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~*~ Ashley's (xMyLovelyLadyBumpx) Lodge ~*~

Welcome to your lodge!!! Sorry it is like a week late. Sad I am a horrible mod lately. Can't wait to follow your journey!!

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Welcome to your lodge Ashley!!! Not much longer. :blob3:

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Ah! Idk what to do or say here! haha But yay!! I do know this means its the end of the beginning! (: I'll restalk some of your lodges and figure out what I should be doing Blum 3

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Welcome to your lodge Ashley!! Share whatever you like here, it's YOUR lodge! So excited to follow you on this one. You're going to rock this.

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Welcome to your lodge!!

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Well I noticed many added their previous birth stories so I think I'll share mine! I'll share Kays first. Biggrin

The Birth of Kaylee:
With my first pregnancy I had a rude and uncaring doctor who let me go undiagnoised with Pre-e and HELLP from 20ish weeks on. At my 35wk6day appointment she was on vacation [Thank God] a fellow doctor took one look at my chart, one look at how incredibly swollen I was, took my BP and said he didn’t want to scare me but that I needed to have her NOW. I was going to have 24 hours to deliver before he would press for a section and he couldnt believe that I had been allowed to work and not be on strict bed rest or even hospitalized by that point. My BP that day was 200+/100+.

Let me give you a rundown of how sick I was because of pre-e/HELLP; my legs, face and hands were swollen. My feet were so swollen my skin was literally splitting open, my face was so swollen you could hardly see my eyes, and my hands went from normal to so big that my rings had to be cut off because they were tearing open my skin. My blood pressure was dangerously high from 20 weeks on, my doctor told me it was just first-time-mom jitters...even when I insisted something was wrong at EVERY appointment I went unheard but I was young and didn’t have my own mother to guide me so I went with it. My liver and kidneys were starting to fail, the amount of protein in my urine was Insane.

I was admitted upstairs at 9am all alone. Terrified for me and for my baby. The nurses let me call my dad and at the time my boyfriend [now husband] to let them know what was going on. Shane was 2hours away at school, my dad was at work but said he would make some calls and get someone up there to be with me ASAP.

Nurses came in again set me all up with IVs, Blood pressure cuff that I had to wear the whole time I was in labor and of course the fetal monitoring devices. My little baby had such a sweet sounding heartbeat and I refused to let them turn the monitor down because the sound of her heart was the only thing keeping me sane. I also had leg cuffs to keep the circulation going in my legs while in bed since they were slightly blue from all the swelling.

9:30am-Pit started. I was already having mild contractions at that point [I figure now due to the stress]

11:45am My grandmother, dad, and uncle show up. My grandma helps me relax by rubbing my legs and hands.

1:25pm Walking around the room…kinda boring. Watch Dr. Phil also boring..have a dance party with the only nice nurse around? Priceless

2:30pm Shower time!! Felt so so amazing. The nurse says the water was hot enough to melt skin lol but it felt incredible to me.

3-5pm Nap time! Apparently labor makes me snore like a giant bear in the middle of winter.

6-8pm Visitors! Labor starts to get rough, take a low dose of regular pain killers like juiced up Tylenol…works for oh idk 15 minutes…Blek!

9:30pm 4cm (: I’m now “officially” in REAL labor according to the new nurse who isn’t my cup of tea but she’ll do because she isn’t nosey and leaves me alone for the most part. But really this is ‘real’ labor? What was going on before then?!

10-11pm Dance party(swaying hips)..this time in the skin melting shower! Nurse gets all uppidty because I didn’t tell her what I was doing. At this point I was connecting and disconnecting my own baby monitors. She wasn’t happy about that either. Stuck at 4cm…BOO

Midnight-3am ZzzZzzZzz More bear like snoring…this also displeases the nurse because she is now constantly in my room waking me up…witch. Leave me alone!!

4am: 5cm! Contractions are starting to really rock my world. Debate on getting epi then change my mind, I get up to potty and my water breaks! I start laughing and it only makes the gushing worse which of course makes me laugh harder

4:35am Ask for more pain relief, offered Epi again-refuse. 6cm 80% effaced. Dr comes in and says he isnt on call but if I want he will be just for me. I agree and he sets everything up with the nurses. Bounce on birth ball for a bit, but its uncomfortable and makes my BP shoot up.

