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So why do you formula feed? Is it a medical reason? Is it a personal decision? Were there other factors? Share your stories here without fear of judgment! Smile

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My older 2 kids I knew right from the start that I didnt want and try to bf, but this last time thats all I could think about.

AT 26 weeks I started having really bab back pain. went to l&d and found out I had a serious UTI. They did a u/s and found out I had water on my right kidney. I was put on Microbid right away and spent 2 of the longest days in the hospital. I was supose to take it untill I went back for my post partum appt. But I stioped taking it after the baby was born. My dr wouldnt give me any info on the meds affects to bfing so a friend from another board gave me the link to a message board that a dr will answer ?'s about bfing and meds. I found out I could bf but would have to wait till the baby was born and see if he was jaundace. Well after everyone left the day Kaden was born I called my nurse in and told her that I wanted to bf but only after I got home. Im a very private person and didnt want other people seeing me, giving birth was bad enough. I told her I needed Kadens billrubin tested cause of the meds I was on. She contacted the drs and they told her the same thing. I had already been told that by a dr so I knew what I was talking about. Well it turns out that his billrubin was to high for me to bf but not high enough to be put under that special light/blanket. I was completley heartbroken. If I would have thought for a minute that I wouldnt be able to bf I would have schedueled to have my tubes tied. SO now here I am Kaden is doing ok on the soy formula but Im really regretting not doing more so I could have bfed him. He was my last chance cause my dh and I are done having kids.
Kaden was born 8-2-05 @ 2:57pm 17 days early weighing 7lbs 11.5 oz and 20 in long.
At his 2 week appt the day before I was due he weighed 8 1/2 lbs so Im glad he was born 17 days early cause it hurt bad wnought him being 7.11 1/2!!
Thanks for letting me share my story!!

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I always knew I wanted to bf my DS. I had hoped to bf at least a year to 18 months, but I was open to more if it seemed right.

DS has a difficult birth. He was in a posterior position and there were way too many interventions and there's a long story about needing an epidural and an OR to turn him, but the hospital didn't have either available for seven hours. The upshot is that it was a rough birth, I didn't handle it well, and I had a rough start breastfeeding.

I got home and was prepared to do what it takes to make bfing work for us. Unfortunately I began suffering from waking nightmares, I felt paranoid and unsafe most of the time, couldn't stop replaying the birth in my mind, and insomnia was the result. And breastfeeding was still going very poorly, I was pumping like crazy and already supplementing w/ formula. At my two week checkup, my mw suspected post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD), and prescribed a sleep aid. It helped with the insomnia and, in turn, the PTSD, but it also probably reduced my supply, which made bfing even more difficult.

I tried several times to go off the sleep aid and increasing pumping/bfing sessions to reduce our dependence on formula, but the PTSD symptoms would reoccur. I can count the number of times that DS actually was satisfied from bfeed alone on one hand, which completely breaks my heart.

By 2.5 months I was pumping 4-6 oz a day (in 6-8 sessions--it was awful) to supplement formula. I lasted until 5.5 months this way until I couldn't even look at my pump w/o crying. I was finally feeling better (PSTD symptoms were mostly gone) and ready to get to know and bond w/ my DS. The time it took to pump was time that I could be spending with my son. So I quit, though far short of my hopes and my son's nutritional needs.

And that's it. I don't know if that qualifies as medical reasons to anyone else, but I tend to believe that psychological and physical health are interrelated. To me, using formula is a medical necessity.

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My Medical Problem was my fault technically.

In the 5th grade at the age of 10 I was already wearing a size "C" bra. How embarassing. By the time I was in the 8th grade at the age of 14 I was in a "D" size bra. By the time I graduated high school at the age of 18 I was in a "DDD". I was teased for many many years on how big my breast were and my shoulders were in pain all the time and I had indentions there from the bra. I never got to wear little "dainty" bras either. My back was constantly hurting and I had a large muscle that had formed a knot at the base of my neck. Therefore, when I went to a doctor in the fall of 1991 and he suggested a breast reduction, I went for it!

At the age of 18 (almost 19) I was told of the risk of not breastfeeding and it was a possible 50/50% chance I couldn't do it. I took that chance. I got pregnant at the ripe old age of 30 and had Reagan on 7/7/03. I was pushed "big time" into trying to get her to breastfeed and not to supliment at all. They gave me "pediacare" instead of formula and said to use that instead of the formula. Therefore, I did this. My breasts became engorged around day 5 after birth. I tried for almost 1 week and nothing ever ever came out. The doctor said that when they removed my nipple it had been severed from the milk ducts and probably did not reattach to the ducts when they attached it back during surgery. I cried for a good month or so feeling so guilty and just down and out that I couldn't give my baby what she really needed. Well, Reagan was gaining weight and doing really well. The doctor said that she was doing great on the formula and I needed not to worry.

I still feel a little guilt every once in a while, but I know that both my kids are going to grow up good and healthy being fed formula for their first year and they are doing great! I wouldn't change anything for the world. I am happy with the breast reduction and wouldn't want those "things" back!

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I had a feeling with this baby that I should wean him around 3 months. I had no idea why I felt that way. I brushed it off and kept on nursing.

When he was about 7 months old I had a serious bout of bipolar depression. Elated one day, staying up all night, painting like crazy, then the next so down that I couldn't barely get out of bed. I seriously contemplated suicide as the only way out and the best idea for my kids too. I felt they'd better off without me. I was finally diagnosed and put on medication. The problem was I would need to wean the baby. Even Dr. Hale said not to breastfeed on one of the meds I take. Believe me, I researched it to death!

I don't feel guilty for weaning so much as I feel sad. I nursed my others for years, and it's so hard to know how to parent him without nursing as a tool. I feel differently toward him now, like we broke up, like our physical relationship is gone forever. It really breaks my heart and I've had some good cries over it.

I wish I could have kept nursing, but an alive mother who bottle feeds is better than a dead one who can't feed the baby at all.

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I'm a HUGE breastfeeding advocate (although I do try to be sensitive to mothers choices) those who know me from other boards know this. As a result, I had no plans to use formula with this baby. I figured that I successfully nursed 2 others and I would do it once again.

Well, as planned as I had things, I didn't plan on getting very sick myself. I've always been rather healthy and rarely get sick, so when I got sick towards the end of my pg I figured I would get better soon enough. Well, it was like my body was saying it was done, I'd get over one thing to get another. I'm sure now that my body was fighting to get better inside so hard that my immune system was very weak.

At 36 weeks pg, I woke up very ill. I was throwing up, had diarhea, was contracting and getting dehydrated. I ended up in the hospital that day and the dr insisted it was pregnancy induced. Rehydrated me through an iv and sent me home. I should have insisted on tests, because I knew better, but wanting to believe I went home. I was sick the entire week, until friday I woke with an excruciating pain in my right side. I knew something was wrong other than childbirth, but at the hospital they insisted it was merely childbirth. I got an epidural, and had my water broken, and about 4 hours later had the baby. Meanwhile my dr ran a few tests to placate me, and nothing was conclusive. The next day they sent me home.

6 days later, I was back in the er with the same pain in my side and my left shoulder/arm going numb (I actually thought I was having a heart attack). At this point I still looked 9 months pg even though I'd given birth. They went over the results from the previous week, and ran a few of their own tests. Finally they did a cat scan (or mri don't remember which) and discovered I had a ruptured appendix and a massive amount of infection in my abdomen because the appendix had been ruptured for a long time. 10 min later I was being wheeled into surgery.

