes to my resistance to motherhood. I’ve decided to be brutally honest here, so if you’re sensitive to reading about loss/terminations don’t read on. Anyway, I actually got pregnant when I was 15 and had absolutely no desire to keep the baby. My mom and dad said that they’d totally support me if I had the baby and the BF at the time was actually supportive too, but I knew that there was no way I was bringing a baby into my screwed up life, especially at age 15. My mom made the appointment for me and the BF paid for it and the pregnancy ended very early in the 1st tri. I immediately went on BC after that and stayed on them for the next 10 years. At age 25 I was with a guy that I really loved, but there was something definitely missing in our relationship. I had gone off BC at that time because I was dealing with depression and taking meds and then decided that I wanted to detox my body and stop taking all meds. We were using timing as BC, but apparently one night I was too caught up in the moment to pay attention to where I was in my cycle and bam, preggo again. I was actually considering keeping it, but I knew that he’d leave me and I didn’t want to be a single mother. That sounds sooooo selfish when I look back, but at the time it was really important. At that age, many of my friends had children and my best friend really, really urged me to have the baby. I really considered it, but I just couldn’t bring myself to do it. My BF and I talked about it and I was just met with negativity and lack of support on his part. We got in a really bad fight one day and I left and went to my mom’s and made an appointment to have the pregnancy terminated. I told him I was leaving him and getting rid of his baby. (Oh, I’m practically crying as I write this. Ok, I am crying now.) We went through with the termination. It really sucks that he was so supportive during that time, instead of being supportive of having a baby. I don’t want to blame anyone else for my choices, but with that one, I knew that if he had been on board, I most likely would have kept it. I knew that there were other options besides termination, such as adoption, but that was something that I wasn’t willing to do. Again, it seems really selfish when I look back. I remember when they were just starting the procedure, I started crying and they asked me if I really wanted to go through with it. I told them yes, but I had a much harder time with that one than I did at age 15. Physically an easier time, but mentally a much harder time. The relationship with that guy only lasted another 6 months. We lived together, but if we hadn’t I suspect that I wouldn’t have really even seen him again after the pregnancy ended.

Anyway, if you made it through all of that, I commend you. I barely made it through myself. I really think I needed to get that out before I have this baby. I was so worried early in this pregnancy that somehow, now that I actually wanted the baby, I wouldn’t be able to carry it because of the terminations. Like I’d finally pay for my sins by not being able to have a baby when I really wanted one. I have thought of the two lives that I ended throughout the past 22 years, and while I may have regrets, I have accepted my decisions and moved on.

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History Part II

So, fast forward about 10 years (and a couple more long-term relationships that didn’t end up working out). I’m working at a grocery store (apparently that’s what a degree in wildlife biology gets you these days) and had just ended yet another lame relationship with I guy who I had thought “was the one.” I’m now 34 at this point and losing my youth and good looks at a rapid pace. I figured that I needed to sow my last wild oats before I didn’t have any left, so I went on a dating rampage. I wan’t being particularly picky, either and was sort of involved with one of supervisors at my store. It was casual, though and when it fizzled out, we still stayed friends. We were discussing my relationship woes one evening in the front office and I told him that my type seemed to be divorced fathers who lack ambition (which is pretty much what he was). He laughed and said, well then, there’s your perfect guy right there, and pointed to one of the other cashiers who had recently left his wife and had a kid. I was like, “ew, no way, he is the last guy on earth I’d ever want to be with!” Can you guess where this is heading? So, this other cashier, Erik, was loud, obnoxious and totally annoying. He would sometimes try to talk to me and I would just ask him if he had some work to do or something. Finally, one day he came up to me and said, “you know, you’re a real b***h.” I said, “yeah, so?” He scratched his head and walked away, but after that he wouldn’t leave me alone. He propositioned me and I politely declined, but he wouldn’t take no for an answer. He didn’t harass me or anything, he just flirted like mad. He later confessed to me that it was when he called me a b***h and I didn’t get all whiney and defensive, he decided that we would be together. I guess he liked my sass and my confidence. Anyway, I started sort of hanging out with him when we’d go out with co-workers for drinks. We’d end up sitting next to eachother and talk and I decided that he was fun and funny. Once I decided that I liked him, he sort of started playing hard to get. We eventually got together on his 25th birthday, actually. Yes, 25th, that’s not a type-o. Part of my resitance to dating him was that I’m 9 years older than him. All of the other men I’ve dated in my life have been 3 to 5 years older than me. I really didn’t take him seriously at first, but as things progressed and I saw how totally loving and caring he was, I started falling in love. Things moved really fast at that point. I was renting a room in a house and the owner of the house ended up getting his ex-girlfriend pregnant and decided to move her in and all of the tenants out, so I had to find a new place to live. I wanted to get my own place, but just couldn’t find anything. I decided to temporarily take over a room in a co-worker’s apartment. The lease was due to expire at the end of July, so I thought I’d just live there temporarily and save up to get my own place. But, then I decided that I liked the apartment and would get a roommate when the new lease started. Then I decided that Erik would be the perfect roommate. It was 2 bedroom with a loft, and he was really into art, so I thought that the loft could be his studio and the other bedroom could be for his daughter. So, we signed the one-year lease together that went into effect August 1st 2008, which was only 3 months after we started dating. I knew it was crazy, but I’d been through so much in my life I knew that if it didn’t work out, I’d be fine.

