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Hi!! Welcome to your lodge, Laura!

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Welcome to your lodge! :wavehello:

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Welcome to your lodge!

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Welcome to your lodge!

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Welcome to your lodge!!

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Thank you. Smile This is baby number six and this pregnancy has been quite a ride. My first baby's birth was a typical induction/epidural scenario. I had my next four babies at home. With this one I felt uneasy about home birth, so I found an excellent CNM and hospital. At 17.5 weeks I started bleeding and passing clots. I was diagnosed with placenta previa and put on bed rest for six weeks. The placenta moved, so I thought we'd have smooth sailing moving forward.

Then my midwife's back-up OB withdrew her support and my midwife had to abruptly close her practice. All of her patients had to scramble to find a new provider. Home birth still doesn't feel like the right option, so I signed up with a rotating group practice of six CNMs. I still haven't met all of them and I have had my last four babies 1.5-3 weeks early. I have liked all of the midwives I've met so far.

We had a trip to L&D Friday night. I'd been having contractions all day. They never got consistent, but I started dripping red blood. I had a placental abruption with a previous baby, so I was rather concerned. I called the on-call midwife and she told me to go in. I got an ultrasound and there does not appear to be an abruption. The bleeding stopped, baby looked great, and I was only 2 cm/70% effaced, so I went home. I admit that I was secretly wishing we'd find a reason to induce or even do a c-section.

I'm thinking (and hoping!) he will probably come on his own in the next two weeks. Hopefully we will have a nice, boring birth after all of this excitement. My nerves can't take much more. Any more bleeding will push me over the edge!

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Welcome to your lodge!

Wow, sounds like quite a ride this pregnancy, for sure! How terrible to have to find new care halfway through! I'm glad you found a practice you seem to like, though!

I know easier said than done (with 4 kiddos running around!), but take care of yourself and take it easy these last few weeks!! Bleeding is the absolute worst (I had a small SCH that lead to brown gunk spotting from weeks 5-9 with this pregnancy), so I hope you've seen the last of it!

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Dripping blood after a diagnosis of placenta previa is NOT a good thing. If they have not already done a vaginal color Doppler ultrasound, then please please please call RIGHT NOW and demand one. There is a condition called Vasa Previa where the placenta moves out of the way, but the blood vessels feeding it don't move. It can be catastrophic and the only thing to do is an early c-section before too much dilation rips the blood vessels. I am totally not the kind of person to try to scare new moms, I actually refuse to share either of my birth stories with pregnant moms to protect them from their own emotions about birth, but this ultrasound could literally be the difference between life and death. An abdominal ultrasound can't show what they need to be looking for, nor can a traditional black & white ultrasound, it needs to be a vaginal color Doppler ultrasound. If you've had one and all is well, then I'm terribly sorry for even mentioning this. Sending all kinds of good thoughts your way!

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Dripping blood after a diagnosis of placenta previa is NOT a good thing. If they have not already done a vaginal color Doppler ultrasound, then please please please call RIGHT NOW and demand one. There is a condition called Vasa Previa where the placenta moves out of the way, but the blood vessels feeding it don't move. It can be catastrophic and the only thing to do is an early c-section before too much dilation rips the blood vessels. I am totally not the kind of person to try to scare new moms, I actually refuse to share either of my birth stories with pregnant moms to protect them from their own emotions about birth, but this ultrasound could literally be the difference between life and death. An abdominal ultrasound can't show what they need to be looking for, nor can a traditional black & white ultrasound, it needs to be a vaginal color Doppler ultrasound. If you've had one and all is well, then I'm terribly sorry for even mentioning this. Sending all kinds of good thoughts your way!

Hmm... The most recent ultrasound was abdominal color Doppler. I did have a vaginal color Doppler ultrasound back at 19.5 weeks. The placenta had already shifted to 8mm off the cervix and all the blood flow looked good. I will check into this, though. Thanks for the heads up.

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Welcome to your lodge and I hope things quiet down for you. A boring birth beats a stressful one!

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Wow - sounds like way too much excitement during your pregnancy!! I hope that from here on out the rest goes smooth and easy! I look forward to reading more about you and following your lodge!

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Wow- you really have had an exciting pregnancy. Boo on that! I hope the last few weeks are stress free for you, and end in a lovely birth and healthy baby!

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Welcome to your lodge!

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Welcome to your lodge! I agree that I think you've earned a nice, drama-free end of pregnancy and BIRTH.