Being as Caleb was 6 days old, I had a whole 6 oz of bm in my fridge. Needless to say, he was switched cold turkey onto formula by the end of the day. I couldn't even hold my baby, much less feed him. It was 3 weeks before I was able to try nursing again, and then another 3 weeks of constant nursing with supplementing when he was getting frustrated, before I had enough milk for him. Then after 3 months, as he continued to grow, and I continued to have problems after everything that happened it became apparent he needed more than my body was currently able to produce, so we went back to using formula every other feeding. At this point we're at a pretty happy medium of formula and breastmillk.

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My story mirrors Sarah's (rkgregg). I have had breast reduction surgery due to ongoing back problems. I am sad that I am not able to breastfeed but realize that Henry will have a wonderful and healthy life on formula.

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I'd love to hear everyone's stories but I think they are being put off by "medical reason".
I'm going to add my story anyways and invite everyone else to do so too even if they're not sure if it's really "medical."

I chose not to try to bf my daughter. Reasons I’m not going to gt into right now.

Drew was born on a Tuesday at 3:45pm and into the evening he still hadn't nursed. I couldn't seem to find anyone to help me get him to latch on. Without even trying the nurse said he was prob in shock still from the delivery and give him time. I finally got someone to help me later that evening and was getting excited that it might actually work.
I nursed him with help form the lc at the hospital through the next day and 1/2 until we went home Thursday. It was painful and his latches were FAR from perfect. After 2 hellish nights at home we returned Sat for a weight check and bili check. He had lost a whole lb and his bili level was 24! We were admitted and had to start supplementing with formula during his breaks from the bili lights. We were there for 2 nights and I continued to nurse him and then give bottles afterwards. It was Sunday when the LC noticed that he was tongue tied. Prob one of the reasons we were having so much trouble. By this time my nipples were almost completely scabbed over and we were using a nipple shield.
Of course in my post pardum state I didn’t think I could continue on like we were. Before and after weigh-ins showed he was only getting ½ an ounce during our nursing sessions on day 7. I made my decision to stop on that day. I couldn’t see myself continuing the 45 minute nursing sessions, followed by bottles of formula and still take care of my 20 month old. I was overwhelmed, in pain and not producing enough milk.
I still think to myself all the time “ what if I stuck with it?” Would I have eventually made enough milk for him? Would supplementing or pumping have been as much work as I thought it was going to be? was I selfish in my decision? But I look at him and he is healthy and happy and I can live with that!

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OK... here's my reason(s) too... most of our bottling is by choice, though there was some degree of necesity with both kids Biggrin

My dd was a preemie and in the NICU for a month. During that time I pumped and she got bm first via tube and then bottle and then we did start bf'ing. She never had any trouble bf'ing and I could've done that exclusively but I chose to continue pumping/bottling about half the time for another 3 months after we came home... I am not one who will NIP and I also like the idea of being able to let somebody else feed baby.

With my ds, he was full term and we bf'd in the hospital, though it seemed he was lazy and had trouble latching... though once he was latched he seemed to be on just fine. Once we got home he didn't appear as lazy and was doing better at bf'ing so thought it was going to be smooth sailing. I had already decided that I was going to rent a breast pump so that I could pump/freeze/bottle some of his feeds from the get-go... so he was always going to get some bottles. After about 1.5 weeks bf'ing started to become excrutiatingly painful, nipples were cracked and blistered and after spending a few days in tears I finally caved and contacted my IBCLC SIL and we discovered that he had a very bad latch. So I started pumping exclusively... which I continued until about 2 weeks ago when I returned the pump (and have a good 2 months supply in my mother's freezer LOL). During that time I did try bf'ing now and again with and without a nipple shield but I didn't persevere too much on it... maybe tried once or twice every couple of weeks. Then, a couple days before I was returning the pump he bf'd for the first time without any pain at all! So... now he's getting bottles during the day for the most part (either ebm or formula) and if he wakes in the night or first thing in the a.m. we usually bf... I imagine we'll continue that at least as long as he's not sleeping straight through the night, after that we'll see.

With both kids I introduced a bottle of formula a day after a month or so... and then once I wasn't pumping anymore and relying on the frozen ebm, they got/get formula whenever we're out and about as well.

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OK... I'll share my story. My reasons for using formula aren't exactly medical and everytime I think about them I feel like I'm making a bunch of excuses. Oh well... live and learn, right? Biggrin

Thursday evening July 21st (2 weeks before my due date). One of our dogs starts to have seizures. This had never happened before so we were pretty concerned. The seizures continued throughout the night and we got a total of about 3 hours of sleep that night. Our plan was to take her to the vet on Friday morning before going to work. Lily had other plans... my water broke at 5:30 on Friday morning. We headed to the hospital and after almost 16.5 hours of labor including 3.5 hours of pushing, our beautiful baby girl was born at 9:49 p.m. She had inhaled and swallowed a lot of fluid with meconium so we were only able to hold her for a couple of minutes before she was taken to the special care nursery where she spent the night. DH and I finally got to the recovery room at about 1:30 a.m. We were able to sleep a little. At around 8:30 a.m. they brought Lily to us. They had no sooner wheeled her into the room than she spit up a ton of meconium. She went back to the special care nursery. We finally got her at around noon. We met with a LC who advised to wait awhile before trying to nurse her because of all that she had been through with the meconium, etc. A couple of hours later the LC returned and helped me latch her on. The day went on and we had a nearly constant stream of visitors in and out of our room. Big mistake! Neither DH nor I slept at all during the day on Saturday. Saturday night came and I think I nursed Lily for about 4 straight hours. Her latch was not good and I had bruises and cracked nipples. Lily proceeded to scream the entire night despite nursing her for most of the night. Again... no sleep for either of us. I asked for help from the nurses but was told that her latch seemed fine. Get home from the hospital on Sunday afternoon and our dog is not doing well at all. My parents had taken her to the vet twice and we knew we had to have her put down. So, Lily's first trip out of the house was to the vet so we could have our 8 year old dog put down. (Lily stayed in the car with her grandma.) On Tuesday, we had to return to the hospital for Lily's newborn screening since she was not yet 48 hours old when we left the hospital. They weighed her and said that she had lost too much weight so we needed to see our ped the next day. Talk about a blow to my confidence. The nurses suggested pumping and supplementing with EBM. We also met with the LC consultant again who said that her latch was fine. (After seeing her latch on to a bottle, I'm positive that her latch was not good. I don't think her mouth was open wide enough) I had a manual pump and managed to pump only drops in 30 minutes. I think I tried the pump at least a dozen different times with no better results. We went to the ped on Wednesday to find that Lily hadn't actually lost too much weight... the scale at the hospital must have been off. We continued with BF throughout the week but DH and I were both getting more and more exhausted. I cried almost every time she latched on due to my sore nipples. I contacted the LC at the hospital to ask about renting an electric pump to see if that would work better than the manual pump. I really just needed a break to let my nipples heal a little and to get more than an hour of sleep at a time. When I told the LC that Lily was just 1 week old she just said that it was normal for her to nurse almost constantly and that I really shouldn't mess with pumping at this point... just stick it out. I spent the next couple of days struggling with trying to decide what to do. I was miserable and was not feeling bonded to Lily at all. DH was so supportive with whatever my decision! He's awesome! For some reason, in my post-partum/hyper-emotional state, I thought it was all or nothing. I never once considered having DH give her a bottle of formula once a day to give me a little break. Looking back, that's definitely what I should have done. Ultimately, I decided to switch her to formula. I still feel guilty sometimes but I know that she's doing great. I also look back and wonder if it would have gotten better in the next couple of days. It's amazing how much more I know about BF than I did just a few months ago! I definitely plan to give it another try with our next child.

