I was diagnosed last week with PCOS. I have been TTC for months and have not had a period without meds since I discontinued BC. I went a doctor after 2 months and they said i would be fine and gave me Provera as that would jump start my periods... didn't work. Next doctor gave me Clomid and said I would surely ovulate... didn't work. New doctor ran the tests that they others were supposed to run and found out I have PCOS. I have been placed on Metformin and told that we would wait and see. She won't put me on Clomid for at least two months. I guess I am really struggling. I know that there is a possibility I can't have kids and that there is a possibility that I can and that it just might be harder.
I feel like if I were ovulating that it would feel that at least I have a chance but since I currently am not its been tough. I know if I ovulate that it will be harder to get pregnant, I know that if I get pregnant I have a higher probability of miscarriage. I just feel like this isn't supposed to happen to me.
To top off everything, my SIL had a baby the day I got my diagnosis. She has been bugging my husband and I for months to have a baby so her baby can have a cousin. She is very irresponsible with most things in her life and today I got to visit her in the hospital with the new baby and she was talking about how she wanted to have another one by this time next year. I just can't muster up enough strength to pretend to be happy for her. I feel that I can barely handle the disappointment and devastation I feel and that I feel that I have let my husband down. How is Metformin going to be any different and make me healthy enough to have a baby again. I am doing the diet (which is miserable enough as I love all things that are carbs) I am doing the exercise. I feel like crap and there are no guarantees that any of this is going to work. If anyone has encouragement about Metformin I could really use some right now.