Glad you like the new CNM group you're with now, even though I'm sure moving was not what you wanted! I met all but one of the midwives in my practice before my birth, and of course that ONE was the one who ended up delivering my DD...but I loved her anyway Smile Hopefully if you like the practice as a whole, everyone in it will more or less work just fine for your purposes.

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Yay for your lodge! I have been so looking forward to your lodge! Congrats on your first boy! Can't wait to follow the rest of your pregnancy and birth!

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Yay for all of these June babies. I'm so excited to share your birth journey with you.

Hope you get some answers and relief soon-- sounds stressful to me!

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Welcome to your lodge! I agree with everyone else...I hope the rest of this pregnancy is low key and stress free and you are able to deliver a healthy baby boy with no problems. Try to get some rest if you can. Looking forward to following the rest of your journey!

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I'm still randomly bursting into tears due to anxiety. I think my PTSD from my third birth (abruption) is what's making this so much worse. Distraction is the only thing that helps at all. No blood, though, so that's good.

I have my 37 week appointment tomorrow. It is scheduled with a midwife I haven't met, yet. I was supposed to meet her last week, but she called in sick and I got switched to one I've already met. I'm considering asking to schedule an induction for 39 or 40 weeks. I really don't think I will go that long, but I'm wondering if having a set end date would help me better manage this anxiety. My Bishop's score was already 9 points at 36 weeks. I'm guessing a little bit of pit would get me going and then we'd turn it off.

I need to sort out if the physical risks of induction outweigh the risks to my mental health....

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:bigarmhug:

Have you talked to the midwives about your extreme anxiety? It seems like they should be able to do something...I understand that you have a lot of hormones going on right now and a specific thing to be worried about, but at the same time randomly bursting into tears doesn't seem like a "normal" situation. If you need something medical to help you through these last few days or weeks, I would think your mental health is definitely worth it...

I'm sorry you're having such a rough time...I really hope this birth experience helps alleviate some of your fear.

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Thanks for the support. I'm feeling a bit better today emotionally. Hopefully that lasts. I've been having more prodromal labor today, too. It started at the same time it started on Friday. According to the chart below, I'm somewhere between 3-4cm now. Not that I expect today's bout of contractions to actually produce a baby. It's probably just more "practice."
http://birthunplugged.blogspot.com/2010/05/new-way-to-assess-labor-progress.html

I have my appointment in about two hours. If these keep up I might ask to be checked.

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I'm so sorry your dealing with those emotions. Hopefully the good feelings your having today keep coming for the rest of the pregnancy. Have a great appointment today.

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I scheduled an induction for 38w5d. I really think he'll come before then, but this feels like a good solution to help manage my anxiety. I had decided not to ask about induction today, but a simple question from the midwife set me off again. When she saw how bad my anxiety is, she offered it as an option. She will have to get the back-up OB to give special approval since I'd be before 39 weeks, but she doesn't think he will have a problem with it. My fourth dd (my second-longest pregnancy) was born at 38w5d, which is why I decided on June 7th instead of June 4th (the earliest). Also, I only like one of the three back-up OBs and I'd prefer to have the one I like be on call if I have a choice. It's totally bizarre for me to choose induction, but it seems like a good solution. I still plan on unmedicated.

I asked for an exam today because I've been having more contractions. I am 3cm now, which brings my Bishop's score up to 10. The midwife asked to do a speculum exam to see if I had a cervical polyp that was the source of last week's bleeding. No polyp, but she did see a scar where my cervix had torn and healed. We are guessing that was from the manual dilation from 7 to pushing during my third dd's birth. She thinks that laceration is the source of the bleeding.

So, yeah. If he's not here by then, it looks like he will arrive on June 7th.

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Well if it makes you feel better to have that on the books then I'm glad it worked out. Hopefully he'll come on his own before that, and if not then hopefully a little jump start will be all you need. No matter what I hope it does help your emotional state! Glad everything was looking good at your appointment.

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I'm so glad to hear that there's a very reasonable explanation for your bleeding episode! I'm surprised you scheduled an induction but perhaps knowing there's an end date will help relieve your anxiety, and you don't have to show up if you change your mind! :bighug: Here's hoping you continue to feel good & little man comes on his own soon.

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Welcome to your lodge! I'm sorry you have had a bit of a stressful pregnancy this time. Do your fear clearing hypnobabies track and maybe try journaling or talking to someone about your fears and it may help relieve some of the anxiety. It will all be just fine I bet!