Well... I realize I've written a book. Thanks for reading if you've made it this far!

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HI I don't normally post here but I did also have a medical reason for not BFing and it was really hard on me and I am so glad to see that others have had similar issues.

My entire pregnancy I planned to BF. I never really gave it any thought, that's just how it would be. But I had a rough pregnancy. The morning (all day) sickness didn't go away after three months, or six months. At 34 weeks I was still puking five or six times a day and had only gained about eight pounds. I insisted over and over that something was wrong but my doctor was a family doctor, not an actual OB and he was a jerk and an idiot. He told me I complained too much (yes, really) and that I needed to toughen up because child birth was going to be tougher than what I'd been through to that point.

At 35 weeks I found a new doctor! He's wonderful and I hope he delivers any more kids I end up having! He believed me when I told him how much constant PAIN I was in, and I how sick I was. He pulled me out of work, and i was supposed to come in for BP checks twice a week.

At 36weeks 6 days I went to the hospital as sick as can be. They sent me home after eight hours saying that I needed to make it one more day! So at midnight I went back! At that point I was in so much pain (In my right shoulder blade) that I thought I was dying. The pain was not labor!

It turned out I had gallstones and I needed to have my gallbladder out... after so many painful tests, cat scans and ultrasounds (U/s hurts when your insides are all inflamed!) the gallstones had also caused my pancreas to be inflamed and they weren't sure about my appendix.

So labor was induced at 37 weeks and the next afternoon, Tori Beth was born (May 28 this year) and I attempted BF a little but she wasn't really hungry or interested yet. When she was three days old (we had never left the hospital) I had my gallbladder out. It's usually a bounce back quickly type thing but not three days after childbirth. I couldn't really hold my baby, too much pain. And I was on so many pain meds... I tried pumping since I couldn't hold her and to get a supply up for when I could BF, but nothing ever came out. I guess the trauma of being sick so long, having surgery so soon after, and the meds I was on dried me up.

I came to terms with it by realizing that in our case BF would not be best. I'm sure I could have pushed myself and really really tried harder but I had been so sick for so long that I believe that the energy my body could have used to make milk was better used to heal itself. My daughter needed a healthy momma more than she needed BM.

Shocking as this may be, I don't believe that BF is always best. And in our case, it wasn't. She's now five months old and eighteen pounds. She is happy, healthy and full of personality. And me? I'm happier and healthier than I was my entire pregnancy and I really belive that BF wouldn't have allowed me this time to heal both physically and mentally.

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I am Ashley, single mommy to Jasmine 13 months.

I FF due to medical reasons. When DD was 2 weeks old I got a call from the pediatrician that she has a metobolic condition called Galactosemia. Her body doesn't produce the enzymes to digest Galactose which is in Lactose. She can't have any dairy products including human breastmilk. She has a mild varient form of Galactosemia, but Galactose is still deadly to her. I never would have thought that my milk could be deadly to my baby, but it is.

I bfeed the first 2 weeks then took a 6 week break and pumped to maintain supply best I could and lost it. I was able to bring in back to a FULL supply only to have to give up about a week later.

I went thru all the stages of grieving, denial depression all of it. My PPD started when I had to give up bfing. It was horrible. DD didn't want the bottle with formula in it even though she had taken in before. I mentally wasn't able to feed her formula. I cried the entire time my EX gave her the bottle for days, and I cried even harder when I had to feed her. I still don't like that I didn't get to BF, but I know it was best the my baby have the soy formula.

When I have my next baby (in a few years) I will attempt to breastfeed again.

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I don't know if you would classify my story as "medical reason" or not.

DS was born at 41 weeks, by emergency c-section. His cord was wrapped around his shoulder preventing him from moving down into my pelvis. With each contraction his heartbeat slowed down. He was born weighing 9lbs 6oz. His head was 37cm around. He was a very big baby.

I left the hospital breastfeeding with confidence. I loved feeding him, and we were doing very well. He was gaining weight, and content. Then I started getting advice from everyone who visited us on how/when/where I should be feeding him. We got out of our groove, and before I knew it I was supplementing him with formula because I couldn't seem to satisfy him. I desperately wanted to BF him for at least a year. I didn't want to give him formula at all. I've always looked down at others (until now) for giving their babies formula, when BFing was available, easier and healthier. I felt like such a horrible, horrible mom for giving him formula. Our BF sessions were taking an hour, and then he'd fall asleep. An hour or two later, he'd be hungry again. DH and I couldn't do anything - go shopping, for dinner, etc. because by the time I finished feeding him, and got ready to go, it would be time to feed him again. I struggled with the decision to permanently supplement him. Then, after a night of BFing from 11pm to 5:30am straight, I decided that he would be better off with a happy mom and a full belly than being pressured to BF. I was getting angry and frustrated at my son, and all he wanted to do was eat. I couldn't provide him with what he needed.

Once we decided to supplement, Jake became so happy and content. I would BF for 40mins (20/side) and then follow up with a 4oz bottle of formula. We did this for 4 months. He started sleeping longer, and he started on a schedule where I could predict when he'd be hungry.

Then, at 4 months, I weaned him from BFing because we were starting solids (and it was already taking long enough to do BF/formula feeds). Now he's a happy, very healthy, 24lb big baby boy! He's so happy, and so am I because I made him that way.

We're happier together now that he has his bottles, and we get to spend a lot more happy time together. I know exactly when he'll want to eat, so we can actually go through an entire day without him crying to eat. I do hope to exclusively BF my next child, but if I can't I know I won't stress about it as much as I did with Jake.

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Molly took to my breast immediatly...but my milk didnt come in for 5 days. She was an unplanned c-section due to breech birth. I nursed around the clock in the hospital but she screamed bloody hell because no milk was coming in.

We broke down and asked the nurse for a bottle of formula and that was the only time she slept for any length of time and wasnt fussy afterwards.

The nurses made me feel so guilty because she latched on so well, and I gave her a bottle despite that...so I continued to nurse her. When I got home I had a hard time finding a comfortable position for her as my c-section really bothered me. We were both in tears and I just wanted to feed my hungry screaming baby...Molly didnt take well to the breast after that and it turned out to be best for her as she is an aggressive eater and eats constantly...still does!

Of course I felt guilty, but she is healthy and very happy!

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I'm not FF'ing yet, but will be once we adopt our son/daughter (hopefully sometime before Christmas 2006!). Biggrin I chose not to BF because I don't want to take lactation supplements to induce milk production - it just doesn't seem natural to me. It's great that this board is so active! Biggrin

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I have no medical reason for not breastfeeding..
i just never had the urge to breastfeed..i did for maybe like a few weeks after my milk dried up but that was all.I had planned from the beginning of my pregnancy to formula feed.I just felt uncomfortable with breastfeeding and thought this way i will enjoy feeding my son better and it will be a good experience.I dont regret that i chose formula feeding from the start.