5-6am Lots of moaning and crying and I snuck a few crackers..Shhh! I hadnt eaten in over 24 hours! 7 almost 8cm fully effaced they say its do or die time for an Epi which I gratefully accept after pit being as high as freakin possible!!!!!
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6:34am The Drug Dr makes his appearance...he is like the McSteamy of this hospital...Seriously he could stab me in the back allll he wanted Blum 3 Kays heart rate dips and I am back on oxygen.

7am I am a happy drugged up lady! But I feel guilty for caving in and getting an epi but those contractions juiced up with Pit were just too much at that point. Epi works TOO well I cant feel ANYTHING.

7:25am Epi is adjusted and now only works on one half of my body...but I say to leave it alone at this point.

8am stuck at 8cm ): told to get some sleep but instead I talk with family and friends. Grandma rubs me down again which seems to do the trick and I drift off to lala land....

9am: almost at a 9! Epi is wearing off... BP is rising, kays heart rate drops again back on Oxygen until delivery. Offered to up the epi-refuse and let it wear off for the birth

10am: I want to push N O W. Nurses rush in, thankfully Dr man was already there because...I feel like there in a watermelon forcing its way out. It burns, and feels amazing all at once.

10:08am Push One....STOP there’s her head

10:10am 24 hours after the start of labor Push Two and Baby Kaylee is BORN!

Kaylee Amanda Harless was born May 8, 2009. She was 6.2lbs 18.75inches long and 36 weeks along. She had scores of 8 & 9. She was beautiful and amazing.
Small tear 3 stiches

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Wow! You went through a lot with her pregnancy and birth! Great job getting through the pit labor for so long without the epi!

Your Dr was AWFUL. Makes me angry just reading it...

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I'm just lurking on this board (for now...) but I wanted to tell you, your birth story made me cry! What you went through and how you handled it... you are one awesome momma! You are going to rock this birth, Ashley!

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That's quite the birth story! I really hope this one will go better for you :-).

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Rowans Birth Story!

The Birth of Rowan:
With number two, I was due February 6th, 2012. This was to be my second birth, my first natural birth. But of course things dont always go as planned. I was being induced again because of sudden severe pre-e.
Saturday night I couldnt sleep. Too many things running through my head, all the what ifs, and thoughts of HOLY CRAP I'm about to be a mom of two little monsters!! I did squats, Shane rubbed my back, I ate until I thought I would get sick, went for a walk and finally went to sleep around 5am. I was having contractions, not very strong but enough to notice them and some that were not to cozy feeling.

I woke up around 8-9am, ate, got dressed, did my make-up; yes I am really that vain lol, then woke up DH and Kay. We spent the rest of the morning cuddling with her, and making sure she was secure and happy. It was obvious she knew something was happening but had no idea her little would was going to change so dramatically. We dropped her off with Shanes dad and headed to the birth center.

11:50am Arrived at Birth Center with DH and my doula Stacy. We waited for about 15 mins for our "corner" room to be ready. The corner rooms are the best, they are HUGE. Like swanky hotel room huge, and did we complain? Heck no! lol My contractions lost all their thunder by this point. ): BOO!

12:43pm Cervix was 1.5, high and thick. UGH seriously?! Contractions alllll night and for nothing?! Darn you body, darn you!

1:15pm Foley bulb put in. Seriously the coldest thing ever to enter my lady parts. It was like they soaked it in water, froze it, let it thaw and then injected ice cubes into it. Jerks. ):

3:20pm Fed up with lack of useful internet and start chowing down since I know at midnight Im offically cut off from the surprisingly yummy caf down stairs. My doula and Shane are getting antsy, taking turns playing nurse Contractions were managable, and the liquid ice continued to cycle and making me feel like I pee'd myself over and over again. Which at that point who cares?! Im not allowed to get up anyway right? Blum 3

6:00pm Contractions got stonger, but further apart. After two horrible cervix checks, I said NO MORE. I think part of being a nurse there means you have to have the smallest hands in the world so that you can torture your paitents by shoving their fists inside for a feel...Jerks. 4.More.Hours. with this horrible ice machine until I can finally get up!

9:10pm Lost my Mucus Plug! And what a glorious feeling that was! No really...It was amazing. The ice machine/Foley was no longer trapped and the super cold feeling went bye bye! Score

10:15pm No more Foley! It fell out on its own, which means I am offically a full 4cm. Woop woop.

