I'm getting a little scared I can't do it.
Those who know me know that no way in hell do I want another section and I have planned on a VBAC since before TTC but I'm getting a little bit "this baby already feels giant how I am going to grow him for two more months and then push him out"
Also my heart rate RACES at the very slightest bit of exerting myself so I am kind of scared of pushing because last time my HR shot up to the 180s.... but I think this was because they were directing my pushing and I could never fully catch my breath.
Anyhow.... do even you seasoned birthing moms get a little scared?
I am super excited to have a baby naturally and the way my body intended and feel like I can do it. The midwives are 100% "you are going to do awesome and amazing because the mental part is a big part esp in VBAC and you are totally where you need to be"....
I'm rambling but what I am saying is I want this bad.... just getting a little weird.