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It's encouraging to hear all of your stories. I have decided to bottle-feed my beautiful baby girl, she is 8 days old. I am pumping so she is getting breastmilk, but sometimes I feel like a failure.
My decision wasn't one of medical necessity. My delivery was rather traumatic for me. My water broke at 11:00 pm on a Monday night. I called my doctor & he said to go back to bed & call when my contrcations were 5 min. apart. I slept peacefully through the night & by 9:30 the next morning I still wasn't having any contractions. My doctor told me to go to the hospital. So at 11:00 am on Tuesday morning they induced me. 19 hours & 2 failed epidurals (the 3rd one finally took) later they finally told me I could start pushing. I pushed for 2 1/2 hours. You could see her head, but she wouldn't pass throught the vagina. The doctor tried the vaccuum 3 times with no luck. So after they finally decided to deliver my daughter by section. Right after she was born they told my husband & I that she would have to stay in the NICU for at least 3 days. I wasn't able to get up to go see her for 36 hours after her birth, which meant that my husband had to bottle-feed her in the NICU. When I finally was able to go see her I started BF immediately. She seemed to be able to latch on, but my milk hadn't come in yet so she would get so frantically hungry after 20 min. we had to give her a bottle.
When we brought her home I continued to try to BF. She was latching & getting milk!! Unfortunately she was latching incorrectly and after 2 days my nipples were cracked, blistered & bleeding. I was in so much pain I became extremely anxious everytime she woke up & needed to be fed. I cried everytime I fed her, one because it hurt so much & also because I wanted nothing more than to BF.
My husband was extremely supportive through the difficult few days. We discussed the options at length & decided the most important thing is that she get the breastmilk for it's health benefits. So I decided to pump & bottle-feed. Although I cried for a day thinking that my bond with my daughter wouldn't be as strong because I didn't bring her to my breast. I realize now that isn't true at all. I am much more relaxed & happier now that I made my decision. I enjoy feeding time again.

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I am afraid today might be my last day of pumping. My son is two days short of his two months b-day. I never thought I would/could give up but it has been six weeks of pain, sleep deprevation and infection non-stop. There have been only a handful of times which BF have not hurt me. The feeling of not being able to give him my breasts (so readily available) has been one of the hardest things to accept. And I never thought I would not be able to BF my child.

I have a bad start with inverted nipples. I started wearing a nipple shell to pull out my nipples one month prior to my due date. It didn't help much but was told that I shouldn't worry. I had a natural birth without any medication before, during and after the birth of my son. After my son was born, he didn't care to eat. He just wanted to sleep. He slept for 12 hours. Then I asked LC to help me with feeding. He didn't want to latch. The LC told me that it was because I put him thru a hard labour with 1hr45mins of pushing. His jaw was locked up. So I massaged his jaw and it seemed to help. But then, I could hardly squeeze a few drops of colostrums out for him to lick. I continued to use the hospital pump to pull out my nipples but I still didn't get much of anything out. So I was told to finger feed him some formula.

When I got home, I was told to keep giving him my breasts and pump. The first time after I BF and pump, I had tears streaming down my eyes the whole time I pumped because the pain was excruciating. I took 600mg Motron and still felt the pain from the pump. When I pumped, the pain and the feeling of the suction brought back some really dark feelings I have experience before. It made me felt sick to my stomach, wanted to throw up and felt dirty.

I gave him my breasts then formula for the first week. And he still cried a lot. I fed him; bottle fed him and rocked him to sleep standing up (because he didn't like me sitting down). There were times I felt that my uterus was going to drop out of my bottom. Then I tried to BF full-time the third week and felt great mentally (but physically it felt like hell). He lost 5oz when we tried to weight him at the hospital. Then the doctor started telling me that if I didn't get his weight up, he would "fell to thrive". That was a big term for any new parents. So we were back on the BF + formula again. Then I had yeast infection so bad that I could even sleep or let anything near my breasts. I bear with the pain when I fed him. There was one night I could deal with the pain and had to take another 600mg motron.

I am still trying to reconcile with the feeling of failure and guilt. I feel like I have no excuse as I don't have an exact medical condition to not BF. With all the books I have read, it kept saying that it's impossible to not have enough milk. Perhaps I am one of those who can't make enough? And the stress of pumping and bottle feed him has taken its toll on my mental and physical health. I still wonder if I could have tried harder to make more milk. I felt guilty one night when I was feeding him formula and felt I was able to enjoy him for the first time. I was able to look at his eyes and see how much he has grown without the thought of pain. It drives me nuts to think that I worked so hard for an all natural birth and can't even give him what I am told (seems to be) the simplest things I already have with me. I keep waiting for someone to tell me that six weeks of pain, anxiety and mentally distress is enough to take. Is it? I think I will have to live with that until I feel totally ok with it. Thank you so much for listening. I am glad I found this message board.

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Hi everyone! I am suprised to find a website that not only acknowledges that there are certain medical reasons why a mother can't breastfeed, but also supports them. I was/am not able to breastfeed my daughter.

It started out a regular OBGYN appointment, my 35 week appointment. The doctor told me my blood pressure was elevated more than normal *it had been, but not too bad* They told me to come back in two days to see if it was still elevated. I went back, and it was 145/91. She told me that she wanted to go ahead and admit me, and to expect a baby sometime in the next 3 days. It didn't really register, I had had a perfect pregnancy, minus a little bit of morning sickness, how could this happen to me? We went over to the hospital, where they took me to my room and hooked everything up. She gave me magnesium sulfate to prevent seizing. At this point, I was really scared.

The next morning, they started the cervadol. By that night, I still wasn't dialating, and wasn't effaced. They upped the dosage, and gave me another day. I was having very mild contractions, but nothing to get excited. By the end of the second day, I was only dialated to 2 1/2 cm, and 30% effaced. They told me that they could either wait until the morning and start pitocin to try and get things going faster, or we could go with a c-section, but if we tried the pitocin, the chances of it working after 2 days with cervadol not working was extremely low, and that something might happen if we waited. We decided to go with the c-section.

The epidural didn't work, even after 4 attempts, one with morphine, so they had to put me under general anesthesia. Apparently, the birth went well, and she was born healthy.

When she was born, she didn't want to eat. I had inverted nipples, which didn't help, but she was also sleepy after having the magnesium sulfate and anesthetic. She wouldn't even eat from a bottle. Finally, when she I guess woke up, we tried getting her to latch on, but it didn't work. We tried pumping a little to pull my nipples out, didn't work. Finally, one of the nurses suggested putting a bottle nipple up to my nipple, and letting her suck on that awhile, and then put her on. Still didn't work, but she could take from the nipple. We let her stay on me with the bottle nipple over, and since the milk was coming out, and she would be swallowing, we thought she was okay *we had tried pumping, but it wouldn't pull any out* At her two month appointment, she had lost 8 oz. They told me to let her nurse longer, more frequently. She gained 10 oz, and then lost it immediately by her 1 month appointment. They told me that we were going to have to supplement. During the feedings where she would get the bottle, my milk wouldn't start building up like it should have, and instead, started decreasing really quickly. I tried pumping, and would get an ounce every day and a half or two days. I pumped every 2 hours religiously. Through cracked, sore nipples, and excruciating pain. It was horrible. The doctor told us we could start trying to nurse her again, but by that time, the milk was gone. I tried fenugreek, I tried pumping every two hours all day, waking up even through the night. Nothing seemed to work. We had to quit nursing. I consider it a medical reason, she couldn't gain weight on my milk. I don't know if it was not enough being produced, or the bottle nipple not allowing her to get it all, or what. I still feel really bad about it, especially when everywhere I look, it seems like all you hear is "if you don't breastfeed, you don't love your baby." "there are no true medical reasons for you not to be able to nurse" "breast isn't best, it's baby's birthright, and if you aren't giving your baby breastmilk, you are denying them" Makes me so sad.