11:00pm Put on my big girl diaper and got to walkin, squating, using the birth ball and hip rockin'. And eating...lots of eating, I was starving.

12:00am Monday: Hit the naughty list! I had cookies, chocolate milk and a breadstick while doing accu-pressure points with Stacy.

1-3am ZzzZzzZzz

4am: Contractions slowed down while we were sleeping! New nurse [my favorite out of all of them] comes in to remind me there was an order for Pit to be started at 5am. Then she says, that after reading my birth plan she suggests denying it and waiting until the on call dr comes to do rounds and ask for my water to be broken first [which was the plan] We told her that was the plan and she was super happy to cancel the order.

5:30am: Dr.L is no long the on call Dr. ): Dr. T [whom I am not a fan] comes in demanding to know why I am risking my babies health by denying the Pit. Ohhh goodness; I said I wanted my water to be broken, she refused. I said then I refuse your Pit and any other treatment. She stares at me for a moment then makes some snide remark about how she doesnt understand why woman think they know everything yadda yadda yadda, DH stepped up to the plate and put her in her place. I win. Waters Broken.

5:45am 4cm 50% effaced.

10:03am 5cm 70% effaced & still no pit [Dr grumpy pants is not a happy camper]

12-3pm Lots of walking, birth balling, dancing and uncomfortable contrations

3:15pm start of low dose pit. Contactions every 3-5 mins

8:12pm 7cm pit was increased without our consent!!!!!! ):

8:20pm DH decides to run to the grocery right down the road to get dinner for him and Stacy.

8:30pm lay on side to help Ro's heart rate. Epi is wearing off already. Iwant to push..Shane still gone!! Stacy calls him and he hurries back

8:45pm Tons of preasure!! like a rocket is about to take off, everything gets set up. Stacy helps me back onto my side since thats the most comfortable with the pain pf the contractions.

8:48pm Shanes back-Push1-Ro moves the rest of the way down the canal

8:50-8:52pm- 2 more pushes and BAM we have baby!

Rowan Malachi Harless was born at 8:52pm on January 16, 2012.7.4lbs 18.5inches long. Scores of 8 & 9.
No tears, no stiches. (:

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Good for you and DH standing your ground with that awful Dr! It always makes me so mad and sad when I hear of Drs saying things like that and acting like that. Argh!

How are things looking on the pre-e front this time?

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37wk appointment!

Went in had an NST to start things off. Baby didnt move much or have accelerations so they had me eat a sucker, crackers and drink a little sprite to see if s/he would move a bit. After over an hour they finally got what they wanted. Babe passed but they want to have another test Tuesday. Babes HR was 120-150 during the NST, I was having contractions the whole time, some of them were a little on the ouchy side!

After the NST I had the GBS test(if positive Ill ask for another test at the next appointment and every appointment until baby), and asked to be checked at hubbys request lol He is a numbers man. Im a stretchy 2cm, cervix is still long. Baby is head down, snuggling into my pelvis (no wonder I have to literally lift my tummy to pee!) I got to see the one OB I like at this office and he said he approves of me and my baby prep plans (red raspberry leaf, DTD, walking etc) so woo!!

My BP was decent, urine looked good, I have some edema going on in my legs. My blood test for pre-e looked okay also. So far so good. (: Woop woop! I finally gained a little weight this time too, I am constantly hungry now. I cant stop eating!!

Me and hubby are debating on just calling in when I go into labor and seeing who is on call at the time, then decided if we will go there or show up at the place we would prefer to deliver but wont let me transfer. (calling this week to BEG an OB to let me switch) I REFUSE to have another crappy birth darn it!

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Sounds like things are going well! Great to hear!!

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Im feeling overwhelmed lately. After moving while pregnant and hubbys insane holiday work schedule I feel like we have so much to do before baby comes! I literally have piles of laundry, and our washer and dryer were stolen from hubs cousins house so Ive been hand washing in the tub, and doing small loads when we visit my dad. Ive been scrubbing EVERYTHING nothing is ever clean enough right now. The bathrooms are so clean right now, Id eat dinner in there LOL I washed baseboards, doors, door trim, windows/track and lamps three times this week! lol Im hoping Monday (hubs only day off this week) we can raid my dads laundry room and get it all done!