Anyway, Part III coming soon!

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I'm all ears, waiting for part III! Biggrin

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Aww thanks for sharing so far!! I really appreciate you putting it all out there like that and I hope that maybe getting it out before the birth will bring you a sense of peace about everything. Can't wait for part three Wink

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I agree! Let it all hang out. That's what your lodge is for.

My degree in Conservation Biology would've gotten me no where fast if I hadn't obtained research experience while doing my undergrad. I've been working as a research technician in a microbiology lab (oh joyous rapture) to pay the bills. Now I'm moving on to the grad school thing so perhaps I can actually get paid to do what I went to school to do! If you're looking for a career change I might know some people who know some people depending on where you are located. Field work and babies are totally compatible (or at least that's what I keep telling myself)!

Waiting patiently for part III!

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Thanks for sharing your story! I know my dad terminated a pregnancy with a girlfriend long before he met my mom, and he's since went through the process of finding forgiveness for himself and moving on, and now has 5 adult kids and 14 grandkids. Though I'm about as anti-abortion as they come, he's taught me a lot about never judging the decision one makes when in a situation like that.
THat's funny about how you met Erik, sounds like a great guy. Can't wait to hear part 3!

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Thanks for sharing your story, Rheannon.

I love how you met Erik - too funny!!

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Thank you for sharing your story! I hope you are in a place of peace with everything from the past.

I love how you and DH met!

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Thanks for sharing your story!

The EPO capsules are made of gelatin, I believe. They just dissolve and absorb. Smile Lubricate stuff down there. Smile

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I'm glad this pregnancy is working out for you. You've had quite an adventure for a life. Smile

If you are worried about the EPO capsules not coming out you can just get plain oil. I never did anything with the capsules but I got some oil and just used a syringe and put it in that way. I would totally recommend using it!

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History Part III

I'm so sorry these are so long. I should hire an editor! This is the last installment. I promise I won't make you read any more books!