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WIth my first one it was a mix between choice and not being able to. I had been thinking about breastfeeding but wasnt sure and then I had my 3rd U/S and...... my little boy was Breech so the doctor brought in an LC so that she could tell me what happens to my milk with a Breech position baby. With a Breech baby your milk and even the colostrum doesnt come in until after the baby is born and sometimes it takes several weeks. So therefore I would not be able to bf until about 2-3 weeks after birth.
Of course there was a chance that he would turn on his own but there doctor didnt seem to think that it would happen, so about 3 weeks before I was due she had another US done and he was still in the same position only this time he had his hands stuck in my ribs. So I was scheduled for a Cesarian 2 weeks from my due date. But much to our suprise.... what do-ya know..... he flipped himself around and dropped into position and the very same day and 1 hour after I was to have a Cesarian he was born.
I asked to talk to a LC again and she just confirmed what I was afraid of.... I deffinatly couldnt not BF until several weeks after. So I would have to formula feed until I was able to, so.. I decided not to BF him because I didnt want to start him on formula adnt hen all of a sudden switch and start on BF so I stuck with the formula and he was a very healthy baby and he had gained about 1-1/2 lbs when we went for his 2 weeks checkup. Its really a good thing that I stuck with the formula because my milk didnt come in for about another 5 weeks after birth !!

With this baby I have decided to stick with formula feeding because I want to. I see the women in the mall that are BF and they have to stop and plop a booby out infront of all these ppl, worry about leaking and pumping so that they can work, or running home every few hours so they can feed their baby, and I just cant bring myself to do that. And I want my husband to be able to feed the baby as well. IMO I think that bottle feeding is actually better than BF.

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I choose to formula feed because i didnt have the urge to breast feed and when i did think about giving it a try my daughter had to go to the nicu after she was born becuase of my fever they had to give her preventative antibotics. I just wasnt raised around breast feeding and knew i wouldnt want to do it in front of company or in public thats just the way i am plus i wanted dh to be able to feed her.

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Lol I AM A PROUD MOTHER WHO FORMULA FED MY SON FROM BIRTH.I WILL MAKE NO EXCUSES FOR NOT BF.I JUST KNEW I WOULD NEVER DO IT .HE IS HAPPY & HEALTHY.THE FIRST TIME HE EVER GOT A COLD HE WAS 19 MONTHS OLD. SO TO ALL YOU FF MOM'S BE PROUD,WHY SHOULD WE MAKE EXCUSES WE LIVE IN AMERICA.... WE HAVE A RIGHT TO DO WHATEVER WE WANT..........

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My son is ff by choice. Not mine, his. He will NOT bf. I can occasionally get him latched on with a shield, but only if he is half asleep. As soon as he realises what is going on he screams the house down and gets so distressed that I end up crying. 2 days ago I promised him I wouldn't try anymore. I have been pumping since he was born, but without him feeding I've been getting less and less milk. I'm lucky if I get enough for 1 meal a day at this stage. So he is ff. I've got to be honest, I'd rather he wasn't, and it almost killed me when I finally had to acknowledge that it jst wasn't going to happen, but there you go. My son hates boobs.

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I chose to FF right from the start. I had never been around BF'ing, or knew much about it. As far as I was concerned, babies were fed by bottles. Through my pregnancy as I learned more about BF'ing I still never got the urge to try it myself. I had and still have a great deal of respect for those who do BF, it was just never for me. I'm happy with my decision, she's a happy, healthy baby and thats all that matters in my eyes.

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I'm not sure if my reason counts as medical or not, but here it is..
Noah was born 4 weeks early and spent 10 days in the NICU - during that time I pumped for him every day, every 3 hours. When we was finally able to start eating, he started on a bottle. When I was given the chance to try and BF, he wouldn't latch without the nipple shield, so we started doing that. Then, the doctors told me not to nurse him more than twice a day so that they could monitor how much he was eating... so there's MORE pumping for me, which I already hated. I guess I should mention that I have a history of depression/anxiety, and so this was only fueling it. Last week I finally went to the doc about this, and was given meds and told I should not BF while on them. I feel completely selfish for thinking this, but I was a little relieved - breastfeeding and pumping were a HUGE anxiety trigger for me, and I'm kind of glad to not be doing it anymore. However, I feel like a TERRIBLE mother for giving him formula... I know that formula is fine for him, I just can't help the guilt. Hopefully soon these meds will start helping!

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I guess mine story is a little bit different. With my first 5 kids, I never breastfed, or even tried. I was never encouraged to, and I had flat nipples, so I was made to believe I couldn't. I always thought formula was just as good anyways. Plus, my breasts can be very sensitive, so I didn't think I could handle,so I ff, and never thought twice about it.
With my 6'th (who is 2 1/2 mos. old) I knew I wanted to try bf'ing. I read up on, and got really great advice. In the beginning, things were great, ds had a great latch, but the nurses ended up giving him bottles because he had low blood sugar levels (I didn't know this untill later). Well, I started having a hard time getting him to latch, and he'd get so frustrated, so I started pumping all the time. I couldn't get my supply up though, and my Dr. refused tp give me meds to help. I still pump when I can, but I don't get a lot. Ds is now on formula, which I'm sad about, but wow he eats a lot! lol, he eats 6-8 oz. every 1 1/2-2 hrs, of formula!
Looking back, I wish I would have tried to BF my other kids. I am really bonded to my ds(not to say I'm not with my other dc) but bonded in a way that is so hard to explain to people who have never bf. Believe me, before I tried bf'ing, I would have thought that comment was a bunch of crap, lol, but it's true.
All my dc, including my newest ds, have had to be on Nutramigen, so I just hate that I can't solely bf, but at least he's happy and healthy Biggrin

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I really have no medical reason. I wanted to bf while I was pregnant and was expecting to. I started bf right after she was born. I did not realize until after I got home from the hostpital that her latch was poor. My nipples were sore and blistered and it hurt so bad to latch her. I was so sore and frustrated that I just broke down sobbing. The nurse said to take a break and just pump. Kylee was also jaundice after she came home and so we began supplementing with ebm and a bit of formula. I went and saw a LC and she helped a bit. I went back to breast feeding and realized how much I hated it. I was exhausted, she was on my boob constantly, and I received no enjoyment from it. I would watch the clock and just hope she would finish..I dreaded feeding times. I have a history of depression and anxiety and am currently on antideppressants and I wanted to enjoy this time with my baby not feel down and frustrated all the time. I pumped and gave her formula for a couple of weeks and now she is strictly on formula.
I have grieved this and feel very guilty for not being like other ladies who derive so much enjoyment from it. I love giving her a bottle and looking in her eyes...I bond so much more that way.