Physically I still have the itchys on my hands, forearms and feet, my pelvis feels like its going to shatter most of the time and Im tired a lot. BUT I also feel great! which is weird. I get these boosts of pure energy and get so much done in a few hours, I have mild swelling but its NOTHING like with my other two, I can actually still wear normal shoes (a size bigger than normal but whatever). Im hoping we've totally avoided the stresses of pre-e but I know it could show up even after birth so we are prepared for that also.

Hub and I are having our "last hurrah before baby" date Sunday. Probably dinner and a movie while my MIL watches the kiddos for a few hours. Im excited to spend a few childless hours with him. (: We dont get alone time often so I cherish the moments we do get.
K done blabbering away! Blum 3

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Doozy of a 38week Appointment and Ultrasound

I had an ultrasound Monday to check baby's noggin and kidneys (both have had mild swelling off and on) and both looked fabulous! (: Baby is measuring lovely, practice breathing, wiggling, flipping to Breech TRANSERVE !!! UGH lol

I started doing spinning babies, to try and get him/her to flip over again. At my 37w appt baby was head down, saw a chiropractor Saturday, Monday baby went Breech. -_- Im slightly annoyed by that.

At the ultrasound in the office today baby moved slightly so

Im saw the wicked witch today. (I have 4OBs I like only 1 of them LOVE 1 of them lol) I knew she'd be pushing a section and early delivery today. Mama doesn't play this game so it was on! lol She came in, asked me how I was, said she'd like to schedule me for a csection "just in case" I said no, she didnt like that lol She went on to say "You can not deliver a breech baby, its dangerous and could result in the death of you or baby." To which I replied for her to leave and find a different OB to finish up. I loath this woman with very fiber of my being, I wouldnt trust her to hold a penny for me.

So I kicked meanie out of the room and asked to see someone else. The doctor I LIKE came in and I laid it all out and she said "Ok, Go home walk, do spinning babies all night tonight. Come in tomorrow to L&D, we'll get you another ultrasound see if baby flipped upside down like a good lil boy/girl and if not let's see if we can help baby head down by manually pushing baby. If it works, we'll fit you with a belly band to help baby stay there."

She said it could cause me to go into labor, and then we talked risks. Hub is off at 6 tonight so we'll talk it over but I went ahead and agreed and scheduled it. I think we'll be doing it though.

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Lurking.

GOOD FOR YOU!
Do what is best for you. What's with the death threats anyway? Jeeesh..
I hope you are spinning baby right now!

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As I mentioned on your XP in Jan '13, good job standing your ground against that grouch of a doctor. There are far more appropriate ways to go about expressing their concerns, but some just are on power trips and don't like to be challenged.

Keeping EVERYTHING crossed that baby has flipped. I did a bit of research on EMV and I remember reading that a transverse version has a far higher success rate then a full on breech so if it gets to that point, I hope it works well for you!

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Ladies-We have a flipped baby!! My version worked! Baby was pointed down at my hip and just need a little coaxing to move his/her hands away from the face so they could move back head down. (: Im going to do spinning babies still in hopes babe stays there, I also got a belly band that should help "hold" baby in place.

Since the version and baby being head down my BHCs have started again also! so yay!! Go me and thank you little baby for being nice to mama! lol

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Im pretty sure baby flipped again last night ): I really hope not but I am feeling feet on my side and hiccups in my left hip so BOO! My next appointment is Tuesday so we'll know for sure then.

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Okay, so I was baby moved back to transverse but I watched him/her flip back vertical at around 3am, which started my contractions again lol Woo hoo. (: Please please please stay little baby!!

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Talk about keeping you on your toes! I hope you're cuddling your new baby by now! If baby is still baking they need to STAY head down!!

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Baby is still baking! I have an appointment tomorrow. Baby really likes to flip back and forth from transverse to head in my hip to head down. Little acrobat in there!! Since going head down the other day, s/he has stayed that way thank goodness. I will send an eviction notice is s/he flips again tho lol just kidding. Blum 3 Wednesday is Rowans birthday I reallllly hope baby doesnt come that day but with my luck thats just what will happen!

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Hope baby stays put and head down Smile So that you can enjoy Rowan's birthday!

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this baby hates me! lol Went in for my 39w appt, had a 2nd external version done &now sitting in l&d bc my bp and protien spiked sky high then dropped super fast making for one peeved babe. ill most likely give birth tomorrow, had my membranes swept & started losing my mucus plug about an hour ago.