So, Erik moved in and we got the place all set up and made a room for his daughter. Her mom still lived about 5 hours away from us at that time, so it was a huge ordeal for him to see his daughter. Her mom wouldn’t contribute to the cost of transportation, or meet him halfway, so it was a 12 hr day for him to go get her and bring her up here. She’d stay with us for a week, but it was difficult because we both worked and we didn’t have childcare set up for her up here. She was 3 ½ at this time. We’d arrange a babysitter when we could, but we were both working at a grocery store, so we’d end up paying the babysitter as much as we’d earn at our jobs! On top of all this, he didn’t have a vehicle, so we’d have to rent a vehicle (my truck wouldn’t make the trip at the time, either), pay for gas and pay for childcare while she was here. It was soooo expensive and so frustrating, but she’s such an amazing little girl and really, really loves her daddy. He was a SAHD with her from age one to two and they really bonded. We tried to see her at least once a month, but it didn’t always work out that way. Luckily, about a year later, his ex graduated college and decided to move back here (both of them are locals). We went and got his daughter about a month before her mother moved back here, and when she finally did move back, she didn’t have a permanent place to live, so we pretty much had Frances full time for around 3 months. Her mother would have short visits, but she was mostly with us. With the financial help of Erik’s father, we enrolled her in a nice preschool and things settled down. When her mom finally got her own place, we began sharing custody 50/50 – one week on and one week off. It’s been this way for the past 2 years now and things are going really well. I went into all of this because it was how hard he works for his daughter that showed me what a great dad he is. He’s also a really great partner to me. Before we got together (while I was still on my dating rampage) I was beginning to resign myself to the fact that I may end up single and childless for the rest of my life. Now, as you know I’m not exactly baby crazy, but when faced with the real possibility of never having a child, it got me thinking about what is important in life. Plus, that biological clock does seem to tick louder and louder beginning somewhere in the 30’s. So, in walks Erik, Mr. Great Dad and baby fanatic. His mom ran a daycare while he was growing up and he really does love babies and kids. He’s probably changed more diapers in his life than most moms even. It’s not like we started talking about having babies right away, but I did inform him that I was running out of time and that if I did get pregnant, I would keep the baby. But, I stayed on my BC. In 2008, I quit my job at the grocery store to join AmeriCorps. I did a 10.5 month stint as a fisheries tech with the Department of Fish and Game. It was somewhat related to my degree, but I realized that fisheries isn’t for me. So, November 2009 finds me unemployed and unqualified for unemployment because the AmeriCorps was considered a volunteer position with a stipend and they didn’t take out unemployment. We decided that instead of finding another job, I should focus on my side job, which was yardwork/landscaping. I would pick up more clients and next spring I would buy some better equipment and really get it going. We also decided that I should stop taking BC and see what happens. At that same time, Erik’s stepfather was losing his battle with cancer, so Erik spent about 2 months in Mexico (that’s where his mom and stepdad retired). We decided that I was going to go down there and spend the month of December and that we were going to make a baby while we were there. Well, things got too crazy with his mom and I only spent the first week there and we both flew back together early. So, the baby wasn’t hecho en Mexico, like we’d wanted, but I conceived sometime between the 17th and 21st. So, yay, I was pregnant! Of course, I didn’t know it until around the beginning of January. I got an education grant from AmeriCorps that I could use to go to school or pay off student loans. I wanted to pay off loans, but since I didn’t have a job, I enrolled in 2 classes at the jr. college and they gave me the rest of the money in cash. We used that to live off of and to help us rent a house. We were rapidly outgrowing out apartment. We got a dog in September, already had a cat and a kid and a baby on the way and there was no way I was going to do a homebirth in that tiny, cramped apartment! Plus, I needed a place to store my landscaping equipment. It took us until April to finally find a place (the rental housing market is really tight up here). Basically it came down to the owners of the house liking us because we reminded them of themselves (small family with a baby on the way). So, we finally have a wonderful house (just renting) with a yard for our dog and cat to play in and a garage for our equipment and we even have chickens, who should start laying eggs any time now! The sad part is that during my first trimester I was too sick and tired to do much work and the weather was still horrible during the 2nd trimester. I did get some jobs done, but not as much as I had wanted. Now I’m just too darn huge to be out mowing and weedwhacking and hand pulling weeds and hauling yard waste. Luckily I was able to work for the Census for a couple of months – that job just ended a week ago, so now I just get to nest! Hopefully, after the baby is born I’ll be able to start some of my jobs again. Not right away, of course, but I will be able to bring the baby with me to a couple of places where I just do hand weeding and lighter work. Erik and I alre also planning to open a mobile barbecue restaurant within the next few years. The class I took in the spring was a small business entrepreneurial class and I pretty much wrote our entire business plan for the class. So, that’s where I am right now. It’s the first time in my life (since I was 18) that I haven’t had a job or been in school full time and it feels weird. But, I’m looking forward to expanding my landscaping business and working and saving so that Erik and I can open our own business and he can finally quit working at a grocery store. Oh, and of course looking forward to having my baby and being a full-time mommy!