With this baby I have decided to stick with formula feeding because I want to. I see the women in the mall that are BF and they have to stop and plop a booby out infront of all these ppl, worry about leaking and pumping so that they can work, or running home every few hours so they can feed their baby, and I just cant bring myself to do that. And I want my husband to be able to feed the baby as well. IMO I think that bottle feeding is actually better than BF.

This is exactly how I feel and one of my main reasons for leaning towards ff.

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I had been planning to breast feed, but ended up in with an emergency c-section, so was not able to start BF as soon as I wanted. I was told that I could give him a formula bottle and he would still be able to breast feed. Well, he never took to it. It made both of us upset and he is thriving on the formula! For 2 weeks I mixed formula and breast milk, but now he will not even drink the mix, so I have gone with just formula. He likes it and is growing well, which is what matters!

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When I was pregnant with my first son, my mom was pretty much "forcing" me to breastfeed. I didn't really feel the urge to, but she laid so much guilt on me that I felt like I had to. When he was born, he latched on great and the first few days were OK. But I didn't have a very good supply, and as a result, he was always hungry and screaming. He ate about every 45 minutes, all day, everyday. And I'm a very shy person, and wouldn't breastfeed around other people, so I was constantly holed up in a bedroom. I couldn't go anywhere, because as soon as we got somewhere, he'd scream to be fed. I was so depressed, all I did was cry. My nipples were horribly sore and bled, and I also had a constant leak of breastmilk. I had to change my nursing pads 10 times a day. Also, he wasn't gaining hardly any weight. Finally when he was about 10 weeks old, I switched him to formula. He did great, he slept through the night, and he could go 3-4 hours between feedings. As a result, my mental health improved greatly.

This time around, I knew from the start that I wasn't even going to bother breastfeeding. Maybe that's selfish, but I think my sanity is just as important as my baby's health. And my second son is now 10 weeks old, he's been FF from the start, and is thriving amazingly. He's gaining weight (7.4 at birth, up to 12.13 now!) He sleeps through the night, and is just as healthy and happy as any BF baby. And he loves me just as much as any BF baby. Alot of people have told me that I'm selfish for not BFing, but screw them. I don't have to make excuses. My baby is healthy and that's all that matters. They're my boobs, and if I don't wanna whip 'em out in public all the time, that's my decision, lol.

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With this being my first baby, I decided to try breastfeeding. Needless to say, we had issues from the get-go. My son's latch was poor, resulting in jaundice when we brought him home, so I hired an LC. She basically told me that she thought my son was slightly tongue-tied, which was preventing a good latch. She kept pushing the issue of taking our son to an ENT doc and getting his tongue clipped. Fortunately, our pediatrician didn't feel that he was tongue-tied, but was willing to give us a referral if we really wanted to persue the procedure. Needless to say, my DH and I were NOT willing to get our 2 week old son's tongue clipped in the name of breastfeeding. At the LC's suggestion, I continued to put my son on the breast for 10 minutes, pump 10 minutes, then supplement as necessary. Although, my son was getting all breast milk, the whole process of "trying" to BF, and immediately pumping every 3 hours, was getting quite old. So, I decided to try pumping exclusively. It was working out really well, but my milk supply didn't seem to be keeping up with my son's demands and it was beginning to become difficult to pump every three hours, especially since my son has been sleeping through the night since he was 7 weeks old. Sleep is precious and I was finding it harder and harder to get up in the middle of the night, just to pump. I was hoping to continue pumping until my son was 3 months, but again, the supply was diminishing. My son is now 11 weeks old and I just decided to stop. I have about 70 oz of EBM frozen, so I will continue to use that with the formula until it is gone. My son is doing fine on the formula and I definitely feel like a weight has been lifted off of my shoulders. I refuse to beat myself up over the issue, or feel bad that I didn't BF my baby for longer. Bottom line, I tried, it didn't work out as planned, so I am moving on. I was a bottle-fed baby and I turned out just fine!

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I thought for sure I had posted on one of these "why do you" threads before . . . ?

Anyway, I intended to BF even since before I got pregnant. During my pregnancy I was diagnosed with ulcerative colitis, and the meds the doc put me on were fine during pregnancy but hadn't been fully tested for BF'ing. I did a TON of research and determined that based upon the dosage I was taking, I should be fine to BF. Ashlyn was born by c-section due to "failure to progress" after induction, cervadil, pitocin, AROM, and a full day of labor. She seemed to latch on OK right after she was born, but the LCs determined I had flat nipples so we used a nipple shield. That worked OK for a couple weeks but I was so stressed between trying to get her to nurse with the shield, pumping in between to get my supply up, and trying to keep her full! Smile Needless to say my UC flared up badly and about 3 weeks PP, the doc put me on a steroid and upped my other meds. Therefore, I had to stop BF'ing/pumping. I was really bummed as I had looked forward to being able to BF, but my little girl is doing incredibly well on formula and she's a happy, healthy baby girl.

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I posted on the 'why I bottle feed' thread, but I'm glad we have a seperate thread here, because there's definitely a difference between pumping and bottle feeding EBM and FF. I know, I've done both!

Maddie was born very quickly and 5 days before my scheduled induction (gestational diabetes). Even though she was my first, we almost didn't make it to the hospital. My nipples were never particularly big or pointy like most women's but I was told they'd work for bf'ing, and I had always intended to do so, right from the start, until she was a year old. That was the plan. Motherhood shreds all your plans and writes better ones, as I've found out. Smile

I didn't have time for an epidural, so I had to go unexpectedly natural, and the shock plus the hormones flattened my nipples completely. The nurses said that happens sometimes, and sometimes it's permanent and sometimes it's not. Mine was.

My baby was always a bad latch; her baby nurse said she was the "worst combination of lazy and impatient" she'd ever seen. The nurse wasn't trying to be mean ( but imagine how my horrible hormones and I took that). After many horrible baby wail-filled attempts at nursing w/ several lactation consultants holding my breasts for me - so dignified, right in front of my in-laws, how lovely - we finally consented to Maddie being given bottles in the nursery. At least she'd have food. She couldn't nurse, so at least I could sleep at night knowing she had a full tummy.

I pumped and pumped and pumped some more, and that lasted 2 weeks. I gradually had to supplement more and more as her demand increased and my supply didn't. She still couldn't latch on right and a pump isn't a baby, as far as stimulating supply. I was constantly holed up in my bedroom either pumping - painful! - or attempting to nurse my baby who just wailed and thrashed and couldn't find the 'nipple' right in her own mouth. (She did this w/ bottle nipples too, for the first few weeks and still does occasionally so it's not just my breasts, at least. It's her too, poor baby.) After 2 weeks I'd been on my own during the day taking care of her and pumping all the time. It came to the point where I would often have to decide between pumping so my baby could eat ebm and not being able to care for her, or giving her formula and holding her and comforting her when she cried.

I was miserable, guilty, and constantly beating myself up for breastfeeding not going they way it 'should' for me and my baby. I guess I had to choose between holding a happy, comforted, baby with a tummy full of formula, and painful pumping 8-10 times a day, spending all that time away from my baby - who would be screaming for food and mommy.

Guess what I picked.

