So after giving up on having a midwife (everyone I talked to said I was too high risk) AND resigning myself to the doctor who won't actually see me till Feb *grumble* I got an email today from one of the Midwifery groups!
They are willing to take me as a patient!!!!! Maybe... I hope... I'm keeping my fingers crossed because they just said they have a spot available if I should want it, but I'm trying not to get my hopes up in case the midwife in question balks at my history and runs screaming the other way.
I sooooo hope hope hope this works out... I really wanted a midwife! I'm literally jumping out of my skin trying not to get overly hopeful, but I can't help it! Gah... emotional surges are tough to deal with when your preggers, I am afraid if they come back with the "no" answer again I'll really break down and cry ... maybe I should buy some Icecream just in case... LOL