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Welcome to your lodge! I am sorry to hear about all the stress and anxiety that has come with this pregnancy. I hope this next couple of weeks will be a bit more relaxing for you. I am glad you were able to set a date for induction--I hope it helps a bit with the anxiety. *hugs*

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The important thing is that you feel comfortable and happy, pitocin can just be a kick start to labor (as you know) and there's no reason why you can't still have a natural birth. If this is what you need there's nothing wrong with that.

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I induced my third due to stress and things going on in our lives, and I had pitocin almost the whole time until I started pushing. I did it completely natural with the pitocin, so I know it can be done. I hope knowing you will have your baby by then will help your anxiety and stress regarding this. I hope you can get some more rest between now and then.

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Nothing much to report. This kid takes the record for prodromal labor. I've had over two weeks of daily, sometimes intense and sometimes regular contractions. My anxiety has been more manageable since the induction talk. I do hope he comes before then. My next appointment is tomorrow.

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Why?!!! I just found out that both my parents and dh's parents have decided to go out of town this weekend. My mom was our primary person to call when I'm in labor to come be with the kids. Dh's parents were the back-up. I've felt all along that I will most likely give birth this weekend. I needed something else to stress about, right? Ugh.

My sister will come be with my kids over night and my neighbor said they could come over to her house, so it should all be ok. I'm just annoyed and rather hurt that my mom is going out of town now of all times. Sad

I wish the baby would come today or tomorrow.

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Aw, I'm sorry your care-providers are all skipping town for the weekend. Sad Like you need added stress right now! I hope things work out for you in a way that works for everyone!

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Agreed...I'm glad at least you've been feeling a little better in general lately, though. Just take it one day at a time. You're so close to done now, no matter what.

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Dh told me that he'd handle childcare arrangements and I'm not to worry about it. Smile

Had a lot of more intense contractions last night that kept me awake until early this morning. I am going to take a nap. My second-shortest pregnancy ended at today's gestation after a stint like last night, a nine hour break, and another bout of labor.

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Yay for your DH! Biggrin So listen to him and don't stress!!

Sounds like you might beat your induction! Good luck to you, dear! I'm sure things will go smoothly - just try to keep thinking positive thoughts!

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Oh, I'd be pretty irritated if my mom planned a sudden, optional out of town trip that close to my due date. In fact, I'd be pissed. But, I guess it is what it is, and your DH is right...don't stress about that! Sounds like you have childcare covered and it will all be OK! Sounds like overall, you are in a better place emotionally/mentally, so yay for that Smile

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My water broke at 11:40am. We opted to start pitocin at 2pm and he was born at 9:30pm. 7lbs 6 oz 19" He has a lot of hair. We aren't sure if it is brown or blonde yet.

I did without any pain medication despite the pitocin, which got pretty tough. I feel lots better now though! Smile

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Congrats Laura!! WTTW sweet boy! Can't wait to hear more about the birth. So glad to hear you are feeling better too. WTG laboring through the pitocen without pain
meds!!

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Oh my gosh! I was reading your last few posts today at work but didn't have time to post anything before leaving. I'm so glad your little guy is here, safe & sound, and you don't have to deal with prodromal labor or anxiety or any of those other things any more. Or until the next one. Wink

Rest up, and enjoy your babymoon. We'll wait patiently for the full story, pics, and name. Congrats, Mama! Smile

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Welcome little man!
Congratulations to you and the whole family!

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Wow, congratulations!!!! You can stop worrying now Smile Good work doing it with the pit and no pain meds. Great job, and WTTW baby boy!

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Wow! He's here! Congrats! Can't wait to hear more about it all! So glad you are feeling better! Smile

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Yay! WTTW, baby boy! So glad you can put your worries behind you and enjoy your new little addition. Great job--look forward to hearing and seeing more!

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Oh my gosh, congratulations! I'm glad that things seem to have gone well - I look forward to hearing more about it!

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Wow! That happened fast. Congrats! Welcome to the world little boy! I look forward to hearing your birth story.

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Wow-- congrats! I'm so glad he is here and healthy and that you are feeling better.

Enjoy your babymoon! Amazing!

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Congratulations! I look forward to hearing more when you are home and rested Smile

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Big congrats! Pitocin does add a large intense factor but great job making it through. Can't wait to see pictures or read your story.

Cindy

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Congratulations! I can't wait for the birth story! Sorry you had to get pit but awesome job on still going with out pain meds!

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I'm so glad he is here and you feel better! Congrats!!!

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Pictures! Sorry, I couldn't figure out how to resize them.

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Congratulations!!

I don't see pictures, though!

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