Sorry I have been MIA. I have been a mess and have barely been able to get thru my work day. So maybe some one can enlighten me because I am still waiting for more information.
I went in to the Dr. Monday morning because the pain persisted over the weekend... I took a pregnancy test on Monday early morning and it was positive. I about fell over with excitement but then I panicked because of all the pain I had been having. Called my OB right away and he was in surgery but I spoke to his partner. She asked me to come in right away. So I did. They took a blood test to confirm. Then she brought me right down to have an ultra sound. Things are not good. She said this pregnancy could not be viable for several reason. My brain is all mush so I will do my best.... My left ovary is twice the size it should be. I had a pretty large cyst rupture as there was a ton of fluid in there. My right ovary was covered in 4 cysts. My progesterone was low too.... Oh and my lining was already thining she said. SO many different things... Half way thru I was a puddle so I am sure I am missing some things.
This morning I went back to get my blood taken and the numbers certainly did not go up. Now... here is my question though........ Why have I not started bleeding yet? The pain is still there..... In fact it was so bad last night I was throwing up for hours... Throwing up, crying.. throwing up, crying.....
You guys, I am confused and scared and maybe you all could make a little more sense of all this for me? My OB said he was going to follow up with me today but he usually calls later in the day so maybe you could help me with questions for him. I just am not thinking clearly and my heart is broken. I so thought this was our month. I really did. Is there any way they are wrong since I have not started bleeding yet or is that just my mind messing with me and it's inevitable??
Thanks in advance. Hope you all are doing great!
Oh Molly, no.
First, are you taking progesterone?
Second, I didn't start bleeding with mine until right at a week after they told me I was more than likely going to experience a chem pg... but I was on progesterone for the first 3 days of that. It was torture, because I kept hoping they were wrong.
Words can't even express what I'm feeling for you and your DH right now. Not only is this heart breaking, but it's pretty darn scary too. I wish I could give you a real life
Know I'm only a PM away if you need to talk.
I am so sorry you are going through this again. Once is bad enough. I wish I could give you some earth-shattering advice, but I have never had a chemical pg.
I was also going to ask if you were on progesterone.... I don't know how reliable this info is, but I heard that the cysts might continue to release hormones, which might delay AF. Definitely don't take my word on that.
Were you being monitored via u/s this cycle? I have heard that clomid can cause cysts to develop.
Hang in there my dear. We are all here for you. Please let us know what your dr says.
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Oh Molly, my heart breaks for you and DH. My prayers are with you during this horrible time. I wish I had some type of advice or answer, but I don't. I've never experienced what you are going through.
I would ask my doctor to do a test to see if you could carry a baby to term. It might not be covered by your insurance, but it would be worth the money (IMO) with all that you have been through.
Know that I am a PM away if you need anything.
Oh NO! NO, NO, NO!! Molly I am so, so sorry. I'm at a loss for words... I wish there was something I could say to make it better... My heart is breaking for you!
Please know that we're all here for you!
Thank you guys! Your support is so appreciated.
I am really struggling!!!!! I can't even believe I am at work right now. They know what is going on here at work but since I told them on monday after my appointment and what not, not another word has been said so I just feel like I am silently suffering. Does that make sense to anyone?
I don't know.. I just want to crawl into bed and stay there for a few days. I am just so out of sorts, I am heartbroken, confused, angry and I just want to get the heck away from here.
Thank you all for your help and I hope to hear from my Dr. soon. I will let you know.
I just remembered something. Now I know it won't be much of a consolation, but my RE's office said the reason they have us sit out for two full cycles after a chem pg-or any mc for that matter- is because there is a higher risk of experiencing another one if you get pg too soon afterward. Perhaps that's the reason this time.
This is certainly a very difficult time, but it might not mean you can't carry to full term. I know you're currently seeing your OB now. It might be time to make an appt with an RE. KUP hun, we're here for you.
I understand completely. I was in the same boat at work when it happened to me. If you want to talk about it though, I'm sure your co-workers will be supportive. I know mine were just scared to bring it up because they didn't want to upset me. But when I opened up, they were great and I did feel a bit better. I can't say it enough- We're here for you.
Oh Molly... I am so sorry, hun.
Is there any way you can get out of there early or maybe take a day off to grieve? Take good care of yourself... I didn't know what to do with myself following my losses. There is no right or wrong thing to do, so just do what you need to for you ~ even if that means laying in bed crying your eyes out.