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Yay for a baby on the way and a house and a cat and a dog and chickens!!! LOL!! That is really a great story and you two have already been through a lot! I remember similar feelings when I was terminated (5 days before coming back from maternity leave after DD); all I have EVER done is work since age 13 and go to school. It was so weird, and still is at times, but now I am going on 20 months as a SAHM. You may find that to be your niche Wink

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Rheannon, your story sounds so familiar to me...a combination of pieces of several of my friends! You are obviously making it all work! Biggrin I am now retired, but the gardening part of your story is what I do at home most every day - mowing and digging and hand pulling weeds and hauling yard waste...

Babies in general may be fine, just not all that exciting to everyone. Your own on the other hand are very very precious. I think you'll discover this SOON!

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I enjoyed reading your background and getting to know you. I look forward to following your homebirth journey!

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Thanks for sharing so much about you! You sound like you are in a really great place now with a really great guy (and dog, cat, chickens, and soon baby). Can't wait to follow along on this next part of your journey.

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I've liked reading your books!! That's wonderful that you're in a house now and that you have a whole business plan for your future business. Very cool! In the meantime, lots of exciting times coming your way for your growing family!

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37 weeks!! How are you and baby today?

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Yes, 37 weeks! Crazy. Baby is very wiggly. I got a prenatal massage yesterday. It was free because I was the demo mom for a class. I get one more today and one tomorrow. It's kind of like a half massage though, because she demonstrated on one side and then I turned over and she had a student practice draping and work my hips a little and she rubbed my back a little, but I was left wanting more! Today she is teaching induction techniques, so hopefully she won't actually press too hard. I'm not quite ready for baby to arrive yet! Anyway, I think I'll definitely book myself for a real, full hour or more massage after this is all over. Hopefully the massage won't exhaust me like it did yesterday. I was sooo tired all day. All I wanted to do was sleep, but we had people over so I had to cook and clean. The house is wreck today, so I have to muster up some energy to clean it. My goal is to keep it clean while I wait for baby so I don't give birth in a dirty, disorganized disaster.

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OMG, I love chickens. My aunt is brooding 3 for me right now and I'll get them when they are ready to lay. What kind do you have?

I'm glad you're enjoying your massages! Sounds heavenly!

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Oooh, massage. I had one the week before Christopher was born. I remember lying down on the table with the cutout for the belly and thinking that I would gladly pay them just to let me lie face-down, even if they didn't actually give me a massage! LOL

I think if I go overdue, I may get myself a massage, since I won't be working at that point.

Enjoy today!!

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TFS so much of your story. I love that you have chickens! Smile The massage sounds great even if it is a teaching one.

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Yay for a massage! My chiropractor has a masseuse there and I get a short one every visit and it definitely makes me want a long one.

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I know what you mean about the massage wearing you out!! I had them like once a month while preggo with DD but this time I just haven't been able to find the time... or money lol. So when I finally got one about 2 weeks ago, it felt awesome during the actual massage, but about an hour later I felt like I had been hit by a truck!! My body was achy and sore... luckily I was much better by the next day.

Free is always a good thing though!!

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What a great intro! I really appreciated your honesty. Massages are so wonderful, keep enjoying them.

I do find EPO vaginally rather annoying because it makes me feel wet all the time.

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Ok, so I'm 37 weeks. Full term now! But, no signs of this LO wanting to get out any time soon. I'm betting I go past my EDD (9/9) by at least a week. My mom's estimate is 9/17. We'll see. Just feeling nice and preggo these days. A little swelling in my feet and hideous heartburn.

I had about 4 prenatal massages in the past 3 days. I agreed to be the demo mom at our local massage school for 3 days. They're learning prenatal massage. The first massage was short, so I didn't know what to expect the 2nd day (Wed). So, she demo'd a complete massage (about 45 min) that morning and when I was done, the moms who were there for the student massages were in the lobby. I was about to leave, but they told me to wait because one of the moms had her baby the night before and wasn't going to make her appointment. That meant that one of the students wouldn't have a mom to practice on, so they asked if I wanted another massage. I said yes, of course! So, I had another full body massage 1/2 hour after the first one. It was nice, but I was soo hungry aftewards. I went to the grocery store and grabbed a snack and totally ate it while I shopped (so not my style). And, I had some hot flashes. It was weird. So, yesterday was my last day doing the demo and it was really short, so I was kind of disappointed, but as I was leaving, they told me to wait, again. I guess there was another no-show, so I ended up getting another full hour! It was with a different student and I think she was a little better than the first girl. It was really relaxing and nice. I got the instructor's card. She's also a doula and specializes in pre-natal massage. I think I'll schedule a real one with her as it's closer to my due date and I'll have her do some induction techniques.

