to home-birth or HBAC?
I am definitely interested, but I am stuck. I am having trouble crossing over the "what if something goes really wrong; especially since I am a VBAC mom" mental block. I REALLY think I would be more comfortable at home. When I compare the hospital vs home environment in my mind, home wins hands down. But the numbers are just getting to me. I know the risk is very very small, but it is there and I am having trouble truly working through that. I know that the hospital has risks in and of itself. It is just hard re-programming this whole mind-set of "hospital = safe" that I have had for my entire life, mostly b/c my mom is an L&D nurse and has a PhD in pediatric nursing. She is obviously medically minded and against HBAC... and some of her points are truly valid. BUT I KNOW I would be more comfortable at home, which would probably ensure easier progression of labor.
I feel like when the student is ready the teacher will appear, so I am not very worried about finding a MW to attend an HBAC. I think that when I decide that I am truly ready, then the situation will present itself.
I appreciate ANYTHING you ladies have to add