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Excited for you! Sending ELV's your way! Are they going to induce you or is babe sitting low enough that they can just break your water? I have had both done and just breaking my water was so much easier then being on pit. Either way I am crossing my fingers babe behaves for you and you go into labor all on your own. You will do great momma! You can do this!

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((Hugs)) Ashely you've been through so much with this LO!! Sending tons of ELVs. You deserve as easy of a l&d experience as possible. I can't wait to meet this Lo!!

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GL!

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thinking of you!

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Ashely I hope you're absent because you're busy adapting to life with new baby!

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thinking of you, Ashley!

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Birth Story

Jan16 I went in for my 39w appointment. Nurse took my BP and it was high, like holy cow high. She had me go pee in cup, then lay down on my side while I waited for the NST room to free up. About 10 minutes later the room was ready for me so I got all hooked up and it was obvious baby wasn?t pleased with my high BP, nurse took it again and it had lowered but it was still very high. My urine came back with a spike of protein, oh lovely.

NST showed baby perk up and I was having small contractions. OB decided since baby was a flipper (going from transverse to breech to head down) and had moved again to send me to L&D and flip babe and strip my membranes and get babe out since I was clearly on my way to being very ill with preeclampsia (once again ugh) I had managed to avoid pre-e until 39w so I was a happy camper.

Me and the whole gang; hubby, Kaylee and Rowan headed on over to the hospital. Got undressed down to my bra and tank climbed into bed and waited for the OB to head over to flip baby again. They needed a good strip before and after the flipping so I agreed to be hooked up to monitor babe. Dr L used ultrasound to guide him as he flipped baby and then stripped my membranes. I was going to stay over night because I was already contracting lightly on my own and my BP was shooting up and falling quickly. Babe looked great.

Since we had the whole gang my husband left with the kiddos to eat, take naps, etc. I stayed and bounced on my birth ball, walked, did everything I knew to keep babys head down and hopefully drop into my pelvis as not to risk another flip. Hub had gone to pick up my grandmother so she and my MIL could watch the kiddos during labor and delivery. They all came by and we hung out for a while, it was nice to be able to see my babies before labor, I got to snuggle them and give kisses and hugs.

Everyone except hubby left around midnight and me and hub tried to get some sleep because at 3am I was going to get a low dose of pit to jump start labor.

3am-nurse comes in to start pit. She isn?t confident that baby is still head down. Calls for OB
330-Dr L uses ultrasound and see?s baby is in fact still head down. Starts low dose pit. Sleep through most of my contractions

6-7am-Dr K takes over. Checks me, baby has moved. Stop pit, get a shot to stop contractions. Use ultrasound to move baby, baby doesn?t want to stay head down. Wait 15 and try again baby moves a little but not fully head down. Shoulder and elbow are facing cervix. Dr K says we?ll have to wait for Dr L to try.

8am-Sleep

9-11am-Labor starts on its own. Hub and I look up techniques to flip baby during labor. Its very painful. We try everything we can find. I labor over the back of the bed mostly, hubby rubs my back and hips during contractions. We try new techniques every few contractions. I know I am entering transition and hang against hub for a few contractions before moving back to the bed on all fours. I start begging for pain relief, I don?t really want it but I think I do.
12pm Dr K comes in says I cant have pain relief, checks me Im 9 cm! Im so proud of myself. But then she looks worried and says baby didn?t move, babys shoulder and elbow are lodged into my pelvis. I need a csection NOW. Im crushed. I was SO close, my natural birth was RIGHT there.

I realize I just want baby here safe. They start prepping me. They give hub the run down of what is going to happen. Im silently freaking out inside. About 5 minutes later we are all heading to the OR. They tell hub he cant come in yet, hand him scrubs and tell him to dress out in the hall while they get me ready and they?ll come get him.
From here I remember little: I remember crying because I was terrified. They couldn?t get my spinal in because my body was shaking so much and my contractions were on top of each other. Last thing I remember was a mask being put on me and me screaming.

Neither my husband or myself were there for his birth. They refused to let him in (we never got an explanation as to why since we had discussed this and how it would work many times in the event baby flipped and I needed a section.) I had a "double csection" I have an upside down T shaped incision. They had to use a vacuum to get him out.

Luca Gabriel (BOY) was born 1.16.13 at 12:53pm he was 8lbs 2.5oz 20in . He was given to my husband shortly after birth and my hubby loved and snuggled him the whole time.

