I am starting to think that I am in over my head here. I should start by saying that a part of me knows that things will work out one way or another, they have to. However, HOW they work out is so way up in there air right now as our future is so completely uncertain at this point. So, in preparation for 'worst case scenario', how do I do this alone?
DH is currently unemployed. He recently applied for "the" job. If he gets "the" job, and there is a good chance he will, there is the likelyhood that he will be 6 hours away at a multi-week training when Kole is due to make his arrival. I have nobody else to be with me at the birth who could/would support during the birth to keep me strong. Not to mention that it is so unbelievably important to me to have DH there with me to welcome our son into the world. If I get my much desired VBAC, I feel that this moment is vital for us.
There are no doulas available in my area and wouldn't matter if there were, we can't afford ANYTHING right now. I don't even have anyone I trust to take care of my DD while I go to the hospital to birth DS. Needless to say, this is causing me some stress too. So I need to figure out who will take care of DD and then I need to figure out how to go it alone in my desire for an unmedicated hospital VBAC.