So, that's about it. Oh, I'm GBS neg, thankfully. So, it looks like it's smooth sailing as far as the homebirth. Now I just wait and read other people's lodges and birth stories!

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Why I chose a homebirth

I realized that I wrote up my history and all that, but never talked about why I have chosen to birth at home. So, I'll leave you in suspense no longer...

It likely all started when I saw my mom give birth to my sister at home in 1976. I was 3 1/2, so I don't remember every detail, but I certainly remember a lot about that day. I remember that I had a cold and my Aunt Allison kept making me blow my nose in a funny way every 5 minutes (it seemed). I remember going to the neighbor's house for a few hours, probably 'cause I was bugging my mom or things were boring or something. I remember when my mom was pushing, I held a cold compress on her forehead. I remember seeing some bloody water come out, but not being scared. I remember that I got to lay down on the bed and hold my baby sister very shortly after she came out. It was really awesome. I also remember that my dad cooked up the placenta with some spices and we all tried some. (It tasted and looked like liver).

So, I guess I have always seen childbirth as normal and not scary. My mom BF'd exclusively and I even remember her letting me try some breastmilk. She squirted some into a little cup for me. I remember not liking it at all. But, I was never into having kids. My girlfriends always said they couldn't wait to have kids and I was like, "eh, not for me, thanks." But I also knew that if I ever DID end up having kids that I would definitely go the natural route. I think at first it was a sort of competitive thing. If my mom could do it, so could I. Then, when my friends started having children and I'd go visit them in the hospital while they were in labor and I'd see all the machines and the IV's and learned about epidurals, I knew I could never handle a hospital birth. I hate, hate, hate needles and IV's. The thought of being hooked to monitors and having a needle in me and being tethered to some damn bag hanging on a pole really freaks me out. Then, the thought of a million different people coming in and out of my room and some random doctor coming in and sticking his hand up in me also really turns me off. I just knew that I'd never be able to give birth that way. No matter how much they make those L&D rooms look like home, it wasn't fooling me. Then, as I learned more about how harmful most interventions can be (especially the epidural) I was even more resigned to avoid that situation. I know it seems weird that I was so against having babies, yet so passionate about natural childbirth. I also think it has a lot to do with my private nature. I don't think I could ever be that raw and exposed in front of strangers and I really have a problem with men having anything to do with female issues. I don't see male OBs. I've only ever had one pelvic by a man and I was so uncomfortable that I swore I'd never do it again. It just seems so wrong to me. It goes against my nature. I know there are plenty of wonderful male doctors and OBs out there and other women don't have the hangups that I do, but that's just me.

So, of course when Erik and I started talking seriously about having a baby, I was happy to learn that he was totally supportive of a natural homebirth and he was relieved that I felt that way, too. His daughter was born in our local hospital and, while it wasn't a horrible experience, there were things that he would have liked to have been different. The hospital in our town is actually quite supportive of natural childbirth and different birthing positions and they even have tubs for laboring. He said that he and his wife had to fight off the nurses because they kept wanting to put her on the monitors and all that. I just don’t want to have to deal with that. I don’t want strangers around me while I’m trying to have a baby. Also, I’d have to accept whoever was on call, which just sounds horrible to me. Especially because two of the doctors that do deliveries are men and well, you know. It just makes sense to me to be where I’m comfortable and attended by women that I’m comfortable with and who I’ve had a chance to get to know. To me, childbirth is such an intimate, private experience. Given all of this, I do realize that there is the possibility of having to transfer to the hospital and I am willing to accept that if it should be necessary. I am being seen at the clinic and have the hospital as backup and I’ve met all of the practitioners that do the deliveries. Luckily, the hospital is less than 10 minutes from my house and my midwives are pretty conservative in that they would want me to go to the hospital sooner rather than later and having it become an emergency transfer. There is a second hospital that’s only about 20 minutes away that I’d go to if there was something wrong with the baby. I guess they have a better facility for newborn issues.