The first time I gave her a bottle we'd been trying to nurse for over an hour, her wailng, me sobbing, DH not doing too well himself but trying to comfort us both - and I finally told him to break into the sample of formula from the hospital and make a small bottle. I gave it to her and - I swear to God - looked at me and SAW me for the first time. She just seemed to be saying, "You DO give me food - you DO love me!"

I still feel guilt sometimes, and I'm still sad sometimes that we couldn't breastfeed, but DH is really grateful to be able to feed her, too, and I haven't encountered nearly the "disappointed in you" reactions that I thought I'd get when I stopped.

You do what you have to do to make you and your family happy and healthy, and that's the end of it.

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My reasoning is technically medical but since I still havent gotten my meds its not. I'm bipolar and was on a drug that was not safe for pregnant or nursing mothers so I stopped the day I found out. Had some issues with my bipolar since being off them but not much. i knew in order to go back on them right away aftrer I had my baby I would have to ff her. Okay no biggie. I had no real draw to bf anyways. So here is is 4 weeks later I'm not back on my meds and wont if at all for another 2 weeks. She is a mostly happy and very healthy lil girl. She went from 6lbs 11.8oz at birth to 7lbs 12oz at her 3 week appointment. I know she has gained even more weight and length since then since she is outgrowing some of her preemie clothes, newborn clothes are still HUGE on her. I dont feel bad at all that I wasnt able to bf at all since she is healthy and growing. I only had one time where I even thought about bf but its not for us.

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Welllll i started to breast feed, but the medicine i take for my epilepsy i cant breast feed on it. and i tried to not take my medicine, but i started to have siezures. so know i have to take my meds. and i cant bf Sad but its ok. as long as my lil one gets milk and is growing, then im fine w/ it.

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I am choosing to formula feed for both medical and personal reasons.

Medically, I am worried that my baby will not get enough nutrients from my breastmilk, due to dietary restrictions that I have. I have IBS, and cannot tolerate some foods, especially during a flare-up. Also, during flare-ups, my body has a hard enough time meeting my own dietary requirements, let alone supporting those of a nursing infant. I have had flare-ups in the past, during which I have lost 5-10 pounds at a time, and during which I eat very little, not exactly the best recipe for successfully nursing an infant.

Personally, I just do not feel comfortable with the idea of breastfeeding. Although I feel that it is a wonderful and beautiful thing for those who do it, it is just not for me, and I feel that I can just as easily lovingly formula feed my baby. I formula fed my first daughter, and she did quite well, is very intelligent, and very rarely sick. With our first daughter, my husband loved participating in her feedings, and I do not want to rob him of that opportunity this time around. He formed such a close bond with our first daughter through feeding her, and I want him to have that same opportunity for bonding with our second. We have both decided that formula feeding is what works best for us, for a variety of reasons, certainly not the least of which are the medical reasons that I have outlined above. Even if it were not for those reasons, however, I still feel that I would be inclined to formula feed again.

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Originally posted by MizzCoco on 6/11/2006:

I've had such a hard time these past (almost) three weeks of my sons life because I wanted to BF SO bad, but due to complications directly after delivery I wasn't able to BF exclusively and had to supplement feed and hardly had any milk (no wonder my poor son was throwing a fit after 10 min) I am now bottle feeding. I feel incredible guilt about not BF even though I know it's not my fault, I can't help but feel like it is for some stupid reason. I was just wondering what everyone's reasons for bottle feeding were.

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Originally posted by Peggy9 on 6/11/2006

my reasons for formula feeding is that its just what i wanted to do...i didnt want to breastfeed becuase i didnt have the urge too..(okay i did have the urge a few weeks when he was first born)but it went away quickly.I didnt feel comforable with it.Im enjoying feeding my son this way and i think if i had breastfed i wouldnt enjoy it as much.He has been formula fed since day one.My reasons may seem selfish to some but they arent meant to be.

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Originally posted by twinsanity on 6/11/2006:

My twins are preemies, who were born at 30 weeks. They were tube fed until 34 weeks and then had poor suck reflex and poor latch because they were so small. After 12 weeks of pumping and trying to get them to latch, my milk supply was almost non existent and I was exhausted and depressed. I had to formula feed or end up with a nervous breakdown. It broke my heart and it still does but I KNOW it was the right decision. I needed be able to eat and sleep in order to take care of my babies and I couldn't do either while trying to nurse and bottle feed two infants and pump every three hours 'round the clock. Some things aren't meant to be and formula was invented to feed babies whose mother's couldn't BF. We shouldn't feel guilty about doing the best we can for our babies. Mama needs to be happy and healthy for baby to happy and healthy.

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Originally posted by jemmak on 6/12/2006:

I bottlefeed because breastfeeding didn't work out for me, or rather, I couldn't figure out how to make it work. I wrote it here if you'd like the full gory details:
http://www.pregnancy.org/phpBB2/viewtopic.php?t=344454

Denise, like I wrote in another thread--please know that I can be here to listen if you need to talk about these issues.

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Orginally posted by:steubified on 6/12/2006:

I am going to bottle feed (formula feed). My first reaction to any bf'ing is borderline disgust (sorry that I offend ppl, but hey, you asked). I have been introduced to it very poorly by other people; aka, popping out your boob in public right in front of teenage boys and sensitive children. I also just don't feel comfortable with the thought of feeding my baby that way. I do know that it is better for the baby to bf, but I do also know that formula is the NEXT best thing--so why not? I also found out that with my hx of depression, PPD is something I'm going to be definitely fighting. I will have to get back on my natural meds right after birth to fight the PPD, and you absolutely cannot bf while on them, so that's the reason I usually tell ppl when they ask about bf'ing.

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Originally posted by bluepencils on 6/13/2006:

My milk didnt come in right away and Molly screamed, and screamed, and screamed. I just wanted to feed my poor baby! An hour after getting home from the hosptial I said "I just cannot take it anymore!" I opened my first can of formula fed Molly according to the directions and she slept for the first time in hours after all that crying.

I felt guilty, but she was sooo hungry. I tried BF after my milk came in off and on for over a week but with my c-section I couldnt get comfy and I was soooo tired and miserable!

This worked out best as Molly never slept more than 2hrs at at time until the past month and my DH had to take shifts in order to get any sort of sleep

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Originally posted by torontomom on 6/13/2006:

feel your pain, Denise. I wanted to BF so bad, but my milk just wasn't enough to satisfy DS' appetite. I started supplementing at 6 weeks, and continued to BF until 4 months. Then at 4 months we switched to 100% formula, and solids, and have never looked back. I wish I could have breastfed him longer, but I know in my heart that this was best for us all. We were much happier once we introduced formula as a supplement.

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Originally posted by b4by1 on 6/14/2006:

posted my reason on bottle-feeding (mostly formula) at http://www.pregnancy.org/phpBB2/viewtopic.php?t=344454. The guilt that is being placed on all of us is tremendous. Postpartum is hard as it is. We don't need any more pressure from anyone.

Below is an article from NY times. I think we all need to respect each person's decision. No judgement as we don't know why we can/can't or do/don't want to breastfeed.

http://www.nytimes.com/2006/06/13/health/13brea.html?8dpc

Breast-Feed or Else

By RONI RABIN
Published: June 13, 2006

Warning: Public health officials have determined that not
breast-feeding may be hazardous to your baby's health.

