I hope you ladies don't mind me venting a little.
When I found out I was pregnant, I knew I wanted to have a doula with me this time as dh has a difficult time with childbirth. I only wanted a doula that I know, I am a pretty private person. Luckily, I knew that there are two doulas at my church. Unluckily, one got pregnant a month after me. So I decided I should probably go with the other doula. That was no big deal. She has 5 kids, her last birth was a homebirth, she's been a doula for almost 2 years and has a ton of experience. Then she not only found out she was pregnant with a surprise, it's the hardest pregnancy she has had and has decided she can't take on clients (which I understand, it just put me in a pickle). So I went back to the doula due after me (we've gotten closer since finding out we were pregnant) and she would love to take me on but is only taking one client in September and may already have a client. She'll find out soon if the other lady will need her doula services but until then I'm trying to figure out what to do "just in case" since I am past the halfway point and I know a lot of doulas fill up around then. One option would be another lady at my church who will be going for certification in January, but she may already have taken on yet another lady at my church that is due at the same time as me (we seriously have something in the water here). Another option is a very close friend, she's had three natural births and could be a support. I'm just a little concerned not having someone with training.
I feel like doors all around me are closing and I really do need someone there with me. DH won't take childbirth classes with me (it's a long story about how he views birth), he won't even talk about childbirth. I'm just praying that what should happen, will happen.