I just have to vent. I am so jealous of all of you who are having homebirths with awesome midwives. I really want to have a homebirth, but there are only 3 midwives who do homebirths anywhere near where I live, and the two good ones are already all booked up and can't take any more clients around my due date And the other one is kind of a nutball and just getting back into delivering babies after a break and we would be her first birth in 8 years. She also didn't come across as totally confident. No, thank you. I need to feel like I can trust my team! I actually love my MW practice and the hospital is totally NCB-friendly (not just pretend "friendly" in the way a lot of hospitals are, like "yes we support natural birth, but we actually have no clue how to manage it and the nurses will still try to talk you into an epidural"). Most of the women who choose to deliver there do so because they want a natural birth and know this hospital is the place to go for that. So I feel like I will be totally supported in my natural birth, but it is still a hospital environment and I would so love to just stay home! The closer I get to delivery the more I want a homebirth. Oh, well, not in the cards this time. I did tell DH that if we ever have a 3rd, we're having a homebirth!