There is no black-box label like that affixed to cans of infant
formula or tucked into the corner of magazine advertisements, at least
not yet. But that is the unambiguous message of a controversial
government public health campaign encouraging new mothers to
breast-feed for six months to protect their babies from colds, flu,
ear infections, diarrhea and even obesity.
...

Child-rearing experts have long pointed to the benefits of
breast-feeding. But critics say the new campaign has taken things too
far and will make mothers who cannot breast-feed, or choose not to,
feel guilty and inadequate.

"I desperately wanted to breast-feed," said Karen Petrone, an
associate professor of history at University of Kentucky in Lexington.

When her two babies failed to gain weight and her pediatrician
insisted that she supplement her breast milk with formula, Ms. Petrone
said, "I felt so guilty."

"I thought I was doing something wrong," she added. "Nobody ever told
me that some women just can't produce enough milk."

Moreover, urging women to breast-feed exclusively is a tall order in a
country where more than 60 percent of mothers of very young children
work, federal law requires large companies to provide only 12 weeks'
unpaid maternity leave and lactation leave is unheard of. Only a third
of large companies provide a private, secure area where women can
express breast milk during the workday, and only 7 percent offer
on-site or near-site child care, according to a 2005 national study of
employers by the nonprofit Families and Work Institute.

"I'm concerned about the guilt that mothers will feel," said Ellen
Galinsky, president of the center. "It's hard enough going back to
work."

Public health leaders say the weight of the scientific evidence for
breast-feeding has grown so overwhelming that it is appropriate to
recast their message to make clear that it is risky not to
breast-feed.

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Originally posted by MizzCoco on 6/14/2006:

Risky not to feed? Sheesh, I was FF as were my two sisters as were my dh and his brothers, you'd think we were toxic or something. I had enough personal guilt about this and about only feeding him for 2 weeks, but to have something like this would have put me over the edge if I had PPD or something like that.

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Originally posted by debs13 on 6/16/2006:

I chose to FF. I dont get any guilt IRL because most of the people I know FF, or are just respectful and don't care how I feed my child, since it is in fact MY child. I think I feel more judgement on the boards (not this one, obviously), people here have some pretty harsh opinions. I try to stay away from those topics. I'm not a debater, I feel like everyone makes their own choices and we should respect that. I think BFing is a beautiful thing and I admire greatly women who do it. But some people treat formula feeding with such disgust, as though you are doing harm to your child. I can't even defend myself to such ignorance.

I too never felt the urge to BF. Some people said I would probably change my mind as my due date got closer, but in fact I was more and more turned off to it. The physical act of BFing is just not appealing to me and thinking about doing it made me so anxious and unhappy. My first instinct was to exclusively pump. I thought I would at least give that a try. But after DS was born, I was in so much pain and could barely hold him without help. The last thing I wanted was to attach a machine to my boob. I was very thankful that a healthy alternative like formula was an option. He's doing great and thriving and I have no doubt that he's a healthy kid.

That being said, I'm thinking of exclusively pumping with #2. I feel a little more "prepared" to at least give it a shot. Who knows, I could change my mind again. That would still make me a bottle-feeder though, which is what I want.

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Originally posted by Tymommy on 6/17/2006:

Well partially because my milk never came in EVER, and partially just because that was what I was most comfortable with!

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Orginally posted by Charlene+1 on 6/17/2006:

The whole time I was pregnant I knew I wasn't going to want to breastfeed, but after talking to my Midwife I kind of got pressured into trying it, which was okay I thought I should try just to see if maybe I did like it. I did it for 2 days in the hospital and Audrey coudn't latch on correctly, they said she had a larger palette (sp?) and it was causing it just not to work. The whole two days I was in pain and uncomfortable and she wasn't getting enough to eat so I decided to finally go with my gut feeling. It was very upsetting to finally give up though.

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Originally posted by emjo on 6/19/2006:

I had horrible "help" in the hospital with BF'ing, and by the time I got a nurse over to my house who knew what she was doing, I had open sores and Emmett refused to open his little mouth wide enough to latch properly. I was supposed to wait until he was screaming (the only time he ever opened close to wide enough), and then quickly put him on the breast. He would still clamp down, and I had to literally push with all of my might on his little chin to get his mouth open. It was horrible.

When I was PG, I was going to BF, no ifs, ands or buts. My tune changed when my baby was screaming from hunger and I was constantly crying from pain, exhaustion and depression.

I tried pumping for a few days, until most of my ducts plugged...I could get maybe an ouce out at a time and I was in constant pain. I did everything I could to get unplugged, with no luck.

I felt incredibly inadequate for not being able to "get" BF'ing...it was something I wanted to do so badly. I felt insanely jealous of the BF'ing moms I knew, and I was slipping into bad PPD (I have a history of depression) and couldn't put things into perspective. Finally my DH and mom convinced me that FF'ing him didn't make me a bad mother.

Three months later, Emmett is healthy, happy and thriving, and my depression is gone. I still have some residual guilt about not BF'ing, but it's getting better every day.

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6/27/2006:

"meggiemom" wrote:

The reason I FF my son was because BF failed. After a very traumatic c-section, scar re-opening and a 4pint blood transfusion, as well as adverse reaction to the drugs I was given, I had no choice but to FF, as my milk did not come in, and the little I produced (drops) dried up with the vast aount of drugs I was given to help my uterus contract, blood loss and pain management Sad I was very sad, but after my son losing 1lbs 11oz in the first week, I had no choice.

I do angry when ppl say (not on this board :wink:)that producing no milk is an absurd poor excuse, but it does happen, and I have proof of that. So if she's reading keep your opinions toyourself Wink

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7/16/06:

"mommy0306" wrote:

i'm new over here but i wanted to breastfeed but i had problems getting the little guy to latch right and he wasnt getting anything for some reason. it was like my boobs didnt want to leak not even the clostorum stuff. with evan i got him to latch to a point but i got so tired of messing with it that i gave up and just pumped for a couple weeks and then just started on formula. i have to admit i like feeding with the bottle cuz i dont always have to be the one to feed him. thomas is a week old tomorrow and he is starting to chow down 3oz at a time so i am glad. Smile as long as he's gaining weight.
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7/18/06:

"Cool_mommy*2" wrote:

I formula fed my son because he was breech untill the week before he was brorn and I didnt produce and milk until he was already 5 weeks old so I just continued with FF. The RN MADE me try and nurse after he was born and since I didnt have any milk it hurt SOOO bad and he obviously wasnt getting anything and I was BAWLING my eyes out, so she called in an LC and she told the nurse that I couldnt BF because I didnt have any milk at all and the nurse was like "well whatever, she wont have a healthy baby" I felt like the worse mother ever because of that nurse. I didnt feel better until we were home and my dad took Hayden for about 2 hours and took care of him and fed him and all that good stuff so that I could get a little nap. That was the greatest feeling seeing my dad with him grandson for the first time.

My son has been in the 90th percentile in height, weight and head circ, since his 2 week check up and he will be 3 this year. He is a VERY HEALTHY boy !!

I dont understand why ppl say that babies that are formula fed have earaches and arent healthy and get sick all the time. My son was never sick other than the ocasionaly runny nose after being outside and after getting his flu shot. He has NEVER had earaches either, not one. My brother and I wear both BF and we had earaches constantly, my brother even had to have tubes in his ears by the time he was 3 !!

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