So, homebirth here I come! Plus, if all goes well, I can sport one of those bumper stickers that says, “My baby was born at home.” JK. I’m not big on bumperstickers.

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Now the only suspense left is WHEN? (As in WHEN can you eat ice cream again? ;))

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Yay for GBS negative and and all those free massages!
LOL to the bumpersticker!
That totally makes sense about the man thing. How cool that your remember your mom giving birth to your sister. Its so nice to hear your perspective on it, as a child being there, because I totally wonder how it will shape my 5 yr. old DS's view on childbirth when he is older. I'm glad that Erik is totally on board with it too! Are you going to have your Mom or Erik's daughter attend your birth?

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That's great that you and Erik are so well-aligned with what you're looking for in the birth. I agree that it's really cool that you remember your sister's homebirth.

Woo hoo for all the massages!

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You have a lot of great reasons!! I totally agree with everything you said, and I am very glad that Erik is so on-board!!

I dream of my daughter being able to remember things like that. I wrote a journal entry just the other day that I want to start the childbirth traditions for our family. My mom had 3 c/s with us, and I'm not sure about DH's mom... it's not something that is really talked about in either of our families and I just don't know WHY!! It is such an exciting, special time and truly a family event. That is SO COOL that you remember all that you do since you were so young.

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Well, not too much going on lately. I think I lost part of my plug yesterday. After a bm, there was tons of what looked like jelly on the tp. There was quite a lot of it, too - 3-4 wipes worth! No blood, though. Just gelatinous goop. I'd say sorry about the TMI, but is it really necessary at this point? Anyway, not any more noticeable BH contrax. A few felt a bit stronger last night, but nothing really significant. And the baby's still up high. Tuesday is the full moon. People say that that might influence things, but I have my doubts. I have a clinic appointment today at 10:30, but I expect it to be very uneventful. They'll take my BP, measure my fundus and that's about it. I don't even leave urine samples any more because they changed their procedure and it really irks me how they do it now and so I'm rebelling by not doing it. I have an appointment with the HBMWs Thursday morning. Those are always awesome. They're a whole hour long and Erik goes with me and we just talk and plan and they take my vitals and stuff. Oh, and they check my urine, so I don't feel bad about not having it checked at the clinic. I'm only going to the clinic so that in case I have to transfer to the hospital, they'll know who I am and have my records and all that.

Oh, last night, the weirdest thing happened to me. I ate a big dinner (but not an unusually large dinner) around 6 and went to bed around 9:30, but was still really full from dinner. I knew that I'd probably wake up with reflux at some point and I did, but I actually think I was choking on bile. It was really awful! My throat was burning and I couldn't breathe and I woke up coughing and choking at 12:30. I think I may have even aspirated some bile. I drank some water and ate some tums, but it was really disturbing. This baby has got to move down soon. The reflux is killing me. I want my stomach back!

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Oh, last night, the weirdest thing happened to me. I ate a big dinner (but not an unusually large dinner) around 6 and went to bed around 9:30, but was still really full from dinner. I knew that I'd probably wake up with reflux at some point and I did, but I actually think I was choking on bile. It was really awful! My throat was burning and I couldn't breathe and I woke up coughing and choking at 12:30. I think I may have even aspirated some bile. I drank some water and ate some tums, but it was really disturbing. This baby has got to move down soon. The reflux is killing me. I want my stomach back!

That is SO CRAZY you mention that!! I had the SAME thing happen last night except I didn't choke... but it was like I totally threw up a little in my sleep. I know that's gross... nothing came out of my mouth but it was disgusting. I've never done anything like that in my sleep before so it kinda freaked me out.

My MW doesn't even do urine samples unless you have some other sign of something going on. I've heard that is becoming more common these days. I'm glad you enjoy your HBMWs though. I look forward to hearing about your appointment!

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I had the same bile issues with my first. It would always shoot up my nose and I could hardly breath from it. Worst feeling ever.

I had to sleep propped up after that, anytime I was flat it would hit me.

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