I know a lot of mommas on here, but have felt like a wimp posting since I had an induced labor and epidural with my first.
I am now pregnant with my second (probably my last) child and have been wavering back and forth on how I want the birth to go. I have severe anxiety disorder, so severe that without daily medication I cannot parent, do my job, etc. So I already have a "medicated" pregnancy. I have also had interventions which are pretty standard in the care of my OB. My quad screen came up pretty high, so I had an amnio--everything is okay.
I did not want to be medicated during my first birth. I had a pretty detailed birth plan, which included no narcotics and a light epidural only if I asked for it. When at 41 weeks my cervix was not softening and baby was not dropping (and I had to return to work 4 weeks later), I chose to be induced with misoprostal. I got one dose of it and 6 hours later I was in active labor. Despite being in a hospital, my desires were not questioned and I did end up asking for the epidural after at least an hour or longer of intense contractions one on top of the other. I refused all pain medications after the birth and handled the post-partum cramping with no problem.
This time, I considered doing a home birth or a birthing center, but my anxiety escalates in new situations, so at this point, I am still seeing my OB and am planning on delivering at the same hospital. I am not afraid of giving birth at all this time, but I am afraid of being coerced into a c-section if the babies HR drops during labor and I am not dilated. I have been told that the intensity of my contractions last time were not typical and probably due to being induced even though no pitocin was used.
So my hope is that I can go into labor naturally (I will refuse induction until I am past 42 weeks this time) and that the progression is slow enough that I can manage the pain without needing the epidural, extra IVs of fluid, etc.
That pretty much covers my situation. I have felt a bit unsure of whether I really fit in with this board, so I'm asking what you all think.