I lost a ton of blood, had/have a massive hematoma that was being fed from a huge artery and nearly had a hysterectomy. I had two blood transfusions. I missed much of Luca?s first 2 days of life because I was so out of it and so weak. .
6hrs after birth my husband and an LC from the hospital held Luca to me to nurse, he did it like a champ from what I hear. I had to be told multiple times that I had the baby, that it was a boy and he was healthy and happy. I don?t remember much from the days before and after, that scares me and makes me sad. It has been pretty traumatizing for me.

Two/Three Weeks later: I was diagnosed with multiple blood clots in my lungs, arm and leg, a HUGE infection of my uterus.I may lose my uterus because of the hematoma and infection but we wont know for sure until I have finished antibiotics at home. I have been in the hospital for it for 5.5 days, away from Luca, unable to love him, kiss him, nurse him, smell him. Its been heartbreaking and hard. I?ll be going home today 2.8.13 with a picc line, blood thinners, home nurse care (they will be giving me antibiotics and blood draws).
Luca means: Bringer of light which is perfect since he is the only light in this dark tunnel I?m in.

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Oh Ashley my heart breaks for you and your husband. I'm in tears. You've been through hell and back with Little Luca (I LOVE his name by the way). You are going to get through this. Keep Luca as your light, let him help you move forward, there is always peace somewhere, even though we don't know the road or how long it may be.

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Oh my goodness, how scary with all the blood clots. I'm so glad that you and little Luca are ok. I sure hope you have lots of family to help out so you can get some good rest in. I'm glad you are home too and getting to spend some time with your little guy. And I love the name Luca...very Italian!

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Just read everything here. I'm so sorry that things turned out the way they did. But glad that despite all of that, you have a healthy baby boy! I hope you can heal from everything you've been through and spend time with your sweet baby again!

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Ashley! I have been thinking of you since your last post, almost every day wondering how you are and what was happening. I was crying last night reading Luca's birth story, I hope that you are home now and that the antibiotics are working. I hope that you are now starting your healing process and that it will be quick and complete and that you will not have to go through any more of this!
And focus on the good parts, the laboring that you did with your husband towards the end, and of course your beautiful baby! I love how you explain his name and its significance, I hope that Luca continues to be your light! "Refuah Shelaimah!" (it means "complete healing" in hebrew, and the connotation includes a spiritual and physical healing)

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Thanks so much ladies. I am home now. I have had a few break downs of tears and fear. I feel like I am missing part of my memory, and part of my life as his mommy. I cant put into words how happy I am he is here and healthy and unaffected by mommys mishaps, but I hurt inside for myself. I really feel lost in all this, not because I didnt get what I want but because it all was fast, unknown, unrememberable, and just plain scary.

I think it'll just take me accepting the fact I wont remember those days to heal. I am madly in love Luca, he is such a little prince and his siblings and daddy are just as wrapped up in him. He is my light

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I am so sorry you had to go through all that. So scary. I'm very glad to hear that baby Luca is safe and healthy and that you are home and on the mend. I hope you are able to find peace and heal emotionally from your birth experience. (((hugs)))

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I've been following your lodge and wondering about baby's arrival in your absence. Congratulations on your little boy!! But so sorry to hear what a rough and scary time it was for you. I'm happy to hear he is healthy and you are doing ok and home now. I hope your physical recovery is going well and that the emotional does follow once you are able to really process and accept everything as it is. ((hugs))

Hope to see some pics of your precious son when you are up to it. Smile

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Joined: 04/22/08
Posts: 999

I was very worried when I hadn't heard about your birth in such a long time. I am so sad at what happened. I wish you all the best healing mentally and physically from the birth. Congrats on your new baby boy and I love his name.

Joined: 05/15/08
Posts: 413

I'm so sorry you've had such a rough time, and I really hope the complications subside! At least Luca is none the worse for wear. And good for you for nursing him despite your difficult recovery. I can't imagine what the pp cramps must be like for you.

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Joined: 02/17/11
Posts: 1198

Thanks ladies. Every day is better than the last, he's still nursing like a champ. The pp cramping was horrid at first, but now I dont notice much. They said it'll take at least twice as long for my uterus to heal bc of the infection and absess and hematoma. Im feeling better, I'll get my full CT results Monday when I see my OB. Wish my luck! Im ready for this picc line to come out and take a real shower!!!

I will post pictures asap! I forgot that I hadnt shared his cuteness here!

(pardon the typos im one handed typing while nursing lol)